do you miss Him? do you miss the things He did? do you miss the way He made you feel? do you miss the tears? do you miss the confusion? do you miss the pain? do you miss the blood? do you miss the screams? do you miss the fear? do you miss the hatred? do you miss His touch? do you miss the devotion? do you miss the control? do you miss having a purpose? do you miss being something? do you miss having meaning? do you miss achieving His goals? do you miss the memories you’ve lost? do you miss the cold floor? do you miss the darkness? do you miss kneeling in front of Him? do you miss being on display? do you miss the reverent whispers you laid at His feet? do you miss baring yourself to Him in full? do you miss the sour sting of stomach acid and vomit? do you miss feeling hollow? do you miss being a loyal mutt? do you miss the pins and the frame of the beautiful display of yourself for Him? do you miss the doubt? do you miss the spit? do you miss the bruises? do you miss the cage? do you miss the cage, dog? do you miss howling alone every night? do you miss the bite? do you miss having no thoughts of your own? do you miss His strings? do you miss the ache? do you miss feeling empty? do you miss being special? do you miss being His? do you miss lying awake in fear of the door? do you miss the flow of blood? do you miss starving? do you miss the fight? do you miss the loneliness? do you miss the emptiness? do you miss the shame? do you miss the dirt? do you miss feeling like your body wasn’t your own? do you miss never feeling real? do you miss satisfying Him? do you miss pleasing Him? do you miss His voice? do you miss the feeling of His breath against your neck as He whispers sick praise? do you miss the fists? do you miss being reminded not to tell? do you miss being so good that it feels wrong?
do you miss it?
i miss him.
