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I failed but I'm still happy, because I embrace and accept it. It's normal and I will learn from it. Wait for my return, because I'm standing now and ready to conquer everything with faith and trust in Him.

Wake up Call

By Shai

I saw her crying in the corner

Wounded and full of blood in her body and shoulder.

There's a lot them who wanted to kill her,

They are all the greatest destroyer.

I thought she will die

But she stand up and smile,

She said to me she's fine,

And we people cross the line.

The rain pours and it made us thirsty,

The wind blows and it killed us rapidly,

We saw bodies not fishes swimming and drowning

Everything we have are destroyed the next morning.

We raped her all,

Cut her trees that are standing tall

We pollute the river, throw some garbage big and small.

Everything that happened is a wake up call.

Don't afraid to start again out of those loses and pain,

There's hope in everything and don't let it make you insane

We call it light even though it is as small as a grain.

Kindness, love, faith and compassion, those are the things we should maintain.

As we rise again, we should bring learning with us,

Protect the environment and don't turn it into dust.

We will help each other, in this time of struggles until it last.

With God we will stand up fast

I was watching some random videos on YouTube and this suddenly pop up, I watched it and it made me realize one thing. People often care for abandoned fetus but some of us rejected and send away a child who is asking for our help. Some of us discriminated them base on their appearance, we tell them cute when their clothes, faces are clean but we treated them as if they're nobody when we they are dirty or a street children. The pain felt by the child in the end, hurted me. If we people treated them equally, if we choose to care rather than judge, if we choose to help rather than ignoring them, if we choose to love and accept them instead of hating them, it will not only alters the life of a child, but the world also. You are hurt when when you are ignored by someone, now think about them.

I once said those words when I was a kid, but right now having that kind of reason to be happy seems to be stressful. When you reach this age baby girl, you will realize that rank is just a number, what will really make you happy is the moment you find contentment in everything you achieve and have. Always choose to be grateful and don't depend much on anything whether it will be things or achievement in order for you to be happy. You can be happy, as long as you choose to be happy.

On the way na ko. 😂😂

We're supposed to say I'm not okay, but we only choose the contrary. Wearing a mask to hide your sad face, laughing out loud to hide your pain is not a good idea, you didn't fool other people, but yourself. Being honest with our feeling is okay, we are all human who experience downfall, who stressed out for something, who overthink and afraid to be left behind. Our fear of judgement and rejection are the reason why we choose to lock ourselves in the perception that we should always be okay in the eyes of other people. If we live this way, we are starting to kill ourselves. It's okay to ask for help, if you know you can't no longer endure it. It's okay to cry on someone's shoulder to lessen the pain. Saying it's okay when you're not is not always a sign of being bravery, it is also a sign of being weak. Your weak because instead of facing it, you choose to hide it. Instead of showing who you really are, inside and out,you choose to show what others wanted to see. Be honest with your feelings and be proud of who you are. Remember this, saying I'm not okay is not a sign of vulnerability, rather self love. You can message me if you need help, You will always have me.

From documentary lover, I will become an advocate or volunteer that will help every people specially children with a hopeful eyes. That one person who stand for them, who care for them though those children believe that they're being thrown away by society and unlove by their families should be appreciated and that person become my inspiration. I no longer dream of a luxurious house, fancy clothes or any material things, what I'm aiming right now is to become happy and that I can find it in helping people who are unfortunate enough to sustain their living- I will always find joy in giving.