The world seemed to have stopped just as her breathing became uneven, a breath stuck in her throat. Her lips became dry, her name had never sounds so good following his, a painful feeling she would pay for latter in the darkness of the night when her demons liked to come out to play with her in the most unkind of ways. That morning she had pulled a couple of cards for herself, it said there was something she wanted coming her way, something she had dreamed for a long time but it wouldn’t be anything she had dreamed it to be. Well, this sure looked like the omen of the cards. Cheeky little things, they hunted her most of the time rather than helped, it was a love hate relationship with her own skills. The only thing that ripped her away from such thought has been the pounding of her heart against her chest, she had felt like this for the last time two years ago, her heart always threaten to rip through her chest one beat at a time anytime he was near by. One would think two years was more than enough time to get over a broken heart, but her broken pieces had never stopped loving him. No matter how hard she tried.
Sybill couldn’t lie, she had stolen glances from him any chance she got, even being in the same classes was enough for her some days, peeping through her curtain of her to see his perfectly shaped face. And as destiny had it, one more time they would be intertwined with one another even if it was just for a class for a little while. She was in a way thankful for it, even if when it came to an end she would be just as devastated as she was two years ago. His voice was like a bucket of cold water in a hot summer day, chilling waking her up from her thoughts, but much appreciated. She lifted her head slowly as she looked up to him, her best dashing smiled spreading on her face as her blue hues met his. “So it seems,” her words were dripping with honey, she would never let him see how much it affected her to have him near her, she would kill with kindness, that was always her motto. “Come take a seat, we can start discussing how we want to divide this.” She said as she scooted over on the desk bench, her lingering gaze finally leaving him as she began to open the book on the assigned page. Pretending he was just another classmate was painful, but she was confident she could do it.
how she could be so calm after all this time truly baffled him. then again, she could be putting up an act. a very good one. he wasn’t so sure anymore though. the line between pretense and authenticity was very much blurred. in fact his whole mind was a blur right now. he couldn’t even remember how he had approached her to begin with. for the first time in a long time, castor was met with a situation that was far out of his control. he wasn’t the one commanding the narrative now. it was very much different and he couldn’t shake the odd feeling balling up in the pit of his stomach. in his whole lifetime castor had rarely experienced nervous inducing situations. the strange and foreign feeling had imbued his whole being at the moment, and he was not liking it one bit. if it were up to him he’d run away in that instant but that was definitely out of the question. so what more could he do ? he was an avery and he had to get a grip on himself.
as in many occasions, it was easier said than done. through hidden clenched fists and tensions in every fiber of his muscles, castor managed to nerve himself. it was harder than he could ever imagine, sitting so close to her, taking in her familiar scent, the sweet cadence in her voice entrancing him. lulling him. it had always been that way and it still remains, her mere presence had such an effect on him. but just as quick he snapped out of it. he couldn’t, shouldn’t be taken on a whim like this. his family and friends would no doubt demonstrate their disapproval. marked as a betrayal and castor wasn’t disloyal. there was also his engagement; he couldn’t deny that his feelings for his betrothed were getting serious. his future path was carved out for him and he couldn’t go against the current. as much as it hurt him to admit it once again, it truly was a mistake, however beautiful it was. ❛ i think it’s all settled then. ❜ he spoke quietly, almost forced.