Shawn

A huge Jacksepticeye fan. Favorite ego: Robbie. I love the jse fangame Soulscape! Aro/Ace. (Please note that this account is no longer being used or active. Please do not @ my account)

[shawnthevampire]

So i noticed @inspiredrawaw display username is longer than the original username so i had a little fun lol. Hope you dont mind. We just made a few adjustments to your username lol!

[shawnthevampire]

I know I know. I said i wouldnt post on this account anymore. But honestly, Im probably just gonna use this account to vent. Its already a fucked up account with no meaning left to it. But I'll be honest. Sometimes i wonder if everyone would be better off without me being here online. What's the point of being online? I ruined everything with my stupid outbursts. People shouldn't forgive me for anything I've done. I should've just stayed in the psychiatric behavioral hospital. At least there, I wouldnt be a nuisance online. If by any off chance that any of my favorite jse artists read this then, I'm sorry I'm the disappointment you never wanted. I bet you all were doing so much better before me and then i showed up and everything went to shit. I'm just bad luck in a person. I don't understand how people want to be around me. I'm a fucking nuisance. Anyways.. if I dont show up anymore on my other account, then so be it. That'll be the end of "Jackson." Oh who am I fucking kidding? I couldn't leave even if I wanted too. I'm to attached to the online platforms to let go. Hah. Im fucking pathetic, nobody reads these anyways. I'm a dead account that nobody cares about. My mental health isn't important, theres people who've had much worse than me. I shouldn't be a narcissist, I should focus on others before myself.

[shawnthevampire]

Alright, I know what some of you are going to say. And no, I am not coming back to this blog. This is just a one time thing. But I feel like I should make something clear. I am actively avoiding people on my other blog, jackiesdragoncastle. I won't say their names, but I am well aware that they should know who they are by now. And I am doing this because of the whole conflict of me calling someone and Antisemitic. It was very very wrong of me to do that. I had NO place to say that sort of thing to anyone. But back to what I was saying, I am avoiding certain blogs because I no longer feel comfortable interacting with them. And I will also clarify, that any of my characters from this person's universes, no longer exist. Willow Mist Shawn is no longer associated with Willow Mist. He is now just Ex Warrior Shawn. If the person sees this, I'm sory. I'll still follow your account but I just don't feel comfortable anymore interacting with your blogs or accounts, especially after the whole incident, so for your wishes of me to stay away from your account (in terms of interacting) I will respect those wishes. I do hope you have a good life though! I know you will do great things in this world.

[shawnthevampire]

Hello everyone, Now I am actually quite happy with sharing this information. I am officially retiring my position as a roleplayer for good. I have finally realized that roleplay, especially for me, it just enhanced my overly toxic traits. And since I want to better myself as a person, I no longer will be roleplaying. I'm actually cutting down the time I spend on discord to just do what my younger self (before joining hellopet) did, which was just to watch youtube videos and chat with my irl friends. And this can officially be backed up by my online friends as of currently that while im chatty sometimes I don't really talk as much as I used too. And I think I just need to focus on the more important things in my life and just accept that, The internet is a cruel place that nobody should have to suffer from any form of abuse on. And while my ways of thinking about the world have stayed relatively consistent with the idea that yeah, there is good in this world, but theres still so much negativity being spread on the internet that it makes it harder to believe that there are people out there who are doing good things just for the sake of doing good. And thats not how I want to think about the world, but the internet has warped my mind into thinking that way for many years now. But back to what I was saying, Im not fully leaving the internet but I am going to be spending less time talking and chatting in the community. If anyone wants to object my decision you can freely tell me on discord. My username is shawnthevampirehuman (or if you have an outdated version like me then its shawnthevampirehuman#7171) or you can talk to me on my other account @jackiesdragoncastle

Anyways, thats all I have to say for now. Just a little update but yeah here you go.

[shawnthevampire]

[yaoiboypussy]

I’ve made my choice, im abandoning this blog.

I’ve learned a lesson, I can’t be openly trans on the internet.

Ever since I started getting a lot of attention on all my posts it’s been unbearable non-stop harassment. All because I dared to be a trans man on the internet who made posts about being a trans man. All because I dared to be a trans man who made sexual jokes. All because I dared to be a trans man who had a fucking backbone about anything and didn’t let people walk all over me.

I’ve gotten hundreds of transphobic comments and asks, and staff hasn’t done shit about it. I report and I report but nothing. The people who harass me just say up. They can tell me to kill myself. They can call me slurs. They can send me rape threats. And staff just lets it happen.

And I’m tired of it. I just wanted to have fun . I just wanted to shitpost.

I’m going to make a new general blog - one where it’s just me and my friends making shitposts again. Mutuals can DM and ask what it is.

[yaoiboypussy]

This is the shit tumblr allows on their platform. This is what I have to deal with.

Tumblr allows this to happen.

[yaoiboypussy]

I encourage people to reblog this - and for people to share their stories about tumblr ignoring transphobic harassment - this is an ongoing issue. tumblr has had a problem ignoring transphobic harassment for years.

I’ve experienced worse transphobic harassment here on tumblr than I have on any other website. If I report someone for harassment on Reddit they actually do something, but on tumblr? Nothing. They do nothing.

[shawnthevampire]

Ofc these transphobes are anons. They are too cowardly to show themself straight up and be open about their transphobia because they know that if they do then they will hurt their "ego" on the internet. Or in other words, immature assholes who will NEVER grow up and will stay immature and digusting forever. Transphobes have NO maturity. And easy way to fix the anon threat harassment problem is to turn anon askers off. Because then they wont have the balls to show themself. And even if they did, they should be known for it.

[shawnthevampire]

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Tw: Mention of suicide and vaping

For context, the close friend was an online friend. A very close one to me, i probably wasnt that close to them, but they were very close to me. They vaped and I'm pretty sure they killed themself after they deleted their account. I miss them a lot.. I feel like it was my fault because I was there when it happened.. This was before I was a shit person, I was just a child who enjoyed roleplay and didnt know any better. Grief does a lot to the human mind that doesnt just involve crying.. Sure my grief right now isnt me crying all the time about them but I miss them so much. I cried myself to sleep that night.. I miss you, old friend.

[siffrin-enthusiast-deactivated2]

ideas for tumblr staff

dont remove the boop button

stop banning trans women for no reason

[nonbinarythoughts]

3. stop banning Black people for no reason

[lockandkeyhyena]

4. stop suppressing posts about Palestine for no reason

[siffrin-enthusiast-deactivated2]

reblog this version actually

[shawnthevampire]

Hey everyone, this is just another stupid post about my time wasting mental health but I just want to share it regardless. Trigger warning I suppose.

So, why does simple things as being told to "fuck off" (in like the nicest way possible) seem to hurt so much? Am I really breaking that much? Nothing feels fun or interesting anymore and I've been loosing my motivation to keep drawing and to keep going with art, writing and even just as much as socializing with people online has become something that I just feel like I dont want to do. I probably have depression or something I don't know. I just wish they would stop asking this stupid question of whether or not I want to k*ll myself. Of course I don't! I know it not worth it at all. Neither is doing self harm. None of that shit is worth it to me. I don't want to die, that's really scary. But I've thought about it from time to time like how would people be if I was just never here in the first place. Like if I was never born how would people's lives be. And it's probably just all a mind game to make me feel like shit all the more. It's not like anybody will read this shit. And honestly, I'd like think that people would be better off if I just went offline one day and never came back. If I did that then I would be a thing of the past. A forgotten memory, a forgotten person. If I'm being honest with myself. There's nobody on this forsaken website or any other platforms that give two shits about me or my mental health. I'm just a fucking narcissist to them. Wished I knew sooner that being 17 is the worst fucking time of my life. Maybe they were right. Maybe nobody actually cares about me. My stupid anger and frustration is ruining my life bit by bit. I wish i didnt have such stupid emotions that wastes others time. I waste so many of people's time its not even funny. I'm not even a funny person. I'm just pathetic. And if anybody (which i doubt anyone is) by chance reading this. Just click off, this isn't the post for you or anyone. And please don't report it either. I'll just waste your concern and time. Its not like anyone gives a shit. Maybe thats why that one friend named Anti left. The internet is such a cruel and shitty place. I don't blame them at all. I would've too if I'd known better. Oh well.

[shawnthevampire]

I know I m not posting on this account anymore, but I need to say this. Nothing and I mean Nothing will excuse my actions and behaviors. I did not intend to hurt anyone from the beginning of it, it was harmless to me and I didn't realize that I was doing something so incredibly wrong. Manipulation, gaslighting, lying, bullying, racism, ableism and much much more. I deeply regret everything I have done and I know that trying to improve and getting better will be a hard road but I will improve. For now I have not said anything and have barely talked to anyone online as of late. The only small amount of online friends that I have left which has surprised me that they would bother to stay knowing the truth that I am a disgusting and a jerkwad of a person. I want to apologize once and for all. My opinions of the Gaza Palestinian fight will stay disclosed but I have been humbled and I do not side with Isreal. I will do everything in my power to reblog and make it known on my blogs about the Palestine fight. I did not realize at the time of my hurtful comments about the issue was severely uneducated and selfish. Half of the blame goes on me and the other half on my school for failing to teach me on how to find reliable sources and has told me that Wikipedia was not a reliable source for research. I have realized now that people do have thoughts, opinions, and feelings. I was ungrateful for the things I have received. I am more grateful for my family especially my parents. They have done so much for me regardless of our financial status. We aren't classed as middle class. My parents have done everything in their power and right to make sure I live a life of non worries. My brother, while I highly dislike his repetitive behavior (as repetition has always been on my list of overstimulating things that bothers me), I do not hate him. I know I have said multiple times that I hate my brother. But I don't. He's just a little too much, most of the time. I will not forgive myself for these behaviors that I have inflicted onto other people. Nobody deserved what I did. And I am utterly ashamed of myself. I don't ask for forgiveness from anyone. I am deeply sorry for everything I have done.

[shawnthevampire]

Hello everyone on Tumblr that either follows me or I follow them, I am making this post as to finally wrap up this account officially. I will not be using this account any longer. I've been involved with too much drama, I have made inhuman mistakes that I do NOT want to consider myself human for. I am bitterly disgusted with myself and what I've turned into. Although hellopet can't always be the excuse and reason that I fall back on, but I just want to say that even though hellopet has gotten better over the years. When I was on it, I saw and read a lot of despicable stuff on there. I, at the time did not know what hellopet could bring for me as a beginner on the internet. I didn't know that there was people out there who are straight up assholes and don't change no matter how much you want them too. I was just a kid who had no idea how to be social on the Internet. I used to hate furries. Now I support them with everything I got. I learned this despicable behaviors from not only my parents, but also the people who were on hellopet. And the only therapy I found in the chaos, was roleplay. Roleplay was such a big thing in my life, it was my therapy, my reliable source to let my emotions out through playing a different character. I don't talk when I'm upset, I get extremely nonverbal when I'm upset irl. But I can write down or type out how I am feeling just fine. I know nothing will excuse the pain and possibly emotional trauma that I've caused. I was a victim at first then I became the abuser. The freak the weirdo, the outcast. I am incredibly grateful that my family is fortunate enough to live in a house (while it's not the greatest house ever, it stands and is a place that I call home), to have people who actually care about me and supported me even when I doubted myself. I am still struggling with unlearning these terrible behaviors that I have picked up over the years. But my question is, why was I the next victim to the cycle of abuse? I just wanted to make some friends online and well... look at how that turned out. With barely any online friends and a BAD reputation that I didn't want. I wish I could go back to stop it all. To stop them from hurting me then. To prevent this kind of stuff that caused this big snowball to roll. Although this account is going to be logged off and no longer used. Only my mutuals and current friends know about this new account. I hope one day, I will be able to NOT relapse into this shitty behavior. I hope to recover and be a better person. I hope one day, I will be able to prevent others from going through what I did. It's a shitty experience to go through. I do not want another innocent child to go through it. I've had to suppress myself just so I don't hurt anyone. While this isn't a goodbye post from me to the Internet in general. It is a goodbye post to this account. This account will still be up but just not get used. I wish everyone the best and Farewell.

[shawnthevampire]

I know I posted about this yesterday, and I mean what I said. I am infact abandoning this account, I will be making a new account to start over and refresh. This account is in the gutter and I do not want to be associated with it any longer. I will be dming the mutuals that only I, MYSELF trust to not share it with anyone. I will no longer be called Shawn. My OC Shawn will NOT be a vampire on this new account. All of my OC's will be talked ONLY to the people that I trust as to not bring any more bad stuff to me. I want to restart and refresh under a new name and will be doing so by choice and I do not want people to @ this account, mention this account, talk about this account or even look at this account again. Please respect my choices and desires to start over and get better at not being toxic and all those bad words. And to anyonr who hates me and just wants me gone, I am sorry that I could not please you, but please remember that I am still a PERSON. Not a thing, object or anything like that. I am still a person who has thoughts, feelings, and opinions. I have my own views on things like everyone else does. You can disagree with me and yell at me about political views and call me uneducated, but trust me. I am made VERY aware of what happens in this world. My own mother, my literal loving and good mother does the research and knows what is really happening in this world. And I will take her word over anyone else's any day. I trust that women with my life. You can disagree with my opinions and political views but by no means will you tell me to educate myself on matters that not everyone is comfortable with. I'm sorry that you disagree with me. Thats fine. Just don't discuss it around me. Please do not tell me to educate myself on matters that are political. This account is done and over with. Goodbye.

[shawnthevampire]

This is the last post i will ever make ever. I am serious this time, I do NOT want to be here anymore as I am causing too many issues and problems. The internet has put a strain on my life and my mental health and I don't want to take it anymore. I know that nobody will care about this as this should not suprised anyone. I was misunderstood from the start and cyberbullied when I was young. I repeated the cycle of abuse and I am extremely and sincerely sorry about it. I know what I have said and done is beyond unforgivable and I wish I could take it all back. There is no excuse for the things I did. If I could tell my past self something, it would be that to never join the internet. I have always had issues with getting frustrated, overwhelmed, and angry at small things. I do not know why I act this way, I really don't. To all my mutuals and friends I have had in the past, you guys are amazing and I hope this post will make you happy because I am infact and for real, leaving the internet. I am putting aside my editing, art, and any dreams I have had of being a youtuber or game designer so I can focus on my life and find a more realistic job. I am nearing the age of being a legal adult and my behavior will not slide in any job. I don't ask for any forgiveness or anything. I want to also formally apologize to the Jacksepticeye community and any other community that I have affected with of my behavior. Nothing will fix what I have done apart from me leaving all communities and disassociating from the internet. I am a big let down and disappointment to everyone online and I will grant all the wishes of people who hate me online by removing myself. This account will only be active for a short while after I post this. After that you will not hear from me again. I will not be active on discord or here. This is my final goodbye. Formally, Shawnthevampirehuman

[androgynouspear-deactivated2025]

[kalcifers-blog]

m me :(((

[dailyisatsiffrin]

erm.

[glass-trash-bab]

I hear fireworks, the home team won the superbowl

[yagamimi-aka-mimi-deactivated20]

This animation without the filter because it fucked with the framerate for some reason (this isn't the intended look otherwise, but bleh)

[yagamimi-aka-mimi-deactivated20]

im sure most of you dont give a flying dick tit about godzilla shit but this model and now animation is the first thing ive made and was kinda proud of in a long time .

[joshus-lobster]

WAIT YOU MADE THIS?

[yagamimi-aka-mimi-deactivated20]

idk probably

[transarsonist]

im worried that the reason you're getting less attention than you deserve is that this looks like it was clipped out of a Movie, and not one of the lower budget ones

[yagamimi-aka-mimi-deactivated20]

2,840,658 polys

i make my rigs myself

[yagamimi-aka-mimi-deactivated20]

dont do this to me