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Hello! I’m Florian, I use any pronouns! Nice to meet you. I like drawing and writing and talking! my hobbies include putting whole other posts in the tags. If you ever want to talk, I don’t bite, so shoot me an ask or a dm :)

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I will not be listing my fandoms because I will inevitably forget to keep this updated. Here is a list of my tags that I use, to block as you see fit. PLEASE BE AWARE I dont tend to tag spoilers or fandoms on posts that I reblog, but I usually tag them on original posts. if you need me to tag something, please shoot me a message or an ask! I will do my best to keep this list updated.

ramblimgs: personal posts and thoughts. all my original posts are tagged with this. this is just my talk tag lmao

late night ramblimgs: posts I make instead of sleeping. Occasionally a bit unhinged

ramblimg asks: my tag for asks that I answer

vent ramblimgs: this is my vent tag, I don’t always use it tho

florian game ramblimgs: I liveblog games and discuss video games I’m playing

art ramblimgs: talking abt drawing

florian does art: pictures of my art

fic ramblimgs: talking abt writing. mostly fic, but I use this tag for original writing as well

florianfics: my fics and writing

fic snippets: exactly what it says on the tin

oc ramblimgs: art, thoughts, and any posting related to original characters of mine goes under this tag. specific ocs include: verity, jamie, erin, nina, daina, irene, the nameless,

dnd ramblimgs: dnd tag

eldest things and the wretched medallion, etatwm, eldest things: an original horror story i sporadically post about

Tampered Timeline AU, TTL AU: the tags I will use when discussing my own “Several Links Get Put In One Room” Zelda AU, which you should ask me to talk about because I have fun ideas

Tomb of the Gods, loz au, loz totg: The tags I use to talk about Tomb of the Gods, AKA the fake Zelda game im making. not to be confused for TotK, aka botw2. it was my acronym first, Nintendo. PLEASE ask me abt it I want to talk abt the story so much

florian watches rings of power: this is the tag from when i live-blogged rings of power bc my friend wanted to watch it with me. if you dont want to watch the show, just tune into this tag instead. Beware Of Spoilers, and bitchiness!

alphacrone

i don't really want to weight in on the "using big words in your writing is ableist" discourse happening on tiktok because i'm like 90% certain it's an anti-intellectual psyop to stir up drama in online circles to promote the use of ai to summarize literally everything and thus feeding the LLMs and lowering the populace's mistrust of such tools but i also have to say: dictionaries and thesauruses are the most accessible they've ever been. if you use an e-reader of any kind you can look up a word without leaving the page. there's a plethora of online dictionaries and if you just type a word + "meaning" into google it'll usually give you a definition. we used to have pocket dictionaries we used when reading in class. i have two on my shelf right now that i used in high school. stop letting the fascists purposefully misuse anti-ableism rhetoric to trick you into never thinking again.

biblicallyaccuratemoth

Are you a trans woman living in the US? Do you have complicated feelings around celebrating the 4th of July this year because the country is actively trying to kill you?

May I suggest instead doing what I do every year? One of my oldest and best friends was born on the 4th, she’s a badass trans woman and every year she throws a party to end all parties where we celebrate her, instead of this genocidal imperialist capitalist hellscape.

clownboybebop

*street shot of zohran mamdani clad in nasty lil suit and hard hat* five months ago i was elected mayor of new york city. in that time, we have managed to COMPLETELY defeat the Staten Island Minotaur at no additional cost to the new york taxpayer

kingcho

Put this in the comments but it needs to be said here too. I am so mad D20 did unsleeping city before Mamdani was mayor. Can you fucking imagine.

valtsv

arranged political marriage narratives are for me similarly fraught to unplanned pregnancy in that they tend to skew towards a conservative, anti-choice sentiment regardless of the author's intentions or ideology, because the end goal is typically the realisation of an apparently empowering and subversive romantic fantasy where the characters involved experience compellingly turbulent and sexually charged conflict between normative expectations and their own desires, but ultimately find themselves fulfilled in and even healed by the acceptance of undeniably important and worthwhile but conventional (and oppressively gendered) roles like that of the loving husband and wife or parental figures. which is a shame because i Do think that there's some interesting and worthwhile commentary to be explored through these kinds of kinky fantasies that reflect the anxieties surrounding very real and enduring sociopolitical issues regarding autonomy and consent, but when that tension is ultimately resolved by settling into a role that's always been what's expected of you, even if it does allow you to manipulate certain social power dynamics in your favour, it just rings kind of hollow. all of which is a very long-winded way of saying that i wish there were more arranged marriage narratives where the participants never fall in love, but still come to care for and respect one another, and perform the marital duties expected of them out of that affection and desire to both help each other advance their sociopolitical countermoves to subvert the status quo and to survive, using the legal and social trappings that come with their marital status to their advantage to protect each other.

valtsv

like i really Cannot stress enough how imperative it is that they never feel anything like romantic love for one another - nor are they really friends, although they may like each other's company and even actively prefer it to anyone else's. rather their relationship is comparable to that of two people covering each other's backs in a fight, or two prisoners in the same cell, and there's as much of the beauty of human connection to that as there is tragedy that those are the circumstances that brought them together. and they can absolutely have sexual tension and even consummate a sexual relationship and enjoy it, but it will be unavoidably dubiously consensual at best by design. no flinching from it.

valtsv

arranged political marriage narratives are for me similarly fraught to unplanned pregnancy in that they tend to skew towards a conservative, anti-choice sentiment regardless of the author's intentions or ideology, because the end goal is typically the realisation of an apparently empowering and subversive romantic fantasy where the characters involved experience compellingly turbulent and sexually charged conflict between normative expectations and their own desires, but ultimately find themselves fulfilled in and even healed by the acceptance of undeniably important and worthwhile but conventional (and oppressively gendered) roles like that of the loving husband and wife or parental figures. which is a shame because i Do think that there's some interesting and worthwhile commentary to be explored through these kinds of kinky fantasies that reflect the anxieties surrounding very real and enduring sociopolitical issues regarding autonomy and consent, but when that tension is ultimately resolved by settling into a role that's always been what's expected of you, even if it does allow you to manipulate certain social power dynamics in your favour, it just rings kind of hollow. all of which is a very long-winded way of saying that i wish there were more arranged marriage narratives where the participants never fall in love, but still come to care for and respect one another, and perform the marital duties expected of them out of that affection and desire to both help each other advance their sociopolitical countermoves to subvert the status quo and to survive, using the legal and social trappings that come with their marital status to their advantage to protect each other.

valtsv

like i really Cannot stress enough how imperative it is that they never feel anything like romantic love for one another - nor are they really friends, although they may like each other's company and even actively prefer it to anyone else's. rather their relationship is comparable to that of two people covering each other's backs in a fight, or two prisoners in the same cell, and there's as much of the beauty of human connection to that as there is tragedy that those are the circumstances that brought them together. and they can absolutely have sexual tension and even consummate a sexual relationship and enjoy it, but it will be unavoidably dubiously consensual at best by design. no flinching from it.

saltair-and-webweaves

I wonder if you wish for a different daughter instead of me. - user jay says on medium/twenty - silas melvin/@/eternaldroplets on twitter/if my body could speak - blythe baird/mother - maia baia/home is not a country; "mama" - safia elhillo/acts of desperation - megan nolan

beggars-opera

The old school lack of transparency on tumblr is amazing because you assume the people you follow must all be equivalent to you and then you see someone write “I brought my youngest to college today” and someone else write “my mom wouldn’t let me listen to Ariana Grande when I was a kid” and then your head explodes

formerlyanon

and we need that! keeps us humble.

dabouse

Then I'm just like WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU’RE AN ADULT

tomboy014

It goes the other way, too, because WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU'RE A CHILD?!!

dabouse

I'm 16, that's like, barely a child

tomboy014

I'm in my 30s. You are baby

digitaldiscipline

I'm older than both of you in a trenchcoat.

kabretoss

honestly one of the best things we can do for ourselves is realize that people of different ages than us can still be the same kind of person as us. it's humbling and it gives everyone involved a sense of continuity, and it busts those stupid generational stereotypes media is so fond of.

hungwy

Another reason why trains would be good is that most people are not good at driving

dragon-in-a-fez

if I see one more "why age verification is bad" post that doesn't even bother to mention that locking young people out of huge sections of the public sphere - literally the stated goal and primary impact of this shit - is wrong in and of itself I will simply start hitting people with bricks

dragon-in-a-fez

yes yes biometric data privacy blah blah adults can hypothetically by harmed by this too. what about the immediate and deliberate and not at all hypothetical harm to youth. why are you acting like a potential data leak about what your face looks like, which if it ever happened would at least be generally recognised as a problem, is a more serious issue than cutting millions of people off from information and community and public expression which is happening right now in the open with large scale support

dragon-in-a-fez

it's got the stench of fucking "banned books week" on it. thousands of adults congratulating themselves for reading books literally no one is trying to stop them from reading while doing nothing to improve access for the young people who are the ones actually having those books made off-limits to them.

dragon-in-a-fez

[normal person voice] as we all know, the public sphere consists largely of strip clubs and pools of glowing green acid

shencomix

dragon-in-a-fez

if I see one more "why age verification is bad" post that doesn't even bother to mention that locking young people out of huge sections of the public sphere - literally the stated goal and primary impact of this shit - is wrong in and of itself I will simply start hitting people with bricks

dragon-in-a-fez

yes yes biometric data privacy blah blah adults can hypothetically by harmed by this too. what about the immediate and deliberate and not at all hypothetical harm to youth. why are you acting like a potential data leak about what your face looks like, which if it ever happened would at least be generally recognised as a problem, is a more serious issue than cutting millions of people off from information and community and public expression which is happening right now in the open with large scale support

dragon-in-a-fez

it's got the stench of fucking "banned books week" on it. thousands of adults congratulating themselves for reading books literally no one is trying to stop them from reading while doing nothing to improve access for the young people who are the ones actually having those books made off-limits to them.

dragon-in-a-fez

[normal person voice] as we all know, the public sphere consists largely of strip clubs and pools of glowing green acid

caspercryptid

I feel like not enough people realize that people under enormous strain act really really fucking Weird

withoutideas

There was a parenting-kids-with-trauma book I remember running into around 2010 (I was not and am still not a parent, but I am an older sibling) that had a lovely little slogan I like to quote all the time:

“It’s not about the Cheerios.”

This was in reference to a story about a kid flipping the HELL out into a full-blown panic about running out of their favorite cereal. Not a tantrum, not a whine-fest, but an all-hands-on-deck, code-red, world-is-ending blowup.

The kid had originally come from a very unstable situation and experienced food deprivation. The new adoptive parents were stumped, because look at all the other food! You’re safe! We can get the Cheerios tomorrow!

But it wasn’t really about the Cheerios, it was about that first flicker of unease triggering all the old trauma. From the outside, it looked ridiculous. To the trauma-trained reaction of the kid’s brain, it made perfect sense.

Human brains are weird, and we’re all out here trying to survive. Sometimes our brains do this in socially acceptable, convenient ways. But not often.

(The book was titled “Beyond Logic, Consequences or Control” I think, I’ll look it up and edit this in a bit.)

friendlyfrankenstein

the scariest thing about old tv isnt really the racism or the sexisim because you kinda go in braced for that it's all the scenes where suddenly an actress is holding a lion cub or a chimpanzee is in the same room as a toddler, or suddenly theres a lion, or there's a chimpanzee again but it's driving a car, or holding a lighter, or holding fireworks. You just kind of watch in horror as over and over an actress performs with only 1960s tv film shootings best animal handling between her and the opening to Nope.