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Mum says that because sister never did something wrong to punish her physically and instead I did a lot of things worth to be punished, besides the physical punishments she also spits on me.

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And I do //Not living //and I have not //Dying //Neither love nor even glory// Nor a dream was it ever// On my length I’m wandering //wandering// And I hear the butterflies of the breathing mother earth

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9.3.2019

[cp]miss summer

wish I had some tan

cockroaches scream in the mid-night

I felt like a sunny sky

sunlight hit my eyes

adrenaline streams down my vein

waits to jump on the bandwagon

stranger in the Moscow ​​​[/cp]

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I gave my little sister Donald Duck cookbook for 2018 Christmas gift secretaly wishing her becoming a best chef one day and cook me delicious food

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I feel myself like a middle school?aged kid again... having crushes and sorta things... lovely ... life is full?of expectations ​​​

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one afternoon before sun came down I jumped from the stairs of four in front of the coffee bar where I just ate some chocolate cake and had some milk one old lady around 64 yrs old wearing cowboy shoes leather jacket oversized and pair of loose fit jeans hair white and silver braided talked to me that she couldn't jump as I do. I asked why out of politeness she told me she is an alcoholic and she is waiting for a kidney replace she has no relatives who'd donor her one and she sad when she spoke and she added that she is in bad relation with her daughter I said to her why she not trying to fix the relationship with her daughter and gave her my hand for a handshake. the old lady grabbed my hand and murmured her voice cracked a little that I was very young. at that time I was 14.

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13th october 2017

maggot spring shiny shiny trees

I see your face in the night

your hair rushing light of night

I scooped down my lover’s memories

and dug a hole into the ground

there they lies big and round

You say that I hold onto things too much

But is there any places I could put them down

I carried them along the road

Holding them like sparkling gold

they precious as much as happiness

and prevented me from a bad guess

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how you should become a better person

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A universe of almost choking tenderness all the time

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kinda lived a life that isnt mine

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since my surreal friends all died what could I be and what could I have become ​​​

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I do not want to read write draw or see tonight I hope this does not last long my life.

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we are pitiful self indulgent awkwards, cowards of reality, abundant of hopeless spams that do not even grap a single lie. we are liars of centuries, god creatures, craftsmen of evolution...

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no title

I/ wanted to see the moon/ Instead sunshine shed me tears/ Instantly moon disappeared into sentences/ I find you anywhere

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we humans are nocturnal animals upon many requests and questions our determination ends whole humankind Sacrifices are rare and undeliverable passing along the gates from the very beginning to its destination thought to be the ending phrase.

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it’s so painful to live 
in the past sense 
unable to deliver life 
into present tense

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I prefer talking to doctors about something else I prefer lying to them with my hand crossfixed I prefer watching their expression while impressing them I prefer preferring refenrencing problems with details I prefer enjoying faces of mankind I prefer substituting feelings ​​​