Just My Thoughts

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I went through the breakup conversation once. Why would I want to relive it by continuing to think about it

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I’ve been on both sides. I’ve been left suddenly with little to no explanation why. And I’ve gotten answers to all my questions. And you know what I’ve learned. Closure doesn’t actually make it hurt less

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It doesn’t really matter why you broke up. It matters that you did. And no amount of thinking is going to change that outcome

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And what do I do when I start to forget what it was like to be yours

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Not even knowledge can exempt you from feeling pain

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At some point you don’t miss them, you just miss the potential

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You don’t actually get over your first love

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Someone can you make you happy, you can like them, and care about them deeply and not be compatible

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It wasn’t going to work anyway, but that doesn’t mean I don’t want it

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I’m so convinced that thinking about the what ifs can kill you

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You can’t beg someone to stay

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“You’re perfect on paper, just not in reality”

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Your partner’s quirks you once adored will grow to be the traits that most irritate you

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And when you finally get there you’ll realize that none of the tips actually mattered. Just do what comes naturally

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And when I finally got a glimpse of that life

The life where I wake up next to you in our tiny apartment in New York City

Or San Francisco

Or Washington D. C

Our floor to ceiling windows wide open

The fresh morning air breezing in

I wanted it

I wanted that life with you so bad

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The best kind of love feels comfortable

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I think I’m allowed to be angry and understanding at the same time