still things could be much worse

This will all blow over in time

[seventhandflowers]

How do I say “I love you” and “I hope this works out” without actually saying it

[notalyson]

[ancxious]

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As of nov 2018

I love being alone. I love spending my mornings cuddled with maple on the couch, not having to leave my house. This is how i feel now, but i never thought this would have been possible 6 months ago. Do i actually like myself now, or are you filling the void? What happens when you leave? Will I still be comfortable with solitude, or must I replace you to feel whole?

[seventhandflowers]

I love this blog

I love how much i expressed my feelings on this blog, like no filter. Rereading everything felt so weird. Not only is my point of view now different, but I felt like I was being intrusive. Like i was reading someone else’s diary

[seventhandflowers]

I am TIRED TIRED TIRED TIRED

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I don’t even remember posting this but like

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I’m sorry, I just really need to move out but i have like no money or car

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I am so damn tired of living, like no joke.

I am struggling so bad in school and I know i’m not gonna get any better at it. I fucking know im not gonna get in the MACY program and there’s no way im gonna make it in any career.

God, this is so exhausting.

It’s hard to wake up every morning and get out of bed just to sit completely lost in classes and dead at work. I leave the house at 10am and come home around 11pm or even later to find out that my own dog hasn’t been fed! And when I confront someone about how tired I am of my precious dog not being fed and stuck in a garage all day, I get yelled!!! For what??? I’m so sorry I’m stuck at school all day for tutoring and I’m so sorry I’m stuck at work and school!!!! I know I god damn feed Maple every chance I get.

I have so much financial freedom but when I ask my father if I can go over to Kim’s (a fellow manager he knows) he straight up denies me. Like ok??? You’re making me pay for everything every time but I can’t roll in around 2 am for once?? Like damn dude, I haven’t ate a home cooked meal in YEARS. “Sorry, we just never know when you’re gonna be home so we stopped cooking for you”.  THAT’S WHEN YOU KNOW THEY STRAIGHT UP DON’T CARE FOR YOU ANYMORE. LIKE AT ALL.

[seventhandflowers]

I am TIRED TIRED TIRED TIRED

[seventhandflowers]

I want to die so fucking bad RIGHT NOW

[seventhandflowers]

My period is late and I'm paranoid!!!

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Honestly didn't really know what anxiety was in the 6th grade but looking back it was so bad

[seventhandflowers]

I for real can't cry when I'm actually sad. I watched this stupid movie and I was sobbing???? And my fish died and I can't cry???? Yo that fish was there when I was so lonely, like before I got maple. That freaking fish was my companion on my birthday because I was completely by myself!

[seventhandflowers]

Lmao I took a pregnancy test @ work

[capacity]

I really do not play when it comes to alcohol I chug everything I do not have the time

[seventhandflowers]

Is it sunday yet????

[asphyxiating-lies]