Hi guys, here I am again... It's always the same. I start losing weight again until I lose my motivation... And then I am back at my old starting weight asking myself what went wrong... And I look back to the one time I actually was on track for a long time (like 9 months or so?) and lost over 10 kilos. I was at my goal weight but I was so frustrated from having the feeling of restricting myself. That's when I went from being totally fit, thin and strong to eating everything that came into my mind. And that went on for some time until I was too ashamed to weigh myself. I just tried not to think about it and eat and eat and eat.
But that was at a time when I was not completely mentally healthy. I had a lot to struggle with. Now, I am better. I still don't have a lot of friends, but at least I got rid of some of the false friends.
So my plan is to do it all again. But with some more self care. With hard work but with love for myself. And I think spring is the perfect start because I definitely feel happier than in winter because I can go outside and enjoy the sun.
I was doing pretty great regarding sports lately. But my eating habits are shit. So I got myself an app which I also had the first time when I lost so much weight. I need to track calories, I need to do healthier choices and I need to stop eating so many snacks (especially after dinner).
I hope today is going to be a good day. Tomorrow I will have to weigh myself to get my starting weight (which will be around 65 kilos).
