[sheaintandrea]

I really feel anxious when im thinking about my future. I will be graduating this coming september, but until now i don’t know what i want to do in my life. I easily get teary eyed thinking i dont have any significant plans in my life. I’m sad because i don’t have any meaningful dreams, to be like this, to be like that, some of my friends are planning their life to be a lawyer, a nurse, but me? I only want simple life and work that will cover my bills. At the same time i know where i want to work but im too afraid of major changes after I graduate. I want to help my family and provide maximum help to their expenses, i want to eat wherever i want, i want to buy things to the point i don’t need to worry about the price, i want to share my blessings to those in need, but I feel unmotivated to reach my goals. I feel burned out from life. Im draining. This isn’t the same andrea when she was in high school. Way back in my first year college, I didn’t feel any of these. I was always excited to do my activities, to finish them before the deadlines but now i feel like im just compromising everything. Im envious to my batchmates, i can see they have a lot of job offerings even though we’re not yet graduated. Don’t get me wrong, im happy for them. But that makes me think what my purpose in life is. Im pressured even if no one’s pressuring me. My family has been trusting and supporting me since then. It’s just really me. Life’s too hard. :(((((( 22 but no plans at all.

But i know i can do better than this. I will make proud this little kid in me. Padayon

[sheaintandrea]

almost four years have already passed. why do i feel like it happened just yesterday? i thought i have moved on but these days im still hurting by the things you did four years ago. i still feel insecure, the pain and anger. i always think of her. why did you like her, why does it have to be her.

[sheaintandrea]

puta nagmukha nanaman akong tanga eh

[sheaintandrea]

kung tunay tayong nagmamahalan, ba't di tayo magkasunduan?

[sheaintandrea]

• self-centered ka

• mayabang

• sobrang yabang

• sarili mo lang iniisip mo

• makasarili ka

• ampanget mo

• akala mo sayo iikot ang mundo

• hindi ka maalaga

• insensitive ka

• napapagod nako sayo

• basta napakayabang mo kinangina.

[sheaintandrea]

funny how i used to think when i was young na basta mahal nyo isa't isa, okay na. things are getting harder pala kapag naiintindihan mo na lahat. real shit. bakit hindi natin magawa maging masaya? we've been together for 4 yearssss pero tf bakit ganto. bakit ni isang beses di moko maintindihan. lagi mo kong sinasabihan ng toxic when in fact di mo lang ako maintindihan. salita tayo ng salita sa isa't isa pero never natin pinakinggan bawat sinasabi ng isa satin. what can i do? should i pursue our relationship harder?

[sheaintandrea]

U Cry.

I cry.

We cry together..

[sheaintandrea]

tanginamo!! ikaw dahilan sa apat na taon ng kalungkutan ko. putangina hindi pa malinaw na hiwalay na tayo tapos kung ano ano pinaggagagawa mo! tangina nagaway lang tayo tapos blinock kita para hindi na tayo magbangayan. grabe ka manakit sakin! nakakagalit at nakakadurog ka. sobrang mahal lang kita kaya paulit ulit kita tinatanggap kahit mukha nakong tanga. kahit parehas parehas na yung dahilan bakit ako nasasaktan ayos lang saken kasi mahal kita kaya kahit paulit ulit nalang tayo. Tanginamo! sobrang demonyo ka. tangina pampanga pupunta ka? eh diba taga dyan yung classmate mong nakalandian mo dati? haha awit ka :)

[fuckbenjx]

[juansendizon]

I hate my face. But I’m trying to find the beauty and love in it. By getting the haircut I want. By facial treatments and diamond peels. By going to the dentist to get my teeth fixed. I hate my body. But I’m trying to find the beauty and love in it. By running five miles a day and eating healthy food. By getting a massage once a month and a body scrub. By trying not to smoke too much. I hate my brain. But I’m trying to find the beauty and love in it. By seeking help from psychiatrists and psychologists. By taking my medications every day as required. By believing that there’s always hope. I hate myself, but I’m trying to love me one day.

Juansen Dizon // I’m Trying (via juansendizon)

[sheaintandrea]

LORD, THANK YOU LORD!

[books-n-quotes]

It’s better this way. A little lonelier but better.

Lisa Schroeder, The Day Before (via books-n-quotes)

[best-life-hacks-on]

25 Things About Life I Wish I Had Known 10 Years Ago

[wordsnquotes]

Socrates, considered one of the founders of Western philosophy, was once named the wisest man on earth by the Oracle of Delphi. When Socrates heard that the oracle had made such a comment, he believed that the statement was wrong.

Socrates said: 

“I know one thing: that I know nothing.”

How can the smartest man on earth know nothing? I heard this paradoxical wisdom for the first time from my school teacher when I was 14 or 15. It made such an impact on me that I used Socrates’s quote as my learning strategy.

To me, “I know nothing” means that you might be a wise person, but still, you know nothing. You can still learn from everything and everyone. One thing that I like better than learning from my mistakes is learning from other people’s mistakes. Over the years, I’ve been blessed to have great mentors, teachers, family, and friends that taught me about life.

What you will find below is a list of the most important things I learned from other people and books. Some of the lessons took me a long time to learn—but if I had had to learn these things all by myself, it would have taken me a lot longer.

We might learn things quickly, but we often forget them at the same rate—and sometimes we need to remind ourselves of what we’ve learned. 

Here are 25 of those reminders that others taught me.

[books-n-quotes]

The only meaningful thing we can offer one another is love. Not advice, not questions about our choices, not suggestions for the future, just love.

Glennon Melton, Carry On, Warrior (via books-n-quotes)

[wordsnquotes]

1.

Take a shower, wash off the day. Drink a glass of water. Make the room dark. Lie down and close your eyes.

Notice the silence. Notice your heart. Still beating. Still fighting. You made it, after all. You made it, another day. And you can make it one more.

You’re doing just fine.

— Charlotte Eriksson

[wnq-writers]

2.

My life is a struggle between my need for acceptance, my fear of rejection, and a desire to not care at all.

— Anonymous

[wnq-anonymous]

3.

The best revenge is to improve yourself.

— Ali Ibn Abi Talib

[wnq-music]

4.

No one is you and that is your power.

— Dave Grohl

[wnq-movies]

5.

I still love the people I’ve loved, even if I cross the street to avoid them.

— Uma Thurman

[wnq-art]

6.

I need to be alone for certain periods of time or I violate my own rhythm.

— Lee Krasner

[wnq-unknown]

7.

wnq-unknown

[wnq-quotes]

8.

It is a lonely feeling when someone you care about becomes a stranger.

— Lemony Snicket, When Did You See Her Last?

[lovelysuggestions]

you have made so much more progress than you realize. you will get past these bumps in the road, the bad days, the heartbreaks, and find you are stronger than you were before.

[blossomfully]

“I knew we were temporary,“ she said. “Sometimes people come into your life and all you can do is appreciate them while they’re there, and try not to get attached to the way they bring light into your life; and try not to miss them when they leave.”

— Sue Zhao // Nothing but Strawberries #7