i was planning to do this more Formally, but honestly this blue hellsite doesn’t really need Formal because we’re all gremlins doing as we do for the fun of it
anyway, the actual point: i’m doing a soft reboot/refresh for this multi.
i was planning to do this more Formally, but honestly this blue hellsite doesn’t really need Formal because we’re all gremlins doing as we do for the fun of it
anyway, the actual point: i’m doing a soft reboot/refresh for this multi.
longer bits under the cut.
this includes a new blog with different url, new gdocs with updated information, new organization, clean slate for following, all that fun stuff. and it’s been coming for awhile, as its something i’ve discussed doing on and off at various points, but really it comes down to needing to refresh my own stuff to feel comfy here again.
a lot has changed in dumblr rp, especially after the mega-crash that followed IW and EG releasing. this community has been around for a long time, and i’m hoping it’ll stay around, but there comes a point with canon material (this is for every fandom btw, having been thru quite a few) that it Peaks and then dramatically drops off for whatever reasons. and i need to adjust myself and my approach on here if i want to keep writing my muses and keep writing with people, which i have been very reluctant to do, as anyone who has known me the whole time or a long time can tell you.
i thought it was a step i had at least sorta taken when i deleted a bunch of my archives/old solo blogs. but it didn’t. not really. that was my choosing to not give myself a way to back into having a million blogs again, so i could try to focus here and in having everyone in one place. that was part of my process of allowing myself to fully embrace being a multi, and adding to the fact i could more easily craft separate spaces by having my muses separated by fandom for a total of a few blogs rather than 30+.
but i’ve spent so long on here that i realized something: i hadn’t actually gone over my own rules and disclaimer information in a HOT minute. just copy & pasting from myself to set stuff up quickly and kinda keep organized. and some of that needed editing, updating, removing, the works.
and my alternate timeline? listen, i love that project. but at some point i got so set in going THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED ACTUALLY that i stopped allowing spaces for being able to wiggle around with other people and their timelines, their muses, their crafted spaces. i was cutting potential partners and current partners off, i was limiting myself, by sticking more and more rigidly to the timeline (which i’m going to keep in a doc somewhere but i’m not making it the Main Point anymore). universe 77483 is my baby, i’m proud of it, i love it. but its so categorically huge and overwhelming that it’s more suited to say fic worldbuilding than for rp worldbuilding.
i have a lot of headcanons that, honestly, same thing: i’ve been copy/pasting from myself for years and not really reading over the information anymore. its just rote movement of text thrown into the tags. and i stopped writing verses because i was bogging myself down with other elements, and getting caught on needing them to be perfect rather than letting them be blurbs to serve as baselines.
somewhere along the line, i genuinely got sidetracked from the crafting and writing with other people part, and focused on the detail-building and setting up things like i’m the only one writing or involved. rp is not a solo project, and i am dealing with the repercussions of behaving like its one. my dash slowed down because i did. my threads dwindled because i stopped reaching out as much, stopped being as available or open to things, beacuse i focused on the wrong aspects. that is entirely on me and my choices, my behavior.
so this reboot is needed, desperately. my attitude and approach needs to change from what it was, because that wasn’t working. i’m hoping that this, that acknowledging that i chose wrongly and repeatedly, will bring back the joy i’ve had and the joy i miss in writing with all the lovely people out here. i miss the energy and enthusiasm i would have here.
A very happy holiday season to anyone celebrating! This is for lux-obscura, as a thank you for supporting me on Patreon. She technically asked for Bucky and a little Xmas spirit, but apparently this was as spirited as I could manage. ;) Thank you for the continued support!
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