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— ୨୧₊˚ 𝒥𝒶𝓂𝑒𝓈 𝒮𝓊𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇𝓁𝒶𝓃𝒹
It was love — part 1 / part 2 / part 3 / part 4 / part 5 / part 6 / part 7 / part 8 / part 9 (coming soon)
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ݁ 𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓉 . ⊹ ₊ ݁. alternate universe - canon divergence, post-silent Hill 2, angst and fluff and smut, touch-starved, redemption, grief, mourning, psychological trauma and horror, mutual pining, James adopted Laura, age difference, smut, vaginal sex, rough sex, rough kissing, aftercare, daddy kink, James deserves his happy ending, James is desperate and pathetic, based on the Silent Hill Games and mostly the remake
— ୨୧₊˚ 𝒮𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇𝓊𝓈 𝒮𝓃𝒶𝓅𝑒
Through the Darkness — part 1 / part 2
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ݁𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓉 . ⊹ ₊ ݁. husband!severus snape/reader, psychological trauma, temporaly blindness, angst with a fluffy ending.
Sweet Juice — link here
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ݁𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓉 . ⊹ ₊ ݁. severus snape/alumni!reader, incorrect use of potion, fluff, comfort sex, age difference, nsfw
Dead Man Running — link here
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ݁𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓉 . ⊹ ₊ ݁. death eater!severus snape x auror!reader, enemies to lovers, childhood friends, young severus, first wizarding war, nsfw
My Satisfaction — link here
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ݁𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓉 . ⊹ ₊ ݁. severus snape x teacher!reader, fluff and smut, foreplay, sexual frustration, age difference, jealous severus, nsfw
— ୨୧₊˚ 𝒜𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓇𝒾𝑜𝓃 𝒜𝓃𝒸𝓊𝓃𝒾𝓃
Blood in the Wine — part 1 / part 2 / part 3 / part 4 / part 5
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ݁𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓉 . ⊹ ₊ ݁. regency!au, strangers to lovers, slow burn, tension, mutual pining, angst, smut will happen later, age difference, forced marriage, gothic setting.
On your knees, and pray — link here
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ 𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓉 . ⊹ ₊ ݁. priest!Astarion, kind of enemies to lovers, smut with plot, age gap, somnophilia, taboo kink, dominance and submission, bondage, sensual education, forced proximity, tender worship, rough sex, corruption kink, oral sex, fangs and more...
— ୨୧₊˚ 𝐿𝑜𝓀𝒾 𝒪𝒹𝒾𝓃𝓈𝑜𝓃
My Attention — link here
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ݁ 𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓉 . ⊹ ₊ ݁. tva!loki x reader, canon divergent, no mention of Sylvie, pure fluff and smut, tension, mutual pining and office romance. NSFW, clothed sex, semi-public sex.
i love ur writing sosos much! will u finish ur silent hill 2 story? thank you, i rlly rlly do love ur writing and im so excited for anything u have planned :D
Hi! Thank you for your question :D
As I have received many questions about my absence and the Silent Hill fanfiction I am writing, I will respond to everyone here.
YES, I do intend to finish it, but my life has become quite difficult and busy. I've been through a lot of personal and professional challenges, and writing for Silent Hill has really exhausted me and affected me so much that I couldn't continue. I have many other interests in fandom, and I felt guilty about posting anything other than James fanfiction.
But I've decided to come back and slowly immerse myself in my passion for writing again. I will try to publish something soon, as I really want to finish it, but due to the dark themes and mental involvement it requires, it may take longer.
Feel free to ask me for stories or fandom ideas if you like my writing. I am eternally grateful for your support and interest in my work.
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ 𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓉 . ⊹ ₊ ݁. Enemies to Friends to Lovers- Enemies to Lovers - Touch-Starved Verso - Emotional/Psychological Abuse - Loneliness - Alternate Universe / Canon Divergence - The Dessendre Family Needs Therapy (Clair Obscur: Expedition 33) - Verso Needs a Hug - Depressed Verso - Reader is a journalist - Very rare use of Y/n - Smut will come later
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ 𝓈𝓊𝓂𝓂𝒶𝓇𝓎 . ⊹ ₊ ݁. Three days in the Dessendre manor, and Y/n begins to see the cracks beneath the family’s perfection. Verso grows increasingly tense around her, irritated by her presence and the praise she earns from his parents, while Y/n senses the storm behind his icy arrogance.
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➜ ┊: chapter 2/4. ~10K.
“Some children are simply born with tragedy in their blood.”
It did not take long—three days, perhaps four—for the rhythm of the Dessendre manor to stitch itself into your life. Not because you belonged there, not because anyone truly expected you to, but because the house itself seemed to fold around you like a great, ancient creature, breathing you in with the dusty scent of turpentine, old canvases, and the faintest echo of family ghosts.
Your mornings begin in a hush.
You wake to the pale light slipping through your curtains like fingertips and pause for a moment to listen to the muted sounds of the atelier already alive below: the scrape of charcoal, the brisk, clipped footsteps of Aline, the warm, bubbling hum of Renoir humming to himself as he prepares pigments. Breakfast is solitary—Alicia still oversleeps—but peaceful, accompanied by quiet reflections on the tasks of the day, or on the curious way every hallway in this house seems to watch you.
Then come the atelier hours, long but never dull.
Renoir, with his gentle laugh and tireless enthusiasm, treats your presence as if you were some long-awaited apprentice who has finally arrived to reinvigorate his art. Aline, sharp-eyed and elegant, speaks little, yet every glance she bestows upon you holds a warmth she rarely bothers to voice. It is a strange, unexpected tenderness, the kind often grown in people who have long since forgotten how to raise their voices in affection.
And then there is Verso.
Your first encounter with him lingers in your mind, not because it was pleasant—far from it—but because it was revealing. A man who can shift from charm to frost with nothing more than a breath, as though someone has flipped a hidden lever inside him.
Alicia, with the candid cruelty only teenagers possess, confirms what you have begun to suspect: Verso Dessendre is a storm wearing a man’s body, unpredictable and often destructive, admired despite himself, adored—unwillingly, by some—and despised, usually by the very people who had adored him first.
He is a womanizer, Alicia tells you with unabashed disdain, wrinkling her nose.
He does not even have to try. They just fall.
And you, listening to her speak with the blunt sincerity of someone who has seen too much of her brother’s theatrics, feel a curiosity bloom inside you—not admiration, not attraction, certainly not pity. Something more akin to reluctant fascination, the kind scholars feel when encountering a creature they have long read about but never truly believed existed.
What annoys you most is not his beauty, though he carries it with the careless confidence of men who have never known the burden of being overlooked. Nor is it his arrogance, though it is vast enough to qualify as a structural problem. No—what bothers you is his presence, the way he fills a room without trying, the way every small encounter seems to leave behind the faintest scent of friction.
Verso does not like you. That much is clear.
He resents your questions—although they are addressed to Renoir.
He resents your notepad—although you never point it at him.
He resents your breathing—although you do it discreetly.
And you resent him right back.
He appears in the atelier sometimes, usually unannounced, his voice drifting in before he does, rich and low, threaded with a kind of bored amusement that makes it impossible to tell whether he is joking or insulting someone. His relationship with Aline is… complicated. Aline softens around him in ways she does around no one else, yet the softness is edged with steel, as though she, too, knows that to love Verso is to handle something sharp.
Verso never stays long; he always seems to be fleeing something, maybe even himself.
And you? You try—truly try—not to acknowledge him beyond polite greetings. Yet you feel him every time he crosses a doorway, the air shifting, the tension coiling, the silent duel resuming as though it had never paused.
He dislikes your presence in the house he already barely tolerates; you dislike the walking contradiction who seems sculpted by the very gods and yet entirely too aware of that fact.
Except Aline surprisingly adores you. And Renoir relies on you.
So Verso is forced, reluctantly, to endure your existence.
The days pass, but the tension does not soften. If anything, it grows more intricate, like a painting that reveals new shades each time you step closer. There are moments—small, fleeting—when his expression cracks, when surprise or curiosity flickers through him before he slams the shutters closed. Moments when you wonder if beneath all that frost and indifference is something warmer, wounded, painfully human.
But then he opens his mouth and speaks, and you remember exactly why you cannot stand him.
He hated you. You could almost imagine the reasons:
How comfortable you had become in the manor, like you had belonged there for years rather than days. How his parents praised you, and praised you genuinely. How you never turned your attention to him, never flirted or fawned. How you did not seem dazzled by his presence, his ease, his dangerous charm.
How you—you—saw through the careful, practiced layers of his arrogance.
That evening, you had been walking past the smaller studio, notebook clutched against your chest. A soft light spilled out from beneath the door—dim, amber, flickering. You were curious, of course; it was impossible not to be. Verso’s piano usually held the night for him, but tonight, there had been no music.
Instead, the soft scrape of canvas against an easel reached your ears.
You assumed he was perhaps attempting a sketch—an experiment, as Renoir might say.
Careless, you pushed the door open… The scene that met you was not what you expected.
Verso stood before a half-finished canvas, hands trembling slightly as he pressed his fingers into the paint, and then, with a sudden, violent gesture, he swept it aside. The canvas toppled to the floor with a muted thud, a flurry of color smeared along the parquet. His face was dark, sharp, unreadable, the faintest tremor of something he did not wish to acknowledge flickering in his eyes.
“Verso—” you began, but he didn’t hear.
He whirled at your presence, chest heaving, eyes blazing with a mixture of irritation, embarrassment, and… something else you couldn’t name. “You—what are you doing here?” His voice was sharp, clipped, controlled but not entirely, as if he were trying to clamp down on a thought that wanted to escape.
You lifted your hands, your expression calm, careful not to show your surprise.
“I… I didn’t mean to interrupt. I—”
He cut you off with a scoff, pacing a step closer, eyes never leaving yours.
“You never knock,” he said, voice low but tight, each word a whip. “You always appear when you shouldn’t.”
You lifted your chin, unflinching. “And you? You throw your work across the room. Perhaps this is why you need silence.”
For a heartbeat, his irritation faltered. Then it returned, sharper, a blade of annoyance and pride.
“You…” he began, but faltered, jaw tightening. “…You watch everything, notice everything, and never—never flinch, never fall.”
You held his gaze. “I don’t see why I should. I see the work, not the man. That’s why I’m here.”
The silence stretched, heavy with color and tension, until he finally exhaled—slow, controlled, and almost… reluctant. “You are infuriating,” he admitted at last, voice a low murmur that somehow carried both accusation and fascination.
You allowed yourself the faintest smile, careful, deliberate, the one that made him grit his teeth and yet not turn away. “I could say the same about you,” you replied softly.
For a moment after your words, the room fell into a silence so thick it felt sculpted, as though someone had carved the very air between you into a block of cold, shimmering tension. Verso did not move. He seemed carved from stone himself, one hand still stained with paint, the other hanging limply at his side like he no longer knew what to do with it. His chest rose and fell in a slow, measured cadence, so controlled it bordered on unnatural, and then—finally—he spoke.
“So you see the work, not the man,” he repeated, voice deceptively calm, “How noble. How admirably detached. How very convenient for you.”
You narrowed your gaze, unsure which part of that statement was meant to irritate you the most. “Convenient,” you echoed, tasting the word before offering it back to him. “I’m here to document their craft, to understand the way they create, to gather material for an archive that might outlive all of us. I fail to see what convenience you speak of.”
He let out a sound—part scoff, part quiet laugh, part something darker—then stepped toward you with the slow, deliberate elegance of someone who understood perfectly well the effect their presence could have but resented, profoundly, that it did not seem to have that effect on you.
“That is precisely the problem,” he murmured, each word smooth but edged, like velvet draped over the sharpest blade. “You are here to lionize them. To immortalize them. To reduce everything in this house—the fractures, the silences, the parts no one talks about—into a tidy little narrative fit for public consumption.”
Your breath tightened, not from fear, but from the startling clarity with which he spoke. “I’m here,” you corrected, “because your parents want someone they trust to record their process. Because they want their art, their work, their lives to be understood. They invited me.”
That word—invited—struck him like a fist. His jaw tightened. His eyes sharpened. A muscle worked beneath the skin of his cheek, a small, rebellious pulse of anger he couldn’t hide.
“Yes,” he said quietly, stepping closer until you could see every detail of his expression: the exhaustion, the disdain, the flicker of something wounded, something old. “They invited you. They open the atelier to you. They let you ask questions they never answer for anyone else. You sit in the chair that was mine, once, before I realised how… pointless it all is.”
Your pulse fluttered in your throat, but you refused to step back. If you did, he would see it as a victory—and Verso did not need more victories. “You could sit there still,” you replied, voice steady despite the charged air between you. “If you wanted. If you tried.”
His laugh was almost soundless, a breath of disbelief. “You truly think you understand anything about this family. About what happens in these walls when no one is watching.” His gaze dropped to the canvas on the ground, the one he’d rejected with such violent frustration. “You don’t know them. You don’t know me. And you never will.”
“I didn’t come here to know you,” you reminded him gently.
That did it.
The subtle, barely-controlled agitation in him sharpened instantly, becoming something colder, something almost defensive. “No,” he said. “Of course you didn’t. You came here for them. To study them. To praise them. To become one more admirer blinded by the brilliance they so effortlessly radiate.”
He paused, eyes searching yours with a strange, almost reluctant intensity. “And yet here you are, in all the rooms you shouldn’t be in. Seeing things you shouldn’t see.”
“I only saw you,” you said softly, meaning to de-escalate, though the words came out with an intimacy you had not intended.
And something shifted. Something subtle, but undeniably there.
He froze—not in shock, not exactly, but in the stunned paralysis of someone who had not expected to be seen at all, much less acknowledged in a way that felt… exposed.
For a heartbeat, he almost softened. For a heartbeat, he almost let something real cross his face.
But then he turned away, closing himself with the precision of a man used to locking doors others were not allowed to open. “Leave,” he said quietly.
You hesitated. Not because you feared him. But because you did not want this conversation to end here, hanging incomplete, heavy with something unnamed.
He sensed your hesitation and looked back at you, his voice dropping into a register colder and far more controlled. “Do not mistake this place for yours,” he murmured. “My parents may adore you, but their affection won’t protect you from the truth of this house. Or from me.”
You drew a steady breath, meeting his gaze. “I’m not afraid of you, Verso.”
His lips curved—not into a smile, but into the ghost of something sharper, something that held both warning and fascination. And then he turned away from you, leaving the broken canvas on the floor.
You turned away too.
It felt like the only possible option, the only path that did not lead to further escalation. Your pulse still beat too insistently against your ribs, and your notebook felt strangely heavy in your hands, as though it had absorbed the tension between you both. You crossed the threshold with a pace that was not hurried but not entirely calm either, the sort of walk that wished to claim dignity in the face of something that had unsettled you more than you cared to admit.
You had barely taken three steps down the dim corridor when you heard him move.
Not loudly. Not angrily. But with a suddenness that made your breath catch.
“Wait.” His voice was unpolished, stripped of the cool, bitter refinement he had worn like armor earlier. It was rough, as if the words had scraped against something raw on their way out.
You did not turn. Not immediately. You stood still, fingers tight around your notebook, and let the silence draw itself long and taut between you. Then you exhaled and faced him.
Verso stood in the doorway of the small studio, half in shadow, half in the warm lamplight behind him. The paint on his hands had begun to dry, leaving dark, uneven streaks that almost looked like bruises. His expression, however, was curiously bare—no smirk, no irritation, no aristocratic disdain.
Just a strange, unsettled intensity.
“What are you doing?” you asked quietly, keeping your tone neutral, steady, unwilling to let him see how much the confrontation had stirred you.
He stepped out into the corridor—not close enough to invade your space, but close enough that the atmosphere seemed to contract between you, as if the manor itself were listening.
“I never wanted to paint,” he said abruptly, the words spilling out with a force that did not match his otherwise rigid posture. “Not once. Not in all the years they tried. Not even when I was little and Aline put a brush in my hand as if talent could be inherited like bone marrow.”
You blinked, thrown by his candor, but you did not interrupt. There was something in his voice, something brittle and too long held in silence, and you sensed that if you spoke too soon, he might retreat back into the coldness he wore so easily.
He stepped closer, passing beneath a narrow strip of moonlight that filtered through the long corridor windows. It traced along his jaw, his cheekbone, the tension in his brow.
“They keep asking,” he continued, quieter now, as if confessing something he had not meant to say aloud. “My father thinks I am avoiding my heritage. My mother thinks I am wasting my potential. They wait for me to pick up a brush the way others wait for someone to repent. As if it’s simply a question of will.”
You felt the realization sink into you—heavy, human, unexpected.
He rubbed his paint-stained fingers together absently, a restless gesture that betrayed more emotion than his words did. “I only do it,” he said, voice dropping to a near-whisper, “because they look at me as if I am failing them. As if I am choosing to be lesser.” His jaw tightened, his gaze flickering briefly away, unable to hold yours in this moment of stark vulnerability. “But it is not mine. None of it is mine.”
A long breath escaped him, soft but weighted, the kind that came from a place buried beneath years of expectation. “My hands,” he murmured, lifting them slowly, almost helplessly, “were made for something else. And they don’t see it. They don’t hear it. They don’t understand that the only thing that ever made sense to me was the piano.”
The hallway seemed to deepen around you, shadows thickening with the quiet confession hanging between you.
You swallowed, because no matter how irritated he made you, no matter how arrogantly he carried himself, this was a truth he had not owed you, a truth he had not needed to share.
“I don’t know why I’m telling you this,” he said suddenly, almost impatiently, as though the vulnerability had startled him. His gaze darted back to yours, sharp, defensive. “It doesn’t make sense. You’re the person I should least be speaking to.”
You held his stare, your voice calm in contrast to his unraveling. “Then why are you?”
A flicker crossed his eyes—annoyance, confusion, something like reluctant honesty.
“I don’t know,” he said. “And that is what makes this even more intolerable.”
You allowed the silence to settle again, soft and full, not charged like before. You did not tell him it was all right. You did not offer sympathy. You simply stood there, letting him exist for a moment without expectation or judgment. And for reasons you could not yet name, he let you.
You walked in silence for a time that felt stretched thin by everything he had just confessed — or rather, spilled in a rush he clearly hadn’t meant to share. The hallway was long, its windows washed in amber dusk, and his footsteps followed yours with a restless, uneven rhythm, as if he hadn’t yet decided whether he wanted to keep speaking or run back to the wreckage of the studio.
It was you who broke the quiet at last, not out of confidence but out of the strange, reluctant empathy his admission had scraped from you. “You know…” you began, your voice low, careful, as though testing a thread you weren’t sure would hold, “from what I’ve seen, your parents still let you play. They don’t seem to stop you. Aline mentioned you’ve performed at the Opera more than once, which is—well, regardless of anything else—impressive.”
You expected pride to flicker in him, or at least some sign of acknowledgement. Instead, Verso stopped walking altogether. The lamplight caught sharply in his eyes, turning their ice-blue shade brittle, defensive.
He shook his head slowly, as if trying to dislodge the very idea.
“That’s not—” He cut himself off, jaw tightening. “Don’t believe everything they tell you.”
The words weren’t sharp, but they carried something heavier, something bruised. He resumed walking, but slower now, his voice lowering to a rasp that seemed meant more for himself than for you.
“They let me play because it looks good. Because it makes them seem… accommodating. Supportive.” A humorless laugh escaped him, the kind that sounded practiced from years of using it to cover something raw. “You think they actually cared? That they ever listened? Every time I performed, it was a performance for them too. A showcase. A way to smile at their patrons and say, ‘Look how we nurtured our son artisting skills.’”
His scoff was soft, but it pulled at something inside you.
“Even when they brag about me, it’s not about me,” he muttered. “It never was.”
You slowed your pace until you were walking beside him, though you weren’t entirely sure when you had decided to do that. He didn’t look at you, but he didn’t pull away either. His shoulders were rigid, as though he expected you to dismiss him or contradict him, to undermine his words the way he seemed used to being undermined.
But you didn’t. You simply looked at him — really looked — and the irritation you usually felt around him thinned enough for something clearer to show through.
“Verso,” you said quietly, “just because someone tells me something doesn’t mean I take it at face value. You’re allowed to correct the record.”
His steps faltered again, subtle but noticeable, and he released a long breath, as though you had surprised him in a way he wasn’t ready to acknowledge. He didn’t thank you. He didn’t soften.
But the cold edge in his posture eased — barely, but unmistakably — as if your words had struck a chord he wasn’t prepared to hear yet still resonated through him despite himself.
And for the first time since arriving at the manor, you sensed it clearly: Verso wasn’t just angry. He was starved — for honesty, for someone who didn’t fall at his feet, for someone who didn’t tell him what he should be, what he must be. He would never admit it aloud, of course.
Not to you. Not to anyone.
But as you continued walking, side by side in the amber-lit hall, you felt it — the shift, small and precarious, but real. A crack in the stormcloud. A place where light might one day slip through.
—
Tonight was a different night from the instant you crossed the threshold.
You had come expecting the usual quiet, the soft murmur of Aline’s voice drifting from the kitchen, the comfortable rhythm of helping Alicia and housekeepers set out plates, the easy warmth of a table that never felt entirely full. But the moment you stepped into the grand living area, the air shifted — thicker, denser, charged with the brittle tension of a gathering that was no one’s choice.
Everyone was there. Everyone except Cléa.
Aline and Renoir sat at opposite ends of the long dining table, their postures stiff and formal, as though the meal had been staged rather than shared. Aline’s hands rested delicately atop one another, her fingers tapping an anxious pattern against her own skin. Renoir studied his wineglass as if deciphering its contents might offer escape. And in the middle, slouched low in his chair, expression carved with disdain, sat Verso.
He looked like a man forced into civility with a knife to his throat.
Your arrival broke the fragile stillness. Alicia’s smile brightened at once, warm and relieved, and she lifted a hand to beckon you closer, patting the empty chair beside her as though claiming you before anyone else could. You felt the room exhale the faintest breath — the way people sometimes do when someone capable of balancing the elements finally enters. But not Verso. He didn’t even try.
His gaze flicked up to acknowledge you, unhurried and unimpressed, before dropping again as if the sight of you confirmed some internal grievance he’d been cultivating all day. The muscles in his jaw tightened; you could practically hear the words he wasn’t saying.
You took your seat beside Alicia, your smile returning hers with gentle steadiness, trying to smooth the strange edges of the evening. But the moment you settled, the tension snapped back into place like a trap shutting around the table. The first minutes passed in brittle politeness — Aline asking about your day, Renoir praising Alicia’s work with the latest sketches, Alicia eagerly looping you into conversation, as she always did. You answered with careful enthusiasm, trying to ignore the weight of Verso’s silence across from you.
But he was not merely silent. He radiated irritation the way a storm radiates static. Every time you praised Aline’s technique, he scoffed. When you complimented Renoir’s palettes, he rolled his eyes. When Alicia mentioned how helpful you had been in the atelier, his mouth twisted into something between disbelief and mockery. Finally, when Alicia added — too brightly, trying too hard to fill the void — that you were learning quickly, that your observations were sharper than most apprentices she had seen, Verso let out a low, cold laugh.
It slid across the table like a blade.
“Oh, of course,” he drawled, leaning back in his chair with exaggerated ease, as if performing boredom. “Naturally she would excel. People like her always do. Eager little students, scribbling down whatever they’re told. It doesn’t take much.”
You set your fork down before you crushed it in your fingers.
Aline stiffened. Renoir’s eyes shut for a heartbeat, weary. Alicia’s hand brushed your arm in warning, but it was already too late. Something in you — three days of tension, of enduring his thundercloud moods, his disdain, his biting glances — snapped into clarity.
“People like me?” you repeated calmly, though your pulse thudded at your throat.
Verso smirked, seeming pleased to have provoked you into speech. “Yes. The type that hovers around my parents as if being near them might make them extraordinary by association.”
You leaned forward slightly, not enough to break decorum, but enough that your voice reached him without trembling. “If I hover,” you said, “it is because they allow me to. Gladly. And because I have something to learn. There’s no shame in that.”
His expression flickered — a brief flash of something sharper, wounded, before arrogance snapped back over it like armor. “Of course you’d say that,” he replied coldly. “You think being earnest makes you insightful.”
“And you think looking down at everyone makes you clever,” you answered before you could stop yourself.
The table froze. Even the candles seemed to hesitate.
Verso stared at you, his eyes gone bright and dangerous. You held his gaze, refusing to flinch, refusing to be diminished. For a moment, the silence was so thick it felt like a physical thing pressing against your lungs.
Then you added, more quietly but unmistakably: “You’re not nearly as untouchable as you pretend to be.”
Aline inhaled sharply. Renoir’s fork clattered against his plate. Alicia whispered your name in a plea.
But Verso — Verso did not move. He didn’t lash out, didn’t sneer, didn’t storm away.
Aline was the first to break the suffocating silence that had settled over the table, though when her voice came, it did not erupt — it unfurled, sharp and precise, as though she were selecting every word with the care of a surgeon preparing an incision.
“Verso,” she said, her tone deceptively soft, the softness that always preceded frost, “you will not speak to Y/n that way. Whatever it is you think you are competing for, there is no need to be jealous.”
The word landed like a stone dropped into water. Jealous.
You saw the way Verso’s shoulders tensed, the way the muscle along his jaw jumped, but he did not turn to his mother nor offer any retort. It was as if the reprimand pinned him to his chair, rendering him strangely still, strangely silent. You caught the smallest flicker in his expression — not outrage, not humiliation, but something more complicated, something wounded and offended in equal measure. But he swallowed it whole, refusing to give shape to whatever twisted inside him—like a mask.
“Whatever you have on your mind,” Aline continued, lifting her wineglass with a controlled grace that suggested she had already said far more than she wished to, “should never be brought to the table. Ever.”
Verso still said nothing. And that, more than anything, unsettled you.
The atmosphere remained brittle for a moment longer, until Renoir cleared his throat and attempted, with the gentleness of someone who had long served as peacemaker without being thanked for it, to redirect the conversation. “Alicia,” he said, turning toward the girl with real warmth softening his features, “how is your new writing machine? You hadn’t yet shown it to me.”
Aline’s reaction was immediate, though quiet — the tightening of her mouth, the slight downturn of her chin, the faint narrowing of her eyes. A disapproval contained, but hardly subtle. It was clear she did not appreciate his shift of attention nor her youngest girl.
Alicia brightened nonetheless, eager to answer, though her voice wavered ever so slightly as though she sensed the undercurrent. “It’s wonderful,” she said. “I wrote three pages today, and the keys don’t stick anymore. I think… I think I’m getting faster.”
“That’s marvelous,” Renoir replied, smiling in a way you rarely saw directed at anyone but his canvases. “Perhaps tomorrow you’ll show me how it works. I’d like to see what you’ve been writing.”
Aline exhaled slowly, the kind of breath that was not a sigh but a verdict. Her fingers tapped the tablecloth, a gesture too disciplined to be impatience, too pointed to be affection. “It’s just a machine,” she said, not looking at Alicia at all. “There is no need to make a spectacle of it.”
And there it was. The first clear fracture.
The first glimpse beneath the immaculate varnish of the Dessendre facade.
Renoir’s smile faltered; Alicia’s shoulders curled inward, as if trying to occupy less space; Verso’s eyebrow lifted, amused in the way someone might be when witnessing an all-too-familiar routine. You remained perfectly still. It became painfully obvious — startling, even — how the threads of affection and resentment were crisscrossed between them:
Renoir, softening only for Alicia, watching her with quiet pride that Aline seemed to consider frivolous. Aline, pouring her warmth into Verso with possessive devotion, ignoring the way it wilted Alicia in her seat. Verso, who loved no one openly, but seemed to be the gravity around which their silent grievances orbited.
Three people speaking, none of them truly listening.
It felt like watching a play in a foreign language — you understood the gestures, the undertones, the glances, but not the meaning behind their choreography. And yet you sensed enough to know this dinner was not an anomaly; it was a window into something deeply entrenched.
The dysfunction was not loud.
It was quiet, elegant, polished like a painting that hid its cracks beneath masterful brushwork.
You did not speak. You ate in calm silence, eyes drifting from face to face, absorbing the unspoken resentments threaded beneath their words, the affection twisted into strange, uneven shapes, the family dynamic that would have been invisible if not for the flicker of tension you had ignited.
For the first time, you understood that in the manor, art was not the only thing being shaped.
Every person at this table had been sculpted too.
Aline’s voice slid seamlessly into the next subject, though the sweetness she adopted was the sort that carried poison within it — elegant, quiet, but unmistakably sharp. “It is dangerous, you know,” she said, arranging her silverware with almost ceremonial precision. “This… fascination with writing.” She did not look at Alicia as she spoke; she looked at Renoir, as though scolding him for having planted the seed.
“A writer could be lurking anywhere,” she continued, her tone clipped, dismissive. “And we all know how they twist things, how they turn people into spectacles. Alicia would do far better to focus on her painting. At her age, Clea was already producing work that galleries noticed. There is no benefit in encouraging distractions.”
Alicia’s expression flickered — a tiny collapse, like the dimming of a candle — but she lowered her gaze and said nothing. Renoir frowned, his hand tightening around his glass, though whether out of disagreement or resignation you could not tell. You tried to follow the conversation, tried to keep your attention fixed on the delicate battlefield unfolding across the table, but your focus wavered the moment you became aware that
Verso’s eyes were on you. You lifted your gaze instinctively. He did not look away.
Across the polished wood, across Aline’s elegant condemnation and Alicia’s silent hurt, his stare pinned you — a dark, smoldering thing, stripped of the usual arrogance he wielded like a shield. There was no mocking tilt to his mouth now, no sharp retort forming on his tongue. Instead, there was something far more unsettling.
Desperation. Anger. And a warning — or a plea — that you could not decipher.
It was as if he were trying, without a single word, to show you something you were missing. Something hidden beneath his mother’s harsh critique, beneath Alicia’s shrinking composure, beneath the strained quiet that clung to Renoir. Something that had nothing to do with you — and yet everything to do with the way he stared, unblinking, across the table. His fingers drummed once, too quickly, against the stem of his glass.
His jaw tightened when Alicia ducked her head. His eyes flinched — barely, but there — when Aline uttered Clea’s name as the golden standard. You realised then that the anger you had always assumed was directed at you was—at least in this instant—not about you at all.
Something in this family dynamic was twisting him from the inside out, knotting him in ways he refused to articulate. And now, in the silence that bloomed between you, he looked at you as though demanding that you notice it. As though daring you to understand. His stare was a confession he would never speak aloud.
Aline’s voice continued somewhere to your left, a smooth litany about progress, discipline, expectations — but it reached your ears as if through water. Everything outside that gaze blurred into insignificance.
Because for the first time since meeting him, Verso was not looking at you with disdain.He was looking at you as though you were the only person in the room who might possibly see the truth — and the truth was eating him alive.
Aline’s words were still weaving their cold tapestry across the table when she abruptly shifted direction, her attention turning to you with the immaculate poise of someone who believed her decisions were natural law. “Y/n,” she said, her voice warm in a way that felt curated rather than felt, “I would like you to attend one of Verso’s piano rehearsals this week.”
The sound of your name cleaved cleanly through the fragile current between you and her son, snapping the invisible thread that had tethered your gazes. You blinked, drawn violently back into the room, as Aline continued with a serene authority that tolerated no resistance.
“I think it will provide you with… inspiration,” she said, as though gently bestowing a gift rather than issuing an order. “It is important, after all, that you understand the full artistic environment of this household.”
The remark alone would have unsettled you — but what truly froze you was the reaction from across the table.
Verso’s chair did not move. His hands did not rise or clench. But the air around him changed.
It was subtle, almost imperceptible — a shift in the quiet pressure of the room, as though the space he occupied suddenly bristled with a force he fought to smother. His eyes, still fixed on you a heartbeat ago with something painfully human flickering inside them, snapped toward his mother with a coldness so sharp it could have been mistaken for indifference if you hadn’t already seen the storm beneath.
“Aline,” Renoir murmured softly, in warning or weary caution — you couldn’t tell which — but she raised one elegant hand to silence him, as if to say she knew exactly what she was doing.
You sat straighter, unsure if declining would be an insult or an escape. “I—of course,” you said, because there was no polite way to refuse, even though every molecule in the air insisted you had just stepped into dangerous territory. “If it helps with the work, I would be honored.”
Aline smiled in approval, a graceful tilt of her lips that held none of the warmth it suggested. “Good. He rehearses tomorrow afternoon. I shall have someone show you the way.”
You nodded.Verso did not.He stared at his mother the way a wounded animal might stare at the person holding the blade that hurt him — quietly, rigidly, dangerously still. Then, without turning his head, he spoke.
“No.”
Just one word. Thrown across the table like a stone sinking into the center of a lake. Firm, quiet, but vibrating with fury held on a leash. Alicia flinched. Renoir closed his eyes for half a second. Aline’s lips froze — the smile now a perfect, painted mask. “No?” she repeated, as though the concept were unfamiliar to her.
Verso’s gaze slid — painfully, reluctantly — back to you. And you saw it again: that strange, conflicted anger. “I don’t rehearse for an audience,” he said flatly, his eyes locked onto yours, as if daring you to agree with him, to refuse her, to save him from whatever this command touched inside him.
But you could not. You were a guest. A scholar. Bound by the very invitation that allowed you to explore this world. “I didn’t mean to intrude,” you murmured, choosing your words carefully, aware that every Dessendre at this table interpreted tone like a palette knife seeking flaws. “If it bothers you, Verso, I can—”
“It’s decided,” Aline interrupted, her voice as smooth as glass. “Y/n will attend.”
Verso’s jaw flexed once. Shoulders tightening, breath stabbing sharper through his ribs, he looked as though the world itself had tilted beneath him. Not with dramatic rage, not with tantrum, but with something infinitely quieter and far more devastating. Resentment. Humiliation. A sense of being cornered.
His eyes returned to you, and for the briefest instant — the space between one heartbeat and the next — the mask slipped again. The storm you had glimpsed earlier surged back, raw and unguarded, and though he said nothing, the message was unmistakable:
Then, as quickly as it came, the moment vanished. Verso lowered his gaze, his hands folded with rigid elegance on the table before him, and he spoke no further.
Dinner continued. Conversation resumed its elegant, fractured rhythm. But you felt the aftershock of that single, forbidden word vibrating through the manor’s bones long after the plates were cleared.
—
Night did not fall in the Dessendre manor so much as it descended—slowly, heavily, like a velvet curtain drawn across a stage you were no longer certain you wished to perform upon. You lay awake in the grand bed Aline had assigned you, staring at the ceiling’s plaster reliefs that glimmered faintly in the pale spill of moonlight. The room was beautiful, unquestionably so, but beauty had become a strange and uneasy thing here, laced with tension you had not anticipated, humbling and disquieting all at once.
You turned onto your side, then your back again, wrestling with thoughts that refused to settle. The dinner replayed behind your eyes, every word like a small bruise pressed into memory:
Alicia shrinking under Aline’s expectations, Renoir retreating into the quiet spaces between sentences, Aline’s domineering calm, Verso’s single, forbidden “no,” the way he had looked at you, as if the entire evening were a secret language that you were only beginning to understand.
Everything you had believed about this family — the dazzling, united artistic dynasty celebrated in cultural circles, admired in salons, mythologized in critiques — had splintered over the course of a single dinner. What you witnessed instead were fractures barely concealed: cracks in a portrait you had thought immaculate, a living fresco whose paint had begun to peel from the inside.
Your stomach churned with a disquiet you could not name. You had not come here to take sides. You had not come here to uncover wounds. You had come to observe, to learn, to document. Yet every day, the lines blurred further, and tonight they blurred completely.
You squeezed your eyes shut, willing yourself to sleep, but the thoughts only grew louder. The manor, so vast and elegant by day, felt suffocating in the quiet hours of the night, its corridors stretching endlessly like arteries in a creature breathing too shallowly. Eventually, you pushed back the covers with a quiet sigh. There was no point pretending sleep was within reach.
You wrapped your robe around you and stepped into the hallway, the floor chilled beneath your feet. The manor at night was a different world — dim, cavernous, almost sacred in its silence. Not even a housekeeper’s footsteps echoed. The place felt suspended, asleep yet listening.
You thought perhaps a walk might calm your mind, or that a glass of water would ground you. Anything to quiet the thoughts racing in helpless circles. But then you heard it. A sound so soft you wondered at first if you were imagining it. A single note, pure and resonant, drifting like a thread of gold down the corridor.
You froze, breath catching.
Another note followed — deeper, wandering, as though searching its way through the dark. Then more, gentle at first, then gathering into something with shape, with intention, with emotion too large to be contained.
The piano.
The music guided you down the hall almost without your consent, your feet moving slowly on the thick carpet as though the melody itself were pulling you closer. The nearer you drew, the clearer it became that this was no structured rehearsal, no polished performance meant for patrons. This was something else entirely — intimate, restless, raw. You reached the threshold of the music room and stopped.
Verso sat at the piano, his back to you, illuminated by a single lamp that cast long shadows across the wooden floor. His shoulders were tense, his posture rigid in a way that betrayed the storm beneath his carefully controlled exterior. His fingers moved with precision, yet there was strain in every gesture, as though the music were an argument he kept losing.
He was playing with the kind of intensity one only allows in solitude — the kind that strips away every pretense, every cultivated charm, leaving behind only the truth of a person’s soul. You knew you should step back. You knew you were trespassing upon a moment not meant for you. But something held you still, as though the music had rooted you to the doorway.
The melody shifted suddenly, breaking from its pattern — a minor chord struck with too much force, a discordant echo reverberating through the room. Verso cursed under his breath, low and bitten off, and pressed his palms flat against the keys as if trying to steady himself.
The sight tugged at something deep within you.
For all his arrogance, for all the ways he bristled under your presence, for all his sharp remarks and stormcloud moods, this was the first time you saw him without a mask. The first time you saw not the prodigy, not the heir, not the scandalous womanizer Paris whispered about — but simply a young man trapped between expectation and rebellion, brilliance and suffocation.
He exhaled shakily, his head bowing slightly, and the next words he muttered were so faint you barely caught them. “…I said no.” To whom, you couldn’t tell. Perhaps to Aline. Perhaps to the world. Perhaps to himself.
And before you could even take a step back, before you could pretend you had not intruded upon the most vulnerable sliver of him you had ever witnessed, Verso’s head lifted slightly. He had heard something — the shift of weight beneath your feet, the tremble of breath in the air, the quiet disturbance of your presence.
“You know,” Verso murmured without turning, his fingers still drifting idly across the final chord as though coaxing it to linger, “that makes twice today you’ve spied on me.”
Your stomach dropped so quickly it nearly stole the air from your throat. You opened your mouth to protest—some instinctive denial, something weak and unconvincing—but nothing came out. Verso finally looked over his shoulder. Even in the dim wash of early dawn, his eyes gleamed with that unsettling, unreadable intelligence, the kind that made you feel stripped down to your bones.
He didn’t look angry. That was worse. He looked amused. Patient, in a way that suggested he had expected you.
And that he enjoyed the fact you’d come.
He rose from the bench with slow, unhurried grace, the kind that made time feel suddenly stupid for trying to move without him. His shirt hung half-open from the rehearsal, sleeves rolled messily to his elbows, exposing the elegant lines of his forearms—an image so intimate and unexpected your breath tangled painfully in your chest. The faint sheen of exertion from playing only made it worse; he looked like the living embodiment of every forbidden thought your mind refused to admit having.
“Don’t look so panicked,” he continued, padding closer across the marble floor. “It’s not a crime to be curious.”
He stopped in front of you—close enough that you could feel the warmth radiating from him, close enough that your pulse began to hammer in your ears. Then he tilted his head, studying you the way one studies a trembling candle flame. “Or,” he went on softly, “perhaps curiosity isn’t the right word.”
His lips quirked barely, just enough to make your breath catch. “Unless…” He hummed, fingers brushing the air near your arm but never touching. He was too deliberate for an accident. Too precise for innocence. “You’ve finally decided to write about me.”
Your face went hot so violently you could’ve sworn the temperature in the room doubled. Heat blasted up your neck, into your cheeks, the kind of mortifying fluster that made your throat feel tight and your tongue feel useless. You tried to look anywhere that wasn’t him, but the moment you attempted it, his gaze dipped, catching you in the act. That faintest, dangerous curl of satisfaction ghosted across his mouth.
Ah. He had noticed. And he liked it.
He leaned in just a breath, enough for his whisper to brush your cheek like warm silk. “You’re flushed,” he said, as though stating a private secret no one else was allowed to hear. “Is it because I’m wrong… or because I’m right?”
Your heart kicked painfully, a trapped bird beneath your ribs. Words tangled on your tongue, useless and disobedient; all you could do was stand there, burning, betraying yourself with every rapid heartbeat.
Verso watched it all in silence—the panic in your eyes, the embarrassed rise and fall of your chest, the way you seemed torn between stepping back or stepping into him. For a moment, he simply took you in, the dawn light sketching pale gold across his features, revealing something sharper, more intent, something that felt like the beginning of a confession neither of you were ready to admit aloud.
His question hung between you like a drawn blade—quiet, glittering, waiting for the smallest movement to cut. You forced yourself to lift your chin, even though your pulse was pounding so loudly it nearly drowned the words forming in your throat. “I wasn’t spying,” you managed, though your voice sounded thin even to your own ears. “You were just… loud.”
Verso’s laugh was soft, almost polite, but it carried an edge sharp enough to snag the breath in your lungs. “Loud,” he repeated, tasting the word as though it amused him. “Right. Because that explains why you were standing there long enough for me to finish an entire movement.”
Your mouth opened to argue, but he stepped closer—just enough to shatter whatever composure you had left.
He didn’t crowd you. He didn’t touch you. He simply stood near enough that every nerve in your body screamed at the proximity. “You could have announced yourself,” he said, voice low. “Instead, you hovered in the doorway like a ghost who doesn’t want to be seen.”
“That’s not—”
“And now,” he continued, overriding your words as easily as breathing, “you’re blushing like someone who’s been caught.”
You hated that the admission was true. You hated even more that he saw it. That he always saw it. You crossed your arms, more out of instinct than confidence. “Maybe you should get over yourself. Not everything revolves around you.”
Verso’s gaze sharpened—interest flickering through it, not anger. He didn’t look offended. He looked entertained. Dangerously so. “Is that what you think?” he murmured. “That I’m assuming too much?”
“Yes,” you snapped, though the trembling in your stomach betrayed you.
He tilted his head, regarding you with a slow, deliberate appraisal that made you feel stripped bare. “And yet you’re the one standing here in the middle of the night, wearing those.” His eyes swept down, briefly, to your mismatched sleep clothes. “In front of a man you insist you don’t care to understand.”
Your breath hitched. Heat surged up your neck again, humiliating and electric. “You’re twisting everything,” you said. “You always twist everything.”
Verso’s lips curved—not into a smile, but something quieter, something that felt like a trap closing. “No,” he said gently, “I just listen.” He leaned closer, his voice brushing the shell of your ear. “And I notice.”
You stiffened, every muscle taut, your breath trembling on the edge of breaking. “You don’t know anything about me,” you whispered.
“Not yet,” he said simply.
Your heart lurched.
Then, as if he sensed he’d pushed just far enough, Verso stepped back—not far, just enough to let you breathe, enough to remind you he allowed space, not because he feared your anger but because he was gauging it.
Testing it.
“Tense, aren’t we?” he said lightly. “Tell me—do I make you nervous?”
You glared at him. “Absolutely not.”
He hummed, unconvinced. “You know… most people ask before slipping into my rehearsals.” He tapped the piano lid absently, eyes never leaving yours. “You, however, seem intent on doing it without warning.”
“So I won’t do it again,” you snapped, heat and embarrassment twisting into irritation. “Happy?”
“No,” he said, quietly enough that your breath snagged. “That’s not what I want.”
Your heartbeat stumbled. “Then what do you want?”
He studied you for a long, heavy second—like he was deciding how honest to be, how much to give, how much to reveal. “You,” he said finally, “in the room with me when I play.”
The words hit with shocking force, rippling through your chest. “But,” he added, voice softening into that dangerous, velvet tone again, “I suppose you’ll keep coming anyway. You’re far too curious to stop now.”
You stepped back because you needed distance—needed air—but Verso’s eyes followed the movement with quiet satisfaction, like he knew exactly why you’d done it.
Verso lowered himself onto the piano bench with a carelessness that was too deliberate to be accidental, his fingertips brushing the keys as though they were the only soft thing in his life. The instrument hummed under his touch—not music yet, just breath, just intention. Then he glanced over his shoulder at you.
A silent invitation. A dare.
When you hesitated, he lifted one brow, the faintest ghost of impatience stirring in his expression. “Come here,” he said—not commanding, not gentle, but something in between, something that left no room for retreat without feeling like surrender.
You crossed the space before thinking better of it, and the moment you sat beside him, you felt the piano bench dip, felt the residual warmth of where he’d been sitting. You weren’t touching—not really—but the closeness was enough to pull your breath taut.
Verso turned back to the keys and began to play, barely more than a whisper of sound. Simple notes, almost fragile, like he didn’t want to startle you into running. He played like a confession.
“About dinner,” he said quietly, his gaze fixed on the keys. “Did you sense it?”
You frowned, caught off guard. “Sense… what?”
A muscle in his jaw tightened, though his hands remained graceful, steady. “What I was trying to tell you.”
The music slipped into a minor chord—soft, wounded.
You thought of the tension at the table. Of the way Aline’s gaze cut Alicia down. Of Renoir’s fondness twisting into something brittle. Of the way Verso looked at you across the table: furious, frightened, pleading for you to understand something he couldn’t say out loud.
“I sensed… something,” you admitted. “But you weren’t exactly clear.”
“Of course not,” he scoffed under his breath. “Clarity isn’t allowed here.”
You looked at him—really looked—and saw the exhaustion beneath the sarcasm. The brittleness beneath the arrogance. The trapped animal rage that had flickered behind his eyes all evening. “Your parents,” you said slowly. “You were trying to show me something about them.”
He laughed, a short, bitter sound. “Not show you. Warn you.”
Your breath caught. “Warn me?”
His fingers pressed a little harder on the keys, the melody darkening, curling in on itself like smoke. “My mother doesn’t ‘encourage’ Alicia. She wants to shape her. Bend her. Carve her down until she fits into the box she’s built for her daughters.”
“And your father?” you whispered.
Verso’s hands paused mid-phrase. The silence rang louder than the music.
“My father,” he said finally, “likes Alicia because she reminds him of someone he failed to save.”
The words reverberated through you—strange, cryptic, heavy. You waited for him to continue, but he didn’t. Instead, he resumed playing—quieter now, like he was trying not to feel the weight of his own confession.
“And you?” you asked softly. “Why were you so angry with me tonight?”
Verso’s head snapped toward you as though he hadn’t expected the question to have teeth. His eyes were dark in the dim light, startlingly vulnerable for a moment before irritation washed over it like armor re-fastened.
“Because,” he said, voice low and sharp, “you were listening.”
You blinked. “Isn’t that what people do at dinner?”
“No,” he said, leaning closer, his shoulder brushing yours in a way that felt accidental and purposefully timed all at once. “Most people here only listen to themselves. But you—” His gaze traced your face with a mixture of frustration and unwilling admiration. “You pay attention. To things you shouldn’t.”
Your heart fluttered in a way that felt dangerously unwise. “Is that why you hate me?”
The question slipped out before you could swallow it back. Verso froze.
Your breath stilled.
Then, slowly, he turned back to the piano and pressed a single, aching note. “I don’t hate you,” he said quietly.
The words sank into your chest, warm and sharp. He continued, voice low and careful. “I hate the way you make me feel seen. Like you’re peeling back things I’ve spent years learning how to bury.”
The music trembled beneath his hands.
You swallowed. “Maybe I’m not trying to expose anything. Maybe I’m just… trying to understand.”
Verso exhaled through his nose, a humorless smile flickering and dying almost instantly. “That’s the problem,” he murmured. “Understanding comes with a cost in this house.”
“And you don’t want me to pay it?” you asked, surprised at the gentleness of your own voice.
Verso shook his head once—barely visible. “Not for them,” he whispered. “Not because of them.”
He looked at you then, truly looked, and the intensity in his eyes made the room feel smaller, the air tighter, the bench unbearably warm. “Tell me,” he said, “did you understand what I wanted to say tonight?”
And in the quiet, threaded through the trembling notes of the piano, you realized: He wasn’t asking if you saw his parents. He was asking if you saw him. If you were willing to keep seeing him.
Slowly, you nodded. “I think I did.”
Verso’s breath faltered. The piano’s last notes had faded into a lingering echo that seemed to settle into the corners of the music room, curling softly around the tall windows and the dark wood of the floor, leaving only the quiet after the storm of sound. You remained where you had been sitting, beside him, your gaze tracing the movement of his delicate fingers as they rested lightly on the keys, still warm from their motion. There was a tenderness to the moment that made it feel impossibly fragile, as though the room itself were holding its breath for fear of breaking something delicate and too easily shattered.
Hours—or perhaps only minutes—had passed. Time had blurred into the soft, intimate rhythm of shared silence. Your body, lulled by the gentle repetition of chords and the quiet resonance that seemed to vibrate not just in the room but in your very chest, began to relax. The tension that had gripped your shoulders since dinner dissolved slowly, a candle burning down to its last whisper. Your eyelids grew heavier, weighed down not by boredom but by an unfamiliar comfort, a strange sense of safety you could scarcely admit to yourself.
You shifted slightly, almost unconsciously, until your head found the warmth of his shoulder, resting lightly against him. He did not move. His body did not stiffen. If anything, it seemed he had been waiting for this—a pause in the world, a moment when the walls he carried around himself could soften just enough to allow another presence close. The faint scent of his cologne, mingled with the faint musk of the room and the lingering sweetness of the piano polish, filled your senses in a way that made your heart skip unevenly.
For a long moment, no words passed between you. Then, finally, his voice, quiet, low, almost a whisper, broke the fragile barrier of silence.
“I don’t hate you,” he said, and the words were neither boastful nor defensive, simply true. They carried the weight of something earned, of recognition and confrontation and unwilling admiration. “Quite the opposite, actually.”
You lifted your head slightly, blinking against the warmth of sleep, startled that his confession had come so naturally, so unguarded.
“I… like you,” he continued, his fingers brushing absentmindedly along the keys again, producing only the softest, tentative notes. “And… I want to trust you. With your writing, with your curiosity, with—” He hesitated, then swallowed, as though even naming it aloud was daring fate, “with what you see here. With me. Not them…”
You wanted to speak, to tell him that your own hands had been shaking, that your pulse had been betraying you the entire evening, that his presence had been the only thing anchoring you in the swirling confusion of the Dessendre household. But your body, exhausted from the emotional storm, and your mind, lulled by his music, betrayed you. You simply let your eyelids close, trusting, in a way that was reckless and new, that he would not let the moment fracture.
His fingers found a quiet, almost hesitant melody again, the notes soft and unassuming, as if the piano itself had been waiting to cradle the weight of his admission. You could feel the pulse of it in your shoulder, in the gentle vibration against your own heart, and something in you let go—a sigh that had no words, only the delicate surrender of a moment that felt far too rare and precious to name.
“You won’t write lies,” he murmured into the soft space between you, not a question but a statement, not a demand but a plea.
“I won’t,” you whispered, though the words were barely audible. “I promise you.”
His hand hovered above the keys, then pressed one final note—a quiet punctuation that felt like the closing of a door on a world that had been chaotic and loud and impossibly tense, leaving only this room, this piano, and the fragile, unspoken understanding between two people who had collided in ways neither had anticipated.
And as the last vibration faded into silence, you realized that, for the first time in days, the storm had abated—not entirely, never entirely, for Verso was nothing if not tempestuous—but just enough that, in that space between the notes and the shadows, something delicate and undeniable had begun to bloom.
You leaned your head further against his shoulder, eyes finally closing completely, and let the warmth of trust, of confession, of quiet fascination, carry you into sleep, the piano’s whisper still echoing softly in your ears.
For a moment, the world beyond the manor ceased to exist.
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ 𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓉 . ⊹ ₊ ݁. Enemies to Friends to Lovers- Enemies to Lovers - Touch-Starved Verso - Emotional/Psychological Abuse - Loneliness - Alternate Universe / Canon Divergence - The Dessendre Family Needs Therapy (Clair Obscur: Expedition 33) - Verso Needs a Hug - Depressed Verso - Reader is a journalist - Very rare use of Y/n - Smut will come later
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ 𝓈𝓊𝓂𝓂𝒶𝓇𝓎 . ⊹ ₊ ݁. When a bold letter earns Y/n, a young art journalist, a month-long stay at the legendary Dessendre Manor, she expects to document the genius of Renoir and Aline Dessendre—the most enigmatic artistic duo in France.
What she doesn’t expect is their son.
Verso Dessendre—brilliant pianist, reluctant heir, walking contradiction.
Their first meeting is a disaster: she mistakes him for a staff member, he flirts—then freezes the moment he learns her purpose. “Ah. One of those,” he says, and the war begins.
But beneath the manor’s gilded ceilings and flickering shadows, hostility twists into fascination. Late-night encounters grow charged, secrets unravel, and the piano begins to sound different when she’s near.
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‘Our ‘almost’ will always haunt me.’
The Dessendre Manor rose at the end of the gravel drive like something pulled from a painting you’d once studied under the soft yellow lamps of your university library—impressive, yes, but in the way thunderstorms were impressive: beautiful from the distance, overwhelming once you stood beneath their weight.
It was a house that carried its history not as decoration but as gravity, its symmetrical façade and tall, austere windows watching you with the same heavy expectation as a museum guard standing a little too close to remind you not to touch anything. Others spoke of it with reverence, as if stepping inside was akin to entering a cathedral carved from artistry and genius. And perhaps, in a way, it was.
But as you stood at the foot of the manor with your suitcase trembling slightly in your hand, the feeling that threaded up your spine was not awe—it was an intricate blend of dread and disbelief.
Only a week ago, the idea of being invited into this place would have made you laugh in that slightly hysterical way reserved for impossible dreams. You had always admired the Dessendres’ work from the respectful distance of a student—Aline’s sharp, delicate lines that seemed to breathe on the canvas, Renoir’s deep colors that felt like you could step into them and be swallowed whole.
You had written essays about them that your professors praised, had spent long nights tracing the evolution of their styles from early exhibitions to private collections, had once even joked that you’d sell your soul for a glimpse into their studio. And then, with the kind of reckless boldness born from equal parts desperation and passion, you had written the letter.
A letter too direct, your friends had said. Too presumptuous. Too forward.
A letter in which you dared to express not only your fascination, but your belief that it would be a tragedy—yes, you had written the word, and yes, you still flushed at the memory—to allow their artistry to fade into fragmented anecdotes simply because they disliked Writers—and that journalists were different.
You had told them that their process deserved to be preserved, that their devotion deserved a witness, and that you, humble as you were, would be honored to be that witness. You had imagined the letter tossed into the fire.
Or worse—read aloud in a mocking tone over dinner.
You had never imagined Renoir Dessendre himself replying.
You reread his invitation so many times the ink practically warmed under your thumb, each line more impossible than the last. A month-long stay. Full access to the atelier. Documentation for a cultural journal and, perhaps—he had written gracefully, almost offhandedly—an artistic recueil if the collaboration proved fruitful.
It had felt too unreal to believe. Now, standing before the looming manor, its shadow stretching long across the wintry lawn, it felt almost too real to bear.
You drew in a breath that tasted faintly of frost and old stone, squared your shoulders, and stepped toward the heavy doors—doors that would open you into the world of Aline and Renoir Dessendre, into their sanctuary of creation. Unaware, of course, that it would also open you into the path of the one person in this house who would have rather slammed those doors shut.
The door opened with the soft groan of old hinges, releasing a breath of warm air scented faintly with polished wood and something floral you couldn’t name. A housekeeper—stern-faced, impeccably dressed, and far more elegant than anyone had a right to be while answering a door—looked you over with the composed precision of someone who had seen decades of guests and could sort them instantly into categories you were certain you didn’t want to know.
Before you could muster a greeting that didn’t sound like you were about to apologize for your own existence, a familiar voice called from deeper inside the foyer.
“Ah, mademoiselle Y/n! You’ve arrived. Finally! I was beginning to fear the train had decided to keep you for itself.”
Renoir Dessendre appeared with the kind of presence that seemed to draw the room toward him. Not through force or intimidation—though he certainly could have commanded both—but through warmth, genuine and unguarded, the kind you hadn’t expected from a man whose name carried the weight of museums, collectors, and whispered genius.
He strode toward you, cane in hand, with a smile that crinkled the corners of his eyes, his hair more silver than the portraits you’d studied, but somehow he looked more alive than any image had captured. He took your hand, as if greeting an old friend rather than an untested journalist who had practically begged her way into his home.
“Welcome, welcome. You must be frozen.” His voice carried a melodic cadence, softened by years of speaking over the scratch of brushes and the hum of creativity. “Come in quickly before the cold decides to steal you.”
You stepped inside, the door shutting behind you with a quiet finality. The manor swallowed you in its grandeur—the high ceilings, the dark wooden beams, the glint of art deco fixtures catching the light like scattered stars. It was beautiful. It was overwhelming. It was exactly what you had dreamed and nothing like anything you had been prepared for.
Renoir kept speaking as he guided you further inside, his hand still lightly at your elbow, as though you might drift away if he didn’t anchor you. “We’re very glad you’re here. Aline has been restless all day, asking every hour if you’ve arrived. She does not like waiting.” He chuckled, but there was a note of truth beneath it.
Your heart stumbled slightly at the mention of her.
Aline Dessendre.
The woman whose work had shaped entire movements. The razor-souled artist whose gaze in photographs always seemed two seconds away from slicing through whoever held the camera. The countless stories you’d heard floated up without invitation—her sharp tongue, her perfectionism, her disdain for critics.
You had always assumed that fame carved pieces out of people until only brilliance—or ego—remained.
That the price of renown was humanity, that the higher one climbed, the more you had to shed. The Dessendres were legends, myths almost. Too extraordinary to be ordinary, too prolific to be gentle. You had never dared imagine warmth from them. Yet here Renoir was, beaming at you with the easy sincerity of a man welcoming someone into a family home rather than into the private sanctum of two artistic giants.
“Come,” he said, guiding you toward the heart of the manor. “Aline will want to see you immediately.”
You barely had time to take in more than a blur of polished wood, gilded frames, and the hush of old luxury before Renoir was already guiding you down a long corridor, his pace brisk enough that you had to gather your suitcase closer to your side and hurry to match him.
Every instinct in you wanted to slow down, to absorb every detail, to memorize the geometry of the staircase and the way the winter light fractured through the tall windows—but admiration would have to wait. Renoir Dessendre moved with the certainty of a man whose life had been spent in motion, answering inspiration as it struck, expecting others to simply keep up.
You swallowed your awe and followed.
“Thank you,” you managed, breath slightly unsteady from nerves more than speed. “Truly, monsieur Dessendre, I can’t express how grateful I am for—”
“Nonsense,” he interrupted, waving a paint-stained hand dismissively. “If anyone should be grateful, it is us. Your letter was the first honest one we’ve received in years. No flattery, no pretension. Just curiosity.” His smile deepened. “Curiosity is something we value here.”
You weren’t sure whether to preen at the compliment or shrink under the pressure of what it implied. So you simply nodded, trying to convey sincerity rather than the internal chaos spiraling inside you.
Renoir led you through another hallway that opened into a wing stretching deeper into the manor. The air thickened with the unmistakable scents of turpentine, linseed oil, chalk dust, and wet pigment—the perfume of creation. Your pulse quickened. This was it. The heart of the house.
“The atelier is just ahead,” he said as he pushed open a tall door, “Aline insisted you see it before anything else. She believes a person’s first impression of a studio reveals something fundamental about them.”
You tried very hard not to read too much into that. “And she is… expecting me right now?” you asked, suddenly aware of how your palms were sweating despite the chill outside.
“Expecting, waiting—there is little difference with my wife.” Renoir chuckled, but there was a flicker of apprehension in his eyes, the kind a man gets when he loves someone formidable.
You clutched the strap of your bag a little tighter.
“Still,” you whispered, almost tripping on the final step as the atelier door swung open wider, “thank you so much for this opportunity. I… I won’t take a second of it for granted.”
Renoir paused just inside the threshold and turned back toward you, his expression softening into something almost paternal. “I know you won’t. That is why you are here.”
And with that, he stepped aside. So you could see everything.
The atelier opened before you like a cathedral of color and light—wide, high-ceilinged, flooded with the pale Parisian sun. Canvases leaned in regimented rows along the walls, half-finished portraits staring back with uncanny lifelike gazes. Pigments dusted every surface like settled stardust. It was grandiose, overwhelming, the sort of room that swallowed sound and expectation whole.
And at its center stood Aline Dessendre.
She didn’t turn immediately. She didn’t need to. Her presence filled the space long before her gaze did—cold, poised, composed with a precision that could cut. Where Renoir radiated warmth in every gesture, Aline was winter distilled into a woman. Dark hair bound in a severe knot, a pearl-buttoned blouse without a single crease, eyes the color of polished steel sliding toward you in a slow, appraising movement.
Whatever stories you had heard about her—her ruthlessness, her genius, her exacting standards—they suddenly felt less like gossip and more like simple reportage. You swallowed discreetly, steadying your voice before it could betray nerves. “Madame Dessendre,” you managed, offering the smallest, respectful incline of your head, “thank you for agreeing to let me observe your process. It’s an honor to meet you.”
Her expression didn’t soften. It didn’t change at all. A fleeting glance traveled from your shoes to your eyes, measuring, weighing, discerning something you couldn’t guess.
Renoir chimed cheerfully beside you, as though to cushion the impact. “She’s eager, Aline. Very professional. I think you’ll enjoy having her around.”
Aline’s gaze held yours for a beat longer—too long—before she replied, her tone smooth but glacial. “We’ll see.” The words were neither welcome nor rejection. Just a verdict deferred.
You forced a steady breath, spine straightening, refusing to let awe or intimidation carve the first impression you gave her. So you met her cold stare with quiet resolve, offering a faint, polite smile. “I’m looking forward to learning from the both of you.”
Renoir drifted deeper into the atelier, already shedding his coat and rolling up his sleeves, but Aline’s attention flicked toward him as though cued by instinct. They exchanged a few quiet words—efficient, practiced, the cadence of two people who had spent a lifetime creating both art and empire side by side.
“Her room?” Renoir asked, glancing back at you with a warm, reassuring smile. “I was thinking the east wing—good light in the mornings, close enough to the atelier so she won’t have to cross the whole house every day.”
Aline wiped her fingertips on a linen cloth, eyes narrowing slightly in thought. “No,” she countered, tone cool but not unkind. “The east wing is occupied.”
Renoir raised a brow. “Since when?”
“Since yesterday evening.” Aline didn’t sigh—but something wry ghosted over her lips. “Verso arrived unannounced again.”
There was no mistaking the subtle change in her voice when she spoke her son’s name. The frost in her tone thawed, replaced by something soft and fond—an undercurrent of maternal indulgence she did not bother hiding.
Renoir chuckled, shaking his head. “He said he wouldn’t be back until next month.”
Aline’s answer was immediate, almost automatic. “He changed his mind.”
She continued, straightening with a kind of regal decisiveness. “Put her in the south corridor. The guest room with the balcony. It is far enough from Verso’s space that he won’t complain.”
Then, as though the memory of him opened a tiny window into her warmth, Aline allowed herself a faint, almost imperceptible smile. “You know how he is when he composes. He prefers not to be disturbed.”
Renoir laughed, bright and affectionate. “Prefers? No—he demands it.”
Aline’s eyes sharpened in amusement. “He is brilliant. Let him be eccentric.”
You stood quietly, absorbing their exchange—this glimpse of domestic familiarity behind the legend. The way Aline’s voice softened when she spoke of her son was unmistakable, a warmth she hadn’t extended to anyone else in the room. It was striking… and unexpectedly humanizing.
Renoir turned back to you with a gentle clap of his hands.
“Perfect. We’ll show you your room once Aline finishes her mix here. Make yourself at home, mademoiselle.”
Aline nodded once in acknowledgment, already returning to her palette—her world of color—and yet the echo of “Verso” lingered in the air, a name carrying weight, fondness, and, perhaps, complications you had not yet begun to understand.
—
You didn’t do much on your first day—or rather, they did not give you much to do.
Renoir and Aline worked with a kind of intensity that left little room for conversation, their focus so honed it felt almost sacrilegious to interrupt. So you lingered quietly at the edge of the atelier, notebook closed, observing the way their brushes moved, the rhythm of their speech, the strange and silent language only artists of equal genius seemed to share.
By the time the sun began tilting toward evening, your presence had become part of the background, a tolerated shadow against the wall. A housekeeper eventually approached you with a polite smile and informed you that you could settle into your room before dinner as he took your bags gracefully.
Renoir, wiping his hands on a paint-stained cloth, repeated his directions—down the main hall, left at the staircase, follow the corridor with the gold sconces, and the dining room will be just past your quarters—as though he’d been giving tours of the manor his entire life.
You thanked him, and slipped out of the atelier.
The manor’s corridors stretched long and velvety around you, dressed in deep colors and gold accents, as if every wall carried the weight of a century. You walked slowly, half in awe, half trying to commit each turn to memory. Renoir’s instructions guided you true, and after a few minutes you pushed open the tall door leading into what looked less like a “living area” and more like an entire salon—wide windows, dark wood floors, and an elegant table set for far more people than you assumed would actually dine there.
Only one chair was occupied.
A teenage girl sat perched at the long table, legs swinging under her seat. She couldn’t have been more than fourteen or fifteen, with ginger hair neatly braided down her back and a posture far too poised for someone her age. Her eyes—sharp, curious, and unmistakably Dessendre—lifted from the book before her the moment she heard your step. You froze for half a second.
She blinked at you. You blinked back.
Then, with a calmness and manners that suggested rigorous training, the girl closed her book and folded her hands on the table. “You must be the journalist,” she said, voice soft but precise, as though reciting a line she had memorized perfectly. Alicia Dessendre—there was no doubt.
You nodded gently and offered her a small, uncertain smile before taking the seat across from her. The chair was heavier than it looked, its polished wood groaning softly against the parquet floor. As if your presence alone had been the signal they were waiting for, a housekeeper appeared from a side door almost instantly, gliding forward with a tray of steaming dishes. Silverware chimed softly as plates were set before you both, the manor’s quiet breathing filling the spaces between sounds.
Alicia didn’t reach for her fork. She watched you instead, her pale blue eyes—so like Aline’s, so like Renoir’s—shining with a strange mix of curiosity and resignation.
“Is it… only us for dinner?” you asked gently, trying to keep your tone neutral, polite. You didn’t want to pry, but the emptiness of such a large room felt impossible to ignore.
Alicia gave a small, practiced shrug, the movement too elegant for someone her age but too weary to be anything but familiar. “I usually eat alone,” she said simply.
Your heart dipped.
She went on with an eerie calmness, as if reporting on the weather. “Papa and Maman are always working. They say it’s easier to keep painting while they’re in the flow. They don’t like to stop.”
You thought back to the atelier—how the Dessendres seemed to merge with their canvases, devoured by creation. Alicia’s eyes dropped briefly to her untouched plate. “And Cléa is away for the week. She doesn’t like being here when they’re working on a big project.”
There was a small pause before she added the last part, quieter, though not for lack of confidence—rather, it felt like a confession wrapped in inevitability. “And Verso… he won’t come. Not if there’s a chance he’ll run into them.” The way she said his name—Verso—held a peculiar warmth, a softening around the syllables that didn’t match the tension you’d sensed from Aline earlier.
“So,” Alicia concluded, lifting her fork at last with a delicate sigh, “it’s just me. I hope it’s fine for you.” Alicia’s fork scraped softly against the porcelain as she finally took a small bite. You followed her lead, though your appetite felt dulled by the weight of her words, by the cavernous quiet of the room.
A flicker of protectiveness stirred in you—unexpected, instinctive—at the sight of this graceful, quiet girl speaking of loneliness as if it were simply part of the family architecture. You rested your hands lightly on the edge of the table, keeping your voice gentle.
“Well,” you said, offering her a warmer smile, “I don’t mind sharing dinner with you, if you don’t mind sharing with me.”
Alicia paused mid-bite. Her pale blue eyes lifted, studying you. Then, subtly, her shoulders eased.“I don’t mind,” she said. “You’re… different from the others who come here.”
You raised an eyebrow. “Others?”
“Journalists. Collectors. People who want something from us.”
She stabbed a piece of roasted carrot, then added lightly, “They never talk to me.”
That struck deeper than you wanted it to.
“Well, that’s their loss,” you replied with a cheerful smile. “You seem like the most interesting person in the house.”
Alicia blinked—surprised, or maybe simply unused to being addressed as anything other than an afterthought. A faint flush touched her cheeks; it made her look her age for the first time.
“What about you?” she asked. “Why did you come? You don’t look like someone who chases fame.”
You let out a soft breath, taken aback by her perceptiveness. “I… came because your parents’ work deserves to be remembered properly. Because artists like them don’t come around often.”
Alicia held your gaze, “And because you love art,” she added quietly.
Your lips parted. “Yes,” you admitted. “A lot.”
Alicia nodded, as if confirming something she had suspected all along.
There was a small silence—comfortable, almost fragile—before she continued, her voice dipping conspiratorially: “If you’re staying here a month… you’ll see him eventually.”
“Verso?” you asked, careful not to let your curiosity color the word too much.
She nodded. “He says he hates this place. But he always comes back.”
“Why?”
Alicia looked down at her plate, and for the first time, the practiced poise wavered.
“Because I’m here,” she murmured.
It was so soft you almost missed it.
—
Alicia grew unexpectedly talkative as the meal unfolded, as though something inside her had quietly unlocked. Once the initial formality dissolved, she spoke with a soft eagerness, telling you which hallways creaked at night, which portraits were rumored to move slightly when the lights were dimmed, and how the gardens seemed to breathe differently after rain.
She told you about Cléa—how her older sister was brilliant but restless, always fleeing the manor with the speed of someone running from her own reflection. She spoke, too, of their parents’ obsession with perfection, how it swallowed days, meals, birthdays, and sometimes entire seasons without warning.
And she laughed a little, shyly, when you asked about the elegant piano you’d passed.
“That’s Verso’s,” she said. “He plays at night. Always at night.”
A pause. “He says the piano listens better when the house sleeps.”
By the time dessert plates were cleared away, you realised the oppressive silence you had expected from the manor had been replaced, at least for now, by Alicia’s quiet company. When you both finally rose from the table, she walked with you through the long hallway, the chandelier above scattering soft amber light over the parquet floor.
“My room is the closest to yours,” she explained, pointing down a narrower corridor. “Mama says it’s good for me to be near the guest wing. It teaches me manners.”
Her tone suggested she was unconvinced of this reasoning, but she smiled anyway, small and sincere. You returned the smile, grateful for this fragile bridge she was offering.
You said goodnight softly.
Alicia retreated to her door, pausing once to glance back at you before slipping inside.
The corridor fell silent.
You took a slow breath and continued walking toward your own room, trying to memorize the layout: the tall windows drowning in heavy curtains, the sculpted wall panels, the faint scent of old books and linseed oil that seemed embedded in the air.
Renoir’s directions had been clear, but the manor’s scale made you second-guess every turn. You passed a series of closed doors, each identical in its ornate frame, until finally—you reached yours.
Or at least, you hoped you did.
You tested the handle.
Locked.
Odd. Renoir had said—
A soft sigh escaped you. Perhaps you had mixed something up after all.
You turned around, scanning the dim corridor for help. The sconces flickered faintly, casting long shifting shadows on the walls. Just as you were debating which direction to take, footsteps approached from the darker end of the hall. Steady. Unhurried. You straightened instinctively.
A figure emerged from the shadows—tall, broad-shouldered, dressed not in the crisp uniform, in simple dark clothes that could have belonged to anyone in the house. His hair fell in soft dark waves around his face, catching the low light like strands of fire, and in the dim glow, his eyes—icy pale, unmistakably Dessendre eyes—seemed almost luminescent.
But you didn’t notice that at first.
You noticed the way he moved: effortlessly, noiselessly, like someone familiar with every secret step of the manor. “Bonsoir,” you said, relieved. “Excuse me—could you help me? Renoir must have given me the wrong room key.”
For a heartbeat, he didn’t answer. He simply looked at you, head slightly tilted, as if cataloguing the sight of you—your presence in his corridor, your misplaced confidence, your mistake.
Then— A slow curve of his lips. Not polite. Not warm. Amused.
“I’m not staff, I don't wander around with a spare set of keys. You can imagine how heavy it would be in my pocket.” he said, voice low and smooth.
You blinked. Heat rushed to your cheeks. “Oh—my apologies, I didn’t mean—”
He raised a hand, silencing your apology without saying a word, still wearing that faint, entertained half-smile. He stepped closer, leaning one shoulder casually against the wall beside your locked door, as though he had every right to occupy your air, your space, your breath.
You hesitated under his gaze, embarrassed by the mistake but grateful he hadn’t laughed outright. His smile—lazy, crooked, undeniably handsome—made him look far softer than the rumors suggested. If anything, he seemed amused in a way that felt… oddly intimate, as though your error had given him a private joke to savor.
“I truly am sorry,” you said, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. “I didn’t mean to assume. I’m still learning my way around the house.”
“That much is obvious,” he replied, a soft huff of laughter warming his voice. “Most guests get lost at least twice before dinner.”
His tone surprised you—light, teasing, almost kind. He didn’t seem bothered by your presence at all; if anything, he seemed entertained by it. He leaned toward you, the faintest hint of cologne following him—something dark, woodsy, threaded with smoke.
When he leaned a little nearer, his eyes swept over your face with a curiosity that felt… deliberate.
Measured.“You’re new,” he said, as if that explained everything.
“Yes,” you replied. “Only arrived today.”
“Well,” he murmured, “that means you haven’t yet learned which hallways to avoid after dusk.”
A playful glint entered his eyes. “Like this one.”
Your breath caught. “Should I be worried?”
He tilted his head slightly, as if considering you. Then, softly: “Only if you’re easily frightened.”
You weren’t sure whether that was a warning or a provocation.
He chuckled when he saw your reaction, a low, rich sound that hummed pleasantly in the quiet corridor. He looked—just for that moment—nothing like the rumors. Nothing like the cold, storm-eyed son of two geniuses.
He looked almost gentle. Almost boyish.
“You don’t seem scared,” he added. “That’s good.”
“I’m not,” you said, surprising even yourself.
He smiled again, slower this time, and something warm flickered between the two of you—unexpected, uninvited, but undeniably real. He straightened, his posture relaxed, one hand sliding into his pocket as though settling in to prolong this strange, accidental meeting.
“So,” he asked lightly, “what brings you to our charming maze of a home? Don’t tell me you’re here for the wine—my mother guards the cellar like a dragon.”
You smiled back without thinking. “No, nothing like that. I’m here to—”The moment the words left your mouth, his expression began to shift, but you didn’t notice until it was too late.“—document your parents’ work. Renoir invited me for a month-long stay. I’m a journalist.”
Silence.
It was immediate.
Electric.
His smile didn’t fade. It disappeared. Completely.
The warmth vanished from his eyes, replaced by something you couldn’t read—ice, steel, shadow. He pulled back—not physically, but in the way a door slams shut behind someone walking away.
The air cooled. “Ah,” he said quietly. No humor. No softness.
Just recognition dripping with disdain. “One of those.”
His tone wasn’t raised, but the disappointment in it struck harder than if he had shouted. As though he had allowed himself—for a fleeting, careless moment—to enjoy your company, and now regretted it bitterly.
You straightened, instinct tightening your spine. “I’m not sure what that means,” you said, careful, controlled.
He pushed off the wall with the lazy grace of someone who did not need to hurry for anyone. “Of course you do.” You opened your mouth to retort, but he continued, voice smooth as glass and twice as cold. “You’re here to poke at their genius with your little pen, write about their ‘process,’ and pretend you understand the world they live in.”
You bristled. “That’s not what I—”
“Oh?” His brows lifted, mocking curiosity sharpening his features. “Then what are you doing here? Enlighten me.”
There was a challenge in his eyes now, pale and cutting, and the warmth you’d briefly seen was gone, buried under something older and bitter. You sensed this was not about you—not entirely. You had stepped on an old wound without knowing it.
You held your ground.
“I’m here because their work deserves to be preserved. Because history deserves more than rumors and critiques.”
He let out a soft breath that was almost a laugh, except there was nothing humorous in it.
“History,” he repeated. “Yes. It always gets everything so perfectly wrong.”
You narrowed your eyes. “It doesn’t have to.”
He took a step closer—not enough to frighten, but enough that you felt the deliberate press of his presence. Enough that the air between you tightened, heated, even as his expression remained glacial.
“And you,” he murmured, voice dropping, “think you’re the one who’ll get it right?”
His nearness made your pulse stumble.
You refused to look away.
“I intend to,” you replied. “And if that bothers you, that sounds like your problem, not mine.”
The corner of his mouth twitched—not a smile, but the shadow of one, dark and dangerous.
“Bold,” he said. “I’ll give you that.”
“It’s called doing my job.”
“No,” he corrected softly, eyes tracing your face with an intensity that made your breath hitch despite your irritation. “It’s called arrogance.”
You exhaled sharply. “And judging someone you just met is called what, exactly?”
For a moment—just a brief, crackling instant—you saw it again: the warmth behind the frost, a glimmer of amusement trying to break through, fighting with irritation.
Then he stepped back, the wall sliding down between you once more.
“You’re in the wrong room,” he said curtly, all the softness of earlier carved away. “Yours is two doors down.”
You stiffened. “Thank you.”
He didn’t move. Didn’t offer to show you the way. He simply watched you pass, gaze following you with something unreadable—annoyance, curiosity, or perhaps that same fleeting warmth he was trying very hard to suffocate.
Just as you reached the correct door, he spoke again, his voice lower, almost begrudging:
“Next time,” he murmured, “try not to get lost.”
You didn’t turn back. “If you don’t want to be mistaken for staff,” you shot over your shoulder, “try not lurking in dark hallways.”
A beat of silence. Then—very soft, very reluctant— “…Touché.”
You slipped into your room, heart unsteady, cheeks warm, breath tight. The door clicked shut behind you.And despite the tension, the irritation, the sharp edges—you couldn’t deny the truth.
Your first night in the Dessendre Manor had become far more interesting than you expected.
i love your series so much!! i hope you'll continue to finish it <33 because now im getting sucked back into my silent hill 2 hyperfixation again after reading the recent chapter
Ahh thank you so much!! <33 I knew taking a break might affect things a bit, especially now that the SH2 remake hype has cooled down… but honestly, I’m just so grateful for the support and love this story keeps receiving. It means everything to see people getting pulled back into it with me. I’m definitely planning to continue and finish it! Thank you for sticking around!!
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ 𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓉 . ⊹ ₊ ݁. alternate universe - canon divergence, post-silent Hill 2, angst and fluff and smut, touch-starved, redemption, grief, mourning, psychological trauma and horror, mutual pining, James adopted Laura, age difference, smut, vaginal sex, rough sex, rough kissing, aftercare, daddy kink, James deserves his happy ending, James is desperate and pathetic, based on the Silent Hill Games and mostly the remake
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ 𝓈𝓊𝓂𝓂𝒶𝓇𝓎 . ⊹ ₊ ݁. Haunted by a strange dream and the name Silent Hill, you search for answers online and uncover the story of that town and Mary Shepherd-Sunderland. As unsettling coincidences pile up, you begin to question James’ past and your own instincts.
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➜ ┊ a/n: This chapter drained me more than I expected—mentally, emotionally, creatively. It took a different shape than the others, more focused on moving the plot forward than lingering in the emotional state of James towars Y/n. And truthfully, I’m feeling a little uncertain about it.
It’s a shift, and shifts are always risky. I can only hope it still resonates in its own way and doesn't disappoint you. Thank you for reading, for trusting me with your time and attention! Your support means everything, especially through the chapters that challenge me most.
➜ ┊: chapter 8/?.
The first thing you felt was the weight of the sheets tangled around your limbs, warm and familiar, the scent of sun and salt still clinging faintly to your skin—a ghost of yesterday’s laughter by the sea. The morning light filtered through the curtains in a sleepy golden hush, painting the room in soft honeyed tones, but even that serene glow could not quite push away the remnants of your dream.
Your breath caught in your throat as your eyes blinked open, your chest still tight with the echoes of voices not your own.
“Silent Hill…”
The name carried an eerie weight, as if merely thinking it disturbed something ancient and forgotten within you. The syllables pulsed like a bruise beneath your skin—known and unknown all at once. You stared at the ceiling, unmoving, the memory of those words etched across the inside of your skull in invisible ink that refused to fade.
“When you are ready… you will understand.”
The voice had been neither comforting or threatening—just… waiting. Patient. Like something watching you through a keyhole, knowing eventually you’d turn the handle yourself.
And then, the last whisper—barely audible yet the one that gripped your heart the tightest:
“Help us…”
You turned slowly onto your side, your fingers tightening around the pillow as you tried to grasp the feeling before it slipped too far from your conscious mind. It wasn’t just a nightmare. You knew the difference. This had been something else entirely. A message, maybe. Or a memory not quite yours.
A reaching hand from some place shadowed and strange?
Your throat felt dry as you swallowed back the unease curling in your stomach, and you drew your knees up toward your chest beneath the blankets. A breeze stirred the curtain, and for a moment, it almost sounded like a voice again.
You held your breath—but nothing followed.
The beach, the sea, the sun—those had been real, right? James, standing beside you, watching the waves with a look you couldn’t decipher. His hand in yours. His voice low with affection. The glint of something lighter in his eyes when he smiled, like he was trying to convince himself this happiness was allowed.
That had been real. Hadn’t it?
You rubbed your temple, frustration blooming beneath your skin. Part of you wanted to shake off the dream like sand from your feet, to bury it under the warm weight of James’ arms and the steadiness of his gaze. But another part—deep, buried, pulsing like a second heartbeat—was beginning to wonder.
Wonder what he was still keeping from you.
Wonder if there were truths waiting in the dark, wearing the shape of dreams.
You exhaled slowly and sat up, the sheets falling away from your shoulders as your fingers reached for the robe draped at the end of the bed. Today was meant to be peaceful, quiet—yesterday’s promise of something new stretching into now. But as your toes touched the floor, cold against warm skin, a shiver rippled through you.
That name lingered still.
Silent Hill.
It echoed in your bones.
And though you had no idea what it meant, something inside you already knew:
You would find out.
The familiar hiss of the kettle grounded you more than anything else had that morning. You moved through the kitchen on instinct, barefoot on cool tile, your robe drawn tight around you like a shield. The air still clung with the aftertaste of that dream—those whispers echoing in places logic had no business inhabiting. But you pushed through it, grounding yourself in the ritual: mug, spoon, sugar, cream.
Your hands were steady now, even if your mind wasn’t.
You weren’t someone prone to vivid dreams. Most nights passed in quiet, shapeless sleep, and when you did remember anything, it was usually mundane—fragments of lesson plans, half-finished grocery lists, maybe a forgotten conversation looping back in. But this… this was something else. Too sharp. Too detailed. The way the fog had moved like it was alive. The way the town had felt—empty yet watching. The looming weight of it. Of him.
Pyramid Head.
You didn’t even know how you knew to call him that. The name hadn’t been spoken in the dream, and yet you’d woken up with it lodged in your mind like a sliver of ice. A man—no, a creature—tall and silent, dragging something behind him, faceless but unforgettable. Your fingers trembled slightly as you brought the cup to your lips, the warmth anchoring you in the now. But it did little to stop the disquiet.
You leaned against the counter, staring out the kitchen window at the world that remained blessedly real. The wind stirred the leaves. A car passed. Somewhere down the street, someone walked their dog. Life, in all its ordinary detail, continued. But something inside you had shifted.
You’d spent years as a teacher—shaping young minds, offering comfort to frightened ones. You’d heard countless stories from children about the monsters in their closets, the shadows under their beds. You’d always listened patiently, even smiled, and helped them pick apart their fears.
A dream is just your brain’s way of processing, you’d told them. Maybe it’s something you’re scared of in real life. Maybe your brain just made it up, and that’s okay too. Nightmares can’t hurt you.
You weren’t sure you believed that anymore.
Because this hadn’t felt like your brain making something up. It felt like your brain was remembering something you hadn’t lived through. Or reaching for something you weren’t yet meant to understand.
The strange part wasn’t even the horror of it—it was how the dream had felt. Not terrifying. Not even really nightmarish. Just… wrong. Heavy. And underneath the unease, a question curled at the edge of your thoughts like smoke: Why me?
You took another sip of coffee and let the warmth settle somewhere deep in your chest. You weren’t the type to believe in omens. Or ghosts. Or cursed towns. But you did believe in patterns. In meaning. In the idea that sometimes, questions were just waiting for the right moment to be asked.
Understanding was part of your job, wasn’t it?
And this—this strange dream, this name that kept repeating itself like a warning—was clearly something you were meant to understand.You weren’t ready to admit you believed in it yet.
But maybe… you were ready to start learning.
Cradling the mug between both hands, you stood still for a moment, eyes drifting toward the corner of the living room where the bulky computer sat like an old sentinel—quiet, humming faintly with promise. The morning sun hadn’t quite reached it yet, the shadows of the room long and slow, making the grey shell of the machine look somehow even more outdated than it already was. And yet, it beckoned.
You sighed softly.
The machine had been installed by the school board a few months back, meant to make your lesson planning more “efficient.” A word they tossed around often, as if technology could replace the time it took to understand a child’s mind or tailor learning to their fears and fascinations. Still, you had to admit—it was convenient. You’d grown used to typing out your outlines, storing quizzes on floppy disks, even playing with fonts when you felt particularly inspired.
But this morning, as you slowly crossed the room, you knew you wouldn’t be opening up the week’s vocabulary list.
This wasn’t about the children. This was about you.
You lowered yourself into the stiff wooden chair, balancing your coffee on a coaster beside the keyboard. The screen stared back blankly, cursor blinking as if it, too, was waiting to see what you’d type. You felt strangely guilty—like sneaking into the school after hours, like rifling through a locked drawer labeled “DO NOT OPEN.”
After all, not everyone had this kind of access. The internet in 1993 wasn’t some omnipresent cloud you could breathe in with a click. It was limited, temperamental, painfully slow, and wrapped in wires and whirrs and the constant threat of disconnection. But it was there. And for once, it wasn’t for organizing a spelling bee or printing out worksheets on plant biology.
You hesitated, fingers hovering over the keys.
You weren’t even sure what you were looking for. Silent Hill. You could still hear it—those words tangled in the back of your mind like old string. Another sip of coffee, then you straightened your spine, rolling your shoulders back like you did before teaching a difficult topic.
You weren’t chasing monsters or ghosts. You were just… looking for answers.
Or maybe, deep down, you already knew what you’d find.
Your fingers pressed the first key.
There was a strange weight in your chest as you typed the words, each letter hesitant like they might trigger something best left sleeping. You pressed Enter and leaned back slightly, coffee warming your palms while your eyes remained fixed on the screen—unblinking, bracing.
The connection sputtered once. Twice. The sound of the modem in the next room buzzed faintly, a mechanical whine like a nervous breath caught in a throat. You hadn’t realized how tightly you were gripping the mug until the page finally loaded and you released a soft, startled laugh.
“Seriously?” you murmured to no one.
There, in bold optimistic font, sat the headline:
"Silent Hill, between lake and mountains—find joy in our resort!"
You stared at it, blinking.
A picture loaded slowly beneath the text—a grainy, overly bright photograph of a lakeside vista framed by misty green hills. There were families in the background, blurred and smiling, as if captured mid-laughter. A little girl with a sunhat. A man with fishing gear. No rust. No blood. No monsters with pyramid-shaped helmets.
You exhaled, finally, the laugh still lingering faintly on your lips. The tension in your shoulders began to drain as a smile crept in—half relief, half amusement at yourself. “All that for a damn brochure,” you muttered.
Maybe that dream had been your brain’s strange way of telling you to slow down. After all, you hadn’t taken any real time off since last summer, and even that had been swallowed up by workshops and lesson planning. And wasn’t it just like your subconscious to make its point in the most dramatic way possible?
You clicked another link, watching another image load—this time a dock reaching into the lake, mist curling over the water in soft white waves. Silent Hill, Maine. Well. Maybe it wasn’t some eldritch cry for help.
Maybe you just needed a vacation.
You sipped your coffee again, this time letting the warmth settle. The name still clung strangely to your thoughts, but in this context—in this quiet, almost charming advertisement—it felt harmless. Even inviting.
Silent Hill. Just a town, you told yourself. Just a place.
A beautiful one, if the pictures were to be believed.
Still… you couldn’t help but notice how thick the fog looked in that photo on the lake.
Relieved, and still a little amused by your own anxious imagination, you leaned back into the worn cushions of your armchair, balancing your mug in one hand while your other hovered above the keyboard. Curiosity, now freed from fear, had begun to itch. How had you never heard of Silent Hill before?
Granted, Maine was a long way from home, several states over and tucked along the far edge of a map you rarely had cause to consult. But still—a lakeside resort town nestled between mountains and fog, with a name as oddly poetic as Silent Hill? It felt like something you should’ve stumbled across in a travel magazine or overheard from a wandering guest speaker during one of the school’s endless enrichment weeks. And yet… nothing.
You typed a little more earnestly now, clicking through local travel listings. Most of the links were broken or archived, slow to load. But eventually, you found the Lakeview Hotel’s page—or what was left of it.
The banner stretched across the top showed a once-grand building overlooking the lake, its white balconies wrapped in mist, ivy curling around the columns like forgotten lace. It looked elegant in that faded, almost nostalgic way. You pictured yourself there—book in hand, windows open, listening to the hush of water and wind.
Perhaps with James and Laura by your side. It would be nice…
But as your eyes scanned the bottom of the screen, something tugged at the edges of that fantasy.
Vacancy. Again. And again.
Almost every date was free. Holidays. Weekends. Even the heart of summer. It wasn’t just quiet—it was deserted.
You frowned, refilling your coffee before following a string of newer links—searches pulling up obscure message boards and outdated forums, the kind you hadn’t seen since your undergrad days. Blurry avatars. Neon fonts. Flickering gifs. The digital equivalent of a half-whispered rumor in the back of a classroom.
That’s when the tone shifted.
The first post was titled “You Ever Been to Silent Hill?”. The second: “Places You Should Never Go Alone.”
You scrolled, slowly at first, then faster as the words bled into one another, unraveling whatever quaint image had been stitched into your mind. Theories. Stories. Warnings. The longer you read, the worse they became.
“Built on sacred land. Old land. Cursed land.”
“Portal to hell, no joke. Time runs weird there.”
“My cousin disappeared in 1978. They found her shoes on the highway. Nothing else.”
“Murder cults. Ritual stuff. Like… really bad shit.”
“People talk about ghosts, but it’s more than that. You ever heard a wall breathe?”
“Monsters. Ones that know your name.”
“Some say it’s aliens. Others say it’s your own guilt made real.”
“No one goes unless they’re called.”
You stared at the screen, skin crawling. Your mug sat cooling in your lap, forgotten.
For a long time, you didn’t scroll. You just sat there, the blue glow of the monitor soft against your skin, the weight of those last words sinking in like wet sand.
No one goes unless they’re called.
You thought again of your dream. The fog. The distant figure. The voice whispering from somewhere you couldn’t reach. And despite yourself, you whispered aloud, just to test the sound: “Silent Hill…”
The name didn’t feel so quaint now.
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By the time you reached the school, your fingers were still cold around the steering wheel despite the morning sun climbing steadily overhead. The parking lot was half-empty, quiet in the usual way—a few early parents dropping off sleepy-eyed children, the old flag above the entrance snapping faintly in the breeze. You sat there for a moment longer than necessary, watching it dance, as if it might offer some grounding logic where your thoughts refused to.
It’s nothing, you told yourself, pulling the keys from the ignition.
An overactive dream and too much coffee. A late night and a rabbit hole of nonsense. That's all.
The moment you stepped into the classroom, the familiar scent of crayon wax and dry eraser dust helped. You breathed it in like someone who had nearly forgotten where they were. This was your world—handwritten lesson plans, giggles echoing off poster-plastered walls, mismatched backpacks stacked in cubbies. This was real.
Not mist. Not blood. Not buried towns or breathing walls.
You moved through the morning trying to shake off the lingering dread, telling yourself again and again that if anything were truly wrong in that place—if—authorities would’ve intervened decades ago. It wouldn’t still be standing, smiling in travel brochures. Hell, there wouldn’t even be a brochure. No one would risk lives over tourism.
Besides, it wasn’t like you were going to drive all the way to Maine just to test a theory born from a half-remembered dream and a few hysterical forum posts. No town calls people. That was just a line people said to make their nightmares sound poetic.
And yet… you kept glancing at the windows as if expecting mist to roll across the playground.
Break time came, a brief relief filled with the shrieks of tag and sun-warmed benches. You sat with your cup, eyes shaded by your hand, pretending to watch the children as they ran through the sand pit and climbed the jungle gym.
It worked, for a while. You felt nearly yourself again.
Until a small shadow blocked the light in front of you.
“Miss Y/n?” came a voice—light and hesitant.
You looked down. Laura.
She stood with her arms tucked behind her back, the freckles across her nose bunched with worry. “You’re not smiling,” she said, quieter now. “Didn’t you like the beach yesterday?”
The question cut through you like a whisper against skin.
You blinked, caught off guard. “Of course I did,” you replied, softening your voice. “I loved it.”
She looked unconvinced. “You’ve got that look again,” she said. “The one you had when I told you about my scary dream last month. Like something’s wrong, but you won’t say it.”
There was no malice in her tone. Only a child’s perceptive ache.
You felt your breath catch. You hadn’t realized you’d worn your worry so openly.
“I just didn’t sleep well,” you told her gently. “That’s all. Grown-ups get silly dreams too sometimes.”
She tilted her head. “Was yours scary?”
You opened your mouth, paused. Closed it again.
How could you explain a dream that had felt less like memory and more like prophecy?
“Not scary,” you finally said. “Just… strange.”
Laura nodded, the kind of nod that said she didn’t believe you but would let it rest—for now. She stepped forward and, without a word, slipped her small hand into yours.
You squeezed it. And for a moment, it helped.
But… Only for a moment, because you shouldn’t have said it.
You knew that the moment the words formed in your chest.
But they sat there all morning like a stone beneath the skin, aching, pressing, impossible to ignore.
So you did something reckless.
You waited until the children had settled from the chaos of recess, most of them gathered around the art table or quietly flipping through picture books. Laura, ever content to linger by your side, had followed you back to your desk, humming some half-remembered tune under her breath.
And then, when no one was paying attention—when it was just the two of you in the corner of that sunny, laminated world—you looked down at her. “Laura,” you said softly.
She turned her face up to yours, blue eyes wide and open as always.
You hesitated. You almost didn’t say it. But then you did.
“…Do you know a place called Silent Hill?”
There was a beat. Then, her expression flickered. Surprise, first—her brows twitching slightly upward—but only for a moment. And then… she smiled. “Oh. That’s where I met James,” she said, as though you’d asked about a favorite holiday or memory of summer camp. “A long time ago.”
Your mouth went dry. Laura’s tone was casual, nostalgic even. But her words carved through you with eerie precision. You stared at her, uncertain whether to be frightened or… something else. Something deeper than fear.
Something you didn’t want to name.
“You… met him there?” you echoed.
For a moment, you couldn’t breathe.
You had known James had adopted her under strange circumstances. But he’d always been… evasive. Gentle, but firm, whenever the subject tiptoed too close. He didn’t like to talk about it before. And you, wanting to respect his boundaries, hadn’t pressed. You were a teacher. A professional. You understood trauma, and the way silence sometimes grew around it like a shell.
But things had changed lately, hadn’t they? It wasn’t just parent-teacher meetings and permission slips anymore.
You weren’t just her teacher anymore. And he wasn’t just her guardian.
We’re something else now, you thought. Aren’t we?
So why did it feel like they both still lived behind a door you hadn’t dared open?
You crouched slowly, bringing yourself to Laura’s height. Her eyes searched yours, a flicker of concern in them again—like she could sense your mood shifting. You managed a smile, soft but shaken. “Did you… ever go back?”
Laura tilted her head. “No,” she said simply. “James said we didn’t need to.”
You didn’t know why, but that answer chilled you more than anything else.
You squeezed Laura’s hand gently, unsure why your chest had begun to tighten. You hadn’t meant to ask anything more. You hadn’t meant to keep going. But something in her tone… something in that quiet certainty as she spoke of Silent Hill—like it was just another place on the map, not some black hole of online myths and urban horrors—made you feel as though you were already falling into it.
And then she said it, so casually you almost missed it.
“I knew James before Silent Hill.”
Your breath caught. “You did?” you asked softly.
She nodded, not even looking at you now, eyes instead drifting toward the sunlit window where the children outside were chasing bubbles. “Yeah. We met at St. Jerome’s Hospital. In Ashfield.”
The name meant nothing to you.
“I was there a long time after my parents died. It wasn’t a fun place.” She shrugged. “But Mary was nice. She used to draw with me. Read me stories.”
“…Mary, James’ late wife?” you echoed.
Laura smiled faintly. “Yes, Mary Sheperd-Sunderland. She was always sick, but she never complained. She talked about James a lot.” A pause. “But I didn’t like him.”
Your heart sank slowly through your chest. “Why… not?” you asked, trying to keep your voice level.
Laura’s lips twisted, not in malice but in the unfiltered honesty of a child who still hadn’t learned how to soften hard truths. “Because he didn’t visit her enough. She was always alone, and she was sad. She loved him, but I could tell it hurt. She’d talk like he was this wonderful man, but then say, ‘maybe tomorrow,’ when he didn’t come again. So I got mad at him. I didn’t want to meet him. Ever.”
Your gaze dropped to the floor. Your pulse was steady, but your throat felt dry, like dust had gathered there.
“But then,” she continued, quieter now, “when I went to Silent Hill… I wanted to find Mary. That’s why I went.”
She went there. Alone? No… no, she couldn’t have…
“But she wasn’t there,” Laura whispered. “Only James.”
The silence that followed felt impossibly wide.
You stared at her, at the little girl who had been so bright and strong since the first day you’d met her. Who ran faster than anyone else during gym class, who spoke with defiant pride during story circle, who had a softness for stray animals and pop music. And suddenly, she seemed older.
Not in her face, but in the spaces between her words. In the weight of what she didn’t say.
“I hated him so much,” she admitted, eyes still on the window. “At first. I thought—why is he here, and not her? I thought maybe he made her disappear.”
You swallowed. “…Did he?” you asked, voice barely above a breath.
Laura turned her head toward you. Her face was calm. Calm in a way no child’s should be when speaking of such things. “I don’t know,” she said honestly. “But I don’t hate him anymore.”
“Why not?”
“Because he stayed,” she said. “Even when it got bad. He stayed with me.”
She gave a small smile, but her fingers were clenched tightly around yours.
“I think,” she whispered, “we both lost her.”
You could hear the other children laughing somewhere nearby. The clatter of a pencil case dropping. A bell ringing faintly down the hall. But all of it sounded far away. You stared at Laura, at this strange little girl who had walked through more shadows than you had ever dared to imagine. And you thought of James. And of Silent Hill.
And for the first time, you felt something colder than curiosity.
You felt the sharp edge of knowing. And it scared you.
You stayed silent for a while after Laura’s last words. The sounds of the school faded in and out around you like waves—distant laughter, the rhythmic ticking of the hallway clock, the hum of afternoon sunlight through old windows. Your fingers fidgeted with the edge of your sleeve before you finally spoke.
“James talked about her once,” you said, your voice low, careful, as though uttering her name might summon something you weren’t ready for. “The first night I had dinner with you two. With the pizzas.”
Laura tilted her head.
You gave a weak smile. “He told me about Mary. That she’d been sick. That he... he lost her. He looked like it still hurt.”
Laura didn’t say anything. She only listened, the way children do when they sense something bigger than their own understanding is unfolding. You looked away for a moment, staring at the stripe of sunlight falling across the tile floor. “He brought her up a few more times. Not often. Not in detail. But he never…” Your voice faltered.
He never mentioned Silent Hill.
“He never told me about Silent Hill,” you admitted, quieter now.
Laura frowned, a soft pout pulling at her lips. “That’s weird.”
Your eyes flicked back to her.
“Mary said it was their special place,” she went on. “She told me James promised to take her back there once she was better. He said they'd go together.”
Your chest tightened, a strange mixture of guilt and something unspoken.
“But… he never did,” Laura added, more to herself than to you. Her voice was calm, but you could hear the echo of something raw beneath it. “She waited. She really thought he would.”
You didn’t know what to say.
In the quiet that followed, a strange kind of helplessness settled into your bones. You’d thought James had been honest with you. Maybe not about everything—what man ever was?—but enough. He’d let you in. He had told you about Mary, about grief. And in those long, breathless nights where nothing existed but skin and sweat and whispered names in the dark, you’d thought he’d shown you more of himself than he had to anyone.
But maybe… maybe not.
Maybe there were pieces of him still kept behind closed doors, places with names like Silent Hill.
Maybe Laura had just opened one of them without even realizing it.
You looked at her again—really looked. The clarity in her eyes. The quiet sadness. And suddenly, you felt so small. As if you were trying to build something—something warm and whole—with a man who might still be living in ruins. You were starting to realize: James had let you in.
But not all the way.
Not yet.
And maybe not ever.
Laura’s gaze had drifted down to her hands, fingers folding and unfolding the edge of her sleeve, as if she were debating something with herself. For a moment, you thought the conversation had come to an end, suspended in that strange, liminal space between past and present—the places we revisit only in memory, or through the stories of others. Then, quietly, she said, “Next time… I’ll bring the letter.”
Your breath hitched slightly, but you didn’t speak. You only looked at her, watching the shift in her expression—the way her lashes fluttered as if remembering something delicate and precious, something almost too sacred to name.
“Mary wrote it before she left the hospital,” Laura continued, still in that soft, almost reverent tone. “She gave it to me… I didn’t really understand all of it back then. But maybe now—maybe it could help. You could meet her. I mean, through her words.”
The sincerity in her voice twisted something sharp and tender inside you. You wanted to reach for her, to pull her into your arms and hold her there, not just for her sake, but for your own—for the comfort of something solid and real amidst all the shifting truths. But before you could move, Laura’s hand found yours instead.
Her small fingers curled around your own, warm and certain. You hadn’t even realized how tightly you’d been holding yourself together until she touched you. She looked up at you then, her blue eyes impossibly clear beneath the curtain of her hair. “James… he doesn’t talk a lot about feelings and stuff,” she said gently, almost like an apology. “But I can tell. Since you came around... I don’t think I’ve ever seen him smile like that. He’s different.”
A pause, just long enough for your heart to stutter. “He’s happy. With you.” Her fingers squeezed yours lightly, anchoring you. “And I think… you’d be a really great mom.”
Your eyes widened, and your lips parted with a breath that didn’t quite become words.
Laura’s cheeks flushed a pale pink as if she hadn’t entirely meant to say it aloud. “I’d like that,” she added, her voice barely above a whisper. “If you were my mom.”
And then, without waiting for your answer—perhaps out of shyness, perhaps out of fear of what she might see reflected in your eyes—she pulled her hand away and took off in a sudden burst of energy. Her shoes slapped against the linoleum as she ran toward the courtyard where the other children were already calling her name, their laughter floating on the breeze.
You remained seated, the imprint of her touch still tingling against your palm, your throat too tight for speech.
The world around you continued its gentle spin: the distant bark of a dog, the rustle of leaves against the windows, the slow exhale of the old school building. But everything felt different now, as if a veil had been lifted and you were seeing not just James in a new light, but yourself.
You weren’t prepared for this—for letters from the dead, for the echoes of promises broken in towns that may or may not exist.
The last bell had rung some time ago, yet you lingered near the school gates, your breath soft in the late afternoon air, warmed by the press of a sun already beginning its descent. Children filtered past in noisy clusters, their backpacks bouncing with each step, their voices high with the kind of joy only the end of a school day could inspire. You barely noticed them. Your gaze had fixed on the street just beyond the wrought iron fence, where familiar footsteps finally came into view.
James.
He moved through the crowd like someone half-anchored to the world, shoulders slightly hunched beneath his worn khaki jacket, his gait slow but purposeful. There was a faint smile on his face when his eyes caught yours—an effort, it seemed—but even that couldn’t mask the exhaustion clinging to him like a second skin. You could see it clearly now: the dark circles smudged like bruises beneath his grey eyes.
As though he’d spent the entire night chasing shadows in his sleep.
And still, you smiled. Softly. Gently. You wanted to reach for the man before you, not the memories, not the secrets, not the half-truths that clung to him like invisible fog. You didn’t want to be influenced by the strange dreams that had come last night—unsettling, fragmented, like distant echoes of something you weren’t supposed to hear—or by Laura’s innocent revelations, dropped like pebbles into the still pond of your understanding, rippling outward still.
So instead, you let him fall into step beside you.
When his gaze finally met yours, he offered a faint smile. Small. Cautious. But real. “Hey,” he murmured.
“Hi.” You returned it gently, falling into step beside him as the crowd of children and teachers slowly filtered away, the hum of after-school chatter fading behind you both. “Rough day?”
He huffed a soft breath through his nose. “You could say that.”
He laughed once—low and quiet—and gave you a look out of the corner of his eye, fond but tired. His answers were short, but present. You walked together slowly, side by side in the golden spill of light between the trees, as if the world hadn’t subtly shifted.
But it had. You felt it. You felt it in the way your thoughts kept circling, no matter how hard you tried to keep them still. You knew nothing about this man. Not really.
You didn’t know where he came from—not until Laura casually mentioned Ashfield. You didn’t know about his parents, or siblings, or if he had anyone at all waiting for him in the world beyond this town. You didn’t know what had brought him here. Why this place. Why now.
And perhaps worst of all, you realized… you were afraid to ask.
It wasn’t cowardice born of indifference. Quite the opposite. You cared enough about him to be terrified of what the answers might be. You had shared nights with him, laughter, warmth. Tender touches. You thought those things were the beginnings of knowing someone. But what if everything that mattered was still hidden behind a closed door?
You cleared your throat. “Laura seemed happy today.”
“She’s been doing better lately,” James said quietly. “More stable. Playful again.”
You nodded, and then after a moment biting your lips in hesitation, you added. “She told me about Mary.”
That made him pause. His eyes flicked toward you—sharp, searching. “She did?”
You offered a soft, almost apologetic smile. “Only a little. Just… how they knew each other. And how she used to talk about you.”
His expression shifted—tightened—and for a moment he looked away again, jaw moving slightly, as if working through something wordless. “She hated me back then,” he said finally, tone flat but not bitter. “I don’t blame her.”
There was a silence, the kind that lingered too long.
“She said Mary talked about you a lot,” you added gently.
At that, something flickered behind his eyes. Regret, maybe. Or guilt. It was hard to tell with James. His emotions were never loud—they were quiet things, buried deep under grief and weariness.
“I know,” he said softly.
You felt something strange tighten in your chest. You hadn’t meant to bring it up like this, not here. But the questions—so many questions—were spiraling inside you now. But you said none of it.
James looked at you then, really looked, and something in your silence must have spoken louder than words.
“I know I’m… closed off,” he said, almost a whisper. “And I haven’t even properly apologised for everything I did to you.”
You looked up at him, throat suddenly dry.
He hesitated. Then: “Would you come to my place Saturday night? I’d like to… talk. About us.”
His voice was steady, but beneath it, you could feel the current of fear—his own, and maybe yours too.
Still, you nodded.
And for the first time since the conversation began, his smile felt just a little less tired.
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The rain had returned that evening. Not in torrents, but in a steady, whispering hush against the windows, as if the sky was murmuring secrets to the glass. The house was quiet, save for the soft tick of the kitchen clock and the occasional creak of the old floorboards settling. Everything felt hushed, as though the world was holding its breath with you.
You sat curled on the sofa, a blanket drawn around your shoulders more out of comfort than warmth. Laura’s words were still fresh in your mind, but it was the folded paper she had slipped into your hand—clumsily, shyly, like it was a secret she wasn’t sure she should part with—that now rested in your lap. Fragile. Yellowed slightly with time.
Your fingers trembled slightly as you unfolded it. The ink had not faded. The script was neat, measured, with just enough curve to hint at kindness. Mary’s voice reached across time, across the veil of death, soft and clear like the brush of a hand through your hair.
My dearest Laura, I'm leaving this letter with Rachel to give to you after I'm gone…
Your breath caught. Already, there was that sharp edge of finality in the words. A farewell dressed in tenderness. You could see her—this woman you had never met—trying to hold back the looming dark for the sake of a little girl who once made her laugh.
I'm far away now. In a quiet, beautiful place.
The weight of it pressed gently against your chest. Not heavy. Just sorrowful.
Please forgive me for not saying goodbye before I left.
A sudden lump formed in your throat. You thought of Laura’s expression when she handed you the letter. The way she clung to a thread of hope that perhaps, through Mary’s words, she could introduce you—bridge the unbearable space between now and then. And somehow… it worked.
Be well, Laura. Don’t be too hard on the sisters.
A faint smile ghosted over your lips, though your eyes burned. It was easy to see Mary in those words: someone who had made her peace quietly, gracefully, despite everything. But then the letter shifted. And so did your breath.
And Laura, about James...
You stilled.
I know you hate him because you think he isn’t nice to me, but please give him a chance…
You read it slowly. Carefully. As if her voice would falter if you moved too fast.
It’s true he may be a little surly sometimes, and he doesn’t laugh much. But underneath he’s really a sweet person.
The words reached somewhere deeper than you expected. They pulled at something quiet and uncertain inside you. All your questions, all your dreams that hovered between memory and warning—they hung there now, suspended in this page, wrapped in Mary’s quiet defense of the man who never spoke of her.
It was strange, reading these words from a woman you had imagined a hundred different ways—ill, fading, gone.
And yet, here she was. Gentle. Thoughtful. Loving.
Laura… I love you like my very own daughter. If things had worked out differently, I was hoping to adopt you.
The tears came silently then, slipping over your cheeks with a kind of stunned reverence. You wiped them away quickly, almost ashamed of the depth of emotion she stirred in you. But how could you not cry? For Mary. For Laura. For what could have been. And maybe, in some unspoken way, for James too.
Happy 8th birthday, Laura. Your friend forever, Mary.
You closed the letter slowly, cradling it in your hands like something precious. Something holy. For a long moment, you didn’t move. The rain kept falling. The house remained still. And yet, something in you had shifted.
Because now, Mary wasn’t just a name. She had a voice. A heart. And she had loved—deeply.
And James…? You weren’t sure what you would say to him on Saturday.
But you knew now that his silence wasn’t empty. It was full of ghosts.
You folded the letter with care, smoothing the creases as though it might somehow soften the ache clinging to its edges. Then, with reverent hands, you set it to the side—letting it rest atop your coffee table like a keepsake from a world that no longer existed.
The silence around you deepened. Only the low hum of the rain remained, like a lull in time itself.
You folded the letter with slow, deliberate care, as though it might bruise if handled too roughly. The creases fell into place like closing eyelids, and when it was done, you rested it beside you on the arm of the sofa, fingers lingering on the paper just a moment longer. The rain had not ceased. Its rhythm had grown deeper.
In the stillness that followed, you sank a little further into yourself, into the quiet echo of the words you had just read, and slowly, inevitably, the pieces began to move. A picture was forming, hazy at the edges but undeniable. You saw it now—not just the outline of Mary’s tenderness or the shape of Laura’s grief, but something darker, more complicated, hidden behind James’s tired grey eyes and the silence he often wore like a second skin.
He had told you fragments before. Small things, offered with hesitance, affection or deflection, like he didn’t trust his own memory—or feared what you might see in it. But the image you’d held of Mary—soft-spoken, kind-hearted, motherly—did not fit with the vague bitterness in his tone when her name slipped from his lips. That dissonance had always unsettled you. And now, for the first time, you understood: it wasn’t her he had been angry with. It was himself.
You saw it now with painful clarity: the quiet collapse of a man under the weight of helplessness. The way illness corrodes not just the body, but everything it touches—love, patience, hope. You imagined Mary growing frail, her laughter fading, her days shrinking into sterile rooms and quiet suffering. You imagined James beside her, unable to fix it, unable to bear it, until all he could do was look away.
That’s when the drinking must have started.
Not as rebellion, but as retreat.
A way to blur the edges of her decline. A way to shield himself from her pain—and from the knowledge that he was failing her. He must have withdrawn, little by little, each absence another nail in a coffin he could not yet name. Fewer visits. More excuses. Guilt disguised as exhaustion. Love eroded by fear.
Yes, it was a familiar story. A tragic one, but not uncommon. You had seen it before, in others. You understood how denial could become a sanctuary, how the mind protected itself from devastation by simply refusing to look.
You could forgive him for that.
But what lingered—what gnawed at you with cold insistence—was the weight of it in his eyes. The way his shoulders hunched like a man still carrying something that threatened to break him in half. The way he looked at you sometimes, like you were not you at all, or someone he was afraid to lose again.
And there was more. Silent Hill was no ordinary place, and your presence here was no coincidence. There was something buried beneath the fog, something rotting at the root of everything.
Why had he come here after Mary’s death?
That was the piece that refused to settle. Ashfield was home. Ashfield was where the story should have ended. But James had come to Silent Hill, and he had stayed—despite the emptiness, despite the ghosts.
Was he running toward something?
Or away?
You stared at the folded letter, the silence pressing in around you like mist, thick and suffocating. Mary's voice still lingered in your ears, gentle and forgiving. Please give him a chance, she had written.
And you wanted to—desperately. But how do you give your heart to a man when you don’t know what haunts his?
And why did it feel like Silent Hill knew something you didn’t?
You were no longer sure if you were here to uncover the truth—
—or to survive it.
The computer screen glowed faintly across the room, a quiet sentinel in the dim light, its presence as steady and unnerving as a held breath. You looked at it—again. Like it might blink first. Like it might speak before you did.
It didn’t.
But somehow, it still called to you. Not with sound, but with suggestion. That cold, humming pull of possibility. Like it might hold answers you weren't sure you had the right to ask. Answers you weren’t sure you wanted to know.
You sighed, fingers drifting to the bridge of your nose, pinching gently, as if the pressure could somehow squeeze clarity from your thoughts. You shouldn’t. You knew that. It felt wrong, like eavesdropping on something sacred—or digging into a grave you had no claim to. But the questions had already taken root. One dream. One name. One town. That was all it took to unravel the thread holding everything together.
And now here you were.
The silence in the room thickened as you stood, slowly, like your body was reluctant to obey. Your feet moved you forward, step by step, until the chair sighed beneath your weight and the keyboard sat beneath your fingers like an altar. You didn’t touch it yet. Just hovered.
Your reflection in the dark monitor was ghostlike, insubstantial. It suited the way you felt—like someone who had crossed into a place they weren’t meant to return from. You wondered if this was what madness felt like. Quiet. Slow. Invasive. Something that whispered instead of screamed.
Then, with the last fragile shard of courage you hadn’t realized you were still carrying, you placed your fingers on the keys. Typed.
Mary Shepherd-Sunderland.
And hit enter.
However… What you discovered that evening changed your perspective on everything.
On James.
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Despite everything, you’d gone to James’ apartment that night expecting something—some kind of confession, maybe. What you hadn’t expected was how normal it felt. How easy. Laura had left for her sleepover, and the moment the door clicked shut, James looked at you like the only thing keeping him standing was the fact that you were still there. He kissed you like he needed to prove something—to you, to himself—and when he asked you to stay the night, you hadn’t hesitated. You hadn’t wanted to.
Everything about that night was tender. Real. His hands, his voice, the way he held you after, like he was afraid you’d vanish in the dark. You’d told him you loved him, and you meant it. Every time.
The last thing you remembered was the weight of James’ arm slung across your waist, his breath warm and steady against the nape of your neck. The room had been quiet, save for the occasional hum of a distant car and the soft rustling of the sheets whenever either of you shifted. His voice had been hushed when he spoke of love — a rare kind of tenderness, stripped bare of guilt or hesitation. There was something in his eyes when he looked at you, something tired and aching, but honest. And you—against all common sense—had let yourself believe it.
You remembered teasing him, the way his ears flushed when you whispered things that made him shy and undone. You remembered falling asleep in that strange space between comfort and unease, curled around a man you were still learning how to understand. The very last thing you remembered was the name that slipped from your lips like a stone breaking the surface of still water.
You hadn’t told him how much you’d uncovered, how your curiosity had become something deeper. Something closer to dread. You didn’t ask about the burial ground rumors, or the guilt that clung to him like a shadow.
Instead, you held him. Let him believe—for one more night—that everything was simple. That love could erase whatever he’d buried. But before you fell asleep, you whispered it. Not cruelly. Not even consciously. Just… truthfully. “I hope someday you’ll tell me all your secrets. Even the ones about Silent Hill.”
You hadn’t even realized you said it aloud. But James had gone so still behind you, breath suspended like it was caught in his throat. You remembered the way his hand tensed around your hip, how he didn’t speak for a long time. And then, like a sigh or a confession, he whispered your name—soft, as though trying to pull you back from something.
And now… this.
You opened your eyes slowly, heart already tight in your chest before you even registered your surroundings. The ceiling above you wasn’t familiar. The paint was yellowed, cracked along the corners, and one of the overhead panels was missing, revealing a tangle of dark wires that gently swayed as if caught in some imperceptible breeze. The bed beneath you creaked with your movement—not James’ soft mattress, but something stiffer, older, mustier. The smell hit you next: mildew, rust, something damp and metallic clinging to the air like a warning.
You sat up, sheet sliding off your skin, and that’s when you saw him.
James was there beside you, still asleep—or maybe just pretending to be, judging by the furrow of his brow and the way his fingers twitched like he was dreaming something awful. He looked younger like this. Or maybe just more lost. You almost reached out to shake him awake, but then your eyes moved to the window.
And that’s when the dread crept in.
There was no sunlight. Just… white.
A dense, unrelenting fog pressed up against the glass like it was trying to get in, the kind of fog that didn’t belong to summer or any normal kind of weather. It was thick and unnaturally still, the world beyond it completely swallowed. No street sounds. No people. No colors. Just silence and mist.
You stood slowly, your bare feet meeting cold linoleum as you approached the window. That’s when you saw the sign through the fog—a flicker of clarity, like something surfacing from a memory you never lived.
WELCOME TO SILENT HILL
You staggered back a step, heart skidding into your throat. No. No, this wasn’t possible. This had to be a dream. Or a nightmare. Something— Behind you, James stirred.
His breath caught. Then, hoarse and disoriented, he murmured, “...No. Not again.”
You turned around slowly.
He was sitting up now, eyes wide and unseeing for a second as though his brain was refusing to process what he saw. But then he looked at you—not in confusion, not in shock, but with an expression that chilled you more than the fog outside. Recognition. As if a part of him had been waiting for this, all along.
As if, deep down, he knew.
“…Y/n,” he whispered, voice cracking. “Why are you here too?”
You couldn’t speak. Your mouth opened but no sound came. Because the truth was, you didn’t know why. You didn’t know how a dream and a name could’ve torn a seam in reality. You didn’t know how you ended up here—only that you had, and now the two of you were trapped in a place you’d never been… but he clearly had.
And in his eyes, behind the fear and the disbelief, was something darker. Something older.
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ 𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓉 . ⊹ ₊ ݁. alternate universe - canon divergence, post-silent Hill 2, angst and fluff and smut, touch-starved, redemption, grief, mourning, psychological trauma and horror, mutual pining, James adopted Laura, age difference, smut, vaginal sex, rough sex, rough kissing, aftercare, daddy kink, James deserves his happy ending, James is desperate and pathetic, based on the Silent Hill Games and mostly the remake
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ 𝓈𝓊𝓂𝓂𝒶𝓇𝓎 . ⊹ ₊ ݁. James is still shaken by a strange nightmare—one where Pyramid Head wasn’t violent, but almost protective toward you. It sticks with him, making him feel off for days. But, when he sees you again he tells you he’s serious now. No more hotel rooms, no more leaving.
/! This chapter mostly contains smut.
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➜ ┊: chapter 7/?.
It had been days since the nightmare, but the edges of it clung to James like fog to skin—cold, invasive, impossible to shake. The memory of your voice still reverberated through the cavernous hollows of his mind. You had screamed his name through a wall of static and smoke, your tone sharp with fear, aching with urgency.
And he hadn't reached you. Not in time. Not at all.
Each time he closed his eyes, the image returned: that hulking figure emerging from the shadows, the scraping of steel louder than thunder in a storm-split sky. The Pyramid Head. A grotesque deity of punishment, of memory, of sin. James had seen him countless times before, in the years since Silent Hill clawed its way into the back of his skull and never let go. But this time was different.
This time, it wasn't James the creature had come for.
It was you.
Not to hurt, not to break, not to maim. That would have made sense. That would have made it a projection—an echo of James’ own shame, the twisted manifestations of a fractured psyche. But no. This time, the executioner hadn’t raised his blade in judgment. He had touched your face. Carefully. Reverently.
As if you were his.
James had watched from some unseen place, a prisoner in his own mind, helpless and voiceless. And in that horrible moment, he knew—this wasn’t just a dream, and it wasn’t a memory. It was something else entirely.
The creature had acted autonomously. It had moved with intention. With will.
Your presence in the dream hadn’t summoned it as an accessory to James’ self-loathing or regret. No, it had come for you, of its own volition, and James didn’t understand what that meant. The implications sank their claws into him. Was this some punishment he hadn't earned yet? Some new guilt, bubbling up and spilling into the cracks? Or worse—was the creature real in a way James had never truly accepted, no longer bound to the cursed borders of that damned town?
He sat on the edge of his bed now, hunched forward, fingers raking through his hair, the sound of your voice still vibrating inside his ribs. He felt stripped bare, as if the dream had scraped away the thin scabs of healing he'd tried to cultivate since your kiss on the beach.
James had told himself as if to comfort his own feelings, that what he had with you was fleeting. Temporary. A balm for the rot. But the moment that creature laid its hand on you—possessive, tender, knowing—something ancient and primal had awakened inside him. Jealousy. And something worse: fear.
Not just of what the Pyramid Head meant. But of losing you, too.
And that, perhaps, was the most dangerous feeling of all.
James stood in front of the mirror, razor in hand, dragging the blade carefully over his jawline. The stubble clung stubbornly to his skin, a map of days lost in distraction, and the more he shaved, the more it felt like he was peeling away something heavier than just hair. His face, once forgotten under the weight of sleep-deprived nights and sleepless guilt, slowly reemerged—haunted, yes, but present.
He had been like this since the nightmare. Even more withdrawn than usual.
The shadow he carried behind his eyes had deepened in hue, its grip tightening until it began to bleed into everything—into the way he moved through rooms, into the silences he left dangling between himself and the world, into the long stares he gave his coffee without ever drinking it.
Laura noticed. She always did.
He hadn’t said anything aloud, of course. He never did. But she knew.
She had started making him coffee in the mornings again, unprompted. She never said why. Just placed the mug down beside him gently, sometimes slipping her tiny hand over his. The gesture hurt more than it comforted. It should be the other way around. He was the parent. He was the one who was supposed to be strong. But the way she watched him lately—cautious, like he was a piece of glass held together by prayers—it made him feel like a ghost in his own home.
He splashed water on his face and reached for the towel, drying the last of the cold rivulets along his neck and jawline. The mirror above the sink was slightly fogged, but he could still make out the hollow shadow of his own expression. Then he dressed—nothing extravagant, just clean. Fitted jeans, a charcoal jumper, that worn watch Laura liked to play with when they sat quietly side by side. He hesitated at the small glass bottle tucked away in the corner of the cabinet—cologne. He hadn't touched it in years.
Would you like it?
He hovered a moment longer, then applied a single, careful spritz to the air and stepped through it. Subtle. Faint enough to catch only if you stood close. It was only when he caught a glimpse of himself in the hallway mirror, fully dressed, face shaved, hair combed, that the realization truly hit him.
When had he last taken care of himself like this?
It wasn’t vanity. God knew he wasn’t trying to impress anyone in a flashy way—he still thought fashion trends were confusing and unnecessary. Laura loved to tease him about that, constantly picking at his mismatched choices or telling him he looked like a dad from a early 90s sitcom. He’d laugh, shrug it off, pretend he didn’t care.
But that wasn’t the truth anymore, was it?
Because now… now you were slowly becoming a constant in his life.
And that changed things.
He remembered the dark months. When Mary had started to fade, when hospitals had become a second home and grief a permanent houseguest. He’d sunk into himself back then. Lost in the bottle, in the thick, drowning fog of helplessness. There were entire weeks—maybe months—he couldn’t remember. Couldn’t recall what he’d worn, if he’d eaten, if he’d spoken a word aloud. The man in the mirror back then hadn’t even looked human.
Then Laura came. And for a while, she’d saved him. Or given him something to survive for, at least. He’d gotten clean. Steadied himself. But surviving wasn’t living. Not really. He’d plateaued. Flatlined. A shell of a father.
A shadow of a man. And then… you.
He didn't know when it started, the change. Maybe the first time you smiled at Laura in that way that made her whole face light up. Maybe the day you came for dinner and filled the house with a kind of ease he thought he’d never feel again. Or maybe it was that night at the hotel—no, the morning after, when your hair was mussed and your eyes tired but soft, and he’d watched you breathe like he was learning how to himself.
Somewhere between then and now, he’d begun doing things he hadn’t done in years.
Like shopping. Actual shopping—for clothes, ones that didn’t sag or carry the scent of dust and old regret. Picking out shirts that might bring out his eyes. Jeans that fit right. Shoes that weren’t three years past their prime.
And in the mornings, instead of scribbling in his journal until the guilt turned into numbness. He’d stretch. Do pushups. Jog in place, lift the old weights in the closet. He wasn’t trying to be a model or anything—he just didn’t want to become a crumbling figure of sorrow. You had done that to him. Or for him.
He let out a slow breath and adjusted his collar, fingers brushing lightly over the edge of his shirt. His chest felt tight, but not in the usual way—not the suffocating grip of anxiety or self-loathing. This was something else. Nerves. Hope. The fragile ache of wanting to be better.
He was buttoning the final button when he heard the sharp trill of the doorbell.
Laura’s voice echoed through the house a moment later, high and sure.
“Y/n!”
It rang in him like a bell struck at his core.
He let out a soft breath—almost a laugh, but quieter. The kind that broke apart before it ever became real. He turned back to the mirror once more, gazing at the man staring back at him. He didn’t smile often, but now, just barely, he did. A faint tug at the corners of his lips. Just enough.
Because you were here.
And James was finally starting to accept the truth he’d buried under shame and fear and memory—that the only time he felt even remotely human, the only time the static in his head went quiet, the only time the ache in his chest softened to something like hope… was when you stepped into the room. He ran a hand over his freshly shaven jaw. Straightened his collar. Then made his way toward the front door, where warmth—and you—waited.
“Y/n, I’m so happy you’re here!”
Laura’s voice echoed again, that same vibrant tone of affection only a child could summon without reservation. It rang through the hallway, breaking James from the gravity of his thoughts as he moved toward the front door, drawn like a tide pulled to shore. He opened it slowly.
And there you were.
The light of the late afternoon cast a golden haze around you, brushing the edges of your hair, warming the curve of your cheeks. You wore that same familiar expression—the one caught somewhere between a smile and uncertainty, like you were still navigating the fragile bridge that existed between you and him. But your eyes… your eyes were soft. Warm. Kind. God, how long had it been since someone looked at him like that?
James didn’t speak at first. He just reached for you, silently, instinctively. His hand slipped around your waist with a quiet reverence, fingers splaying over the fabric of your coat like he might anchor himself to you. And then he leaned in, pressing a tender kiss to your forehead. Not rushed. Not performative.
Just there—simple, grounding, utterly sincere.
You smelled like white florals and something sweet. Something warm.
Behind him, Laura made an exaggerated gagging noise. “Ugh, Dad. That was so sappy.”
James broke away from you, a rare laugh escaping him—shaky, soft, and a little surprised by its own freedom. It rose up from some place deep inside, one that hadn’t been stirred in what felt like years. He turned toward his daughter, trying—and failing—to scold her with a glare.
“Oh, give me a break,” he muttered, brushing his hand over his face, but there was no heat in his voice. No frustration. Only a kind of fragile joy, one that clung to the moment like morning dew. He felt the edges of it glittering on his skin. “Can’t a man say hello properly to his lady?” he added, arching an eyebrow.
“Not if it’s gross,” Laura replied, standing at the bottom of the stairs with her arms crossed and a look of supreme childish judgment. The exaggerated eye roll she gave was almost theatrical, and it reminded James—painfully, affectionately—how much she looked like him when she was pretending not to care.
You laughed softly beside him, your shoulder brushing his, and James turned back toward you. That laugh—God, he’d missed that sound. It was like hearing warmth. Like hearing the echo of a home he never thought he’d deserve.
“Don’t worry,” you said gently, voice low so only he could hear. “I like gross.”
James huffed a quiet breath through his nose, eyes closing briefly at the way your words settled inside his chest. “She’s been full of it lately,” he murmured, his voice roughened at the edges by something unspoken/
“I’m right here,” Laura called out again, arms flailing now as if either of you had somehow forgotten her dramatic presence.
James couldn’t help it—he laughed again, easier this time, and brushed his knuckles lightly against your waist. The touch was brief, almost reverent, like he couldn’t help but reach for you, even in small ways.
He stepped aside reluctantly, not wanting to break the closeness between you, but needing to let you in. His hand ghosted over the small of your back as you passed him, and he caught a hint of the scent he’d come to associate with you—and it stuck to his lungs like the first breath of spring.
“Come in,” he said quietly. His voice had dropped again, softer than it had any right to be. “You’re… right on time.”
You smiled up at him, eyes warm, full of something he didn’t yet have the courage to name.
“I didn’t want to be late,” you replied, shrugging out of your jacket. “Tonight felt… important.”
James nodded slowly, the words catching in his throat. He looked down at your hand where it held your bag, at the place your fingers had brushed against his. The smallest gestures always seemed to undo him the most.
“Yeah,” he said, and the word felt heavy in his chest—but not in a bad way. “It is.”
James caught himself glancing down at you again as you slid off your coat, watching the way your hair moved, the soft line of your neck, the small smile you gave Laura as she came bounding forward to take your hand like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Like a family.
He swallowed hard against the knot forming in his throat, that old familiar fear threatening to rise again—but then your eyes met his across the foyer. And you smiled. Just for him.
And for a fleeting second, James Sunderland felt like he could finally breathe.
You were in the living room with Laura, helping her fold the spare pajamas into her overnight bag when the doorbell rang again. The sound was sudden, jarring almost, and you startled slightly, the sense of domestic calm fractured for just a second. Laura bounced up with excitement, practically leaping over the rug.
“That must be Mia’s mom!” she chirped, slipping on one sneaker with one hand while trying to fix her ribbon with the other. You chuckled softly, brushing a hand over her shoulder to help. James appeared in the doorway, drying his hands with a towel, brows raised as he looked toward the front door. “I’ll get it.”
You were crouched beside Laura, helping her tighten her laces, when the door opened. “Oh! Hello,” came a bright, polite voice. “I hope I’m not too early—Mia’s been buzzing all afternoon waiting for Laura.”
“Not at all,” James replied smoothly. “Thank you again for inviting her over.”
There was a pause.
“Oh, it’s no trouble at all,” the woman said, but there was a slight edge of surprise in her voice, a shift in her tone that made you glance up. From where you knelt, you could see her now—Mia’s mom, dressed smartly in a crisp blouse and jeans, clutching her keys in one hand. Her eyes flickered past James, and landed squarely on you.
Recognition bloomed slowly in her gaze. “Oh! Miss Y/l/n?” she said, clearly startled. “I didn’t expect to see you here.”
You felt the heat rush to your cheeks instantly. Like a flood. Your fingers stilled on Laura’s shoe, and for one wild second, you were tempted to say something ridiculous—parent-teacher meeting, dropped by for homework. Anything. “I—um…” you began, standing up too fast and nearly knocking over Laura’s bag.
But James was already moving. Calm. Steady. He stepped forward slightly, wiping his hand on the towel once more before meeting the other woman’s gaze head-on. “We’ve started seeing each other,” he said plainly.
There was no apology in his tone. No hesitation. Just truth.
The room went still for a heartbeat. You looked up at him, stunned—not by the claim itself, but by the way he said it. Solid. Certain. As if it were the simplest thing in the world. “Oh,” Mia’s mother said after a second, blinking. “I see.” Her gaze shifted back to you, assessing but not unkind. “Well. That explains things.”
James glanced down at you, and when your eyes met, there was the barest flicker of something proud in his expression. As if for the first time, he was standing in the light beside you, no longer hiding in the shame of what you both shared. Laura gave you a hug, tight and warm, then turned to James and did the same before bounding out the door with her friend’s mother, waving like she was off on the grandest adventure of her life.
And you stood in the quiet that followed, heart still fluttering.
You turned toward James slowly. “You didn’t have to say that.”
“I know,” he said softly, meeting your gaze with quiet intensity. “But I wanted to.”
The door slammed shut, the sound reverberating through the house like a gunshot, piercing the suffocating silence. James remained rooted to the spot, the air crackling with a tension that set his nerves ablaze. He could feel your presence, a palpable force tugging at him, drawing him in like a moth to a flame. His body moved of its own accord, turning to face you, to face the inferno that threatened to consume him.
You stood there, a vision of loveliness and longing, your cheeks flushed a pretty rosy hue, your lips parted as if begging to be claimed. Your eyes, those exquisite windows to your soul, were wide and wanting, mirroring the hunger that gnawed at him. Time seemed to warp, stretching out into an eternity where only you and he existed.
A guttural sound tore from James' throat as he closed the distance between you, his hands gripping your waist with a fervor bordering on desperation. He kissed you like a man starved, like a drowning man surfacing for air, his mouth devouring yours with a searing intensity that stole your breath away.
James' tongue delved past your lips, stroking, caressing, exploring every inch of your sweet mouth. He drank in your essence, your taste, your scent, his mind reeling with the heady concoction. You tasted sweets and something uniquely you, a flavor he knew he could never grow accustomed to.
His hands roamed your body, mapping out the curves he'd been denied since your argument in the hotel room, the swell of your breasts, the dip of your waist, the flare of your hips. He molded you to him, eliminating any space between your bodies, your heart pounding against his, your breath mingling with his. When he finally tore his mouth away, it was only to blaze a trail of hot, open-mouthed kisses along the column of your throat, his teeth grazing your pulse point. He could feel your blood racing beneath his lips, a symphony of desire that sang to his own.
"God, I want you," he growled against your skin, his voice rough and raw and dripping with hunger. "I want to touch you, to taste you, to bury myself inside you until there's no telling where I end and you begin."
His hands slid down to grip your ass, squeezing the firm globes, pulling your center flush against his straining erection. He rocked into you, his hips rolling in an ancient rhythm as old as time itself. "I've wanted to do this all day," he rasped, his eyes blazing into yours, his expression a mask of unchecked lust and raw, primal need.
He claimed your mouth again, swallowing your gasp, his tongue delving deep, consuming you, devouring you, branding you with his desire. And in that moment, there was no doubt, no fear, no hesitation. There was only you, and him, and this all-consuming, sizzling, scorching need that threatened to burn the world down around you.
He was a man possessed, a prisoner of his own desire, and you were his cage, his shackles, his salvation.
And god help him, he never wanted to be free.
But then—
You spoke, your voice a whisper against his mouth, almost too fragile to hold the weight of your question. “Why are you acting like this… all of a sudden?” And just like that, it was as if something splintered inside him.
James froze, his breath catching halfway between your lips and his own lungs, as though you’d tugged him back from the edge of something — something vast and dark and final. For a second, all he could do was stare, his gaze locked on yours, pupils blown wide not with lust now, but something deeper, more dangerous.
Guilt. Fear. Recognition.
Because you didn’t know. You couldn’t possibly know what he’d seen — the dream still clung to the corners of his mind like the damp rot of fog-soaked wood, a half-reality of crumbling metal and flayed sirens, of a god that wasn’t a god and a voice that wasn’t his but spoke in his guilt. The red pyramid figure hadn’t come for him this time. No. It had stood before you, towering, silent, reverent. As if claiming you.
Touching you.
The image burned behind his eyelids like an afterimage of a flame stared into too long, and he had woken with your name raw in his throat, as if screaming it had torn something loose in him.
But now, here you were — not rusted or bloodied, not screaming or broken — you were here, whole, warm, standing in the soft halo of his living room light with that delicate concern in your gaze, your delicate lips still pink from his kisses, your breath still uneven from the force of what he had just poured into you.
And suddenly, James couldn’t hide behind the dream. He couldn’t let fear dictate his silence. He had to tell you something — not everything, not the twisted visions that chased him through sleep like hounds — but something honest. Something real. So he swallowed hard and brought his hand to your cheek again, more gently now, reverent, almost afraid you would disappear if he touched you too roughly.
His thumb brushed beneath your eye, tracing the faintest shadow of doubt there.
“That day at the beach,” he said, and his voice was lower now, quieter, like it had to sneak past the guards of his shame just to escape, “when Laura curled up in your lap, and you ran your fingers through her hair like she’d always been yours... when I looked at you both, laughing in the tide, sunburned and wind-tangled—”
He paused, not because the words weren’t there, but because they felt too large in his chest, too heavy to carry all the way to his tongue. “I think it was the happiest I’ve been in years,” he finally said, and there was a raw edge to it, a desperate softness that made his next breath tremble.
You didn’t speak, but your hands remained on him, not pushing, not pulling, simply there, and that alone was enough to make something unravel in him.
“I’ve been terrified,” James went on, eyes locked on your mouth, your long lashes, your every fragile breath. “Of what this might mean. Of feeling something again. I’ve pushed you away because it felt safer — easier — than letting myself need someone. Letting myself want something so real I could lose it.”
His jaw tightened as if trying to keep the emotion from cracking loose, but his eyes betrayed him — a storm barely held back. “I’m done hesitating,” he said, not as a plea but a vow. “I don’t want to keep pretending. I don’t want to waste this — whatever this is. You’ve seen the worst of me. Hell, you’ve endured the worst of me, and still…”
His gaze dropped to where your hands rested over his chest, where his heart thudded beneath your fingertips like a drum calling him back to life. “Still, you’re here.”
And then, softer — a question, not a demand, laced with quiet hope: “Isn’t this what you were hoping for too?”
You smiled.
Not that soft, apologetic curve he’d come to associate with his darker moments, the one you offered like a balm when he was slipping too far into himself. Not the shy, polite smile you used when unsure of your place around Laura, or the one you'd wear in public when things between you two were still undefined. No—this was different. It hit him with the weight of something sacred. You smiled like you were happy. Really happy. Because of him.
It stunned him.
James had lived so long in a world where joy belonged to other people—strangers in commercials, couples on the street, parents at playgrounds who never looked over their shoulder the way he always did. But here you were, in his home, smiling like sunlight cracking through a long-forgotten window, and for a moment, he forgot to breathe.
Then you leaned in, slow and sure, your fingers brushing lightly at his jaw like you were reacquainting yourself with something precious. The kiss you gave him wasn’t heated or frantic. It wasn’t born from desperation or need. It was something else. Something steady. Certain. Like it had roots. Like it belonged.
And when you pulled back, just far enough for your breath to warm his skin, your voice broke through the hush between you two like a quiet blessing. “Did you ask for this night alone,” you whispered, eyes locked on his, soft but unwavering, “just to tell me all of that?”
James didn’t answer right away.
He felt your words sink into him like slow rain in dry earth. He blinked, heart catching somewhere between his ribs. It wasn’t the question itself that shook him—but the way you asked it. Like you believed there was a reason to hope.
He nodded, breath shaky but his voice firm. “Yes,” he said. “But not just for that.”
He watched your gaze shift—curiosity tempered by something far more tender, your eyes a soft kind of storm. There was no fear there. No hesitation. You weren’t pulling away, even now. That alone made his chest tighten.
“I wanted tonight to be different,” he continued, his voice rough, low, like gravel underfoot. “Not a hotel room. Not an hour stolen between obligations. Not something we don’t talk about afterward.”
His hand found yours, fingers threading through yours like the most natural thing in the world.
“I’m tired of meeting you in places I already know I’ll have to leave,” he admitted, the truth hitting harder than he expected. “I want something that stays. I want you to stay.” He paused, eyes falling to where your hands were linked, then lifting again—searching your face as if he was afraid it would vanish if he looked away.
“No alarms tonight. No lies. No middle-of-the-night exits.” He stepped closer then, until there was no space left to bridge, and rested his forehead against yours, his voice no more than a tremble of breath.
“I want to wake up next to you,” he whispered. “I want to fall asleep knowing you're right here and not somewhere I have to chase. I want this… all of this, to mean something. I want to believe it can.”
And he did. For the first time in years, James believed it might.
Not because he was healed, or whole, or better.
But because you were still here. Holding his hand like you knew he was worth it.
And maybe that was the beginning of everything.
You smiled softly, your breath mingling with his as you whispered back, “No alarms, no lies… just us. I want that too, James. To wake up without fear, without running. To fall asleep knowing you’re here—really here—with me.”
Your fingers curled around his hand, squeezing gently. “It’s not about being perfect or healed. It’s about choosing to be together, even when it’s messy. I’m here, and I’m not going anywhere.” You brushed your lips lightly against his forehead and added, “We don’t have to have all the answers yet. We just need to keep believing, like you said. Together.”
James didn’t rush.
There was no urgency in his hands, no fierce grip, no desperate pull as if the moment might slip through his fingers if he didn’t take it all now. Instead, he lingered in the stillness between you, eyes searching your face like it held the answer to every ache he’d ever buried.
You were close. So close that he could feel the warmth of your breath mingling with his, the gentle rise and fall of your chest in rhythm with his own. And God, you were beautiful like this—soft-lit in the quiet hush of his living room, surrounded by the mundane comfort of cushions and low lamp light. Not draped in anything dramatic or posed like a fantasy. Just… real. And maybe that’s what undid him most.
His hand lifted slowly, reverently, brushing a lock of hair behind your ear, his knuckles grazing the shell of it with a care that made his throat tighten. You leaned into the touch, ever so slightly, like a flower toward sunlight.
“I still don’t know what I did to deserve you,” he murmured, voice hoarse with emotion.
And then, without flourish or fanfare, James kissed you.
It wasn’t heated or hurried—this kiss didn’t burn, it warmed. Like sinking into a bath after a long day. Like folding fresh laundry. Like the smell of coffee in a quiet kitchen. It was domestic, unremarkable, and somehow more intimate than anything that had come before it.
His lips moved against yours with the patience of a man who finally understood he didn’t have to devour something to keep it. That you wouldn’t vanish the moment he blinked. His other hand came to rest on your waist, the pad of his thumb brushing slow circles through the fabric of your shirt. He could feel the steady thump of your heart—an answer, a rhythm, a promise. When he pulled back, just enough to rest his forehead to yours, he stayed there a while.
Breathing you in. Letting the moment sink into his bones.
Just you, and a quiet kiss in a quiet house, and the terrifying, wonderful truth that he didn’t want this to end.
“Stay the night,” he whispered—not as a plea, but a prayer.
You smiled.
Not shy, not uncertain. Just a simple, soft curve of your lips that met James like a balm. Like something whole-hearted. “Of course,” you said, voice barely above a breath. “I’ll stay.”
James didn’t move for a moment. He let the words settle between you like dust in sunlight. You’d said them so simply—but to him, they were thunderous. A sentence that cracked something open. He hadn’t realised he’d been holding his breath until it left him in a slow, almost trembling exhale.
“Okay,” he replied, quieter now, afraid if he said anything else he might ruin it.
You both stood in the soft hush of his living room, lit by nothing but the glow of a single lamp near the kitchen. Laura’s forgotten coloring book lay open on the coffee table. A single sock peeked out from under the couch. The world wasn’t perfect—but for once, it didn’t feel broken either.
“Do you… want something to drink?” he asked awkwardly, running a hand through his hair. “I have, uh… tea. Or water. Maybe one of those weird sodas Laura keeps picking out.”
You laughed, that easy sound that still startled him with how much it made his chest ache—in a good way. “Tea is fine,” you said, and padded toward the kitchen without waiting to be served, already so natural in his space.
He followed you, watching how comfortable you’d become in the corners of his life. The way you leaned against the counter while the kettle boiled, how your fingers skimmed along the edge of the ceramic mug he always reached for first. You weren’t an intruder here—you fit. And the realization hit him like a tide.
“Do you always drink tea at night?” you asked, glancing at him over your shoulder.
“Only when I’m trying not to spiral,” he answered honestly, surprising even himself.
You turned to face him, cup cradled in your palms, expression unreadable for a moment. Then you smiled again—gentler this time. “And tonight?”
He looked at you. Really looked. The curve of your cheek where the lamp light softened you, the tiny line between your brows that always appeared when you were studying him too hard, the faint pink where his kiss had left warmth. He reached forward, brushed his fingers lightly over your wrist.
“Tonight,” James said quietly, “I don’t feel like I have to.”
The silence that followed wasn’t empty. It was full—of things unspoken, of peace hard-earned.
After tea, you both wandered back to the couch. You curled your legs beneath you, and he sat close—so close your knees brushed. You flipped through the TV channels, stopping on something neither of you really intended to watch. It was just noise now. A backdrop to the quiet between you.
Eventually, you leaned your head against his shoulder. James froze, then relaxed slowly, daring to rest his cheek lightly atop your hair. You smelled like that lavender shampoo again. The one that stayed on his pillow the last time you left. He didn't speak. Didn’t dare.
Because the moment didn’t need words.
Because for the first time in a long time, James wasn’t trying to escape his thoughts. Wasn’t waiting for guilt to claw its way back in. Wasn’t hearing the distant grind of rusted metal or sirens behind his eyes.
All he heard was your breath, steady and calm.
All he felt was your weight against him, soft and real. And all he knew was that, if this was what staying felt like—if this was what peace could look like—then maybe, just maybe, he wasn’t as lost as he thought.
Maybe he was just beginning.
James gazed down at you, his heart swelling with a tenderness he had long forgotten, if he had ever known it at all. Gently, he brushed a stray lock of hair from your face, tucking it behind your ear before letting his fingers linger on the delicate curve. His touch was soft, almost reverent, as if worshipping the beauty he saw in you.
"You're so lovely," he murmured, his voice barely above a whisper, "so warm and real. I feel like I've been wandering in the desert for so long, and now... now I've finally found an oasis. You." He leaned down, pressing a tender kiss to your forehead, your temple, your cheek.
Each kiss was a benediction, a promise, a declaration of his intent. His hand slid down to your chin, tilting your face up to his, his thumb brushing over your kiss-swollen lower lip.
"I want to make love to you," he said, his voice rough with emotion and desire, "Slowly, sweetly, so that you feel cherished and desired in every way imaginable. I want to worship your body with my own, to show you the depths of my feeling through every touch and caress."
He paused, searching your gaze, his eyes blazing with a fervor that made your heart race. "I want to be inside you when I come undone, want you to feel every pulse and throb of my release as I fill you, claim you, make you truly mine." His other hand slid up your side, his calloused fingers a delicious contrast to the softness of your skin. He cupped the swell of your breast, his thumb brushing over your nipple through the thin fabric of your shirt, feeling it stiffen and peak beneath his touch.
"I've never wanted a woman the way I want you," he confessed, his voice a low, intimate rumble, "Never craved someone with the desperation of a drowning man, a man who knows he's finally found the air he needs to breathe."
He leaned in closer, his lips a hair's breadth from yours, his breath mingling with your own. "Tell me you want this too," he breathed, "Tell me I'm not alone in this longing, this need."
His hand slid down to your waist as he tugged the hem of your shirt up just slightly, his fingers splaying over the warm, smooth skin he found there. It was a silent plea, a request for permission, a prayer of gratitude. "Let me love you," he murmured against your lips, "Let me show you the power and the strength and the depth of my love. Tonight. And every night after."
You gazed up at James, your heart fluttering wildly in your chest as you lost yourself in the stormy depths of his eyes. You saw your own longing reflected back at you, your own desperate hunger, and it set your nerve endings ablaze. "Yes," you breathed, "Yes, James, I want this too. I want you, with a fierceness that frightens me sometimes. I've never felt so drawn to someone, so... compelled by their touch, their presence, their love."
Your hand drifted up to cover his own, pressing it more firmly against your breast as you arched into his touch. Your nipple strained against his palm, aching for more, craving his heat and his hunger. You brought your other hand up to his face, cupping his cheek, your thumb brushing over the shadow of his stubble. He leaned into your touch, his eyes fluttering closed for the briefest of moments, a low, guttural sound of pleasure rumbling in his chest.
"I want to feel your skin against mine," you whispered, "Want to map every inch of your body with my hands and my mouth. I want to taste you, to indulge in the flavor of your flesh until I can't remember anything but the salty sweetness of your essence on my tongue."
You rolled your hips, pressing your core against the thick, hard ridge of his arousal. You could feel the heat of him even through the layers of clothing that separated you, and it made your head spin, made your body ache with a need you had never known before. "How do you want me, James?" you asked, your voice a throaty purr.
Your hand slid down to the waistband of his jeans, your fingers dipping teasingly beneath the denim to stroke the hot, smooth skin of his abdomen. You felt his muscles clench and tighten beneath your touch, felt the power coiled there, waiting to be unleashed.
"Tell me," you urged, your own hunger coloring your tone, "Tell me everything."
You pressed your forehead to his, your noses brushing, your lips a hair's breadth apart. Your breath mingled, your heartbeats synced, your bodies drawn together like magnets. "Please, James," you breathed.
James shuddered as your fingers danced along his abdomen beneath his clothes, your touch igniting a hunger he had long denied. He captured your wrist, bringing your hand to his lips, pressing open-mouthed kisses to your palm, his tongue flicking out to taste your skin. His eyes, dark and intense, bore into yours, revealing the raw, unbridled desire that consumed him. "I want you so much sweetheart," he rasped, his voice rough with desperation. "I want to touch you, taste you, feel every fucking inch of you. I'm starving for you, baby. I've been touched-starved for so long, but you... you make me feel alive again."
He gripped your hips, pulling you flush against him, letting you feel every hard, honed line of his body. His erection throbbed against your belly, the denim of his jeans straining against his arousal. He rolled his hips into yours, grinding against you with a low, animalistic growl.
"Please, d-don't hold back," you begged, your eyes wild and fevered as you stared up at him, how so sweetly. "I want your mouth on me, your tongue buried deep inside me, fucking me until I can't see straight. I want your cock splitting me open, stretching me wider than I've ever been stretched before."
You bucked your hips into his hand as his fingers teased your clit, stroking and circling the sensitive bundle of nerves. Drool dripped down your chin as you panted and mewled, lost to the pleasure radiating from your core.
Your shameless begging and the desperation in your voice inflamed James's lust to new heights. He groaned savagely as you raked your nails down his back, the sting of pain only fueling his hunger. His eyes darkened with a feral intensity, his gaze roaming over your debauched form like a predator eyeing its prey.
"Good girl," he growled approvingly, a wicked grin playing about his lips. "Fuck, you have no idea how much I love hearing you talk like that, hearing you beg so sweetly for my cock. It makes me want to give you everything you're asking for and so much more princess."
He hooked your legs over his shoulders, your ankles crossed at the small of his back as he loomed over you. His hands gripped your ass, kneading the flesh roughly as he ground his clothed erection against your soaked panties. The fabric was drenched, clinging to your folds and highlighting the vulgar display of your arousal.
"Lift your hips," he commanded, his voice a low, dark rumble. "Lift them for Daddy, sweetheart.”
You arched your back, lifting your hips eagerly as he demanded, desperate to obey him, to feel him hitting that sweet spot inside you that made stars explode behind your eyelids. "Please, Daddy, please..." you whimpered, your voice high and breathy, dripping with need. "I n-need your mouth on me, I need your tongue inside me."
James drank in the erotic sight of your glistening folds, the musky aroma of your arousal filling his nostrils and making his cock throb with need. He could see your clit, swollen and engorged, peeking out, begging for his attention. With a low, approving groan, he leaned in, extending his tongue and giving your clit a long, slow lick, savoring your tangy essence.
"Fuck, you taste so good," he rasped, his breath hot against your sensitive flesh. "Sweet as honey and ambrosia."
He sealed his lips around your clit, suckling greedily as two thick fingers delved into your dripping channel, pumping steadily and curling to stroke that secret spot deep inside. His other hand slid up your body, palming the swell of your breast, rolling and plucking at your nipple until it pebbled beneath his touch.
He ate you like a starving man at a banquet, devouring every inch of your glistening sex with lips, teeth and tongue. Soft, greedy suckles gave way to hard, fast flicks against your clit, his fingers plunging deeper, harder, fucking into your clutching heat with reckless abandon.
He could feel your thighs trembling and your belly quaking as he licked and sucked at your essence, your breathy moans and wanton cries spurring him on, urging him to take you harder, faster, deeper. The vulgar, wet sounds of his mouth on your cunt filled the living room, a testament to his hunger and desire.
He could feel your walls clenching around his invading tongue, trying to draw him deeper, to keep him inside you. It only spurred him on, urging him to redouble his efforts, to devour you with a single-minded fervor that bordered on manic. He wanted to taste your climax, to feel your release flooding his mouth and dripping down his throat.
"That's it, princess," he murmured against your flesh, his voice a dark, filthy rumble. "Daddy is gonna make you cum so hard, gonna drink down every drop of your sweet cream. I want to taste your pleasure, want to feel you shaking and trembling against my tongue as I wreck this pretty and sweet pussy."
He sealed his lips around your clit once more, suckling hard as two fingers plunged knuckle-deep into you. He pumped them in and out, curling them just so, stroking that spongey spot deep inside that made your toes curl and your eyes roll back in your head. All the while, his tongue lashed mercilessly at your clit, pushing you closer and closer to the edge of oblivion.
James could feel your walls beginning to flutter and clench around his plunging fingers, your nectar flowing freely as your climax approached. "Cum for me, baby," he growled against your flesh, his voice a commanding rumble.
Your body tensed, back arching off the bed as your orgasm crashed over you like a tidal wave. You shattered with a scream, your juices gushing out to coat his chin, his cheeks, dripping down onto his chest and jumper.
Your body tensed, back arching off the couch as your orgasm crashed over you like a tidal wave. "James!" Your pussy clamped down around his fingers like a vice, rippling and spasming wildly as ecstasy completely consumed you. "Oh god, yes! Don't stop, please don't stop!"
James groaned in approval as he felt your release drench his face, your essence flooding his mouth and dripping down his throat. He licked and lapped at your quivering folds, helping you ride out the intense waves of your climax, his fingers still pumping slowly, drawing out your pleasure.
"Fuck yes, just like that," James snarled in approval, lapping at your essence, drinking down every drop of your release. "Such a good girl, cumming so hard for me. I can feel this perfect little pussy milking my fingers, begging for more." He gentled his touch as you rode out your high, his tongue laving over your sensitive flesh, helping you down from the pinnacle of your pleasure. Once your shudders subsided, he lifted his head, his face glistening with your juices. His eyes, dark and intense, met yours, blazing with pride and satisfaction.
"Beautiful," he praised softly, his voice rough with desire. "Absolutely beautiful, you are absolutely beautiful. I've never seen anything hotter than watching you cum undone, hearing you scream my name."
He crawled up your body, his clothed erection grinding against your hip. He captured your mouth, letting you taste yourself on his lips, on his tongue, before he pulled back to murmur, "You're exquisite, princess - in every possible way. And you're all mine."
Your chest heaved as you struggled to catch your breath, your skin flushed and dewy, your hair a wild halo around your head. You gazed up at James with hazy, lust-drunk eyes, a blissful smile playing about your kiss-swollen lips.
When you spoke, your voice was a hoarse whisper, raw from screaming his name, "James... that was... incredible. I've never felt anything like that before." You reached up to cup his face, your fingers tracing the glistening trails of your essence on his skin. "You're amazing... the way you make me feel, the things you do to me..."
James captured your hand, turning his head to press a searing kiss to your palm. His tongue flicked out to taste your skin, to lick away the nectar that clung to it. His eyes never left yours, drinking in the sight of you - the satisfaction etched into the lines of your face, the awe and reverence in your expression.
"I could spend hours, days, worshipping your body," he murmured, his voice a deep, resonant rumble. "Could lose myself in tasting your pleasure, in feeling you cum undone again and again. You're a work of art, princess - a masterpiece I want to spend my life admiring." He leaned down to capture your mouth in a slow, sensual kiss, pouring all of his desire, all of his hunger, into the slide of his lips against yours.
When he pulled back, he nipped sharply at your bottom lip, soothing the sting with his tongue.
You propped yourself up on your elbows, your breasts behind your heaving and glistening with a sheen of sweat. With a coy smile, you reached down to paw at James's straining jeans, your fingers fumbling with the button, desperate to free his throbbing erection.
You looked up at him from beneath sooty lashes, your eyes dark with renewed desire as you purred, "I want to return the favor, James. I want to taste you, to feel you throbbing in my mouth, to swallowing down every drop of your essence until my throat is coated in it..."
But James stilled your questing hands, capturing them in his own and bringing them up to cup your face, his calloused palms cradling your cheeks with a tender gentleness that belied the burning hunger in his eyes. He leaned down to rest his forehead against yours, his breath mingling with your own as he murmured, "Shhh, not tonight, princess. Tonight is all about you - your pleasure, your satisfaction."
He brushed his thumb over your kiss-bruised lips, tracing their contours with a feather-light touch that sent shivers cascading down your spine. His gaze was intense, penetrating, as if he could see straight into the very heart of you.
"We have all the time in the world to explore each other, to indulge in every debauched fantasy and dirty dream. But tonight, I want to focus solely on you, on giving you pleasure so profound that it will ruin you for anyone else's touch." He sealed his promise with a searing kiss, his tongue delving deep to claim your mouth, to stake his ownership of your pleasure. When he broke away, he nipped at your bottom lip, tugging on it with his teeth.
He could feel your pulse beneath his thumbs where they rested against your cheeks, a quiet rhythm that matched his own, a fragile beat tethering him to something that felt almost too good to be real. His mouth lingered over yours, barely brushing it, as if he were afraid that kissing you too deeply might break the spell. Your skin was warm beneath his hands, and your breath — soft, trusting — filled the small space between you with something electric and unbearably tender.
“Come here,” he murmured, his voice rasped from restraint, from need, from something deeper he couldn’t name.
James didn’t rush. He couldn’t. If he moved too quickly, he was afraid the whole moment might shatter—like fog parting beneath the weight of a hand. So instead, he stood there with you in the hallway, the soft hush of the house curling around your joined hands like a secret.
His fingers were calloused and rough, his nails short, knuckles slightly scarred—working-man’s hands, not meant for gentleness. And yet, they were cradling yours as if you were made of breath and light.
He led you slowly through the hallway, his thumb brushing lazy circles against your skin. Every few steps, he glanced at you, like he needed to confirm you were still there—that you hadn’t vanished like so many things in his life had. The bedroom door yielded to his touch with a familiar creak. Inside, the fading dusk cast long shadows across the floorboards. The bed was made. The air smelled faintly of clean sheet and cedar. And something about that—about the quiet domesticity of it all—stirred something deep in his chest.
He closed the door gently behind you, shutting out the world. No sirens. No fog. No weight of the past clinging to his shoulders. Just you.
You turned toward him, your eyes catching the last thread of daylight and making his breath stutter. You were looking at him—not the way others had, with pity or uncertainty—but like you chose to. Like you wanted to be here.
“You sure?” James asked, voice low.
You nodded, your gaze steady, your voice soft but unwavering. “Yeah,” you said. “I’m sure, James.”
And god—he didn’t realise how much he needed to hear his name like that. Not barked in anger. Not whispered in guilt. But spoken with trust. With warmth. With you. You reached up, your fingers brushing gently through his hair, the gesture instinctive and tender. It grounded him. His hands, still cradling yours, lifted—one resting over your heart, the other sliding to your lower back, pulling you closer.
“This,” he murmured, “feels right.”
You smiled, your nose nearly brushing his. “It does,” you agreed. “Though I have to admit, I wasn’t expecting this side of you.”
He let out a soft breath that might’ve been a laugh. “What side is that?”
“This... sweet one.” You teased, eyes dancing. “The man who gives me flowers to apologise and says things like ‘all the time in the world.’”
James looked down, almost sheepish, and you could feel the way his fingers squeezed slightly at your waist, like he was trying to hold back the smile threatening to break over his face. “Get used to it,” he muttered, shyly.
“I’m sure I will, James.” You replied with a sweet smile.
He cupped your face again, tenderly, reverently, his thumbs brushing over the soft curve of your cheekbones. You smiled up at him — not shy, not hesitant — but like someone who had waited for this moment with quiet certainty. That same smile you’d given him the day at the beach and every other day before. The one that made his ribs ache.
He kissed you. Slowly this time.
There was no heat behind it, not yet.
And when you pulled back, you whispered with a teasing smile, “So… is this the part where you show me your impeccable taste in bedsheets?”
A real laugh — startled and low — escaped him before he could help it. “Careful,” he murmured, brushing his lips over your temple. “I might take that as flirting.”
You gave him a mock-innocent shrug. “Maybe it is.”
God, he was so in love with you.
The realisation came quietly, like all the dangerous truths did. It didn’t demand his breath. It just stole it.
He didn’t say it. Not yet. But he let the moment hold the weight of it as he guided you gently to the edge of the bed. You sat, fingers still looped with his, your knees between his. When you looked up at him, your voice was soft.
“I like seeing you like this,” you said.
“Like what?”
“Here. Present. With me. Happy.”
He didn’t answer. Couldn’t. His hands had already found your waist, holding you like you might vanish if he let go.
But you weren’t going anywhere. Not tonight. And for once, James allowed himself to believe that maybe, just maybe, he didn’t have to keep walking alone.
His eyes darkened with a fresh surge of desire as he drank in the sight of you, his gaze roaming over your curves, committing every dip and swell to memory. Slowly, almost reverently, he began to undress you, his calloused fingers skimming over your heated skin, leaving goosebumps in their wake. "You're breathtaking," he rumbled, his voice a low, rasp of appreciation. "Every inch of you is a work of art, a symphony of beauty and grace. I want to map out every contour, to trace the lines of your body until I know it as well as I know my own."
He slipped your bra off, revealing the creamy swells of your breasts, the rosy peaks of your nipples already pebbled with arousal. Leaning down, he captured one in his mouth, suckling and teasing, his tongue swirling around the sensitive bud as he laved it with attention.
His hands drifted lower, finding the button of your skirt and popping it open with practiced ease. He dragged the fabric down your legs, his fingers trailing over your skin, before tossing it carelessly to the floor. Next went your panties, the scrap of lace already damp and clinging to your slick folds. James took a moment to admire you, sprawled out on his bed, naked and wanting, your hair a wild halo around your head. The sight of you, the feeling of your bare skin against his own, made his heart clench in his chest, a sensation as unfamiliar as it was welcome.
He leaned down to capture your mouth, pouring all of his hunger, all of his longing, into the slide of his lips against yours. His tongue delved into the warm cavern of your mouth, stroking along your own, igniting sparks of pleasure that raced through your veins like wildfire.
Emboldened by his fervent kisses and wandering hands, you decided it was your turn to explore his body, to map out the hard planes and angles of him. With a coy smile, you gave him a playful push, urging him to roll onto his back on the bed. He went willingly, a wicked grin playing about his lips as he watched you straddle his hips, your naked body on full display above him.
Your hands made quick work of his jumper, your nails scraping lightly over his chest, feeling the play of muscle beneath his skin. The sight of him, all raw power and coiled strength, made your mouth go dry, your core clenching with anticipation. He was a work of art, a masterpiece of masculinity, and you ached to touch every inch of him, to claim him as thoroughly as he had claimed you.
Leaning down, you pressed hot, open-mouthed kisses along his chest, your tongue flicking out to taste his skin, to lap at the salt of his sweat. Your hands drifted lower, finding the waistband of his boxers, your fingers toying with the elastic as you looked up at him through the veil of your lashes.
“I love how needy you are for me,” you said in a purr.
With that, you tugged his boxers down, freeing his thick, aching erection from its confines. It sprang up, long and hard and perfect, the broad head already glistening with the proof of his arousal. Wrapping your hand around his length, you stroked him slowly, marveling at the silken steel of him, the way he pulsed and jumped in your grip.
James groaned, his head falling back against the pillows as you worked him, his hips rocking up into your touch. The sight of him, the sound of him, spurred you on, making you ache to have him in your mouth, to taste the salty-sweet essence that dripped from his slit.
"Fuck, princess," he grunted, his voice a dark, guttural rasp. "Your hand feels so good wrapped around my cock..."
But, James's eyes flashed with a mix of lust and amusement as he reached down to still your teasing hand, his larger one easily encircling your wrist. With a wicked grin, he tugged you up his body, until you were splayed out beneath him, your naked body pinned to the mattress by his much larger frame. He smirked down at you, his eyebrows waggling suggestively as he growled, "Ah-ah-ah, you wicked little minx. You're playing a dangerous game, tempting me like this when I've already told you that tonight is all about your pleasure."
He rocked his hips against yours, the thick length of his erection sliding against your slick folds, the head catching against your aching clit with each roll. The sensation made you gasp, your back arching off the bed as pleasure sparked through your body. "Such a greedy girl, so hungry for my cock. But I meant what I said, princess. Tonight, I'm in charge of your pleasure, not the other way around. So be a good girl and let me take care of you..."
He ravished your neck next, his teeth and tongue laying claim to your racing pulse, his lips trailing to your ear to rasp, "I'm going to make you cum so hard, babygirl, over and over again, until you're nothing but a writhing, mewling mess beneath me. I'll bring you to the edge of ecstasy, hold you there until you're begging for release, until the only word you know is my name."
"Please, James," you keened, your voice raw and desperate, thick with the haze of lust clouding your mind. "Please, I need... I need you inside me. Need to feel your big, hard cock stretching me open, filling me up until I can't take anymore..."
James's eyes softened with tender affection as he gazed down at your pleading, flushed face. He brushed a stray lock of hair from your forehead, his fingertips lingering on the smooth skin of your cheek. Leaning in, he captured your lips in a slow, sensual kiss, pouring all of his love and desire into the slide of his mouth against yours. His tongue delved deep, stroking along your own, coaxing soft mewls of pleasure from your throat as he savored the honeyed taste of you.
"Shh, easy babygirl," he murmured against your lips, his voice a low, soothing rumble. "I've got you, sweetheart. I'm going to take such good care of you, make you feel pleasure beyond your wildest dreams. Just trust in me, let me guide you, let me love you..."
He rolled his hips slowly, sensually, the thick length of his cock sliding along your soaked, aching folds, coating itself in your slick arousal. He groaned softly at the feel of your velvety softness, the way your body welcomed him, yearned for him, even without him being inside you.
His hand drifted down to your hip, his fingers splaying possessively over the curve, holding you steady as he rocked into you, grinding his pelvis against yours with each roll. The pressure against your throbbing, swollen clit made you gasp, your hips bucking up instinctively, seeking more of that blissful friction.
James's lips trailed down the column of your throat, his teeth grazing over your racing pulse before he soothed the sting with a lap of his tongue. He kissed along your collarbone, his mouth hot and open, tasting the salt of your skin, before dipping down to capture one straining nipple in his mouth. He suckled gently, his tongue swirling around the stiff peak as he palmed the weight of your breast, his fingers kneading the supple flesh.
He dipped his fingers through your slick folds once more, stroking your sleek, swollen flesh with a tender touch, circling your entrance without breaching it. His thumb found your clit, rubbing slow, teasing circles over the sensitive nub, coaxing breathy little cries from your lips.
"I'm going to fuck you now, babygirl," he murmured, his lips brushing your ear, his voice a sinful purr. "Gonna sink my thick cock deep inside your needy little cunt, fill you up until you're drowning in sensation, until the only thing you can feel is the heavy throb of me inside you. You're going to scream my name, beg for more, plead with me to never stop fucking you."
With that promise, he notched the broad head of his cock against your entrance, the thick length of him nudging your slick folds open as he gazed down at you with eyes dark and heavy with lust. Slowly, so slowly, he pushed forward, the thick shaft of his erection parting your velvet walls, stretching you open around his generous girth as he claimed your body for his own.
"Fuck, you feel incredible," he groaned, his voice strained with pleasure as your silken heat engulfed him, squeezed him like a vice. "So tight, so perfect and warm and wet. You were made for my cock, babygirl - I can feel it, can feel the way your body is sucking me in, greedy for every hard, throbbing inch of me."
He hilted inside you with a low, guttural moan, his pelvis flush against yours, his heavy balls nestled against your ass. For a long moment, he simply savored the feel of your body wrapped around his cock, your inner muscles fluttering and clenching as you adjusted to the thick intrusion.
"I love you," he breathed, his voice thick with emotion and desire as he gazed down at your face, drunk on the sight of your pleasure. "Love you so much, sweetheart. And I'm going to show you just how much, over and over again."
You gazed up at James, your heart swelling with a love so profound it stole your breath away. Tears of happiness and overwhelming emotion welled up in your eyes as you drank in the sight of him, your handsome man, your beautiful lover. Slowly, a soft, dreamy smile curled your kiss-swollen lips as you reached up to cup his face in your palm, your thumb brushing tenderly over his cheek.
"I love you too," you whispered, your voice raw with feeling, thick with the weight of your affection.
James began to move then, his hips withdrawing until just the tip of his cock remained nestled inside you, before surging forward to fill you once again in one long, luxurious glide. He set a slow, sensual rhythm, each deep stroke designed to stoke the embers of your desire into a raging inferno. His hands roamed your body as he made love to you, caressing every curve and plane, committing the feel of you to memory.
He stroked along your sides, his fingers tracing the indentation of your waist, the flare of your hips, the soft give of your thighs. He squeezed the rounded globes of your ass, kneading and kneading, pulling you harder against him with each roll of his hips. His hands drifted higher, cupping the weight of your breasts, thumbs and forefingers plucking and tugging at your nipples until they were straining, aching peaks.
All the while, he murmured words of love and praise, his voice a low, hypnotic rumble in your ear.
He angled his hips, changing the angle of his thrusts until he was stroking against that magical spot deep inside you with each pass. You keened softly, your inner muscles clenching down around him, trying to pull him in even deeper, to keep him buried inside your grasping, greedy heat. Pleasure sparked through you with each thrust, building and building until it felt like your very skin was on fire, your blood molten in your veins.
James's hands slid under your thighs, lifting them high and wide, opening you up even more for his conquering thrusts. He hooked your knees over his elbows, nearly bending you in half as he loomed over you, his dark eyes glittering with a feral, almost feral hunger. The new angle allowed him to plunge even deeper inside you, his heavy cock kissing your cervix with each punishing stroke.
"That's it, sweetheart," he growled, his voice rough with the effort of holding back, with the strain of fighting the urge to simply let go and lose himself in your addictive heat. "Take Daddy, take every hard inch of my cock. This sweet little pussy was made for me, made to milk my cock for all its worth. You're going to fucking drown in my cum, sweetheart - I'm going to pump you so full of it, stuff you so fucking deep with my seed that it's leaking out of you for days."
You let out a wanton moan, your back arching off the bed as James drove into you with renewed vigor, each powerful thrust sending shockwaves of pleasure ricocheting through your body. Your fingers dug into his shoulders, nails raking down his sweat-slicked skin as you clung to him, anchoring yourself against the relentless onslaught of sensation.
"Yes, Daddy!" you cried out, your voice breathy and high-pitched with ecstasy. "Yes, give it to me, fill me up, make me yours!" You could feel every ridge and vein of his thick shaft dragging deliciously against your sensitive walls, stretching you open, claiming you, ruining you for anyone else. It was a exquisite mix of pleasure and pain, your body struggling to accommodate his generous size as he split you open on his throbbing cock.
You could feel the telltale pulses, the heavy throb of his cock as he grew closer to his peak, could feel the way his movements became more erratic, more forceful as he chased his pleasure. One hand drifted between your bodies, his fingers finding your clit, rubbing hard, fast circles over the swollen nub, pushing you closer to your own explosive release. "Cum for me, babygirl," he demanded, his voice a low, guttural rasp in your ear.
He captured your mouth in a searing kiss, swallowing your screams as he thrust once, twice, three times more, before slamming into you one last time and grinding his pelvis against yours. His cock jerked and pulsed as he found his release, his hot seed spurting out in long, thick ropes to paint your fluttering walls white. He groaned into your mouth, his broad body shuddering and jerking over you as he rode out the waves of his climax, each clench and flutter of your cunt milking him for every last drop of his essence.
You wrapped your arms tightly around James's neck, holding him close as he crashed over you, your bodies shaking together as you both lost yourselves in the throes of ecstasy. Your mouth opened under his in a silent scream of rapture, your throat constricting around your own muffled cries as your pleasure peaked, your vision whiting out from the sheer intensity.
"James!" you screamed, your voice raw and hoarse, your body convulsing beneath him as your climax ripped through you like a tidal wave. Your nails raked down his sweat-slicked back, leaving red welts in their wake as you clung to him, anchoring yourself to him as your world shattered into a thousand glittering pieces.
You could feel his hot seed flooding your depths, each thick, pulsing spurt painting your fluttering walls a creamy white. It was a molten, branding heat inside you, marking you, claiming you, sealing the bond between your bodies and souls. You could feel it sluicing out around his still-throbbing cock, a lewd, obscene sound that only inflamed your lust and pushed you higher into the stratosphere of euphoria.
Your hips jerked and shuddered against his as you rode out the aftershocks, your body milking him for every last drop of his precious essence. You were lost in the sensation, drowning in a sea of sensation and emotion, your mind blanking out everything except the feel of James's big, strong body covering you, possessing you, loving you with every fiber of his being.
"I love you," you gasped out, your body still shaking with the force of your mutual release. "I love you so much, James. I love you, I love you, I love you..." Your words tumbled out in a breathless litany, a reverent chant as you floated down from the highest high of your life, your heart full to bursting with a love so deep and true it took your breath away. "That was... you were... we were... oh god, James, that was incredible. I've never felt anything like that before, never known pleasure like this, never dreamed that loving someone could feel this way..."
You peppered his face with kisses, brushing your lips over his skin in a desperate attempt to taste him, to memorize the salty-sweet flavor of his flesh, to sear the feel of him into the very cells of your being. Your fingers stroked through his damp hair, your palms cradling his cheeks, your thumbs brushing over his kiss-swollen lips as you gazed up at him with eyes that shone with unshed tears of pure, unadulterated joy and devotion.
In the aftermath, he collapsed against you, his weight blanketing you, his heart beating in tandem with your own as you both struggled to catch your breath. He stroked your hair, your face, his fingers gentle and almost reverent as he gazed down at you with a soft, sated smile.
"I love you too," he murmured, his voice low and rough with emotion. "More than anything in this world, sweetheart. You're mine, now and forever. And I'm going to spend the rest of my life showing you just how much you mean to me, how much I cherish every moment with you."
The world had gone quiet.
Not in that hollow, suffocating way it used to — the way it would when grief sat on his chest like a brick, when all he could hear was his own breathing and the ghosts in his head. No.
This silence was different. Gentle. Full. Cradled by warmth and breath and the soft thrum of your heartbeat beneath his cheek. James lay half-draped across you, his arms wrapped protectively around your middle, as if anchoring you to him — or perhaps himself to you. The sheets tangled low at your waists, damp with heat and the truth you’d just poured into his mouth like prayer.
“I love you,” you had said.
Over and over, like you were trying to convince the world, or maybe just yourself, that someone like him could still be worthy of it. Now, your fingers threaded through his hair with slow, sleepy sweeps. His name was still caught in the back of your throat, somewhere between a sigh and a whisper. He felt it more than heard it — in the rise of your chest, the press of your lips against his temple.
James closed his eyes.
He didn’t deserve this. He had told himself that for so long, that guilt had become muscle memory. But your voice — your touch — was undoing that belief, stitch by careful stitch.
"You're still shaking," he murmured, lifting his head enough to look at you. His thumb brushed over your ribs, tracing slow, grounding circles. "I didn’t… I wasn’t too rough, was I?"
You smiled, lips soft, eyes glassy with spent emotion. “No,” you breathed. “It was perfect. You were perfect.”
James stared at you a moment longer, searching your face for any sign of doubt, of hesitation. There was none. Just the quiet glow of someone who had given everything and trusted it would be cherished. He kissed you again — not with hunger, not with need, but reverently. A kiss like a whisper. Like a thank you.
“I’ll get you some water,” he murmured. “Maybe a warm towel. Stay right here, yeah?”
You nodded, fingers still twined with his as he pulled away only reluctantly. He stood, tugged on his boxers and moved around the room with quiet purpose — collecting a clean towel, dampening it with warm water, pouring a glass for you with a hand that no longer shook.
When he returned, you were watching him with a look he couldn’t name. Something fragile. Something full.
He sat beside you, pressing the glass into your hands first, letting you sip slowly before carefully dabbing the cloth over your skin — wiping away the evidence of what they’d just shared with the gentleness of someone handling holy things. James didn’t speak much. He didn’t need to. His hands did — in every pass of the towel, every thumbstroke over your thigh, every time his knuckles grazed your wrist and lingered.
When he was done, he climbed back beneath the covers and pulled you into him — not with lust, but with need.
With devotion.
The room was quiet again — but not the fragile kind of silence that came after unraveling. No, this one was warm, cocooned in soft sheets and slower breaths, skin still humming with the memory of what they’d just shared. Your limbs tangled with his beneath the duvet, bare legs brushing under the weight of it, and the curve of your body fit so perfectly against his chest that James found it hard to believe he’d ever spent a night without you here.
You shifted slightly in his arms, cheek still resting over his heart, and he felt your smile before he heard it in your voice. “For someone who’s usually so reserved…” you mused, trailing your fingers down his chest, “you’re surprisingly filthy in bed, especially with your words.”
James huffed a laugh — the sound half-buried in your hair, where he’d pressed another slow kiss. His arm tightened around your waist, pulling you even closer, and he let the warmth of amusement ripple through his chest like something rare and hard-earned. “That’s because I’m not holding back anymore,” he said simply, voice low and rough from everything he’d groaned, murmured, begged for just minutes before. “Not with you. Not here.”
You tilted your head, grinning up at him with that radiant, post-bliss glow in your eyes, teasing but affectionate. “So this is the real James Sunderland?” you asked. “Growling in my ear, talking me through every second until I fall apart…”
His cheeks flushed, but the blush was genuine, not shameful — not anymore. Not with you looking at him like that.
“I told you,” he said, tracing his knuckles along your jaw with a reverence that made your smile soften, “I want to give you everything. Every part of me — even the ones I used to be afraid of.”
He paused for a beat, then added with a smirk, “Besides, you didn’t seem to mind.”
You laughed softly, burying your face against his chest again. “No,” you murmured. “I didn’t mind at all.”
James exhaled, long and slow, feeling something ease in his chest — that tight coil of guilt and hesitation finally loosening into something closer to peace. Your body was still trembling faintly against him, your skin damp, your breath brushing the slope of his collarbone, and yet all of it felt right. Grounded. Whole.
This was more than release. It was trust. It was a quiet kind of salvation.
And James, tangled in sheets and your arms, let himself believe — for tonight — that he deserved it.
That he deserved you.
And when your hand reached for his again beneath the covers, intertwining fingers without a word, James kissed the top of your head and whispered into the hush between you, “You make it easy.”
Then, smiling to himself, he added, “Even when you tease me.”
You hadn’t moved much in the last ten minutes—just shifted gently into the crook of his arm, like a petal folding into dusk. James could feel the steady rhythm of your breath against his ribs, the way your thumb brushed absent-minded circles over his skin. He almost thought you’d drifted off, and part of him hoped you had. Because the stillness was perfect. Fragile. A moment that didn’t demand anything from him but presence.
And for once, he could give that.
You stirred slightly, just enough to tilt your head and look up at him again. Your voice was soft when it came—sleep-warm, threaded with affection.
“Thank you,” you whispered, fingertips brushing his jaw. “For trusting me.”
James blinked. He wasn’t sure why, but the words made something pinch in his chest. He hadn’t said it aloud before—hadn’t even let himself think it too closely—but you were right. That was what this was. Not just lust or release or desperation. This was trust. This was him lowering the walls, letting someone see the broken, buried parts and hoping they didn’t turn away.
He opened his mouth to answer—something simple, honest—but then you added, almost idly, as if the thought had just occurred to you: “I hope someday you’ll tell me all your secrets.”
Your voice still held that same gentle tone, but then you continued, quiet… too quiet.
“Even the ones about Silent Hill.”
James froze. His breath stopped in his lungs, his throat suddenly too tight. It wasn’t immediate—more like a ripple through still water, slow and widening, dread sinking in layer by layer.
He didn’t speak. He couldn’t.
Because you hadn’t said it like a joke. Not like some sleepy, passing comment. You’d said it like you knew.
Your head rested back on his chest like nothing had changed—but everything had. His heart was hammering now, loud in his own ears, and for a moment he wondered if you could feel it too.
Silent Hill.
A name he hadn’t spoken in three years.
A place he had buried.
His nightmares didn’t just belong to him anymore.
And as you settled, drifting off to sleep, a soft sigh escaping your lips, James stared up at the dark ceiling above—his arms still wrapped around you, the ghost of your words burning in his ears.
He didn’t know how you knew.
He didn’t want to ask. But something told him…
Silent Hill wasn’t finished with him yet.
➜ ┊ a/n: It's a Silent Hill fanfiction, don't tell me you were already expecting a happy ending. Hehe.
Will you ever consider writing for Leon Kennedy? Are you into resident evil? So happy you're backkkk!
Thanks for your kind message! Yes, I like Resident Evil, that's for sure. I'm more of a Wesker girl, but I'd definitely be up for writing Leon.
I don't know if anyone has any tropes or ideas with him, but I could totally try to make it a reality for all my fellow Leon fangirls. ❤︎₊ ⊹
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ 𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓉 . ⊹ ₊ ݁. alternate universe - canon divergence, post-silent Hill 2, angst and fluff and smut, touch-starved, redemption, grief, mourning, psychological trauma and horror, mutual pining, James adopted Laura, age difference, smut, vaginal sex, rough sex, rough kissing, aftercare, daddy kink, James deserves his happy ending, James is desperate and pathetic, based on the Silent Hill Games and mostly the remake
. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ 𝓈𝓊𝓂𝓂𝒶𝓇𝓎 . ⊹ ₊ ݁. Beach day, and some freaky Pyramid Head stuff.
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➜ ┊ a/n: Hello dear readers, I know it's been a long time. I've been through a lot in my life, some more difficult than others, and writing has become more difficult for me. I can say that I suffered from writer's block and that my passion disappeared.
But now I'm slowly getting better and my passion is coming back. I don't even know if people would still be interested in this story, but I want to finish it before writing new ones. It's very important to me.
Thanks to everyone who kindly left massages for me, I've missed you all too. I hope this chapter was worth the wait.
I love you all!
➜ ┊: chapter 6/?.
The sky arched above in a cloud-streaked blue, softened by the gentle sun, making the stretch of coastline feel timeless. You walked slowly, taking in the scenery. The beach might have lacked the pristine allure of other shorelines, but to you, it held a beauty all its own—humble and unpretentious.
The water rippled in shades of steel grey, breaking softly against the sand that was coarse underfoot, peppered with shells and bits of dried seaweed. Small waves curled up the shore, leaving delicate foam trails in their wake. Children’s laughter echoed down the shoreline as they clambered over rocks, shrieking with delight whenever they uncovered a crab or small fish. The odd couple lounged on towels, picking at sandwiches, and families relaxed, chatting together, fully absorbed in each other’s company.
Your gaze drifted as you approached the meeting spot, and then you saw him: James, standing awkwardly near the edge of the sand, looking a bit out of place in his mismatched outfit. He was wearing his signature khaki jacket—one that looked well-worn and comfortable—layered over a T-shirt that looked more suited to spring than to fall. Paired with shorts and a baseball cap bearing a logo from a local team, his outfit was a clash of practicality and a lack of fashion sense. The sight brought an amused smile to your lips.
There was something so endearing about his awkwardness, the way he fidgeted with his sleeve, visibly uncomfortable but determined to be here. He must have felt your eyes on him, because he looked up then, catching you watching him. For a moment, he hesitated, a flicker of vulnerability passing over his face. You felt a strange warmth at that—an almost painful ache of empathy mixed with anticipation. His usual guarded expression softened slightly, and his lips curled up into the faintest, nervous—adoring smile.
The wind picked up a little as you closed the last bit of distance between you, blowing strands of hair across your face. You pushed them back, finding yourself a little self-conscious under his gaze. As you got closer, the fine lines etched into his face became clearer; it struck you how much he’d been through. There was weariness there, but also a hint of something softer, something that, perhaps, only showed in fleeting moments like this. It wasn’t hard to remember why you cared so deeply about him despite everything—the walls he put up, the unspoken pain that hung over him. This man, complex and broken as he was, drew you in like no one else.
"Hey," you greeted softly, the familiar lilt of nervousness evident in your voice as you tried to suppress it. “You beat me here.”
"Yeah,” James replied, almost shyly, as if unsure how to bridge the distance between you now. “Figured I’d get here early. Didn’t want to, uh... keep you waiting.”
The breeze carried a hint of salt, and you could hear the distant crash of the waves mingling with the sounds of the beachgoers, but right now, standing here with him, the world felt small and quiet. You nodded, unsure how to respond to his awkward sincerity, but the small gesture of arriving early warmed you.
“So,” you said after a moment, glancing around at the busy beach, “nice day for it.”
James looked out at the ocean, nodding absently. “It is... Laura loves it here.” He paused, looking almost surprised at himself for admitting it aloud. His gaze then returned to you, and you noticed his hands balling and unballing at his sides, as if he were steeling himself for something.
He hesitated, his words catching in his throat, but finally he looked at you, his expression earnest and vulnerable. “I know I was out of line the other day,” he began, his voice barely louder than a murmur. “It’s... been hard for me to... to be around someone who...” He broke off, struggling with his words, looking down at his feet. “I don’t know why I make things so difficult.”
Your heart clenched a little at his confession, at the pain laced between the words, and you had to resist the urge to reach out and touch his arm, to offer some kind of comfort. But you remained quiet, giving him the space to say whatever it was he needed to. You weren’t sure if you were ready to forgive him completely yet, but you knew that understanding his struggles was a step toward healing.
James glanced up at you, his gaze as raw as you’d ever seen it, and for a moment, it felt as if the whole world had faded away, leaving just the two of you standing there on the beach, surrounded by the restless ocean and the whispers of the wind.
You noticed James’s words faltered, and he seemed lost in thought, hesitant to continue. Sensing he needed a nudge, you decided to break the silence, offering him an easy way to move forward.
“Thank you for the flowers, James,” you said gently, watching as his eyes lifted to meet yours. “They’ve already found a nice spot in my apartment. And as much as your gesture was… a bit unconventional, it’s more than anyone’s ever done for me before.” You smiled, chuckling softly. “Most men wouldn’t even think to apologise, let alone show up with flowers. So… you’ve at least got that over the average guy.”
James’s face softened, a small smile finally breaking through his initial tension. He looked down, almost bashful, and let out a breath he must have been holding. “Well, glad to know I’m at least better than ‘average,’” he replied, his tone laced with quiet humour.
Just then, Laura’s voice rang out, bright and cheerful as she trotted over, dressed in a cute floral dress that seemed perfect for the beach. A ribbon tied back her hair, and you couldn’t help but smile at the sight. A part of you couldn’t help but wonder if James was the one who took the time each day to style her hair like that.
“Y/n!” Laura beamed, waving enthusiastically. “I forgot my toys in the car, but I got them now!” She held up a small bucket and shovel proudly before coming closer to give you a warm greeting.
You returned her smile, reaching down to give her a gentle pat on the shoulder. “Hey, Laura! You look adorable. Are you ready for some serious sandcastle building?”
“Absolutely!” she chirped, bouncing with excitement as she glanced back at James, who still seemed a little out of sorts but more at ease with Laura’s sunny presence.
The three of you then started to walk together toward the beach, the warmth of the sun overhead and the gentle crash of waves filling the space between you. And despite everything, for a moment, it felt natural, like a glimpse of something that could almost feel like family.
The three of you found a spot on the beach with a good view of the water, not too far from the other beachgoers but secluded enough to feel peaceful. James spread out a large blanket, smoothing it against the uneven sand while you unpacked a small bag with a few essentials: sunscreen, water, and the dessert you’d prepared. Laura wasted no time, immediately dropping her toys onto the sand and beginning to dig a small hole.
You and James exchanged a glance, both of you smiling slightly as you settled onto the blanket. He looked a bit more relaxed than you’d expected—maybe the comfort of the routine you two had planned last night had over messages taken some of the pressure off.
“Sandwich duty was all mine, so I hope they’re up to standard,” he said, lifting a small cooler. He pulled out sandwiches wrapped in wax paper, neatly labelled with your initials. He handed one to Laura, who was already looking over eagerly, and then offered one to you.
“Thanks,” you replied, unwrapping yours and taking a peek. Ham, cheese, and a few crisp slices of tomato—simple, but thoughtfully made. “Better than the standard, I’d say. Pretty perfect, actually.”
James looked satisfied, his shoulders relaxed as he took a bite. “I'm glad to hear it. I'm not used to getting feedback—good feedback from Laura is rare, when it's not pizzas.” He added, chuckling when she stuck her tongue out at him.
You smiled, setting down the sandwich and revealing the dessert container you’d brought. “Well, you’ve outdone yourself. I don’t know if mine can compete, but I did promise dessert.”
Laura’s eyes sparkled as she looked up from her tiny sandcastle. “What did you bring, Y/n?” she asked, barely containing her excitement.
You opened the container to reveal a neat stack of brownies, the chocolatey aroma immediately catching Laura’s attention. “Brownies,” you said, handing her one. “Made them fresh this morning.”
“Oh wow, these are amazing when you bring them to class!” Laura declared, taking a big bite. “Thank you!”
After a moment, James took one as well, pausing to savour the first bite. He glanced at you, a soft but genuine smile reaching his eyes. “These are incredible, really. You didn’t have to go through all the trouble.”
You shrugged, feeling a faint blush rise as you looked away, trying to play it off. “Just keeping up my end of the deal. Besides, I’m sure I owe Laura a treat or two after… everything.”
Laura, blissfully unaware of the tension beneath those words, was focused intently on her sandcastle, occasionally munching on her brownie. She seemed to have planned a grand fortress, scooping sand with determination as you and James settled more comfortably on the blanket. The sun was warm, the gentle ocean breeze almost lulling, and for a few minutes, the three of you fell into an easy rhythm—an odd but natural company.
“So,” James started, breaking the comfortable silence. “You, uh, come to the beach often?” His tone was casual, though you noticed the way his fingers fidgeted with the edge of the blanket.
“Every now and then,” you replied, glancing toward the water. “The beach may not be the most picturesque, but I love it here. Something about the waves… it’s like everything else just fades.”
James nodded, a bit of understanding in his expression. “Yeah. There’s something grounding about it. And Laura loves it, don’t you?” He turned his attention to his daughter, watching her carefully place a small piece of driftwood as the flag of her sandcastle.
“Definitely! I always want to come every weekend if we can,” Laura replied enthusiastically.
“Well,” James murmured, looking back toward the water, “maybe we’ll start doing that more often.” His voice was quiet, as if the idea had just occurred to him.
The warmth of the moment settled over you, the peaceful surroundings making it easy to relax and let your guard down. You glanced back toward the shore, where the waves rolled in gently. For the first time in a while, you felt a simple contentment—a fragile thing, perhaps, but there nonetheless. And next to you, you could see that James felt it too, his usual tension softened as he sat with Laura, the quiet joy on his face as he watched her play something you hadn’t seen before.
As you both sat watching Laura, James spoke up, his voice low. "I, uh... I wanted to thank you again for today. For being here." He seemed almost hesitant, as if the words were as unfamiliar as the feeling behind them.
You smiled, looking over at him. "It's nice to see you both outside of school. I think we all needed this."
James nodded, glancing down at his hands. "It’s been... hard. Letting someone in. I didn’t think I'd ever be able to, really. And yet, here we are."
"Sometimes we need a push," you replied softly, watching as Laura gleefully decorated her sandcastle with seashells. "But I think you’re doing a lot better than you give yourself credit for."
James huffed a small laugh, shaking his head. "I don’t know about that. I’m still figuring out what... normal even means anymore. How to be a dad, how to be someone worth being around. There are days it feels impossible."
You reached over, placing a gentle hand on his arm. "But you are, James. I’ve seen you with Laura. You’re trying, and that’s what matters. You’ve already come so far, whether or not you realise it."
He looked at you then, really looked, his eyes softened and contemplative. "You make it sound... possible. Like it’s something I might actually deserve."
"You do deserve it," you said earnestly. "Both of you do. You’re here, showing up every day. That’s more than a lot of people can say."
He was quiet for a moment, clearly weighing your words, the breeze tousling his hair beneath his cap. "I don’t know why you’re so kind to me," he murmured finally, almost as if he were talking to himself. "After everything, I... I didn’t exactly make it easy for you."
"I won’t pretend you didn’t make it hard," you replied, a small smile tugging at your lips. "But I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t see something worth being here for."
James’s gaze turned down to the sand, his expression softer but contemplative, almost vulnerable. "I’ve spent so long believing... that the past is all there is. I thought the best I could do was just... exist. But with you, somehow, I’m starting to see a way forward. Like maybe there’s more than just guilt and survival."
Your heart ached for him, for the years of self-punishment etched in his eyes. "There is more, James. I see it, and I think Laura does too. She loves you so much, and she’s here because she believes in you. So do I."
James’s expression softened, his gaze meeting yours with a warmth that went beyond words. "Thank you. For seeing something in me worth believing in. You don’t know what that means to me." Then, James shifted awkwardly, eyes flicking from you to the horizon, his face etched with a hint of tension. After a pause, he cleared his throat. "Last time… when I came to see you… that guy in your classroom," he began slowly, almost like he was feeling his way through each word, "is he… is he someone… important to you?"
His question hung in the air, his unease almost palpable as he waited for your response. For a moment, you just stared at him, surprised that he’d actually asked. Then, after a beat, you laughed, lightening the weight of the tension between you.
"Oh, him?" you said, still amused. "No, he’s just a friend—and another teacher. We work on a few projects together. But there’s nothing between us. He’s nice, but I’m definitely not interested in him like that."
James let out a breath you hadn’t realized he was holding, his shoulders relaxing a fraction as he nodded, a slight blush creeping into his cheeks. "I didn’t mean to pry. Just… I guess I wanted to know," he admitted, his voice softer.
"Really?" you asked, a teasing smile playing on your lips as you tilted your head. "You were worried?"
He let out a small, self-conscious chuckle, rubbing the back of his neck. "I don’t know if ‘worried’ is the right word," he mumbled, though the colour rising in his cheeks betrayed him. "Guess I just… thought maybe you had someone else. Someone… better."
You shook your head gently, touched by his honesty and vulnerability. "You don’t have to worry about that, James. I’m here with you, aren’t I?"
He nodded, giving you a shy, genuine smile that softened his usual guarded expression. "Yeah, you are," he said quietly, as though he still couldn’t quite believe it.
The conversation between you and James flowed with surprising ease as the afternoon wore on. You chatted about everything and nothing—movies, the strange mix of fall and summer weather, and the funny way Laura ran around with her sand toys, darting back and forth between you both. For a while, it felt almost normal, as if the complicated past between you had faded with the tide.
But then, as the sun climbed higher, Laura bounded over, tugging on James’s arm. “Come on! The water’s warm today!” she urged, her eyes bright with excitement.
"Alright, alright," James laughed, giving in to her enthusiasm. He turned to you, a smile still lingering on his face. “You coming?”
You nodded, rising to your feet and brushing off the sand. "Yeah, sure. Just let me get my feet wet first."
James grinned, and without hesitation, he reached down to the hem of his khaki jacket, shrugging it off with a casual motion. Then he pulled his t-shirt over his head, exposing his chest and shoulders to the late afternoon sun.
You had seen him shirtless before, but now, in the open sunlight, something was different. Your breath caught in your throat as your gaze lingered—maybe a second too long—on the contours of his body. The lines of his muscles were more pronounced, the skin pale yet sun-kissed in a way that told you he didn’t often bare himself like this. You remembered each mark you’d traced with tentative fingers that night, but here, they seemed to hold a new kind of vulnerability, standing exposed under the open sky.
For a moment, you forgot to move, feeling a curious mix of fascination and a warmth you couldn’t quite place. He caught you staring, his expression softening as a faint blush dusted his cheeks, but he didn’t look away. Instead, he gave you a half-smile, almost teasingly, before tossing his cap aside and bending down to help Laura gather the rest of the toys.
You quickly averted your eyes, hoping the heat in your cheeks wasn’t as obvious as it felt, and swallowed the strange rush of emotions. You could still feel the warmth of his skin lingering in your thoughts even as you took a few steps closer to the water, trying to focus on the cool sand beneath your toes instead.
The three of you made your way down to the water, laughter bubbling up with every step as the waves rolled gently against the shore. Laura ran ahead, kicking up little sprays of sand behind her, her high-pitched giggles mingling with the sound of the sea. You and James followed side-by-side, moving slower, letting the moment stretch as you approached the shoreline.
When Laura reached the water's edge, she hesitated only for a moment before splashing in, the cool foam catching her ankles. "Come on!" she shouted, beckoning you both with a wave of her arms. Without a second thought, she waded in up to her knees.
James glanced at you with a playful glint in his eyes, and before you could brace yourself, he lunged forward, sweeping you off your feet and running towards the water. You let out a startled yelp, instinctively wrapping your arms around his neck as he charged into the waves, laughter spilling from your lips. The water hit your legs with a refreshing shock, and you clung to him, trying to steady yourself as he spun you around.
“Put me down, James!” you managed to get out between laughs, but he only grinned wider, holding you a moment longer before setting you down just as a small wave splashed against your knees. The water was cold, but not unpleasant, and you shivered. You felt a pang of something—comfort, warmth—at the way James had held you, his touch lingering even after he let go.
Laura shrieked with glee, kicking the water toward both of you with a mischievous laugh. “Got you!” she crowed, her eyes bright with delight. You splashed back, sending a gentle wave in her direction, and soon enough, the three of you were caught in a playful battle, laughing and splashing as if the rest of the world had faded away.
The sun was still high, casting bright rays across the water and turning the surface to shimmering silver. James joined the splashing war, scooping up a handful of water to send an arcing spray your way. You dodged, sending one back at him, and his face lit up with a grin you hadn’t seen before—a genuine, carefree expression.
Laura, caught in the middle of the fray, decided to gang up with you. She grabbed James's arm, tugging him toward the deeper water with surprising strength for her size. “Come on, James! You’re not getting away that easy!” she declared, pulling him forward.
James let out a mock gasp of defeat, allowing himself to be pulled along as you both pushed him into a deeper part of the surf. He stumbled, half-laughing, and the three of you fell into a more gentle playfulness. James lifted Laura onto his shoulders, and she beamed like she had just conquered the world, clinging to his hair as he spun around. The waves danced around his legs, and you watched, a soft smile spreading across your face.
Laura squealed in delight as James gave her a piggyback ride through the shallow waves, her small hands clutching his hair. She kicked her feet, splashing the both of you with droplets of seawater that shimmered in the sunlight. James’s eyes were softer, more relaxed, the heaviness that so often settled in his gaze seemed to have lifted, if only for a moment.
When he put Laura down, she immediately ran toward you, her arms wide, and you scooped her up, swinging her around until she was breathless with laughter. For a moment, it was easy to forget everything else.
James moved closer, his face warm with a gentle smile, and you realised he was watching you with a look that made your heart skip a beat. There was a tenderness in his eyes, something unspoken yet clear, and you felt your breath catch, unsure of what to say, what to do. Before you could dwell on it too long, Laura tugged at your hand, pulling you both deeper into the water until the waves were lapping at your thighs.
“Let’s play catch!” Laura announced, picking up a small, smooth stone from the shallows and tossing it into the air.
James chuckled, catching the stone effortlessly. “Alright, but I warn you—I’m pretty good at this,” he teased, giving you a wink that sent a rush of warmth through your chest. He tossed the balloon to you, and you fumbled the catch, laughing as it splashed back into the water.
Time seemed to blur as the game went on, the sunlight dancing across the waves, painting everything in golden hues. You and James shared quiet smiles and soft laughs, while Laura's giggles rang out over the waves, a pure, unfiltered joy that was infectious. At one point, a larger wave came, surprising all three of you, and you stumbled forward, your hand instinctively reaching for James's arm for balance. His fingers closed around yours, steadying you, and for a brief moment, your eyes met—just the two of you—until Laura’s excited shout pulled you both back to the present.
The hours slipped by, the chill of the water forgotten as you played and splashed, falling into an easy rhythm that felt more natural than you could have imagined. It wasn’t perfect, and you knew it wouldn’t be easy, but in that moment, it was enough to be there, together—caught in a fleeting pocket of happiness.
When the sun started its slow descent, casting long shadows across the beach, you found yourselves drifting back to the shore, waterlogged and happy. The three of you settled on the sand, Laura’s head resting on your lap as she talked about her favorite shells, and James sat beside you, his arm brushing against yours.
It felt right, even if it was just for a moment—like the pieces of your lives, broken and jagged, had come together in a way that made a strange, imperfect sense.
The sun was sinking into the horizon, drenching the sky in layers of gold and rose and molten amber, like someone had taken a paintbrush to the edge of the world. The sea caught the colors and scattered them across its surface, shimmering in waves that rolled in slow and soft against the pebbled shore. The air had cooled just enough to remind you that it was October, but not so much that you needed to pull on your cardigan yet. You sat there, on a worn blanket that smelled of sun and sea salt, the sand still clinging to your calves from earlier, your toes half-buried in the warmth of it.
Laura still nestled on your lap, her small body limp with the kind of exhaustion only a child can know—honest, happy, and full of salt-soaked memories. Her hair was still damp, curling slightly at the ends from seawater, and you reached out instinctively, brushing it back from her forehead with a tenderness you didn’t have to think about. Your fingers lingered at her temple, the gesture slow and rhythmic, almost meditative, as she sighed in her sleep and curled closer to your side.
James hadn’t spoken in a while.
You turned your head, slowly, your hand still stroking Laura’s hair, and found him already watching you. His cap was off now, lying somewhere behind him with his shoes, and the low sunlight kissed the sharp line of his jaw, the edge of his cheekbone. His expression was unreadable for a long moment, as if he didn’t quite know what to say, or maybe didn’t want to break the fragile peace between you with something clumsy or wrong.
“She’s out cold,” you murmured, smiling faintly, your voice a hush against the backdrop of the sea.
James nodded slowly, his gaze flicking to Laura for a moment. There was something so deeply protective in the way he looked at her—something that pulled at your chest. “She usually fights it,” he said quietly, “but not today. Guess I wore her out.”
“No,” you smiled, “we did.”
That earned a small breath of laughter from him, but it faded almost immediately, replaced by something more thoughtful. He looked back at the horizon, his arms looped around his knees, and he exhaled slowly—like he was letting go of something too heavy to carry into the evening.
“I forgot what this felt like,” he said after a pause, his voice low and distant, like the tide pulling away. “Just... being still. Sitting with someone. Not feeling like I need to run.”
You said nothing at first, letting the quiet carry the weight of his words. You understood more than you let on. There was a sort of vulnerability that clung to James like a second skin—something that wasn’t always visible, but always present. His pain, his guilt, his grief—it was stitched into the way he moved, into the hesitations between his words. But tonight, something had shifted. Not entirely, not dramatically. But just enough.
“She’s lucky to have you,” you said softly, looking down at the girl curled against you.
James’s jaw tensed, and for a second, you thought he might brush it off with one of his usual self-deprecating comments. But he didn’t. “I’m trying,” he murmured. “I keep trying.”
“And you’re doing better than you think.” You looked at him, willing him to believe it. “It shows.”
His eyes met yours then—really met them. There was something startling in the way he looked at you sometimes. Not just with desire or fondness, but with something deeper. Like he was trying to memorize you, piece by piece, as if he couldn’t quite believe you were real. “You make it easier,” he said suddenly.
You froze, not because of the words themselves, but because of how sincere they sounded. How unguarded.
Your heart fluttered, just a little. “Do I?” you asked, voice barely above a whisper.
He nodded. “I don’t know how you do it. But… you make everything feel quieter.”
Your breath caught. The sky was darkening, and the wind picked up slightly, brushing the edges of your hair across your cheek. He reached out, slowly, gently, brushing it back—his fingertips grazing your skin so lightly it made your pulse stutter. His touch lingered, resting briefly at the side of your face, and your lips parted, eyes searching his face.
He leaned in.
It wasn’t sudden or jarring—it was the opposite. His closeness was a tide, creeping in so slowly you didn’t show near he’d gotten until his forehead was resting against yours, and you could feel the warmth of his breath on your lips. He paused, his hand trembling just slightly where it cupped your jaw, and in that silence was a question.
You closed the gap.
The kiss was soft. Lingering. A conversation all on its own. It wasn’t frantic or feverish like before—it was tender, reverent. His lips tasted of salt and something sweet, maybe the lemonade you’d shared earlier. Your hands found his shirt, fingers curling into the fabric as you tilted your head and deepened the kiss, just enough to make him sigh against your mouth.
When he pulled back, his eyes searched yours, something peaceful and aching flickering behind them.
You didn’t need to say anything.
He didn’t either.
You both turned your gaze to the sea again, letting the silence stretch and settle between you like a blanket. Your hand drifted back to Laura’s hair, and James’s hand—tentative at first—brushed against yours where they met between you. For now, this was enough.
The horizon swallowed the sun, the sea grew dark, and you sat there, three hearts beating in time with the tide.
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The sky was navy blue by the time you stepped into your apartment, the last shades of twilight clinging stubbornly to the edges of the world. You shut the door behind you with a soft click, slipping off your shoes and setting your bag aside. The familiar scent of home greeted you—clean linen, faint lavender, and the distant trace of your favorite candle that must’ve burned low before you left.
You stood there for a moment in the hush, your hand still resting on the doorknob, your heart humming in your chest like a quiet song. James had kissed you.
Even now, hours later, you could still feel it. The shape of his lips on yours, the warmth of his breath, the unspoken longing buried in that single, tender moment. It hadn’t been rushed or hungry. It had been gentle. Careful. Full of things he couldn’t quite say yet, but maybe—just maybe—he was trying to.
Your fingers came up to your lips, brushing over them as if to keep the feeling alive just a little longer. And then, before you could stop yourself, you smiled. Not a big, silly grin. But a real one. Quiet. Honest. The kind that softened the lines around your eyes and made your chest ache in the best way.
Today had felt good. Not just good—right.
You moved toward the kitchen, the floor cool beneath your feet as you filled a glass of water and took a few sips, still lost in thought. The afternoon at the beach had been everything you hadn’t realised you needed. You, James, and Laura—laughing, playing, sharing sandwiches and secrets beneath the sun. It had felt easy. Natural. Like you were slotting into a place you hadn’t known was waiting for you.
And James…
You leaned back against the counter, closing your eyes for a moment. You could still picture the way he looked at you as the sun dipped low, how the weight he carried seemed a little lighter then. There was something vulnerable in him—something bruised and soft beneath the hard edges—and today, he let you see it. He let you touch it. That wasn’t nothing. That was progress.
You weren’t naïve. You knew he was still struggling. That his ghosts didn’t vanish with one kiss or one day in the sun. But something had shifted. A door cracked open, even if only slightly.
And you had seen through it.
You padded to your bedroom, peeling off your clothes, the sand still dusting your skin, and tossed them into the hamper. After a warm shower, you wrapped yourself in a soft towel and wandered to your bed, the sheets cool against your skin as you laid down, hair damp and your body humming with tiredness.
But it was the good kind of tired. The kind that came after a day well spent.
You reached for your phone on the bedside table, your thumb hovering for a moment over James’s name in your messages. You thought about texting him—something light, something like “I had a great time today.” You typed it slowly, carefully, reading it over twice.
But just as your finger moved to tap send—your phone buzzed.
Message from: James Sunderland
You blinked, startled. The timing was uncanny. You opened it quickly, your heart skipping a beat.
“Thank you for today. I don’t remember the last time I felt that calm. You looked beautiful in the sun.”
Your breath caught in your throat. For a man who rarely spoke his feelings—this was something. A lot, actually.
You reread the message again. Then a third time. That smile returned to your lips, blooming warm and slow.
You erased your original message and typed back something else. Something smaller, simpler, but true.
“I’m really glad I came.”
You waited a second, wondering if he was still there on the other end.
He was.
“Me too.”
You exhaled a soft laugh and turned off the screen, letting the phone fall beside you. You slid under the covers, the sheets cool against your warm skin, and curled onto your side with the faintest sense of peace fluttering in your chest. His kiss still tingled on your lips.
And somewhere, deep in your chest, bloomed the smallest, most dangerous thing of all.
Hope.
It started in the fog.
You didn’t know where you were, or how you’d gotten there—only that the air was thick, suffocating, and bitter cold despite the damp heat clinging to your skin. The kind of heat that felt unnatural. Foul. Every breath you took scraped your throat like ash. The world around you was gray and choked with mist, dense enough to swallow buildings whole, to reduce your hands to a blur before your eyes. The silence was total and heavy, pressing into your ears like cotton soaked in dread. Even your footsteps didn’t make a sound.
Your shoes echoed faintly on cracked concrete, the ground beneath your feet littered with broken glass and fragments of signs—faded lettering you couldn’t quite read. The skeleton of a rusted swing set loomed out of the fog to your left, motionless and twisted, and beyond it, something that might have once been a school or a church, but now stood hollowed out and bleeding rust. Everything looked abandoned and diseased, like the town itself had been peeled back to reveal a rotting core. And still, not a single soul in sight.
You should have woken up.
You knew it was a dream, that you were dreaming—but your skin prickled like it was real, like danger was real. The stench of iron and wet decay filled your nose. Your heart thundered louder than your thoughts, drowning out any sense of logic as the first sound shattered the stillness.
A metallic drag.
You froze.
The sound was deliberate—slow, unmistakable—metal scraping against concrete, as if someone were pulling a great blade across the ground. At first you thought it was a trick of the dream, a sound born of fear and nothing more. But then it came again, closer this time, and your blood turned cold.
You turned and ran.
Blindly, instinctively. Your feet hit pavement with uneven strides, your breath coming too fast. Every part of your mind screamed at you to run faster, move faster, though the fog seemed to thicken with every step, warping the road and pulling you in like molasses. The air turned sour, rank with rot. You nearly tripped on something—a doll’s head, dirt-caked and split down the middle—and then a siren wailed.
The sound cut through you like a blade.
A long, bone-shivering siren—warped and distorted, like something out of a nightmare. The very world seemed to scream with it, the gray sky above you bleeding into a rust-colored nightmare. Walls peeled like dead skin.
Ash began to fall like snow.
And then you saw him.
He emerged from the fog as if summoned by your fear. Towering, inhuman. A grotesque, muscular form, shoulders hunched under the weight of a massive red metal pyramid that obscured his head. His chest rose and fell with slow, deliberate breaths, like some mechanical beast. In his hand, a weapon—no, not a weapon, an executioner’s blade, absurdly long and thick, jagged and rusted as though it had been pulled from the belly of the earth itself.
You screamed and ran again, your limbs shaking, your lungs burning—but this time, you could hear your feet, and every step was agony. The dream didn’t feel like a dream anymore. You could feel the tears on your face. Your heartbeat crashing in your ears. Your own voice hoarse with terror.
But he didn’t run after you.
He followed.
Unhurried. As if he knew he would reach you eventually. That no matter how far you ran, you’d end up exactly where he wanted you. You stumbled into a building—the bones of what used to be a hospital, maybe, or a prison. The walls were wet and breathing, the floors slick with something dark. A single light flickered above a hallway, casting long shadows that danced with your panic. You slammed the door behind you and backed away, heart racing, mouth dry. And yet… you weren’t afraid anymore.
Not in the same way.
You heard the metal scrape again—louder, closer—and instead of bracing for death, you found yourself stepping forward. Not away. The fear became confusion, then fascination. Your breath still shivered in your throat, but your feet moved of their own accord. You turned the corner—and there he stood. The Pyramid Head. Silent. Imposing.
You didn’t know how long you stood there—seconds, minutes, hours—your gaze locked with the hulking figure of rust and muscle that filled the corridor ahead. There was something ritualistic in the way he remained so still, the blade now grounded beside him, a monument of ruin and judgment. He didn’t move, but the weight of his presence pressed against you, suffocating and intimate all at once. You could feel it—like a rope tied around your ribs, drawing you in despite every scream of reason in your mind.
You weren’t supposed to be here.
But you were.
And whatever dream logic tethered you to this place refused to let you flee, because somewhere in your bones, beneath the shallow rise and fall of panic, was the strange and undeniable awareness that you weren’t prey in this tableau—you were something else. Not a hunter, not quite, but something chosen.
Your feet moved again. One step. Then another.
Not with courage, but with a strange calm, like your body had accepted what your mind refused to. Your fingers brushed the wall beside you, flaked with rust and soot, grounding you in sensation. The silence between you stretched like wire—taut and ringing. You couldn’t see his eyes—if he even had eyes—but you felt watched.
Understood. Known.
The heat intensified the closer you came, as though walking into the heart of some infernal altar. You could smell iron and sweat and smoke, but beneath it, there was something else—something darker, more organic, like the scent of forgotten places and restless ghosts. The kind of smell that lives in places no one visits anymore.
He remained still, unmoving except for the rise and fall of his chest beneath the leather and torn cloth wrapped over his skin like a butcher’s apron. Your heart was no longer racing. It was pounding slow and deep.
And still you moved closer.
He didn’t stop you.
There was no sound. Not even breath. Not even thought.
Just you.
Him.
And the dreadful intimacy of distance closing.
When you were within reach—when his shadow pooled over your feet like oil—you halted. Not because you were afraid, not exactly, but because something ancient inside you demanded stillness. Reverence, even. He had lowered the blade but not relaxed. You sensed tension still curled within him, as if he too was waiting for something—an offering, a permission, a word unspoken.
Your chest rose with one deliberate inhale, the fog behind you swallowing the hallway in silence, and your hand lifted slowly—barely trembling—as if to reach for him, as if to see what it felt like to touch something that should not exist, something forged of metal and myth and blood.
But before your fingers could make contact, his head tilted—not violently, but with solemnity, as if studying you further, assessing the very shape of your soul. There was something almost protective in it. Something grotesquely holy. As if this thing, this executioner, had been summoned not to hurt you, but to see you, to witness you in your most stripped-down truth. And though there was no voice, no words, you felt them anyway—low and thundering through the marrow of your bones.
“You are not ready.”
It was not a threat. It was a truth.
And even though you should have recoiled, should have begged to wake, you did none of those things.
Your hand hovered, trembling now—not from fear, but from the overwhelming gravity of him. Of what he was. Of what it meant to be seen so completely, so mercilessly. The helmet gave nothing away, but you could feel the weight of his gaze—or something like it—behind the sloped rusted metal. As though his awareness slithered through the slits and folds of your mind, peeling back every soft and shameful part of you.
The silence between you expanded, the air thick and humming.
You swallowed hard, your voice raw when you finally found it.
“…What am I not ready for?”
The sound of your words felt small, inadequate. Insultingly human. But they left your lips anyway, cracking through the stillness like a match struck in a long-dark room. No answer came. He didn’t move.
Didn’t blink—if he could blink. The only response was the subtle tightening of his stance, the way his shoulders shifted beneath layers of dried blood and torn leather. But you sensed it. He’d heard you.A long breath dragged itself out of your lungs. You pressed further. “Why me?” you asked. “Why am I here?”
Another question unanswered.
But something shifted in the air between you. A low, impossible sound—not a growl, not a snarl—more like the groaning of iron under strain, painful, as if his very presence were bending the world around him. It made your teeth ache. Your hand fell back to your side slowly, your skin buzzing from how close it had been.
You stepped back. His head tilted again—just slightly. Observing. Following.
“You’re not going to hurt me… are you?” you whispered, a tentative kind of hope threaded into the fear.
The silence lingered too long. And then the blade twitched. Just the smallest movement, a whisper of metal on stone.
Your breath caught in your throat. You didn’t flinch, but your spine stiffened, your body reacting instinctively even as your mind warred with what you felt—this strange pull, this electric charge of something dark and ancient between you. Still, you refused to back down. You narrowed your eyes.
“Are you punishing me?” you asked. “Or protecting me?”
This time… the air responded. The corridor darkened as if the walls themselves were drawing breath, and the sirens far in the distance wailed again—long, mournful cries that echoed through bone and shadow. You could feel it now—the tension coiling through him. As if he didn’t know the answer either. As if his nature bent toward violence, but his purpose had not yet been named. He took a step forward. The ground shuddered under his weight.
You should’ve run. But you didn’t.
Your voice was steel now. Sharper. Bolder.
“I’m not afraid of you.” A lie. But not entirely.
And that’s when he moved. Not to strike—not to kill—but to approach. The distance between you collapsed in two lumbering steps, and suddenly he was towering over you again, the enormity of him forcing you to crane your neck, to tip your face upward like a penitent before an altar.
He bent down. The blade fell to the ground behind him, forgotten.
And for the first time, he reached out. His hand—scarred, immense, half-covered in a stained wrap—brushed your cheek. Just barely. Like the ghost of a touch. And though there was nothing gentle about the creature before you, the contact was almost reverent. Worshipful.
But there was something else behind it—tension. Hunger. An ancient kind of longing that made your skin crawl and your chest burn, like something terrible was being held back. He wanted something.
And whatever it was… it was dangerous.
You could see it in the way his hand trembled before he withdrew it. The way the air pulsed, crackled, shivered like a live wire waiting to snap. And you understood, with a cold, certain clarity, that if you reached for him again—if you let him—the dream would become something else. Something harder to wake from.
“I’m not yours,” you said, more to remind yourself than him.
But your voice wavered. Because some part of you wanted to be. Some part of you already was.
His hand dropped back to his side.
The sirens wailed again, louder now, closer, their mournful cries twisting through the stale, rotting air like the breath of the town itself. Above you, the rusted lights flickered and buzzed, fighting a losing battle against the darkness that crept along the cracked walls, splitting open with festering rot. The floor beneath you felt slick—wet with something thick and iron-scented, the coldness seeping through your soles, anchoring you to this nightmare.
Pyramid Head remained unmoving, a silent sentinel in this collapsing corridor. And you, frozen between dread and a strange, unbearable fascination, found you could not turn away. A breath. A heartbeat. Then, impossibly, his voice—not spoken aloud, but echoing inside your mind, reverberating through every fractured corner of your soul—whispered: “Silent Hill…”
The name hung heavy, like a curse and a promise both.
“When you are ready… you will understand.”
Before you could ask what that meant, a distant sound broke through the darkness. A voice, strained and desperate, slicing through the suffocating silence. “Y/n!”
It was James. Screaming your name.
“James!” She screamed back, your feet rushing you towards him as if on instinct.
His voice pulled at you, raw and urgent, threading through the shadows and sinking into your chest like a lifeline. The dream began to crumble around you—not with a scream, but with a slow, suffocating silence, as if the town itself was swallowing you whole.
And just before the last fragment of the nightmare dissolved, a whisper lingered in the air: “Help us…”
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“How’s your new medical dose working, Mr. Sunderland?”
James stared down at the nurse, her voice breaking through his haze of memories. Her smile was wide and sweet, too sweet, as if she didn't know that every time he walked into this place, a little part of him withered. Her uniform was too bright, the walls too clean, the lights too harsh. Everything felt wrong in hospitals—had felt wrong ever since Mary and Silent Hill. Mary had spent so much time in places like this, the sterile smell of antiseptic clinging to everything, the endless beeps of machines monitoring her slow decline. The sight of her frail body hooked up to wires, her once lively eyes dulled by pain and fatigue, haunted him. He’d hated watching her slip further and further away, hated how helpless it made him feel.
The hospitals were a graveyard for hope.
The nurse, unaware or uncaring of his inner turmoil, continued leading him down the long corridor. Every step felt like it was echoing in his head, like the ticking of some inevitable countdown. Her shoes clicked sharply on the polished floor, and with every click, James felt the weight of the place closing in on him. It wasn't just Mary anymore—it was him. He hated these appointments because they made him feel like he was in Mary’s place now, like the sickness had transferred from her body to his mind.
That’s what it was, after all. Mary had been physically ill, but James knew he was sick, too—mentally.
And that scared him more than anything.
He clenched his fists inside his pockets, trying to focus on something other than the tightening in his chest. The walls were lined with posters about health and mental well-being, all of them blurring together in a haze of meaningless words. James wasn’t sure how long he’d been feeling this way—restless, broken, angry. He was doing his best to hold it together for Laura. For her, he had to keep moving, keep showing up to these appointments, keep taking the medication that dulled his thoughts just enough so he didn’t lose control.
He had to. Only God knew what he might do if he didn’t. The memories of Silent Hill still clawed at the edges of his mind, the weight of his actions, of his guilt, always there, just under the surface.
They reached the end of the corridor, and the nurse stopped outside a door, turning to look at him with that same smile plastered on her face. He could feel her eyes on him, assessing, waiting. He hated it, hated feeling like a patient—like someone broken who needed fixing. “Mr. Sunderland?” she repeated, knocking gently on the door before turning the handle. “The doctor will see you now.”
James stepped inside, the familiar dread rising like bile in his throat. The doctor’s office wasn’t much different from the rest of the hospital—sterile, white, and cold. He could see the file with his name on the desk, his life reduced to a few pages of notes and medical jargon. He hated that, too—how clinical it all was. There was no way to explain what was wrong with him, not really. No dosage of medication could fix the things he’d done, the things he’d seen.
As he sat down, the doctor's soft murmur of greetings barely registered. James’s gaze drifted to the window, the gray sky outside mirroring the weight inside him. He wasn’t here because he wanted to be. He was here because he had to be, for the last piece of his life that still made sense.
“James.” The doctor’s voice was calm but probing, pulling him back to the present. “How have you been feeling on the new dose? Any noticeable changes?”
James rubbed his palms against his jeans, trying to think of what to say. What was the point of explaining? The medication didn’t change anything, not really. Sure, it dulled the edges, kept him from spiralling too far into the nightmares, but the weight was still there. The guilt. The grief. The memories of Mary’s final days still haunted him, and now…now there was everything else.
“Same as always,” James muttered, keeping his eyes fixed on the window. “It takes the edge off, but...”
He trailed off, unsure of how to finish that sentence. It wasn’t enough. It was never enough.
The doctor nodded slowly, jotting something down in his file, and James felt that familiar frustration building again. None of this would help—like it hadn’t helped Mary. None of this would take away the memories or the guilt that gnawed at him like a festering wound. The doctor’s voice cut through his thoughts again, calm but firm. “You’re doing this for your daughter, right?”
“Yes,” James nodded slowly, the weight of the conversation pressing on his chest. "I need to be stable for Laura," he muttered, almost as if he were trying to convince himself as much as the doctor. He didn’t like talking about it. Didn’t like admitting how fragile his grip on things really was.
But Laura—she needed him, and that was all that mattered… Right?
The doctor, however, leaned forward in his chair, his expression unreadable as he studied James for a moment. Then, in a calm but pointed voice, he interrupted, “Maybe you should be doing this for yourself first, James. Have you ever considered that?”
James opened his mouth to respond, but no words came out. He stared at the doctor, feeling caught off guard, like the ground beneath him had shifted suddenly. For himself? The thought sounded almost foreign in his mind. What was the point of doing it for himself? Why would it even matter?
His mouth closed again, his throat tightening with the weight of unspoken thoughts. The silence in the room stretched, the question lingering in the air. James hadn’t considered himself in a long time—his needs, his well-being. It seemed almost selfish, like a luxury he didn’t deserve.
Apart from Y/n.
He had taken everything from you.
“I…” he finally managed, his voice quieter now, hesitant. “I don’t know what good that would do.”
He shifted in his seat, discomfort gnawing at him. The idea of taking care of himself first felt wrong, unnatural even. His life had revolved around others—around Mary when she was alive, and now around Laura. He barely recognized himself anymore, much less thought about what he needed. The mere suggestion seemed ludicrous.
The doctor’s gaze didn’t waver, his calm persistence chipping away at the walls James had built around himself. "You’re still here, James. Still alive. That has to mean something, doesn’t it? You can’t help anyone if you’re not helping yourself." The doctor let out a long, tired sigh, leaning back in his chair as if the weight of this conversation had become too familiar, too routine.
“It’s always the same with you, James,” he said, his tone gentle but edged with frustration. “I’ve been seeing you for years now, and there’s been so little improvement. It’s starting to become... alarming.”
James felt his chest tighten at the words, a cold ripple of anxiety spreading through him.Alarming. It echoed in his mind, drawing him back to another time, another place—the same hollow, clinical speeches they had made about Mary when it became clear she wasn’t getting better. That same hopelessness. That same finality.
His pulse quickened. The room seemed to close in around him, the doctor’s words blurring with memories of those sterile hospital rooms, the beeping machines, the pitiful way the nurses would smile at him as if they knew there was nothing left to be done. A lost cause. They had treated Mary like that toward the end, and now they were starting to look at him the same way. He couldn’t bear the thought of it.
James’ breath hitched, panic gnawing at the edges of his composure. He tried to stay calm, gripping the arms of the chair as if grounding himself physically would somehow stop the rising tide of fear inside him. But the more he tried to control it, the more his thoughts spiralled. The idea of being a lost cause, of being considered beyond saving—it was unbearable. It felt like a death sentence, only this time it wasn’t just physical. It was his mind. His soul.
“I’m not…” he started, his voice shaky, the panic evident in his eyes as he looked at the doctor. “I’m not dying. I’m not—" His thoughts raced, but the words wouldn’t come out right. He couldn’t find a way to explain how much that idea terrified him.
The doctor leaned forward, his expression softening as he noticed the change in James' demeanour. His brow furrowed with concern as he held up a hand, his voice gentler now. “James, it’s okay. Breathe.”
James struggled to rein in the panic, his breathing shallow, his hands trembling slightly. He couldn’t get the thought out of his head—the idea of being doomed, of wasting away the way Mary had. It had consumed him once, and now it was rearing its ugly head again.
“I’m not saying you’re a lost cause,” the doctor said quietly, his voice firm yet reassuring. “I don’t think that. I don’t want you to think that either. You’re not Mary, James. This isn’t the same.” He spoke slowly, as if trying to guide James away from the edge of that dark spiral. “You’re not going to die like she did.”
The doctor’s words started to pierce through the fog of panic, though James still felt on edge, his heart pounding uncomfortably in his chest. He stared at the floor, struggling to push the thoughts away.
“You’re here,” the doctor continued softly. “You’re still here, still trying. And that’s what matters. But you’ve got to stop thinking of this as something you can just push through without taking care of yourself.”
James nodded stiffly, still shaken, but the panic was beginning to ebb. He wasn’t entirely convinced, but the doctor’s words had slowed his racing mind.
The doctor extended his hand, his palm open and expectant. "Your journal, James."
James hesitated for a split second before reaching into his bag and pulling out the worn notebook. It was a simple thing, its pages filled with his scribbled thoughts and confessions, the only place where he could vent the swirling chaos in his head without restraint. His hand shook slightly as he handed it over.
The doctor accepted the journal without a word, flipping it open to where James had left off. For a long, agonising moment, James just sat there, staring at him. The silence in the room felt heavy, the soft rustle of paper the only sound breaking it. James’ heart thudded in his chest, the anxiety from earlier still coiled tightly within him. The doctor’s brow furrowed as he read, his eyes scanning the pages carefully.
Then, suddenly, the doctor paused, his finger lingering on a particular entry. His eyebrow raised slightly, and James’ stomach lurched. He found it. The entry James dreaded anyone would see, the one where he had let his shameful thoughts spill onto the page like a confession he could never voice out loud. He had been reckless, letting the memory of you consume him to the point where he couldn't resist anymore. And now, it was there in the doctor's hands, in black ink.
The doctor didn’t look at James right away. Instead, he flipped back a few pages, then forward again, as if comparing something. Finally, he spoke, his tone neutral, almost clinical. “So, a new name has appeared,” the doctor remarked, glancing up at James briefly. “It’s always been Mary, Laura and you. But now… Y/n?”
James’ throat went dry. He swallowed hard, his eyes darting away, his hands curling into fists on his lap. He felt exposed, as if all his dirty secrets had been laid bare, the shame gnawing at him like a festering wound. His mind raced, remembering that entry, the way he had let himself go completely, jerking off to thoughts of you, and how disgusted he’d felt afterward. It was a moment of weakness, a release of the sexual frustration he’d kept buried for so long. And now the doctor knew.
James braced himself for judgement, for the inevitable look of disappointment or maybe even disgust. But when the doctor spoke again, it wasn’t what he expected. “Well,” the doctor said, leaning back in his chair with a hint of surprise in his voice, “at least you seem to be making some progress… when it comes to your sexual frustration.”
James blinked, caught off guard. He hadn’t expected that. He stared at the doctor, unsure of how to respond. Progress? How could that be considered progress? It felt like a violation, a betrayal of everything he had tried to bury deep inside. The doctor’s gaze softened, his expression more thoughtful than condemning.
“You’ve spent a long time suppressing those urges, James. It’s no wonder they’ve started to come out in... different ways. But I don’t think it’s something to be ashamed of. Not entirely, at least.”
James opened his mouth, then closed it, unable to form a coherent response. The shame was still there, clawing at him, but the doctor’s unexpected reaction had thrown him. "Y/n..." James began, his voice rough, but he couldn’t find the words. He wasn’t ready to admit what you meant to him, not to the doctor, not even to himself.
"You’ve been carrying a lot, James. Maybe it’s time to stop punishing yourself for simply being human."
The doctor flipped through James’ journal again, settling on another entry. His eyes scanned the page before he began reading aloud, his voice even and steady. James’ stomach churned as he recognized the date.
“‘Y/n came over today,’” the doctor began. “‘I made some pizzas for Laura and her. Laura seemed excited—she always is when Y/n’s around. It’s like her presence lights up the whole room. I hadn’t seen Laura smile like that in a long time. Y/n… she’s good for her.’”
James shifted uncomfortably in his chair, his jaw tight as the doctor continued.
“‘It wasn’t just Laura, though. Y/n has this way of making everything feel... easier. I don’t know how to explain it. It’s like just being near her makes things warmer. She laughed at one of Laura’s jokes, and for a moment, it was like the weight on my chest wasn’t so heavy. Like maybe things could be okay for a while.’”
The doctor paused, glancing at James. “She sounds kind. Thoughtful, even.”
James clenched his fists in his lap, his gaze fixed on the floor. He didn’t need the doctor to remind him of how good Y/n was. He knew. But that wasn’t the point.
The doctor continued, his voice a little softer now, as he read the next part. “‘I should’ve kept my distance, but I didn’t. After Laura went to bed, Y/n and I ended up too close. It wasn’t supposed to happen like that. I pushed her away before it got worse, but... I felt bad about it. Guilty, even. I don’t know why. Maybe because I wanted it. Maybe because I needed it.’”
Silence filled the room after those words, thick and suffocating. James’ heart raced, the memory of that night playing vividly in his mind. He had pushed you away, yes, but only after he’d let it go too far. Only after he’d felt the spark of something he knew he had no right to feel.
"It’s clear you care about Y/n, James. That much is obvious. But what’s more telling is the guilt you felt afterward. You’re punishing yourself for something natural—something human." The doctor commented. “You’re allowed to move forward, James,” the doctor said softly. “You’re allowed to let yourself feel, even if it’s difficult. You don’t have to keep punishing yourself for every moment of warmth you find.”
But James wasn’t sure he believed that. The shame ran too deep, tangled in his grief, his guilt, and his fear.
The doctor leaned back in his chair, giving James space to breathe. “Y/n seems to care about you and Laura. That’s something worth considering.”
James nodded slightly, but his mind was far from convinced.
The doctor flipped to the most recent entry in James' journal, his brow furrowing slightly as he began to read. James could barely sit still, his chest tightening with every second that passed in silence. He knew what the doctor was about to find, and the shame weighed heavy on him.
“‘I can’t stop thinking about it,’” the doctor read aloud. “‘That night with Y/n… how I pushed her away after everything. It was too much. Too close. But now, I can’t stop feeling like I made a mistake. It’s eating me up inside. I felt like I had to push her away, but now... all I want is to bring her back.’”
The doctor’s voice remained steady, but James could hear the shift in his tone, the careful consideration of every word as he continued. “‘I felt guilty because it wasn’t supposed to happen like that. But I can’t pretend anymore. I need her. I can’t deny it—I want to be close to her. I’m tired of fighting it, tired of pretending that I don’t care. But what kind of man does that make me? I pushed her away, but now I just want to apologise. I need to apologise, because I need her, and I can’t keep pretending that I don’t.’”
The doctor let out a quiet sigh as he finished reading, closing the journal with a soft thud. James could feel his pulse pounding in his ears, every word of that entry now hanging in the air between them.
“You’re being honest with yourself here, James,” the doctor said, his voice gentle but firm. “You’re acknowledging your feelings, your needs. That’s not a bad thing. In fact, it’s progress.”
James swallowed hard, his throat dry. Progress, again. That’s what the doctor called it, but all he felt was shame. How could needing Y/n feel like progress when it made him feel so weak? So desperate?
“But it’s the guilt,” the doctor continued, “the guilt that’s keeping you trapped in this cycle. You want to be close to her, but you’re punishing yourself for it at the same time. Why is that? Is it because of Mary?”
James flinched at the mention of her name, the familiar weight of her memory pressing down on him. “I... I don’t know,” he muttered, his voice barely above a whisper. “Maybe.”
The doctor leaned forward, his gaze focused on James. “You need to figure that out, James. You’re allowed to need someone. You’re allowed to want someone in your life. But until you deal with the guilt you’re carrying, you’ll keep pushing her away, and you’ll keep punishing yourself for wanting something that’s entirely natural.”
James nodded, though his mind was far from settled. The words in that journal were raw, real, and terrifying. He couldn’t deny what he felt anymore—he was needy, desperate even, and he hated himself for it. For wanting something he couldn’t have. For needing you.
The doctor turned a few more pages, his hand pausing as he reached the end of the journal where the pages were blank. His brows knitted together, and he hesitated, his eyes flicking back up to James. “When do you think this last entry was?” the doctor asked, his tone soft but concerned.
James pinched the bridge of his nose, already feeling the frustration bubbling up. “I... I don’t know. Maybe three days ago?”
The doctor’s face hardened as he shook his head. “It wasn’t three days ago, James. It was six.” He sighed, closing the journal with a soft thud. “You’re losing track of time again, and that’s not good.”
James felt a heavy wave of dread settle over him as the doctor’s words sank in. Six days? He ran a hand over his face, trying to remember, trying to piece together the blurred fragments of the last week, but it was like reaching into fog. Time slipped through his fingers more often than he liked to admit, and here it was happening again.
The doctor leaned forward, his gaze piercing. “Tell me, James—what happened these last six days? Where have you been?”
James clenched his jaw, trying to pull something—anything—out of the haze in his mind. He remembered the hotel, remembered Y/n, remembered how he pushed you away again. And the guilt, it had been suffocating him since. But six days? What had he been doing in all that time?
“I don’t know,” James muttered, his voice low and strained. “I... I think I just stayed home. I’ve been looking after Laura, I think. Just trying to keep things together.”
The doctor’s expression remained stern, though there was a glimmer of understanding in his eyes. “It’s more than just keeping things together, James. You’re slipping, and we’ve been down this road before. You know that when you lose track of time like this, it means you’re dissociating again.”
James swallowed, his throat tight. He hated hearing it said out loud. Dissociating. It made him feel like he wasn’t even present in his own life, like a passenger watching from the sidelines while everything fell apart around him.
“And what about Y/n?” the doctor pressed gently. “You wrote about her, about how you wanted to apologise. Did you do it?”
James nodded slowly, his face showing deep struggle as he spoke, “Yes… I went to apologise. It was the day after class when Laura forgot her maths book.”
The doctor’s eyes narrowed slightly, urging James to continue. “And how did it go? How did you feel?”
For a moment, James hesitated, his gaze dropping to the floor. “It felt… good,” he admitted, almost reluctantly. “To apologise, I mean. I realised I had been acting like a jerk with her. She didn’t deserve that. And for a second, I thought maybe I could make things right.” The doctor nodded, waiting, but James’ expression shifted. His jaw tightened, and his voice dropped as he continued, “But then… then I took advantage of her.”
The words hung in the air like a heavy weight, the silence thick with shame.
“I pleasured her in the classroom,” James confessed, his voice barely above a whisper now. His fists clenched in his lap as he struggled to make sense of it, to come to terms with what he had done. “And with a second thought, I realise… I didn’t even ask for her consent. I just… I just did it.” James’ breath hitched, his mind racing back to that moment. He had been lost in the heat of it, the need to feel something, anything, to escape the crushing weight of his guilt. But now, looking back, he wasn’t sure if he had crossed a line.
The doctor’s eyes narrowed slightly, though he remained calm, taking in James' words carefully. "You... took advantage of her?" he repeated, the weight of James’ confession sinking into the space between them.
James nodded slowly, his hands gripping the edge of the chair, knuckles white from the pressure. "I didn’t even think. It just... happened," he muttered, his voice barely above a whisper. "I went to apologise, but then everything spiralled. I—God, I didn’t even ask her. I just... I didn’t give her a choice." His voice cracked on the last word, and he shook his head as if trying to shake away the guilt crawling beneath his skin. “I truly don’t know,” James muttered, his voice breaking. “I think she wanted it. She didn’t say no, but… but I didn’t ask. I didn’t stop to think. I just… I just took. And now, I feel like I’ve made things worse. Like I’ve dragged her down with me.”
For a moment, the doctor was silent, his fingers steepled as he watched James closely, the gravity of the situation settling between them. "James," he said, his voice firm yet still measured, "you’ve made significant progress in recognizing your actions, but this... this is dangerous. You’re stepping into territory that could destroy what little stability you’ve managed to build—for yourself and for Laura."
"It felt wrong," James admitted, his voice strained. "But at the same time, it was like... like I couldn’t stop myself. I needed her in that moment, and I just—" He broke off, clenching his fists as a fresh wave of guilt washed over him. "I hurt her, didn’t I?"
The doctor sighed softly, leaning back in his chair. "You crossed a boundary, James. And that’s something you’ll need to address, not just with her, but with yourself. You’re carrying so much grief, anger, and guilt—those emotions have nowhere to go, so they manifest in ways that are harmful to you and those around you. What happened with Y/n might have been about more than just desire. It might be about trying to fill the void you’ve been living with for years."
James nodded weakly, the doctor’s words ringing uncomfortably true. He thought about Mary, about the years of frustration and loss, about how much he had bottled up since her illness and death. And now, here he was, unravelling in front of Y/n, dragging her into his mess because he couldn’t keep his emotions in check.
"You need to confront what’s really going on inside you," the doctor continued. "You’re not just dealing with sexual frustration or the need for intimacy. You’re dealing with unresolved grief, anger at yourself, anger at the world... and it’s clouding your judgement."
James pressed his palms to his eyes, trying to block out the reality of what he had done. "I didn’t mean to hurt her," he said, his voice rough. "I didn’t—" James let out a shaky breath, his heart pounding in his chest. He wasn’t sure he had it in him to face Y/n again, to admit the truth of what he had done. But the doctor was right—if he didn’t confront it, it would fester, eating away at him until there was nothing left.
James swallowed hard, his throat dry as he prepared to admit more. "That wasn’t everything," he said quietly, his hands fidgeting in his lap. "After that day… I didn’t stop. One day, I called her and booked a hotel, and then it just… started. We began seeing each other. Regularly."
The doctor looked at him thoughtfully before commenting, “Y/n must be very patient, James. She seems kind, and forgiving if she continued seeing you after that initial incident.”
But James shook his head. “That’s the problem. The more I saw her, the worse it got. I… I started having these nightmares again. Vivid. It’s that… that thing.” His voice trembled as he spoke, the weight of his confession dragging him down. "That red pyramid thing from my nightmares... it's back."
The doctor’s eyes flickered with concern as James pressed on, his voice thick with dread. "I would dream of that creature, taking advantage of her. Of Y/n. It would… it would hurt and abuse her, and I’d just be there, watching, unable to stop it." His hands clenched into tight fists, the memories of those nightmares making his skin crawl.
James paused, staring at the ground as if lost in those dark, haunting visions. “And the more I felt at ease with her, the more unbearable the dreams became. It felt like I was losing control, like I was watching her suffer in ways I couldn’t handle.” His voice cracked with the weight of his fear.
The doctor remained quiet, letting the words spill out of James, not interrupting him.
“Last time,” James continued, “I couldn’t take it anymore. I pushed her away. I acted like an asshole, rude and cold… just to make sure I hurt her feelings. I wanted her to hate me, to stop coming around, to make it easier for both of us.” His head lowered, his face twisted with guilt. “I left her there. She didn’t deserve that, but I couldn’t… I couldn’t keep dragging her into my mess. I thought if I made her leave, it would stop the nightmares. But it didn’t.”
The doctor exhaled slowly, his face softening with understanding. “James, what you're describing… it sounds like your subconscious is trying to confront something deeper. Maybe it’s not just about Y/n, but about control. Guilt. These nightmares could be your mind’s way of punishing you for feeling like you don’t deserve her.”
James nodded numbly, but inside, he was reeling. He had been doing everything he could to keep Laura safe, to hold it together for her. But now, it felt like everything was slipping out of his control. Y/n had been his one escape, his one comfort—and now, he had destroyed that too.
“I’m scared,” James finally admitted, his voice barely a whisper.
The doctor nodded, his gaze steady but compassionate. “Being scared is completely normal, James. It shows that you’re aware of what’s at stake, and that’s not a bad thing.” He paused, letting the words settle between them before continuing. “But let’s take a step back and rationalise this. Deep down, you’re a brave man. Braver than you give yourself credit for.”
James blinked, uncertainty in his eyes as he looked up. The doctor’s voice was firm but encouraging. “You know what you want, even if it scares you. Think about it—when you realised alcohol had taken hold of you, you made a decision. You stopped, cold turkey, because you knew it was dragging you down. And since then, you haven’t indulged. That’s proof of your strong spirit. Most people would’ve faltered, but you didn’t.”
James clenched his jaw, feeling the weight of those words. He hadn’t allowed himself to acknowledge the strength it had taken to quit drinking, but hearing it framed this way brought a flicker of pride, mingled with shame.
The doctor leaned forward, his voice softening. “But when it comes to your emotions, it’s different, isn’t it? There’s no simple fix. Still, you already know what you want deep down. You’ve made your decision, James, even if you haven’t fully admitted it to yourself yet.”
James swallowed hard, his heart pounding as he felt the truth of those words. He did know what he wanted, but the path to get there felt impossibly steep.
“The road ahead will be long and hard,” the doctor continued, his tone gentle but insistent. “Just like when you cut out alcohol. Guilt and grief have been your comfort for so long. They’ve been your constant companions, the last thread tying you to the past. Moving forward means severing that link, changing the routine. And it’s terrifying because it means letting go of what’s familiar, even if it’s painful.”
James stared down at his hands, his thoughts swirling. He had spent so many years cocooned in the comfort of his suffering, unable to envision a life without it.
“But moving forward also means sharing that vulnerability with someone else,” the doctor added, his words hitting like a quiet truth James had been avoiding. “And I think that’s where Y/n comes in. She’s been there, offering you something new. Something real. And it’s not easy for you to accept that, because it requires you to let someone else in, to share the parts of yourself you’ve kept locked away.”
The doctor let out a long breath, his expression softening further. “You’re brave enough to quit alcohol. You’re brave enough to do this too, James. But it’s up to you to decide when you’re ready to take that step.”
The doctor leaned back slightly in his chair, observing James closely. He could sense the internal conflict brewing beneath the surface, an invisible storm churning behind his stormy eyes. “You know, we talked about this woman, Maria, right?” he said, his tone steady but probing. “In our past sessions, we both agreed that she was—”
James swallowed hard, the name hanging in the air like a spectre, casting a shadow over the moment. “She wasn’t real,” he interjected, frustration colouring his voice. He felt a mix of resentment and acknowledgment rising within him. The doctor’s expression shifted to one of pleased understanding.
“Exactly,” the doctor replied, nodding with a hint of warmth. “She was a manifestation of your guilt, your grief—an anchor that kept you tethered to the past. And you’ve always pushed her away, never indulging in that fantasy. That shows remarkable strength, James.”
A flicker of recognition crossed James’s face, as if the doctor had peeled back a layer of his psyche to reveal something he had always known but hadn’t dared to acknowledge. He had fought against the allure of those internal fantasies, refusing to let them control him. But now, as the doctor continued, he felt the weight of a different reality pressing in on him.
“But now,” the doctor said, his voice gentle yet firm, “you’ve let Y/n take a part of your life. You’ve opened yourself up to her in ways you never did with Maria, and that’s a significant step forward. If you’re afraid of treating her like you did Mary or Maria, you have to remember this: Y/n is her own person, with her own desires and opinions.”
James’s brow furrowed, confusion and concern swirling in his thoughts. “But I—” he started, the words catching in his throat, a knot tightening in his chest.
The doctor held up a hand, silencing James gently. “You can’t know whether you deserve her or not. Your past experiences are not a reflection of who you are now. You’re not that man anymore, James. You’ve fought hard to break free from those chains, and you’ve come so far. Y/n is different, and she has the right to make her own choices in this relationship, just as you do.”
James's gaze dropped to the floor, a whirlwind of emotions swirling within him. Each word the doctor spoke felt like a mirror, reflecting not just his fears but also his hopes—hopes he had been too afraid to acknowledge. “What if I hurt her?” he finally managed, vulnerability seeping into his voice like ink spreading on paper.
The doctor leaned forward, his gaze unwavering, an anchor in James's turbulent sea of self-doubt. “What if you don’t?” he asked back, his tone softening. “What if you’re capable of giving her something real, something that’s not clouded by your past? You have to give yourself that chance. Otherwise, you risk losing out on something beautiful.”
James looked up, searching the doctor’s face for any hint of insincerity, any sign that this was just another platitude designed to comfort him. But there was none. Instead, there was understanding—deep, resonant understanding that penetrated the layers of fear and guilt he had built around himself.
“Every time you pull away from Y/n, you’re not just punishing yourself; you’re punishing her too,” the doctor continued, his voice steady. “She deserves to know you, the real you—not the shadow of the man haunted by his past. And you deserve to be seen for who you are now, free from those burdens.”
James felt a swell of emotion rising within him, a mix of guilt and longing. The thought of Y/n brought warmth to his chest, but it was quickly eclipsed by memories of loss and fear. “But what if she sees the darkness in me?” he whispered, the vulnerability spilling out like water from a cracked vessel. “What if she runs away?”
“Then she’s not the right person for you,” the doctor replied, his tone unwavering. “But if she chooses to stay, it means she sees something in you worth holding onto. You have to allow her the opportunity to make that choice.”
James leaned back in his chair, the weight of the doctor’s words pressing down on him like a physical force. The air in the room felt thick, saturated with the unspoken tension that had become a part of his life. He had spent so long living in a haze of self-imposed isolation that the idea of opening up to someone felt terrifying and exhilarating all at once.
“You’re standing at a crossroads, James,” the doctor said, his voice softer now, almost coaxing. “One path leads back to the familiar—the pain, the guilt, the solitude. The other leads to possibility, connection, and maybe even happiness. But it’s your choice. You have to take that first step.”
James nodded slowly, absorbing the gravity of the moment. His heart raced as he contemplated the risk involved in stepping forward. But deep down, beneath layers of fear and hesitation, a flicker of hope began to grow. Perhaps there was a way to reconcile his past with his present, a way to embrace both the light and the dark without being consumed by either.
Taking a deep breath, he looked into the doctor’s eyes, seeking reassurance. “I’ll try,” he said, his voice barely above a whisper. “I’ll try to make it work with Y/n.”
The doctor smiled, a mix of pride and encouragement evident on his face. “That’s all I ask, James. Just take it one day at a time. You’ve come too far to let fear dictate your choices now.”
As they sat together in that small, sterile room, surrounded by the echoes of their conversation, James felt a shift within himself—a small but significant turning point. It was a long road ahead, fraught with challenges and uncertainties, but for the first time in a long while, he felt the weight of his past begin to lift, replaced by the flickering light of possibility.
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The sun had dipped lower in the sky, casting a warm, golden hue over the school grounds as children trickled out from their classrooms. James stood near the entrance, feeling strangely out of place, gripping a bouquet of flowers in his hand. He could feel eyes on him, parents chatting quietly while casting curious glances his way, and even a few teachers looked on with mild amusement. He swallowed hard, fighting the sudden urge to toss the bouquet and leave, but he couldn’t bring himself to move.
Then Laura appeared, bouncing out of the school building with her usual carefree attitude, her backpack slung over her shoulder. Her gaze immediately zeroed in on the bright burst of flowers in his hand, her brow furrowing in confusion as she approached. “Flowers?” Laura raised an eyebrow, her voice tinged with disbelief. “I never saw you buy flowers, James. Are they for me?” She stood in front of him, crossing her arms as if she already knew the answer and was daring him to say otherwise.
James felt his face flush with heat, utterly embarrassed. He hadn’t thought this through. His heart hammered in his chest, and he was all too aware of the curious stares of the people around him. He cleared his throat, avoiding Laura’s sharp gaze. "Uh, no," he stammered, shaking his head. "These… uh… these are for Y/n. To thank her for all her hard work, you know… teaching and stuff."
The lie felt flimsy on his tongue, but he pressed on, forcing a weak smile. Laura stared at him, her eyes narrowing, not buying his explanation for a second. He could almost see the gears turning in her little head.
“Y/n, huh?” Laura's tone was sceptical, her arms still crossed. “Since when do you give teachers flowers for teaching? You didn’t give Miss Roberts any when she was my teacher.” Her voice was dripping with suspicion, and James shifted uncomfortably under her scrutiny.
He cursed silently under his breath. Laura had a way of cutting right through his defences with just a few words. He could feel himself faltering, unsure of how to continue without giving too much away. “I just… thought it’d be nice, that’s all,” James mumbled, trying to sound casual. “It’s nothing. Just… showing some of my appreciation.”
Laura’s eyes darted between the bouquet and his face, as if she could see right through him. “You’re acting weird,” she said bluntly, her tone matter-of-fact. “Is this about that time you made her cry or something? I heard you in your sleep…”
James’s chest tightened at her words, and he looked away, biting the inside of his cheek. It was a low blow, and even though Laura didn’t mean to hit him where it hurt, it still stung. He couldn’t forget that moment either—the way he had pushed Y/n away, the way he’d seen the hurt in her eyes when he acted like an ass just to protect himself.
“No, it’s not about that,” he said, more to himself than to her. He glanced down at the bouquet, the bright petals taunting him with their symbolism. It was supposed to be an apology of sorts, something small but meaningful, a way to show Y/n that he was trying, that he wanted to make up for how distant he’d been. But standing here, in front of Laura, it all felt incredibly foolish.
Laura huffed, clearly unimpressed with his explanation. “Whatever you say, James. But I think Y/n’s too smart to be won over by some dumb flowers.” She rolled her eyes, but there was a faint smirk on her lips, a sign that she was enjoying the awkwardness he was experiencing.
James sighed, running a hand through his hair. “Yeah, you’re probably right,” he muttered under his breath. He couldn’t help but feel a pang of anxiety creeping up his spine. Was he making a mistake? Would Y/n even want these flowers after everything that had happened between them?
Maybe the flowers wouldn’t be enough. Maybe nothing would. But he had to try, didn’t he?
The scent of the flowers seemed to mock him, filling his nostrils with their sweet fragrance, a reminder of the gesture he wasn’t even sure how to complete. But as much as he wanted to flee from the situation, he also knew he couldn't keep running from Y/n—or from himself. One way or another, he would have to face you. And this time, he would have to do it right.
He only hoped that it wasn’t too late.
James cleared his throat, attempting to sound casual. "Hey, Laura… could you wait for me out here? Just for a bit."
Laura glanced up at him with a knowing look, then cast a playful smirk his way. “Sure, James,” she replied, a mischievous glint in her eye. “Take all the time you need.” She settled herself on a nearby bench in the school courtyard, crossing her legs as she took out her colouring book.
He could feel his cheeks burn, and he barely managed to give a stiff nod in response. “Right. Just... won’t be long.”
Heat rose in his cheeks, and he quickly looked away, embarrassed by her intuition. His grip on the flowers tightened, and his palms felt slick against the bouquet wrapping. He took a breath, steadying himself, but as he turned toward the door leading to your classroom, his stomach clenched. Each step felt like a shaky stride into the unknown, his heart beating in his throat.
He took a steadying breath, glancing back at Laura. She was already focused on her drawing, making herself comfortable on the bench, entirely unbothered by his lingering. The reassurance of her casual support was oddly grounding, but it didn’t ease the jitter in his steps as he turned toward the school building.
His heart thudded heavier with each step down the hallway, his mind racing through what he might say. How do you even apologise for the way I’ve acted? For pulling you in close just to push you away? But whatever happened, he owed her this face-to-face, his presence rather than just empty words.
James hesitated outside your door, gripping the bouquet a bit too tightly. The rehearsed words played in his mind like a distant echo: “Apologise. Tell her it wasn’t fair to keep her at a distance.” He had played out this moment in his head, every word planned, his intentions set. But standing here, about to step into reality, his mind began to spin. Every inch of him felt on edge, like his nerves were stretched thin.
He breathed deeply, hoping to quell the tension creeping up his neck.
Finally, he mustered the courage and opened the door, only to feel his heart drop. There you were, just as he’d pictured, a radiant presence that drew his gaze without effort. You were leaning over your desk, focused on some papers, your fingers lingering on the corner of a page. For a split second, he thought this might actually go well.
But then you looked up, and the way your brows furrowed in surprise made his confidence wither. There wasn’t the hint of warmth he had imagined—no welcoming smile. Instead, your expression was one of confusion, even discomfort, as though he had interrupted something important.
Before he could gather himself, his gaze followed yours, and he finally noticed the man standing beside your desk. The stranger turned, eyeing James with equal confusion, his posture suggesting he was someone used to having your attention. There was a brief silence as the three of you took each other in, the air heavy with unspoken questions. The stranger’s eyes narrowed slightly, the shift in his stance subtle but unmistakable. His gaze flicked to the flowers, then back to James, as though he were trying to piece together what was happening.
James felt his grip on the bouquet tighten, the carefully selected flowers (based on your favourites, Laura told him) suddenly feeling like a foolish gesture. He cleared his throat, struggling to keep his composure. The apology he’d rehearsed slipped away, buried under the awkward tension filling the room. This wasn’t how it was supposed to go. He felt out of place, almost intrusive, like he’d stumbled into a moment that wasn’t meant for him.
The man’s voice broke the silence, calm but edged with a touch of formality. “Mr. Sunderland. Can I help you with something?” he asked, looking at James with a polite, almost dismissive expression.
James felt his mouth go dry. “I—I just came to speak with Y/n for a moment,” he managed, his voice a little too soft, like he was tiptoeing over broken glass. He glanced at you, seeking some kind of reassurance in your eyes, but you only looked back, your face still unreadable. “But... I didn’t realise you were busy. I’m sorry if I’m intruding.”
There was a moment where the man looked at you, waiting for a cue, maybe some indication of how he should handle James. But you didn’t give one, your gaze darting between them, leaving James feeling even more adrift.
After a moment you sighed and stood up, glancing at the man in the room. “We can continue this discussion later,” you said, giving him a soft smile. He returned the gesture, nodding in agreement. As he turned to leave, James couldn’t shake the feeling that there was an intimacy between you two that cut deeper than mere familiarity.
“See you on Sunday for the movie, right?” He said before leaving.
When the man’s hand lingered on your shoulder for just a moment too long, a surge of jealousy shot through James, startling him. It was a sensation he had long since buried, one he thought he had forgotten how to feel. His heart raced, and he felt a heat rising in his chest. The sight of you and this other man made his stomach twist, a painful ache spreading through him that reminded him he ever had a heart. He had almost forgotten how intense jealousy could be—the way it could claw at his insides, leaving him feeling raw and exposed.
It was unsettling, almost suffocating, to think about you being with someone else, sharing your laughter and moments with another man. The idea sent his mind spiralling, and he fought against the intrusive thoughts that begged to take hold. It had been so long since he’d allowed himself to feel anything for anyone—especially someone as captivating as you.
As the door closed behind the man, the air felt charged, thick with unspoken words and emotions. “James,” you said, breaking the silence as you turned to face him. He could see the confusion in your eyes, but all he could think about was how that other man had made you smile, how easily you had interacted. A part of him ached at the thought of sharing you with anyone, even if it was just for a fleeting moment.
“Um, hey,” he finally managed to say, his voice sounding strained. Your gaze held his, and in that moment, he felt both grateful and envious. Grateful that you were here, that you were real, but envious of anyone who could have even a piece of you.
“What are you doing here?” you asked, your brow furrowing, and it made his heart race.
“I, uh…” He hesitated, the bouquet of flowers suddenly feeling heavy in his hands.
You shook your head, your expression turning serious, the playful smile fading quickly. “James, it’s really not professional to come to school with flowers. People might get the wrong idea,” you snapped, your voice sharp as you crossed your arms tightly over your chest.
“And especially the way you made it clear that you wanted nothing to do with me”.
Your words stung, but it was the hint of anger in your tone that truly cut him. And James couldn’t shake the sight of the hickeys he had left on your neck as he took a glimpse of the delicious curve of your neck, a reminder of the intimacy that had turned into a mess of confusion and regret. But, the possessiveness igniting within him clashed against the storm brewing in your eyes.
He cleared his throat, attempting to steady himself. “I’m here to apologise,” he asserted, forcing his voice to remain calm despite the unease bubbling up inside him. He needed you to see his sincerity.
But before he could continue, you interrupted him, your frustration boiling over. “Apologise? You think that’s enough?” You stepped forward, fire in your gaze. “After everything? You can’t just come here with flowers and think you can sweep it under the rug! Do you even understand how hurtful that is?”
James felt his heart sink. The anger in your voice was palpable, filling the space between you with tension. “What do you want me to say?” he asked, his voice faltering. “I messed up, and I—”
“Damn right, you messed up!” you shot back, raising your voice—he never heard you like that, so angry and sad, it broke his heart. “You pushed me away, James! You treated me like I was nothing, and now you think a bouquet of flowers is going to fix it? It’s pathetic!”
The sting of your words pierced through him, and he felt a mixture of shame and regret swirling inside. “I didn’t mean to hurt you,” he managed, desperation creeping into his tone. “I just—I was scared.”
Before he could even process your words, your hand came up and slapped him across the face. The impact rang sharply in his ears, but it was nothing compared to the shame he felt. His head snapped to the side, and a silence fell between you both, charged with emotions neither of you could put into words The sting from your slap lingered on his cheek, and his throat tightened. He blinked hard, feeling his eyes water, not from the pain of the slap, but from the deep, aching remorse that welled up inside him. He deserved it, every bit of it, and he knew it.
“Scared?” you repeated incredulously, your eyes blazing with fury. “Scared of what? Scared of letting someone in? Scared of actually having to face your emotions? Because it sure looked like you were just fine when you fucked me like I was a whore!” Your voice shook with indignation, and James couldn’t help but flinch at your words.
He opened his mouth to respond, but the weight of your anger made it hard to find the right words. He could see you seething, your body tense with frustration. “I was trying to be nice to you, James! I wanted to help you, but you just pushed me away like I meant nothing!”
Your tone cut through him, and he felt the sting of guilt settle deep in his gut. “You’re right,” he finally admitted, his voice barely above a whisper. “I treated you like crap, and I don’t know how to fix it.”
“Fix it?” you echoed, incredulity dripping from your words. “You think it’s that simple? You can’t just decide to ‘fix’ things when you’ve already hurt someone! You have to earn that trust back, and you haven’t even started!”
James felt a wave of frustration well up inside him, mixed with a desperate desire to reach out and bridge the gap between you. “I’m trying! I really am! Can’t you see that?”
“Trying isn’t enough anymore, James!” you snapped, your voice rising. “You can’t just show up with flowers and think it’s going to make everything okay. You’ve broken things, and it’s going to take more than just an apology.”
In that moment, you were a storm, fierce and unyielding. James could see the hurt behind your anger, the way you wrestled with the disappointment he had caused. It pierced through him, and he realised just how deeply he had let you down—and how much he deserved it.
“I—I know it’s going to take time,” he said, trying to steady himself as his heart raced. “But I want to put in the effort. I care about you, and I don’t want to lose you.”
Your eyes narrowed, scepticism etched across your features. “You care? After how you treated me? What’s to say you won’t just push me away again when things get tough?”
The accusation hung heavy in the air, and for a moment, neither of you spoke. The tension crackled, and James felt the weight of your anger pressing down on him. He realised that he had crossed a line, and now he had to find a way back—if you would even let him.
James’s entire world narrowed to this moment, this fragile, painful second, where everything hung in the balance. The anger in your eyes seared him, a raw heat he knew he deserved, but it was the disappointment—cutting and profound—that struck him deepest. He hadn’t known it was possible to feel so exposed, like a light had pierced straight through every shield he had ever put up, and now he was forced to face what he really was.
Slowly, he opened his mouth, his voice raw and barely holding together. “I’m… truly sorry,” he began, struggling to find words to do justice to everything that had been roiling inside him since the moment he’d pushed you away. “Since that night, it’s like… I’m lost. Every single night, I lie there, alone, and all I see is you. All I think about is… how you feel beside me, the way your voice calms me, how much I want to be… better.” He choked slightly, but forced himself to go on. “And I know I hurt you. I see it. And I… hate myself for it.”
Each word was a weight being lifted, but it only uncovered more buried shame. His voice faltered as he said, “I don’t know how to be enough. Every voice in my head just… it keeps telling me you deserve better. That I’ll only end up pulling you down with me, that… I’m a broken man who’ll ruin anything he touches.”
He laughed, but it was hollow, dark—a laugh tinged with self-loathing. “I can’t even look at myself in the mirror anymore because all I see is a man who’s become… something ugly. Someone who doesn’t deserve to be around someone like you.” His voice wavered, thickening as his throat tightened. “All I see is a monster. Someone who’s past redemption.”
Then, as if he could no longer bear his own weight, James lowered himself to his knees before you. The gesture felt natural somehow, a desperate attempt to be as close to you as possible, even if it meant bringing himself to his lowest. He looked up at you, his eyes wide and filled with a pleading sorrow he couldn’t hold back, his gaze full of the vulnerability he’d fought so hard to bury.
“I… I can’t go on without you,” he said softly, his voice trembling. “Now that I know what peace feels like, even for a few moments, with you beside me… I can’t go back. It’s like you gave me a taste of something I thought was lost to me, and now the thought of not having you…” He swallowed, the words almost failing him. “It’s unbearable. I’m… begging you, just… don’t walk away. Don’t leave me in the dark. Please.”
He looked down, his hands clenched so tightly his knuckles were white, and he whispered, “I want to be better. For you, Laura. For… myself, even, if I can figure out how. But I need your help, I can’t do this alone.” His voice cracked, and he looked back up, his eyes brimming with raw, pleading desperation. "Please let me prove to you that I can be the man you see. I want to be the man you deserve. Just… don’t leave me here, alone."
For a long, heart-stopping moment, James held his breath as you looked at each other in silence. He saw the faint, lingering shadows of hurt in your eyes, and in their depths, a softness—a glimmer of something he hadn’t dared hope to see. Then, slowly, you took a step toward him, and James let out a trembling breath he hadn’t realized he was holding.
When he felt your hand gently find its way to his hair, a shiver ran down his spine. Tentatively, he pressed his cheek against you, leaning his head against your abdomen, as if finding solace in the very nearness of you. The warmth of your touch was a balm, easing the wounds he’d long hidden from the world, and in that moment, he let himself collapse into the comfort of your presence. His arms wrapped loosely around your waist, as he rested there, seeking the peace he’d once thought was lost to him forever.
The silence between you stretched, gentle and unhurried, broken only by his steady breaths. He could feel the weight of everything he’d been carrying start to slip away, piece by piece, as he nestled against you, his heart finally slowing to a gentle rhythm.
Then, after what felt like an eternity, you spoke, your voice soft but steady. “I don’t even know why I’m doing all this for you, James. I… I don’t think I even understand it myself.” Your hand moved gently through his hair, grounding him in a way he hadn’t thought was possible. “But… if I don’t, I feel like I’ll miss the biggest chance of my life.”
Hearing this, James closed his eyes, a warmth blossoming in his chest that was foreign and achingly tender. He nodded, his head nestling against you, soaking in the comfort of your words. In that moment, he felt like a lost soul, clinging to the only light in a world of shadows, and he held you just a little tighter, as if afraid that you might slip away. The sensation was almost childlike, and he felt a tear slip down his cheek as he gave in to that sense of safety, that warmth he thought he’d never feel again.
Snuggling closer, he let out a quiet, almost inaudible whisper. “Thank you,” he murmured, voice muffled against you, his tone layered with reverence. For the first time, he felt like maybe—just maybe—he wasn’t as lost as he’d thought.
You let out a soft sigh, fingers still tangled in his hair, and looked down at him with a firm gaze. “James, if you ever push me away like that again, I swear, I’ll slap you harder.”
A flicker of humour and self-deprecation passed through his eyes as he nodded. “I deserved it,” he admitted, voice steady, acknowledging not just the slap but the wake-up call it had become. He pulled back, finding his balance again, and when he rose to his feet, you offered him a small smile before finally accepting the bouquet.
James couldn’t help the slight catch in his breath as he watched you, his heart lighter now, the weight of his earlier dread slipping away. After a moment, he cleared his throat. “Tomorrow, Laura and I… we’re going to the beach. It would mean a lot if you’d come with us.”
A blush crept up your cheeks, and he found himself captivated by it, warmth blooming under his gaze. The sight tugged at something deep inside him, something raw and tender. He had a sudden, powerful urge to lean in and kiss the flush on your cheeks, to feel the heat of it against his lips, to let it anchor him there, beside you. And when you nodded, accepting the invitation, his heart leapt.
A smile—a genuine, unguarded one—broke across his face, and before he could stop himself, he leaned in and pressed a gentle kiss to your forehead. He lingered there, letting the quiet moment say what he couldn’t put into words, and then pulled back, his eyes soft and warm.
“I’ll see you tomorrow,” he murmured, the promise of a new day, a fresh start, held between you.
Ahh loving the new update!! Thank you for sharing your incredible writing! That was one hefty update & it devastated me at the end. Our sad little man is so traumatized & i probably can’t fix him but i most definitely can make him worse 😏
LITERALLY ME, why fixing when I can make him worse? 🙂↕️
Me and my partner were in the middle of spicy time and they said a line very similar to some of the lines said in the Silent Hill fic you've been writing and the way my eyes opened SO WIDE I was like "AM I IN THE FIC???"
Anyway great work, love it, keep it up, great job 10/10 can't wait to keep reading more
