Nils Ravn

My profession is the past but that doesn't mean I intend to live there.

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Lasting Legacy: Nils & Rose

[surviver-rose]

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surviver-rose:

‘I’m sure they won’t’ Rose had said, and the words stuck with him. Nils was very sure the same couldn’t be said for him, having to pick up not just one but three of his family members all at once as they flew in. The drive with Maeve to the airport was fine, but the ride home, with everyone shoved into the car as they were, seemed so much longer. It took about the fifth time one of his brothers whines about being able to ‘fly faster’ and ‘if we took to the air as birds this wouldn’t be so crowded’ for Nils to pull over and just let them shift an follow the car in the air.

“We’re home my love!” Nils called out, opening the door and leaving the luggage in the car. “Terribly sorry if we took so long, and, well there are a few people arriving in a few short minutes.” He nodded towards the window at the Ravens that cawed and flew down to roost on their patio.

“Hey, I’m in the kitchen stirring the pot like you told me to. I still have no idea what you’re making but it smells delicious” Rose says with a smile as she walks over to where Nils’ was and kissed him softly. Rose was in a nice casual dress and flats, her dress was a bit tight but it wasn’t to noticeable thankfully, though she was sure his sister had noticed and was going to make comments about her weight gain. “Well i can’t wait to meet the rest of your family once they have arrived” She said smiling a bit as she savored the moment she had alone with him. 

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“It’s just a simple potato soup, my darling. An old family recipe that is sure to delight this crowd we’re hosting at least. Very danish so I hope it won’t be too European for your palate.” Nils smiled as he looked down at Rose, his hand caressing her from his shoulder along her arm till he moved and rested it on the small of her back. “My family has already arrived actually, my love.” Nils lifted his head to look outside their large back windows to the ‘murder’ of crows gathered in the back. They cawed happily and hopped from lawn furniture. “That’s them darling, right outside and being rude of all things.”

[donovan-rose]

Baking Dance | Rose and Nils

[shifterravn-blog]

donovan-rose:

“Thats not the reason why i chose you, but i understand. I will wait, besides we have to watch more Hannibal…..we are still doing that right?” Rose asked hoping they were she really wanted to continue their binge nights. Sure rose was a bit upset but she was glad this wasn’t a no and that there was still a chance.

“Thank you.” He felt a sudden urge to kiss the top of her forehead as he held her, but stopped himself. Now was not the time to show her mixed signals. He would do as he himself requested; he would wait. Then he would see what was to be done. “Of course we can Rose, I’m looking forward to it, and we’re already halfway through.” Nils smiled and stepped back from the hug to look at her.

[donovan-rose]

Baking Dance | Rose and Nils

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donovan-rose:

“I’m not making a mistake Nils trust me” Rose says enjoying his embrace, the circles he was making on her body calmed her even more. “No, im not being with someone my own age again. I was humiliated and toyed with, my brother almost killed the kid who did that to me so no i wont be with someone my own age. Because i can’t trust someone my own age” Rose says revealing a tiny bit of something in her past she hates bringing up. 

“I-” Again Nils was rendered speechless. It was the way Rose had said ‘toyed with’ that struck him. In a flash of anger on her behalf he could understand what her brother felt, and he had no doubt that carried over to Rose. “I understand Rose, believe me I do. But try to understand me. I don’t want you to choose me just because you’re angry or afraid. So I’m not saying no, just, please wait for me. Give me some time, give yourself some time so we can get to know each other before we rush into anything.”

[donovan-rose]

Baking Dance | Rose and Nils

[shifterravn-blog]

donovan-rose:

Rose stood close to him, she needed to be close he made her feel safe and calm even though his feelings towards her are unclear at the moment. “Age is just a number Nils, i told you this the last time we talked about our ages. its not that big of a deal Nils, its not” Rose says hoping to convince him of that. 

“I know Rose, I know what you said. I just want to make sure you’re not making a mistake.” He sighed heavily as he held her, his hand moving in gentle rhythmic circles. “I’m too old to casually flit about with a relationship, and you’re far too young to settle into something just yet. You should take your time, be with someone your own age.”

[donovan-rose]

Baking Dance | Rose and Nils

[shifterravn-blog]

donovan-rose:

Rose listened to what he had to say and tried to focus in on his feelings like the ones he was describing to her. She could feel them, maybe she was to quick to judge she just didnt want to be hurt again. Rose could feel his feelings come threw slowly at first like the feeling of surprise and flustered but there was also a bit of worry in there that made her hesitate. “Why worry?” She asked not sure if she was going to get an answer or not. 

“Why worry? Because Rose, because...” He sighed and pulled her closer. So that when they stood Nils could wrap his arms around her to hug her. “Because even if you don’t want to see me as old, but I’m a decade older than you. I can’t help but know how young you are when I’m old enough to be your father. I-” He was worried to, that he was too old for this sort of thing, that after his wife if he loved then lost someone again that he wouldn’t be able to stand it.

[donovan-rose]

Baking Dance | Rose and Nils

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donovan-rose:

“I know you’re just saying that to make me feel better. You don’t have to Nils, i get it. Its fine, just let me sulk for a bit and i’ll be fine” Rose said quietly as she looked back at him, she just wanted to sulk she knew this would happen and she didn’t want to have to deal with it anymore. 

“I am not just saying this to make you feel better. Rose!” Nils stood, his voice clear and precise as he continued to hold onto her. “Our bond works both ways so if you doubt me at least try, try and reflect on how I feel to understand me. It may be more complicated. But isn’t it surprised? Flustered? Take a moment to trust me dear before you go off the rails to sulk.” As calm as he looked on the outside; inside he was a rumbling swirl of feelings of surprise, flattery, worry that he’d been inappropriate, excitement, and even feelings he hadn’t yet fully grasped--like excitement and hope.

[donovan-rose]

Baking Dance | Rose and Nils

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donovan-rose:

Rose knew she shouldn’t have said anything this was him rejecting her but he was trying to be nice. She tried to hold in her tears as she hid her sadness of the rejection, sure he didn’t say anything but she knew. “Im sorry i said anything i don’t know why i did. Thanks for lunch” She said as she got up from the stool ready to leave the room and hide in hers.

“No, wait.” Nils reached out to grab hold of Rose’s arm before she left the room altogether. He didn’t even have to wait before he saw her face, he could feel the sharp pang of sadness in her gut as if it was in his own. “Wait, please Rose. You don’t have to be sorry. I- Well, I’m flattered. I’m just surprised.”

[donovan-rose]

Baking Dance | Rose and Nils

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donovan-rose:

“Yea i guess you do but thats okay i forgive you” rose said with a smirk as she looked at him. Butterflies began to flutter in her tummy as she got closer to telling him the truth about her feeling. She was so afraid he would reject her, but she knew she had to if Jo could tell Vlad she could tell nils. “Okay well um, im sure you noticed that my emotions lately. Well um they are towards a certain someone……and its you” Rose revealed quietly as she looked at her hands im her lap to afraid to look at him.

“Your emotions lately, towards me?” Nils brows furrowed, not quite understanding Rose at first. He took a moment to review all the times he felt the flutter and flurry of nerves through their bond. What this spelled out in the terms of Rose’s affections and the source of those affections--him. “Well, why-” Nil’s mouth hung open, rendered speechless.

[donovan-rose]

Baking Dance | Rose and Nils

[shifterravn-blog]

donovan-rose:

“I would think it was calming since it wouldn’t be very noisy” rose responded with a small smile as she continued to dunk her sandwich in the bowl of soup. “Yes i’d like that very much, then i can show you all the amazing shows. I guess we could go to sleep at a reasonable hour though most people who binge stay up all night and finished the who series in a couple of days” she said honestly knowing she was going to have to tell him about her feelings. “Nils? Can i tell you something honestly?”

“It actually is. It’s quite and peaceful when working with the deceased. I was just afraid if I said it was calming it might make me appear callous. I keep forgetting unlike other people you’re more forgiving of my morbidity.” Nils turned to face Rose completely, sensing the change in her demeanor almost immediately. “Of course my dear Rose, please do, at any time you should feel free to share with me whatever you like.”

[donovan-rose]

Baking Dance | Rose and Nils

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donovan-rose:

“I’m sure work isn’t that bad, and besides once you get in im sure we can make some time to watch more of Hannibal or another show if you want” Rose said with a smile as she tried to make him feel a bit better. 

“Not bad, as such, certainly no one is happy to have to deal with a mortician, but my daily work is at least calm if not calming.” Nils took to eat the bisque, spooning it carefully into his mouth as so not toe slurp. “Should we make this a nightly event? Watching some sort of show or movie together? We’ll just have to be careful to go to bed at a reasonable hour. This morning I fell asleep while at the coffee shop.”

[donovan-rose]

Baking Dance | Rose and Nils

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donovan-rose:

“That is very true” Rose replies with a smile back as she continues to eat besides him. She felt her heart flutter once more when he said her name, she loved hearing him say it. “Ill probably frost the cupcakes and maybe dance and sing some more as i do.”

“Sounds like a lovely afternoon. I’m filled with unbridled jealousy that I can’t be here to share it with you.” Nils smiled over at her before sinking his teeth into one slice of his sandwich with a crunch. 

[donovan-rose]

Baking Dance | Rose and Nils

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donovan-rose:

Rose smiled and blushed when he pushed her seat in, she hoped she would get up the courage to tell him how she felt. “I definitely will, it smells amazing” Rose replied with a smile as she picks up one of her slices and dips it in the soup, taking a bite her taste buds explode with flavor. “Nils, this is so good” 

“I thought it might be, but one can never tell what may appeal to certain pallets.” Nils said with a smile, choosing confidence over faux humility. He cut his own sandwich neatly into triangles before eating it. “So, Rosalie, if I might ask, what are your planes for the rest of the day?”

[doctorofteddybears-blog]

“That’d be lovely, I wouldn’t mind some like-minded freinds myself,” Sebastian hadn’t exactly had alot of freinds even before he moved here, and now that he was in a new town he had almost none, he could certainly use some more, “It’s interesting isn’t it? Most creatures have a better sense of self-preservation than to be lured in by things that are dangerous, but one thing we seem to have in common with humans is that danger is, at times, attractive to us, it’s such a strange concept,” true, as Nils had said, Sebastian should be somewhat glad for it with his status as a supernatural, but from a psychological standpoint it was still so abundantly strange…

“Oh I don’t mind, my last position was at a mental hospital actually, wich isn’t in it’s self a bad thing at all but.. the one I worked at was understaffed and overbooked and alot of the patients weren’t there by choice so they really saw me as the enemy, it was a new place and there was just alot that kept going wrong, not all were even due to the patients, I accidentally got locked in one of the rooms for six hours when the electricity went out for example, wich was .. terrifying, and I learned my stomach isn’t as strong as I had hoped it was really, it can be absolutely paralyzing to find yourself in a position of emergency and not be able to help, to watch some of the things people go through there, I don’t think I can do it again, even in a place that’s actually well put together,” he just hoped he could keep up working here instead, he really preferred having a private practice, especially in comparison to the hospital setting, “Oh? If you don’t mind my asking, what made you decide to become a mortician?”

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“I don’t know how strange it is, danger raises one’s heart rate, invigorates the blood, reminds us what it means to be alive. With all those senses activated is it not understandable that our consciousness might conflate danger and attraction when they feel so similar.” The conversation was purely mental exercise for Nils, he hadn’t fallen for anyone dangerous in quiet a while.

“Those conditions sound absolutely atrocious, for both you and the patients. I can’t imagine it’s an easy position in the first place let alone when your place of business puts you through the fire as it were.”  Nils frowned sharply, inhaling and locking eyes with Sebastian before moving forward. “No I don’t mind you asking, it is a common question the first time people find out my profession. I think in way, perhaps due to the providence of my birth, I’ve been drawn to death. I think people deserve dignity even in their passing.”

[donovan-rose]

Baking Dance | Rose and Nils

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donovan-rose:

“Id like that too actually” rose replies quietly as she looked into his eyes, her heart began to flutter once again as she did so. Rose smiled and blushed as she sat down on the stool that he pulled out for her.

“Then it’s decided.” Nils smiled back and nodded before he pushed her seat in so they could continue their lunch. For the briefest second he wondered if it was really Markus Rose was becoming so flustered over, or something else. He dismissed the thought with the shake of his head. “You will have to tell me what you think of the meal.”

[doctorofteddybears-blog]

“I really do have to meet her then, I’ve always found Hannibal fans to be really lovely people, oh I agree with you, Will always pulls my heart-strings just.. incredibly hard, he just needs some warm tea and someone being nice to him,” he said with a slight laugh, “I find it to be one of the most challenging shows I’ve ever seen when it comes to psychology and morality, because as much as you see that Hannibal is just .. this atrocious person, as much as you want to see him get as far away from Will as physically possible… there’s also a strange sensation of not wanting the cat-and-mouse to end either, you don’t want him to get caught or die, and because Mads and Hugh Dancy have such explosive chemistry you always want more scenes with them together..  it really calls into question how much we’re affected by things like charisma and fascination versus morality,” he knew he should probably shut up, most people couldn’t stand his “psycho-rambling”, but he just couldn’t help it, he loved talking about this sort of thing with people, and Nils already seemed like such an interesting person too, “Ah Caravaggio, I think you’re right about that,”

“Well thank you very much,” Sebastian said brightly, “I admit I’m a little intimidated being the only one here with a psychology license but this place is pretty much Candyland compared to my last job, so I’m not that terrified yet,” he admitted with a laugh, “A mortician huh? I imagine that’s quite difficult, but I hope that you don’t get that much business around here, no offense,”

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“I’ll be sure to introduce you then, I’m sure Rose would appreciate someone of a like mind.” Nils smiled, remembering Rose’s passing comments about how few friends she seemed to be making in town. “Ah, yes, the age old allure of something dangerous but fascinating. I suppose as a supernatural I should be partly glad for it.” His lips pressed together, pulling up in an amused smile as he simple sat back and listened to the younger man. He enjoyed a good bit of his coffee with the conversation, allowing Sebastian to do the ‘heavy lifting’ as it were.

“I’d hate to press you about something you’re not comfortable sharing but now you have me terribly intrigued about what your last job was.” Nils raised an eyebrow, legs crossing over each other as he relaxed into his seat. “I have some advantages, as experienced as I am, but trust me I take no offense. I am more than happy when my workload is sparse.”

[donovan-rose]

Baking Dance | Rose and Nils

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donovan-rose:

“I’m glad you like it” Rose said with a smile as she joins him at the kitchen bar. “I’m comfortable no matter what, i know he wont try anything and if he does i’ll stab him or punch him whichever comes to mind first” She says with a shrug and a smirk. 

“Well, I’m glad you can take care of yourself. All the same I think I’d like to be in the house the first couple of times. I’ll confine myself to the study to give you some privacy but it would ease my mind.” Nils locked eyes with Rose, pulling out one of the kitchen stools for her to sit.

[donovan-rose]

Baking Dance | Rose and Nils

[shifterravn-blog]

donovan-rose:

“Its lemon” Rose said with a small smile as she went back over to the bowl of icing and began to fill the piping bag with it. The food Nils smelt delicious and Rose couldn’t wait to have some, it made her so hungry she couldn’t wait to eat. “I don’t mind either way and im sure Markus wouldn’t either.” 

“It’s delicious.” Nils said in answer. With a practiced flair he was platting their lunch on square plates and clean white bowels that he set down on the eat in kitchen bar. “It doesn’t matter to me a lick  what Markus thinks either way. What’s important to me is what makes you comfortable.”