...and i was like why are you so obsessed with me.

*sniff sniff* did somebody just chortle in here??? :D (If you don’t get it, it’s not for you.)

[sevenlevelsofcray]

Black mirror

I never see my reflection when I wrote into nothingness

Freudian slip of the weight I no longer choose to carry

I immediately think of you

Here I am in our space

Standing above the black mirror

Protecting it at all costs

But I’m on the edge of danger

Something poetic blocks the damage

[sevenlevelsofcray]

I want to disappear

If I scream loud enough no one will hear me

Lingering connections that feel like dust

Severance

Missing the warmth I gave to another being

[sevenlevelsofcray]

Long lasting whisper

The weight of your spirit travels eons

Your voice has lived many lifetimes

Through infinite timelines

Like when stars die and their shine lingers

Etching roots and woven awakenings

A wise pain that soothes souls

Echoing the mourning light

[sevenlevelsofcray]

I want it but can’t take it

You lost out on all my patience

Just a selfish declaration

To become the thing you needed the most

Replacement

Merely a decoration

Packaged up in sweet complacence

I became the thing you hated the most

I found out you could fake it

Unraveled all of the maintenance

No matter how much you chase it

Your flesh could never leave me alone

You taste it

Insatiable in the matrix

Turn you back on something sacred

We became the thing you hated the most

[sevenlevelsofcray]

the moon has seen three phases since I last reached you

Maybe it’s been 15 I’m starting to loose count

I simmer in the soles of your feet

As you drain the last sip of tea

The chaos never festers

I yearn to linger in your breath

Speak to me

[sevenlevelsofcray]

You found your way into my dreams again

It was so normal as I scrambled to find the perfect words to avoid telling you how perfect you are. I wanted to write you a letter but the only word that seamed to slip onto the top of my tongue is peace.

[sevenlevelsofcray]

Woke up in tune with my pain.

Thoughts of self loved faded away with waves of unrequited silence.

The imagery of my empty

Painted in the sanctuary of my soul

Walking in death I felt alive

[sevenlevelsofcray]

Glass treatment

Slipping in syncopation

Shattering the veil of serendipity

Warming confessions of innocent sentiments

Time is not found in the sanctuary

[sevenlevelsofcray]

wish we could say we’re star crossed

But you signed your name and we watch the ink dry

Silent sighs and stolen stares

Cus we’re on the same page right ?

You slice the cake and eat it too

Savoring regret

A savior

So I don’t mind

Let’s uncross the line

Cus we’re on the same page right?

Grieving all the never could’s

And all the ways we never should

You can’t love me, because you love me

And I guess I’ll be just fine

Cus we’re on the same page right?

[sevenlevelsofcray]

Do grasshoppers worry?

I live until I don’t

I understand the cycle

Existence is fleeting

I find joy in nourishment

And I will still never understand the things beyond me

Do birds ponder?

We share and we occupy

We keep moving

Migrating with the seasons

Reasons to keep the cycle

Do Reptiles Remember?

Sunlight pours over all things that exist willing to accept it

Do Bees get scared?

We navigate the dark and walk in ignorance

As if there’s stillness in any part of the world

[sevenlevelsofcray]

Time has seen many faces since I last saw yours

You are nothing but a fraction of my existence

A distant memory that built a foundation of who I am today so you matter

But as time Transforms Your face will fade

I won’t remember you

And it’s bittersweet

[sevenlevelsofcray]

If I acknowledge that I’m sad does it mean that I’m claiming it.

Why can’t I let go of the things that no longer make sense

I shame myself for feeling and want to conceal my expressions

Why do I want to cling to the things that no longer make sense

My heart feels heavy

The building up to the let down consumes my thought process

I think I’m not well

I don’t think I’m making the best decisions

It’s because you are what you attract

The darkest parts of you are probably the things I try to hide from myself

Is this what processing is

What am I supposed to do with the information

Look for peace?

Strive for clarity?

It all still exists and I don’t want to fight through it alone

But why do I want to twine my soul to one that no longer makes sense

[sevenlevelsofcray]

I met an angel today

Her voice held my soul

As the seasons shed their leaves

She taught me that the wind will carry me through my roots

Forever intertwined in the light

Finding solace in the silence

We stand in the power of reflection

[sevenlevelsofcray]

Insanity my old friend

How the hell have you been?

Death has asked me to dance

I contemplate the offer

She’s sweet

She’s warm

She’s bliss

I’ll burry these thoughts so my mom doesn’t worry

The role of a lifetime awaits me

It can’t be by my hands anymore so I’ll wait

But who says I have to

Better to snuff out the light while it’s still burning

[sevenlevelsofcray]

Aren’t you tired of wearing all these masks that other people give you

[sevenlevelsofcray]

My dreams are loud

And I cried because it rained

the overflowing segments of alternate realities pour into my present

What does it all mean

Is it my portion to define

Six moths of clarity and my subconscious is rushing back

Telling me all the things I’m too scared to say alone

[sevenlevelsofcray]

I want to disappear

If I scream loud enough no one will hear me

Lingering connections that feel like dust

Severance

Missing the warmth I gave to another being