Krystal

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I think it’s so incredibly cute for Rui and Nene to be neighbours forever. Like for as long as they’re both in the same country, no matter how many times they move, they get places near each other. Sweet.

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lmao your latest post reminded me of this two sentence horror i saw a while back and it immediately made me think of your au... truly life changing stuff

Yeag

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jetpack....

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Doodle concepts for a kittyzuki brc model. Ribbon jetpack, and I’m between her actual kitty hairstyle vs a ponytail, cause down medium-long hair clips like hell and is a pain to rig as I learned from Rui, and a ponytail would be fun to see physicsified + ponytail + cap synergy, but at the same time a long ponytail will probably obscure/clip into her jetpack….

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As explored with Rui, the overlap and the fear of the overlap between curiosity/thrillseeking/ambition and violence is fun. Curiosity will have you kill the cat, and your satisfaction will never be able to bring it back. Right. Like, the thing of Rui having disassembled and reassembled machines as a kid for fun and to learn his mechanical engineering skills, the plushie dissection jokes, the zombies. Having your cake and eating it too.

There’s a fantasy to Rui’s character of being able to fix things, to diagnose a problem and have the skills to correct it, and that fantasy fails him pretty much every time it comes to him navigating human conflict cause people don’t work like that, if he breaks a person then he’s honestly just entirely fucked do not pass go. It would prove that indulging the curiosity that’s honestly at the very core of him is fundamentally wrong, because hurting people is wrong and he’s simply predestined to hurt people.

Not to take the monster play as entirely 1:1, but the thing of the curious naive and cruel monster learning affection for humans and learning a will to not hurt them, the implication that Rui knows (believes) these things are not in his “nature,” but rather deliberate and conditioned. The conflict between the extrapolated conclusion of the baser desires (the things he likes have real danger of hurting people) and conscious principles (hurting people is really bad) has gotta make him sick, of course listening to either will never meaningfully rid him of the other so really the only solution is to act in self-disgust and by solution I don’t mean solution but like something has to be done.

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miserable mizurui is fun cause like at certain points rui is walking talking salt in mizuki’s wounds and then has the audacity to make himself miserable by worrying about her. “two peas in a pod” but one got everything he ever dreamed of, while the other’s still running. yeah i’m picnic / rmd-footsteps posting again. rui being kind just sucks shit for mizuki, him being in a position to be kind to her rather than commiserate on their shitty circumstances together. if he’s kind to her, if he makes obvious the disparity of their stations while being unaware that he’s doing so, mizuki can’t help but resent him a little. kindness from someone you regarded as an equal feels like shit. it’s neither of their faults, not really, but for as long as they’re not on even ground, they will make each other make each other miserable. forced errors.

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“could they break a local record on a mechanical bull” tier list

kanade’s hair would get tangled in the mechanism. for everybody’s sake she wouldn’t even get on it

[melenthropy]

how bugs look at you when you lift up a rock

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anyway such to say mizurui that happens in a canon-like scenario is incredibly easy to frame like they’re having an affair, as they’re both signiiiiiiiificantly more committed to their units than each other. so if they spend literally any time they would otherwise spend with their units on each other, it sorta feels like something illicit, even if it’s literally fine and not even necessarily on the down low. it’s even fucking heterosexual goddammit. but it’s something neither of them need, it’s pointless and entirely irrelevant to building their futures. so it then occupies a realm of indulgence. which is funny as hell ♡

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fundamental to my construct of mizurui is that they’ll absolutely never be satisfied with each other. with any luck, they’ll never be the most important person in each other’s lives. they’re at best auxiliary to each other’s dreams, they’re not made for the same road. and also this is the hatsune miku friendship game about friendship in groups of four, where literally all of these plots and characters are built around the idea that you can’t get all of your satisfaction in life from one person. these two can’t do shit but lick each other’s wounds, they are a comfort in misery, they are a measuring stick in happiness. ♡

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[sana5353]

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i want one million more nene + nightcord interactions. especially mizuki and ena. the ultimate terminally online trio. just imagine….

[jopjab]

a famous actress and a dollmaker or something idek

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i might just be mizuki-brained but i couldn’t help but notice mafumom phrasing some things in her apology/declaration to mafuyu in mafu6 ch2 as similar in fragments to other things from mizu/ena5.

mafumom’s “But, right now, I only want to wish for your happiness— from the bottom of my heart.”

as compared to rui’s “I’ll wish for it. I’ll wish for your heart to be protected— That you’ll be able to feel happiness from the bottom of your heart”.

and then mafumom’s “I’ve also been thinking, “what can I do to make Mafuyu truly happy?” So I’ve decided— I’m going to support… what it is you truly want to do.… If it’s not your dream to be a doctor, then it’s alright to do something else. If you still don’t know what dream you want to chase, that’s fine, too. I just want you to do what you want, while taking the time to think about your future. I wouldn’t want you to change who you are, honey. Because you’re my precious daughter.”

as compared to ena’s “If something I’m doing is hurting you, I’ll try my best to change. Even if that kindness is something you find hard to accept… I can’t stop wanting to protect you. That feeling will never change. No matter what happens, it never will. Because, Mizuki—you’re my precious friend!”

idk what to make of it necessarily, but it set me on edge hearing mafuyu’s mother of all people saying things reminiscent of some of the most heartfelt things in this game. feelings like “can i really trust this?” and “it seems too good to be true” and “maybe she really does mean it?” it really made me feel like mafuyu must’ve in that moment. it’s scary!!!!

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SODAAAAA!!!!

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mmmm, i think basically the gist of it is that mafumom is incapable of seeing mafuyu as a person rather than “her precious, perfect daughter,” and in the face of that, the conditioning she’s gone through her entire life to please her mother, mafuyu is incapable of wanting to be a person over wanting her mother to be happy (with her ability to perform the role of the perfect daughter). mother knows best. the best possible world for mafumom is mafuyu being happy doing whatever her mother wants her to do, because she thinks what she wants mafuyu to do will make her happiest, and mafuyu being happy (conditional, predicated on a notion of “successful” and “normal” if even “perfect”) will make mafumom happiest. and the best possible world for mafuyu is her mother being happy with mafuyu doing whatever she wants to do, because doing what her mother wants her to do makes her miserable, but she’s absolutely fucking terrified of the thought of hurting her mother after all these years of conditioning to put her mother’s happiness over her own.

her mother doesn’t want to hurt her. she is and has and will, so long as she wants something mafuyu can’t give without sacrificing herself, but she can’t conceptualize it as hurting her, because she just wants the best for mafuyu. the idea that she’s hurting mafuyu is distressing, it’s irreconcilable with the idea that she wants mafuyu to be happy, it’s irreconcilable with the idea of “a good mother”. a good mother doesn’t hurt her child. but what other facet of identity does mafumom have to cling to? her only options are to, in a short period of time, change herself so fundamentally that she doesn’t recognize herself in order to become someone who can accept mafuyu as she is, somehow accept that she isn’t a good mother and lose mafuyu forever if she truly wants her to be happy and just like be cool with that, or lapse into the same patterns of control while looking away from mafuyu’s distress so she can live a fantasy. turn her eyes away from how her perfect happy nuclear family (the only thing she can define herself by) is held together with string tied so tight it’s cutting circulation. it’s the path of least resistance. an 18-year habit is hard to break.

like how mafuyu is “a good child,” mafumom is “a good mother.” the loss of those roles, the loss of those identities, goes down tough. if mafumom hurts mafuyu, if she keeps hurting mafuyu, she can’t be a good mother. if mafuyu hurts her mother, she can’t be a good child. these things are not equal, because mafumom is an adult getting hurt by the reality that she’s hurting her daughter, and mafuyu is a child who has been conditioned to believe that her mother is only ever doing what’s best for her. but they parallel each other. “it’s my fault that she’s in pain.”