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[shecutieyelle]

Civil Service Professional passer MARCH 2024

Registered Psychometrician AUGUST 2024

ONE TAKE CUTIE 🙏✨

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🙏

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here i am again, back to my old ways

frozen with my thoughts

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i'm gonna reblog this post, cause i'm 💔

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hello, I'm back again

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"What if I was never as special as they thought I was?"

When I was younger, I would say I was one of the best students in our class. For a long time, I was holding up to expectations from me, and I learned to love it. From then on, I wanted to become someone special, someone big and admirable. I had a list of dreams before me that were just waiting to be accomplished. People had their dreams for me too.

I thought I knew where I wanted to go.

I thought I knew who I wanted to become.

And then, life suddenly hit me. It was never that way. We can only plan things in our head and end up in a completely different story we never thought of writing.

I honestly sometimes think of my life choices. "Is this worth it?" Or "Am I gonna be as special as who I dreamt to be?"

"Will I be able to make myself proud?"

I sometimes think of that. And don't get me wrong, I am trying my best to work on myself everyday. I am sure that I am learning things. But it just haunts me...the what ifs.

Adulting is hard. You realize life isn't as easy as you thought it would be. But I guess, we're all in this game. No backing out. If our plans don't work, may God redirect us to where we belong.

#GoodTalksWithVal

@/GoodTalksWithVal

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I'm not afraid of others being attracted to you, what I'm afraid of is for other people to see those special things I saw in you first and they might do a better job taking care of you. Though i'm afraid I'll just let them do it if I see that you're better off of with them. —

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On some days I know what to do with my life, and on some, I forget the reason why I am still here. There are also times that I strive hard to reach my dreams, but there are also moments that all I have done is to just exist. Sometimes I am so sure that I already figured out what I want; while on other days, I am clueless.

And that's life—it has its share of both ups and downs, of triumphs and losses, and that's okay. Both are alright to have and to be experienced.

—Ren Ednalig, The Storytellers

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People are people and sometimes we change our minds, but it's killing me to see you go after all this time

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Things change, people change, feeling change too, never thought the circumstances woulda changed you

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if it's not you, then its no one

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to the ones we found and lost;

life surely is full of uncertainties.

i didn't know i waited for you

until you came.

i enjoyed the rain,

romanticized the storms.

i mistook isolation

for independence.

i fell in love with being alone.

until you made me feel

how it was like to have someone.

i realized the storms aren't that cold

when you have hands to hold.

the rain would be more comforting

if you aren't alone in your suffering.

but that feeling of being found

once again was buried to the ground.

it was short-lived.

i was lost again— alone again.

because i had to learn

how to love myself more

than how i loved the rain.

that strength is not just standing alone

but having the right people

to stand with against the storm.

if we're meant to meet again,

i would introduce to you

the version of me

who grew after the pain.

words from gyrl_lie

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protecting my peace 🍃

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You were the one who chose to leave me and not taking the risk. If you're really determine to not talk to me anymore then it's fine I won't push myself. It's fine, I will be fine.

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i miss you

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When you're getting yourself together, it gets lonely. But choose growth over company —