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surrendering in the best of ways

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this year has not gone how i thought it would thus far...but i guess most of that was wishful thinking since what did want to come through for the year does fall in line with the actuality

it's all a part of the process! all of this dreaded instability and lack of resources is forcing my hand to cultivate the structures and securities and boundaries i need but wow does it suck in the meantime

i feel somewhat less insane now that i do have objectives to reach. just have to set up the pieces & get the ducks in a row to make them happen

i don't really know what to make of other situations or particular spheres of life. it has been difficult to feel through those emotions without being depleted by hopelessness. this month i am trying to allow those emotions to be felt in a surrendering way rather than a totally defeated way. i am proud of myself for not handling things like i usually would, i have made a conscious effort to avoid unnecessary predicaments

but aside from heavier schemes of life...i miss s'mores!!! i haven't been able to make them my preferred way in ages. i'm in need of treats

[vastthroneviper]

THAT'S HOW LIFE IS !!!!!

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mighty’s paw on my shin, the smell of cocoa butter, and the need to get up so i can eat

curious about the energy as it unfolds for leo szn. only 2 days into august and my own experience with it is surely somethin. temptation for /whatever the hell/ is there but the will is strong

[userinherownwrld]

me anytime it rains.

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my august is going to be a deep breath of fresh air! a time where i feel reinvigorated to pursue & follow through on what i need to, what is going to offer me an abundance of positive growth. the chances i take are going to be worth it and the emotions i experience will be felt through with absolutely beautiful flow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[moldavite]

the problem is giving up genuinely feels so good #imnotdoingthat

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sm brand new day was so good!!!!!!!!!!

[worldscoolest]

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there is still more to hope for though

[lamignonette]

[hugmeforalittlelonger]

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‘i like to dream, cuz dreams don’t lie’ i used to think this was such a silly line

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to be so content

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as nice as it is to be lying here in the ac looking out the window at the trees rustling in the wind, part of me wishes i was somewhere coastal sipping some tasty drink out of a glass bottle from a straw…as i read this book & intermittently stop to lament my own situation, fully allowing the tears to cascade!!!!!! it hurts in a million ways

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i have to get up & do chores, though wildly tempted to just wallow in the misery of everything (not in a i wanna curl in a bawl way, i already cried enough thank you). it’s gone on for long enough that i am throwing my hands up now; the circumstances are but an uncomfortable pillow beneath me

i don’t see me being necessarily over anything soon per se but i do intend to show up in the ways i need to regardless



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where is my towel emoji to throw