NEVER ENOUGH

i wanna live longer so that i can love him better

[typelikeagirl]

[shinelikeastarsomeday]

Time check, 3:21 am and here I am, still awake.

Sleeping seem so hard right now. I'm missing someone and I can't do anything. I was at fault. It was my fault. I never knew we will part ways like this, more so we will ever part ways.

I need to be awake at 4:00 am to prepare for my 5:00 am shuttle service as I have to be at the office at 7:00 am.

I guess I'm not sleeping tonight/today?

[saddbitchh666]

Walk the streets at 2 am with me

[mryrsgtn-x]

Something we cant do anymore because of covid 😩

[shinelikeastarsomeday]

I thought this is something we can't do because it's not safe in the Philippines, even pre-covid.

[shinelikeastarsomeday]

And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can’t ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it’s already happened.

- Douglas Coupland

[classfuckingwarfare]

“I think about dying, but I don't want to die. Not even close. In fact, my problem is the complete opposite. I want to live, I want to escape. I feel trapped and bored and claustrophobic. There's so much to see and so much to do but I somehow still find myself doing nothing at all. I'm still here, in this metaphorical bubble of existence and I can't quite figure out what the hell I'm doing or how to get out of it.”

— Matty Healy

[somepiecesofmyheartandsoul-deac]

“Some people look at me like I have the answers to their every question. Others look up to me like I am the answer to everything. But the truth is, I am broken, I am incomplete. I have nothing and I am nothing. Nothing at all.”

— Lukas W. // I’m not the answer

[kleffngbuhaymo]

Me as a Boyfriend.

“Gusto kitang makita kahit 10 mins lang”

“Miss na kita agad, kita tayo ulit please”

“Kumain ka yung madami ha?”

“Uminom ka ng gamot”

“Sige suot mo lang kung san ka mas komportable”

“Mag pray ka bago matulog ha”

“Wait picturan muna kita”

“Ingatan mo phone mo, Bag mo hawakan mo mabuti”

“Aral/Work ka lang diyan andito lang naman ako e”

“Naiintindihan kita at mas iintindihin pa”

“Sige lang handa ako pakinggan lahat ng kadramahan mo”

“Gusto ko marinig palagi boses mo”

“Akin ka lang”

“kantahan kita mahal”

“Pangit ako mag sulat pero susulatan padin kita”

“Simba tayo”

“Bakit ang ganda mo?”

“Sige punta tayo don pero hug mo muna ko”

“Mahal kita sobrang mahal kita”

[xnon-anjellyc-deactivated201912]

Power words at its finest.

[kencils]

My life is a series of turns and misdirections. Six years ago, I drew my tracks and thought deeply about where I should go, or what path should I take. However, life caught me and put me in twists and spins. Those path I was traveling became vague and a blur and gone.

Six years ago, I told myself that I would graduate in five years, get myself a degree, become a licensed engineer, settle for a stable job and provide all efforts in helping my family and paying them back. I told myself that I will explore the places I’ve never been and buy the things I once dreamt of having. However, circumstances happened and life pushed me on the harder road.

Now, I am taking a new path and in the middle of finishing a new course. While everybody else, the ones I start my former course from my previous school with are already graduating, here I am caught in between the emotional struggles of pre-adult and academics. Sometimes I blame life but most of the times I blame myself for being so confident with the plans I made.

However, I don’t dwell so much with these heartbreaks and self-disappointments. “This is the road I am destined to take.” — I always tell myself that in between regrets and sadness. Then I will end up remembering the people I have now, my family, my best friend, my love, the explicit perseverance you will notice in me, the morals these turns taught me and all the experiences I gained from being dragged to an unknown road. And then eventually, a smile will appear on my face, the one I had six years ago.

[shinelikeastarsomeday]

How can u be so positive abt everything? I envyy you!!

[gelphiexo]

And now whatever way our stories end, I know you have rewritten mine by being my friend.

This line is just so beautiful it makes me cry  (via elphieandgalinda)

[themostawesomebitch]

8. Lullaby

Still my cries Steal my storms Steel heart can’t conform

                                      Good night, my love, transform                              Good night, lay down your tired eyes                     Good night, tomorrow you’ll meet the skies

Still my lines Steal my core Steel walls no more

                                       Good night, my soul, I’ll adore                             Good night, we will forge all the signs             Good night, I will untangle you from those vines

Still my waves Steal my shore Steel floors what for

                                Good night, my world, we’ll implore                      Good night, we’ll recapture what you gave             Good night, we’ll send them back to their graves

[shinelikeastarsomeday]

You will always be part of everything that happens in my life after fifteen. I am now in my twenty-one and you are and will still be part of me.

emaestipona

[shinelikeastarsomeday]

I will always love you even if I will never be with you.

emaestipona

[inkandcigars]

I can still remember the day when you loved me and you can not even utter a single word when you first met me. I remember you saying those cute little stuffs and with every fight that you’ve told me not to leave because you can’t live without me. I remember when I used to be the sun that gives you light when darkness came into your world and that being with me makes everything better. I remember how much you’ve told me that you’re grateful to God that you have met me. I remember everything. Those sweet little fights, those hugs we used to have til we both felt fine, those laughters because we treated each other as bestfriends. Many people rooted for us. But still, we ended. You chose to. There were nights that i am wishing for things to come back the way they were, but we can never be the same anymore. And honestly, there were nights that i am wishing that when the right time comes, it will still be you I’ll end up with. I just didn’t know if I could love you the same way. You chose to leave. You chose to walk away. You chose to live life without me. Maybe, we were just really bound to meet, realize the things we needed to improve so we can finally be with someone who deserves the love we can give. I still miss you. I hope you’re doing fine. I will always pray for you.

[paolopalanca-deactivated2018040]

You will have emotional closeness to different kinds of people over the course of your lifetime. Most of them will leave as if it never happened. And you will have to take that like a grown up and keep moving.

- paolopalanca (via paolopalanca)

I am emotionally close to him, not in love with him.

[shinelikeastarsomeday]

her: what makes you think i'll hurt you

him: i've heard so many people tell things they say they won't forget but in the end, i'm the one who remembers

her: if you think i'm like everyone else, you're completely mistaken

him: love isn't being attached. i've seen those eyes from the people who think they love certain things but only because someone else gave meaning to them and not because it's what their hearts really beat for in the first place

- p.m.

[wnq-writers]

i think it’s brave i think it’s brave that you get up in the morning even if your soul is weary and your bones ache for a rest i think it’s brave that you keep on living even if you don’t know how to anymore i think it’s brave that you push away the waves rolling in every day and you decide to fight i know there are days when you feel like giving up but i think it’s brave that you never do

Lana Rafaela (via wnq-writers)

[lost-after-midnight]

Forgive yourself for your past. Forgive yourself for all mistakes you did. Forgive yourself every moment. Forgive yourself everyday. The more you forgive yourself, the less you will hate yourself and the more you will love yourself. Forgive and forgive. Nothing else.

(via hey-its-kiffxr)