[1/3] âIâm the first child of five; when I was first born my mother was in her late twenties, and sheâs devoted so much energy and love to me that I was kind of given every opportunity. The foundation of love and understanding between us allowed me to be a fearless person; I felt invincible because she convinced me that thereâs nothing to be scared of. And the most important thing for my mother, I know, is the engagement with me and with all of her kids. She watched these lives come out of little tiny babies, and she developed the closest possible relationship with these humans; as we drift off and become our own people, the most important thing for her is that we maintain that closeness. I could do anything, fly her around the world, buy her a house, if I wasnât present for her, emotionally, none of it would matter. All of us in the band have been taking steps in the last year or two, to rebuild that part of our lives, because the initial part of the Half Moon Run project involved a lot of sacrifice. Of almost everything. We all dropped out of school, quit our job, lost our personal relationships with our friends, had no money for a long, long time. And that was all necessary sacrifice in those days, and then it came to a point where you have to draw a line, you have to build these things back up or else you wonât have anything to give. I was so afraid of it, and I feel a sadness about growing older because Iâm never gonna be as close with my brothers as I was when we were on our camping trip fifteen years ago. You try to, and you try to remember those things, but itâs never gonna be quite the same. I look forward to having my own family and repeating the process.â
[Conner is the singer, guitarist and keyboardist of Half Moon Run, and we met him thanks to our friends at URBANIA.]
[1/3] « Je suis le premier de cinq enfants ; quand je suis nĂ© ma mĂšre Ă©tait dans la fin de la vingtaine, et elle mâa dĂ©vouĂ© tellement dâĂ©nergie et dâamour que ça mâa en quelque sorte donnĂ© toutes les opportunitĂ©s. Les fondements dâamour et de comprĂ©hension entre nous mâont permis dâĂȘtre une personne qui ne connaĂźt pas la peur ; je me sentais invincible parce quâelle mâa convaincu quâil nây a rien dont on devrait avoir peur. Et la chose la plus importante pour ma mĂšre, je le sais, câest la relation avec moi et avec tous ses enfants. Elle a regardĂ© ces vies se construire Ă partir de petits bĂ©bĂ©s, et elle a dĂ©veloppĂ© la relation la plus proche possible avec ces humains ; alors quâon sâĂ©loigne et quâon devient des adultes, la chose la plus importante pour elle câest quâon maintienne cette proximitĂ©. Je pourrais faire nâimporte quoi, lui faire faire le tour du monde, lui acheter une maison, si je nâĂ©tais pas lĂ pour elle, Ă©motionnellement, rien de tout ça nâaurait dâimportance. Dans le band, on a tous pris des mesures au cours des deux derniĂšres annĂ©es pour reconstruire cette partie de nos vies, parce que le projet initial de Half Moon Run a impliquĂ© beaucoup de sacrifices. De presque tout. On a tous quittĂ© lâĂ©cole, quittĂ© nos jobs, perdu nos relations personnelles avec nos amis, on nâavait pas dâargent pendant un long, long moment. Et tout ça câĂ©tait des sacrifices nĂ©cessaires Ă ce moment-lĂ , et câest arrivĂ© Ă un point oĂč il faut tirer un trait, il faut reconstruire toutes ces choses sinon tu nâas plus rien Ă offrir. Jâavais tellement peur de ça, et je ressens une tristesse en grandissant parce que je ne vais jamais ĂȘtre aussi proche de mes frĂšres que je lâĂ©tais quand on partait camper il y a 15 ans. Tu essaies, et tu essaies de te souvenir de ces choses, mais ce ne sera jamais vraiment pareil. Jâai hĂąte dâavoir ma propre famille pour rĂ©pĂ©ter le processus. »
[Conner est le chanteur, guitariste et clavieriste de Half Moon Run, et nous l'avons rencontré grùce à l'aide de nos amis de URBANIA.]
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