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Claudia’s Memorial Video - June 2016

I woke up around 5AM with my heart pounding and total panic - jumped out of my bed and frantically looked for my phone.....needed to call the ambulance and was scared out of my mind. Opened the window to get air as I felt like I couldn't breathe.....as I got some air, I felt a bit calm and could breathe again....I started to pray and thoughts of my daughter were so vivid and I prayed even harder and asked GOD to look after her. I became calm and felt better........but something did not feel right..... I got ready for work and when I arrived, the first thing I had to deal with was an email from my leadership regarding a meeting in the community where I was excluded again. The meeting was related to the work I was doing. This was common with these two as they had been working hard for months at eroding my value in the company. I was so frustrated and angry at the situation and reached out to my former team lead and vented. My day did not improve as I had to interact with the two leaders throughout the day. At 3PM, my coworker/friend Randi and I decided to go for walk after work to destress.

Claudia is gone and I feel panic - it's overwhelming and I feel absolutely terrified. My mind starts racing and thinking of where she might be and how to find her. I am almost paralyzed now ........ then she is there and she is letting me know she is leaving but I don't want her to go so I find better mittens for her and tell her I am coming with her because I don't want to lose her again. She is about 9 years old. I wake up in terror and panic.

Friends and family of Claudia Howard gathered Sunday to mourn the city’s ninth homicide victim of the year.

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