Anti-depressant smiles
When you hit the bottom in life sometimes, and you decide you can't take it yourself anymore and you need some help. You start using anti-depressants. But do you really believe that they will help you get better? Hell no. The thing they do is to numb you. They help you be around people without getting bothered. They help you smile without much effort. But they never help you forget things you're trying to forget. They never make things go away from your head. They DON'T stop your paranoia. They don't end your pain. So if you are sad, you'll still be sad after using. Only difference is that you can't show the hell you have been going through, and you keep that fake anti-depressant smile on your face; 'cause that is basically the only thing you can do. Now all I have left is this fucking fake anti-depressant smile that is not even hiding the pain inside. Fucked-up pills, fucked-up mentality and fucked-up world. That is what we all have.
