i don't write smut as i'm not comfortable with that and for any members of groups that are minors i ONLY write them platonically ! i sometimes use this prompt generator for scenarios & credit it in every post where it is used !!
A/N finally posting again after a million years, i hope you all enjoy ♡
WARNING not thoroughly edited so there may be spelling or grammar errors !
the camera was pointed towards the paddock floor, capturing the two pairs of shoes. one a pair of racing shoes and the other a pair of sneakers. as the camera zoomed in, two people behind the camera laughed.
let’s spend a day with . . .
the camera abruptly turns towards y/n, who gave the camera a peace sign. the video cutting to the duo in y/n’s driver room, talking about the upcoming qualifying session.
“how do you think you’ll do in zandvoort?” yunjin asked, eating some food the team had catered to the orbr hospitality.
“i’m hoping i do well, i think this race can be a little intimidating if your teammate is max verstappen.” y/n laughed, stretching her neck after being in the car for the past hour. “but i just want to have fun! we’re about two-thirds of the way through the season and i think it’s been an exciting season with the championship contention for the top drivers.”
yunjin nodded, thinking how y/n always tried to be positive when it came to racing. ever since they became friends early in the 2025 season, yunjin felt like she made a friend who could understand the expectations held against them. y/n took those expectations and broke them any chance she could, she understood she wasn’t perfect and she wasn’t trying to be. she just wanted to do what she loves, at her own pace.
“i think you could spice up the race and battle with max. make the crowd really hate you.” yunjin says, winking at her playfully.
y/n tossed a small pillow she had at yunjin, snickering at the plunk sound it made when it hit yunjin in the head. “you and every non-mv1 fan would love that. max and his minions would want to burn me at the stake.”
the duo were now seen in the orbr garage, y/n speaking to her race engineer before qualifying. yunjin zoomed the camera towards y/n’s face, snickering at how serious she looked.
“now here you can see a wild y/n l/n in her element.” y/n turning to see yunjin with the camera, sticking her tongue out playfully. “talking about tire degradation and drag.”
yunjin turned the camera back towards her, beginning to talk about how excited she was to see one of her close friends do “some crazy stuff” as she put it.
before y/n got into the car, she turned to yunjin and gave her two thumbs up, her eyes shining brightly through the space between her visor and helmut.
“have fun!” yunjin called out.
watching y/n go through qualifying, yunjin could be seen nervously glancing at the screen above her with all the times. cheering everytime y/n passed onto another qualifying round, or head in hands when a lap didn’t come together how the team would’ve wished.
eventually qualifying ended with y/n in p4, bumping her vcarb friend into 5th. yunjin clapped alongside everyone in the garage, the second row lockout for the team being better than nothing. once y/n came back to the garage after a quick media interview, she gave the team around her a soft smile.
“thank you everyone for your hard work, let’s turn that second row lock out into a 1-2 podium!” the team around cheering loudly. “otherwise, snacks for the team on me!” cue the team cheering again, hoping for some free snacks, easily influenced by their driver.
the video cuts again to the camera being held by an orbr staff member, recording the duo who were deciding to try and film a quick dance challege to hot. while another staff member was setting up the phone, y/n and yunjin were “arguing” about what y/n should do if she got on the podium.
“promise me you’ll take the lesserafim lightstick on the podium with you.” yunjin said, hand on y/n’s shoulders as she shook her dramatically.
“of all things…” y/n rolled her eyes. “sure, if i can make it to the podium.”
“ok were ready to film if you both are!” y/n was glad it was still early so she could record in her comfy clothes before the race later that day.
“we’re probably going to do a couple of takes, i woke up an hour ago so mistakes will happen!” y/n said, a hand on her hip with an exaggerated smile on her face. “everyone will be compensated if we are delayed!”
everyone laughed before the duo eventually started recording. after the third take, y/n was sure this would be be the last before she spotted a familiar beige dog in the distance.
“oh my gosh, it’s leo!” cue the camera catching y/n sprinting towards charles while calling out to leo, the dog excitedly trying to run to her as well.
yunjin immediately began laughing, falling to her knees as she laughed more and more. trying to talk and laughing as she pointed at y/n in the distance who was now playing with leo.
"i swear that was the funniest thing i've ever seen." yunjin wiped at her eyes, trying to regain her composure.
y/n walked back towards yunjin, holding leo like he was her own dog. "we need to film a challenge with leo."
"you know what… sure."
the two proceeded to record a simpler version of hot, with y/n holding and moving leo along to the music. the dog just looking happy to be there. charles watched the two, smiling like a proud dad seeing y/n and leo have fun.
eventually bringing leo back to charles, y/n turned dramatically to the vlog camera. "let's be honest and say that any of the paddock dogs are the true stars of the sport."
eventually back in the orbr garage, yunjin and y/n were talking about race strategy.
"maybe if the two mclarens in the front dnf we can finish on the podium 1-2." y/n mumbled.
"so you're praying on mclarens downfall." yunjin said, quirking her eyebrow.
"i mean... aren't we all? why do they have a rocketship of a car this year, it's insane." y/n's hands gestured exaggeratedly, looking directly to the camera and pointing. "red bull don't fire me please i like driving in circles drawn by toddlers."
"exactly!" y/n busted out laughing hearing max yell across from his side of the garage. "just give us a good car!
"and that's p3 y/n, good result for the team!"
y/n cheered into the radio, happy to end up atleast with a 2-3 podium in the race - coincidentally after a mclaren dnf-ed which she claims was not caused by her!
"thank you for the hard work today, happy the two of us ended up on the podium." y/n sighed, laughing a bit before continuing. "and tell yunjin to bring me that dang lightstick."
yunjin held the camera up to her face, snickering as she showed the lightstick in her hand. "i think this is the first time in f1 history that a kpop lightstick has been on a podium."
y/n excitedly ran onto the stage, holding her (borrowed) lightstick. once max made it onto the podium, he turned to y/n with a questioning look.
with no explanation, y/n handed him the lightstick. max looking at it with curiosity, giving y/n a thumbs up before giving it back to her. y/n knew any photos or videos of max holding onto the lightstick would go crazy - no pun intended - on social media.
y/n and yunjin were back in her driver room, saying their goodbyes to the vlog.
"this was so fun! i'm excited to go to another race weekend in the future." yunjin said, holding the camera in front of them.
"yes! i love giving people the opportunity to see an f1 race weekend for the first time." y/n held onto her p3 trophy, gentle smile on her face. "to the fearnots watching this, i hope you've enjoyed the vlog and possibly got interested in f1! and i'm really looking forward to lesserafim's new tour soon!"
yunjin pulled y/n close to her for a quick hug, y/n scrunching her face exaggeratedly. the two waving goodbye to the camera as the video ended.
sorry for the long period of not posting. i’ve been focusing on work and life, so i don’t want to promise i’ll be posting consistently or really soon. more so, making this post to say i’m still here and hoping to post when i want to/can! i hope everyone’s doing well and that you treat yourself to whatever you’ve been wanting recently.
driver! reader being the most popular vote ฅ^>⩊<^ ฅ
i have some ideas, i’m thinking of making a series of driver! reader outside of the current series i have, BUT still making posts for driver! reader whose into kpop.
basically having two series for driver! reader that aren’t in the same universe if that makes sense. hoping everyone will like what i post, glad i’m starting to feel creative again!
haven’t had any creative breakthroughs recently and don’t really know what to write, hence the lack of posts.
but i think this poll will help me know what you all want to see from me when it comes to content. that’ll help me narrow down and figure out any ideas!
wishing you all the best in the new year, may everything you want come to fruition and thank you for being with me in the last year. i hope you’ll still stick around ദ്ദി◝ ⩊ ◜.ᐟ
A/N happy 100+ followers ! here's a short blurb based on their dorm vlogs◝(ᵔᗜᵔ)◜
y/n held onto the camera in her hand, trying to see if it was recording. she walked over to jiahao’s room, seeing the boy exercising making her laugh a little. y/n shared her dorm with leo, jiahao, geonwoo, and sanghyeon.
“hao, how did you know the camera was on because i don’t see a red light or recording status.” y/n handed him the camera, the boy taking it from her and showing her where the staff who passed by earlier had shown him the camera was recording.
“it should show you now!” he said, handing the camera back to her.
“thank you hao! i’ll leave you to work out in peace.” y/n saluted him, before walking back to her room.
placing the camera onto her small bookshelf, she clicked record and waited a moment before talking to the camera.
“honestly, this feels a bit crazy to me. showing you all my room in our dorm, as a member of alpha drive one.” y/n looked around her room, she had spent the past week decorating the room and finding furniture with the budget the company gave her.
“a lot of things i brought from my last dorm as a trainee, but something's were gifted to me by fans and my fellow trainees during the show.” y/n reached towards the nightstand next to her bed, opening the drawer and grabbing a couple of items. “i keep the letters i’ve received in the nightstand next to my bed. if i’m ever having a hard time, i read them! it helps a lot, really.”
“let me not get too sappy laughs i’m going to set up the projector to watch the office with sanghyeon. he said he wanted to watch an american show, our youngest wants to continue learning english through watching these shows. i watch with him to explain any words that he’s curious about.” y/n continues to talk to the camera, controller in her hand, selecting the show.
“y/n i have some snacks, geonwoo’s cooking so he said to not eat too much.” y/n nodded, adjusting the camera so it could record the both of them.
“sanghyeon’s english lesson time with the office!” y/n excitedly said, clicking play as sanghyeon cheered happily.
the two were sat in y/n’s room for a while, before moving to the living room to continue watching the show and for sanghyeon to build his lego cat. y/n was getting used to sharing the space she had with her members. it at first was surreal for them, getting used to what would now be a hectic end of the year until their debut in january.
with mama around the corner, they did their best to lean on each other as they also got to know one another more. sure, it was still going to be awkward since some of them weren’t as close to each other as others, but bit by bit they’d get closer.
y/n turned towards the kitchen, watching geonwoo quickly move around making a pasta dish for the members. getting up, she walked towards the small counter, leaning against it as she watched geonwoo cook.
“hopefully you don’t give us food poisoning.” y/n said, peeking at the (almost) finished dish.
“don’t say that!” geonwoo replied, y/n shrugging before playfully skipping back to the couch to keep watching the office.
the five members sat together at the dining room table, ready to evaluate the pasta geonwoo made.
“oh, i’m a bit nervous now…” y/n huffed, holding two(?) forks in her hands as she was excited to eat. “a free meal is a free meal at the end of the day.”
geonwoo sighed, the other three laughing.
after finishing their food, y/n flopped onto the couch. “maybe i ate too much, i feel so bloated.”
sanghyeon jokingly ran up to her, making y/n scream. “yah! treat your elders right!”
sanghyeon playfully stuck his tongue out at her before starting to work on his lego cat again. y/n had watched leo leave their dorm to go next door, extroverted antics leading him to “bother” the other members.
y/n had unconsciously fell asleep on the couch, the members cooking more dishes in the kitchen while y/n sleepily held onto the tv remote. having set up the table for some hot pot, y/n was still fast asleep, making the other members laugh. xinlong quickly ran over, taking photos of y/n from funny angles.
“i’ll post these on her birthday.” xinlong said, showing the camera a supposed photo of sleepy y/n that wakeone editors decided to blur for “artist’s safety”.
once they set everything up, junseo walked over and gently tapped y/n’s shoulder to wake her up. her eyes opened wide, making junseo laugh.
“we’re eating hot pot, wash your face to wake up a bit.” squinting at the bright light, y/n sleepily nodded.
getting up, she hummed a greeting to the members from the other dorm before walking into the bathroom and washing her face to wake herself up. she quickly walked into her room and grabbed a random oversized hoodie, joining the members at the table.
“hot pot sounds so good after pasta.” she mumbled, grabbing the small bowl from sangwon. “thank you.”
moments like this were always nice, it let the members relax and yap about whatever they wanted. for a moment, they could forget that they were idols. y/n was pretty silent, nodding along to her members words and snickering sometimes when they said something funny.
“living with y/n for a week, i’ve noticed she takes time to decompress after waking up.” leo mentioned, having seen y/n “defrost” before fully getting up in the morning.
“i’m always slow after i wake up. so i appreciate everyone’s patience with me in the morning.” y/n jokingly made a heart with her hands, making some smile and laugh.
they continued talking for a bit, ending the day watching more of the office and building more lego’s.
SHINYOU'S THOUGHTS
first of all, thank you for 100+ followers ! looking forward to writing more stuff that you all hopefully like. my requests are open so if anyone has any ideas or stuff they'd like to see, drop them in my ask box !
truthfully, i really wanted oscar to win or max but congrats to lando for being the wdc. the title fight was so close, so i can't really be upset about who ended up winning !
looking forward to the next season which is two-ish month's away. i think it'll be interesting since regulations are changing. i will say, seeing lando get emotional made me tear up a little lol.
i absolutely enjoyed your b2p series it was so good!! And i would love to see contents about her as a member of Ald1 whenever you decide to write for them of course✨
hi anon !
thank you for enjoying the series ♡ i'm looking forward to writing about trainee! reader now as 9th member! ald1. honestly got some inspo from their content in the dorm so that's a blurb i'm writing right now, probably as a 100 follower special since i just realized i've reached 100+ followers ꉂ(˵˃ ᗜ ˂˵) looking forward to keep writing for ald1 when i have the chance !
i had a lot of time this weekend since my work gave us a long weekend ! don't know when i'll write next but i was enjoying myself while writing both posts' for today which is important to me since this is a hobby for me. hoping everyone is doing well and wishing you all the best !
A/N a short blurb because the idea came to me randomly lol
WARNING not thoroughly edited so there may be spelling or grammar errors !
ever since y/n had caught the attention of the kpop industry, especially when they found out the girl had a background in dance, her management team consistently received requests for dance challenges. y/n most of the time filmed these during race weeks, on media day or in her free time. since she was traveling most of the time, she’d be dancing by herself in her hospitality suite.
y/n was really only extroverted to an extent, not wanting to bring attention to herself all the time, especially since she was in the spotlight most of the time. so when her management suggested she film elevator by baekhyun with the monaco paddock in the background because it would “look aesthetic”, y/n wanted to run away. so here she was, her manager holding a small speaker, a member of the social media team holding the phone, and other staff around to keep the area somewhat cleared.
“ok y/n do you want to do a quick practice run?” y/n was glancing around, trying to see if any of her fellow drivers were around.
“no! let’s just film it!” nodding, her manager began playing the music. y/n bouncing on her feet as she ran through the choreo in her head.
elevator, elevator, going up your heart
elevator, let me get up in the center of your mind
she honestly loved the song and choreo, finding it fun and something that could be stuck in your head for days. after recording a couple more times, y/n was watching the last take when she heard someone jog up to her.
“y/n you gotta teach me that!” ollie excitedly said, doing little movements that mimicked the choreo she was doing.
kimi was behind him, purely there to watch the impending disaster. y/n just shrugged turning to her management to tell them the takes they filmed were good.
“and maybe film me teaching ollie, good content for the red bull account.” she winked, everyone laughing.
so here she was, trying to teach ollie the arm movements.
“wait how do you move your shoulders like that.” the poor boy trying to keep up.
whereas kimi also used this opportunity to record it for content for mercedes.
“and here we have y/n trying to teach ollie, who has two left feet, how to dance.” commentating as y/n laughed every time ollie tripped.
the two ended up recording the dance challenge as well, y/n teaching ollie a simpler choreo baekhyun’s team had also sent her. y/n posting it on her account as well later that day captioned the bear indeed cannot dance.
early june, in canada for the week, y/n was filming a couple of challenges that day. different by lesserafim, lemon drop by ateez, and killin it girl by jhope. except this time she had a bit more of an audience.
max, charles, and george sitting in front of her like proud dad’s waiting to record their daughter's first dance recital. while y/n was talking to her staff about which dance challenge to record first. lewis was about to fly by on his scooter when he saw the small group, growing curious about what was happening.
“what’s the crowd for?” he asked, seeing the trio with phones in hand and eyes locked on y/n who was stretching a bit.
“we’re watching y/n do kpop dance challenges.” charles replied, phone ready to record his own fancam.
“oh, cool.”
so as y/n recorded each dance challenge, the four recorded their own fancams that they would also post to instagram like fan accounts. f1 and kpop fans alike loved it, finding the interaction to be adorable.
they’re literally just dad’s watching their daughter have fun
what a vibe in the paddock
y/n fansites unite
the latest encounter being in singapore, where y/n was just filming random challenges for fun. she somehow convinced the mclaren duo to do a relatively simple dance challenge together. just know y/n had to bribe both with kinder eggs and timtams respectively.
later that day, photographers caught y/n with the oldest driver on the grid doing this challenge, fernando seeming to take it completely serious while y/n laughed during almost every take. doing it a couple times before getting the “perfect” take as fernando called it, posting it to the orbr instagram captioned just two of the cutest drivers on the grid - sorry max!
and in brazil y/n saw the williams and alpines happened to be sitting together, so she ran over left her phone in front of them and began doing the rat dance challenge she saw earlier that day. she watched franco get up to try and copy her, the poor boy - just like ollie - having two left feet and falling over making everyone burst out laughing. y/n quickly grabbed her phone, replaying the moment to her fellow drivers around them who couldn’t stop laughing at franco’s failed dance moment.
A/N here's the final part of the b2p series ! might continue to write within this universe if anyone would be interested in reading that >⩊<
WARNING not thoroughly edited so there may be spelling or grammar errors !
y/n slipped a mask around her face before waving goodbye to the trainees in the dorm. y/n had seen that some of her fans were hosting a café event before the elimination this week. y/n held onto two bags, one in each hand, with gifts for those who were there.
she wasn’t sure if a lot of people would be there, but she still wanted to show her appreciation through some gift bags for the fans. each one had a had written note of thanks, polaroids, and small snacks.
y/n hummed as she made her way off the subway, walking up the stairs and following the directions on her phone. the mnet staff had been “kind” enough to give the trainees their phones during the short break they had.
turning the corner, y/n nearly gasped. seeing the long line of people waiting outside the café. she glanced down at the bags she was holding, grimacing as she underestimated the amount of people that would be there.
quietly walking towards the front, she caught the attention of one of the café workers, who quickly recognized her. she smiled ushering her in, the fans in line making sounds of confusion before recognizing y/n.
once inside, y/n took off her mask, the fans screaming in surprise and excitement. looking around the café, covered in photos of her during stages or fan meets made her heart swell. the decorations being her favorite color and animation character. after everyone quieted down, y/n began her small speech.
“hello everyone! i know this must be a surprise, truthfully i wasn’t expecting so many people to be here, but i want to stay and show my appreciation to everyone! this support that i’ve received since the beginning of the show has helped me stay strong throughout. i am extremely grateful to every single person who has given their time to support me. every gesture, big or small, has impacted me more than you’d ever know.”
y/n could see some fans smiling with tears in their eyes, nodding along to her words.
“no matter the results i’m happy to have had this opportunity. now let’s move on from my sappy speech because i have some gifts! like i said, i wasn’t expecting so many people, so i unfortunately don’t have enough gifts for everyone. i’ll stay as long as i can to show my appreciation.”
the staff of the café were kind enough to set up a small table and chair for y/n to sit as she walked around the café, taking photos of everything and anything. even taking photos at the photobook her fansite had set up.
eventually taking a seat, she briefly glanced at the line outside, already knowing it’d be a long day, but she was excited more than anything.
hours later she was finally with the last fan, y/n smiling gratefully at the café staff that had stayed until the end. they hadn’t rushed her, and we’re very nice throughout the time of y/n’s impromptu fan meeting.
“hello!” y/n smiled, looking up at the fan.
“i wasn’t sure if you’d come to the event, but in case you did, i wanted to give you this.” the fan handed y/n a folded letter with a cute bear sticker on the outside.
“i get nervous, so i hope you’re able to understand your impact on me and all your fans through this letter.”
y/n held the letter close to her, knowing how important this must’ve been to her.
“i’ll keep this safe, i’ll make sure to read it once i get back to the dorm.”
true to her word, y/n arrived at the dorm a bit tired from the subway home. she wanted to knock out as soon as possible, but she was determined to go through all the gifts she was given. she first grabbed the letter from the last fan she saw that day, carefully opening it.
to the brightest star,
i don’t know if i will have the opportunity to give this to you, but i hope i can. seeing you work so hard to chase your dreams has inspired me more than you would believe. your persistence and integrity to music has made me understand how you love being an artist beyond the spotlight.
i want to support you in everything that you do, even if you do not make the final group. because i know that you are capable of anything you put your mind to. it’s given me the confidence to pursue my own dreams, because no matter the result, i know that i’ve tried my best and that makes me happy.
i hope you know that your fans will always be here to allow you to continue shining. we are here to support you in the hard and good times. so please don’t be afraid to be vulnerable, because that is your biggest strength. that’s what makes you a sincere artist.
wishing you the best always,
one of your fans.
y/n held her hand up to her mouth, feeling herself begin to cry. not in sadness, but in some form of relief. reading these words written by someone who supported her was what made every hard moment on this show worth it.
it was a weird feeling to think the show was about to be over. that the past couple of months had ultimately led to this moment. after their short break where y/n went to her café event and hung out with some of the trainees (a/n might write a short blurb about it), y/n was sat in the elimination room once again.
sitting next to her chains members, she nodded along to the two songs playing. thinking which concept she wanted to go for during the finale. she put her thoughts aside as planet master baekho began announcing rankings.
“let’s just get through to the finale.” she whispered, leg bouncing lightly against the floor.
y/n nearly fell to her knees, hearing her name called.
“9th place, trainee l/n y/n.” her hands were on top of her knees, a shaky exhale coming out from her mouth.
“there you go y/n!”
“and no one’s surprised, you did so well during the last performance.”
“well deserved.”
“now go walk up there with your head held high.”
standing at the front, y/n smiled as she held the microphone.
this was it. one step closer to her dream.
y/n felt herself becoming excited, but the lingering feeling of nervousness would be there until her name was one of the eight called at the finale.
y/n tsked, gnawing at her lip as she watched trainees one by one stand at the part they wanted.
“we can never get a moment to breathe.” she mumbled, trying to think strategically.
eventually being called, y/n stood between the two groups. laughing in disbelief at her dilemma.
“we’ve seen trainee y/n perform as a vocalist and rapper, which part are you leaning towards?” daehwi asked.
y/n smiled, rocking on her feet. “i’m thinking of going back to my roots, so a rap position would be nice.”
the trainees standing on the rapper spots, feeling themselves tense up a bit.
walking down the middle of the row, y/n nodded her head once and with determination walked towards never been 2 heaven. she noticed kangmin was looking at her with a face that read please let me keep my place, but y/n knew that if she was going to be selfish at any point in the show, this was the moment.
“i’m sorry.” she mumbled, her hands on her shoulders as she lightly pushed him away from the main rapper position.
“the reason i chose main rapper was because i have been consistently a sub vocal or sub rapper throughout the show. if there was a time to be selfish, this was the moment.” y/n could already see/hear the dramatic zoom and music mnet would put into the interview clip. “i am determined to prove myself not only to those who have supported me but to those who have also doubted me. and this is my opportunity to do so.”
“you know, i dont think i’ve ever seen y/n do aegyo before.” geonwoo said.
“y/n’s only done stronger concepts so far.” junmin added.
“you’d have to pay me to see me to aegyo.” y/n said, shaking her head. “but i accept cash, money transfer, gift cards!”
everyone laughed, the atmosphere being playful despite the upcoming performance. as everyone practiced a bit on their own, y/n had headphones in her ears. dancing to the music and playing around with expressions of what she thought was cute.
“look, look, look!” lee jeong pointed towards y/n, leo whipping his head to see the girl smiling as she danced.
“wait why’d she lowkey eat that.”
“eat what? she’s dancing.”
“that’s not what i meant!”
y/n stretched alongside the trainees she’d spent the last couple of months with, many realizing their fate would be decided in three hours. y/n wanted nothing more than to hear her name be called for one of the eight spots.
never been 2 heaven’s performance had gone by so quickly, y/n barely registered stepping off the stage. being pulled into a hug by junmin, one of the first trainees she met at the start of the show.
“thank you.” y/n mumbled, arms going around junmin.
“for what?” he asked.
“for being so kind at the start. i know it was a small gesture, but it meant a lot to me.” the two pulled away from one another, junmin smiling.
“you better not ghost me after this is over.” y/n laughed, lightly hitting his shoulder.
“i wouldn’t be able to ghost you if we end up in the group together.”
y/n was standing between junmin and junseo, staring at the stage ahead of her that had the seven out of eight members confirmed for the group. her heart raced in a way that made her feel uneasy. she knew that she ranked as ninth during the last elimination, but was she able to keep that ranking until now.
“i will first announce the four candidates for eighth place.”
y/n watched as her face, alongside kangmin, junseo, and chuei li yu appeared on-screen. she felt junmin pat her back in support, unknowingly making y/n want to cry. she knew how much this mattered to him, so for him to show her support at this moment almost broke her.
as jaejoong took his time announcing their rankings one by one, y/n could feel herself space out. her ears tuning out the noise around her, looking around the event hall and taking in the moment.
“for the first time in survival show history, we have a tie for 8th place between two trainees.” y/n whipped her heard towards jaejoong’s direction.
what did this mean? how would they decide who got to debut then?
everyone screamed in shock, excitement, confusion. y/n turned to junseo next to her whose eyes shook a bit. could the final lineup be nine members?
“the two trainees tied for 8th place are…” y/n could feel herself unconsciously holding her breath, grasping her hands tightly.
“kim junseo…”
the event hall almost fell into silence before he announced the next name.
“l/n y/n.”
screams erupted, but the duo weren’t sure what this meant.
would votes have to be recast? would the planet masters decide?
“we will be having a short break, to discuss with the producers of the show and planet masters.” jaejoong announced.
y/n wanted to scream, her future would be decided based on who knows what. she was scared to look at junseo beside her, not hearing the fans around them chant debut both! debut both!
feeling a bit lightheaded, she sat on the steps behind her. her fellow trainees surrounding the two with words of encouragement and support. the top seven in front of them, not knowing how to react.
“how do you choose between the two?”
“they’re both so talented.”
“this is insane.”
what was supposed to be a short break ended up being a 40-ish minute discussion amongst the producers and planet masters, who walked back to their seats in the crowd with neutral expressions. y/n stood back up as she watched the camera’s red lights begin to switch on.
“we will now be announcing the debuting member.” jaejoong said.
“no…” y/n shook her head, they decided to debut one of us, she thought.
“after careful discussion, it has been decided that…” the dramatic music in the room making y/n want to rip the speakers out of the walls.
“trainee kim junseo…” y/n felt her heart sink, turning to the boy beside her who fell to the floor out fo relief.
“and l/n y/n will both be debuting in the final group.”
“what?” was the only word y/n could say before being bum rushed by the trainees around her who cheered in excitement.
the fans screaming in relief and happiness at the result.
“you did it!”
“so well deserved.”
“go walk up there and prove those haters wrong!”
y/n looked at junseo who was full on crying, her arms held out towards him as the two hugged and cried together.
“congratulations to the two trainees, please come to the front.”
y/n hastily wiped at her eyes, tears continuing to appear as junseo looped their arms together to walk towards the front.
as y/n kept wiping at her tears, she couldn’t help but remember the words written in the letter the fan gave her.
so please don’t be afraid to be vulnerable, because that is your biggest strength. that’s what makes you a sincere artist.
holding her head high, she let the tears fall down her face, her glassy eyes conveying so much emotion. relief, happiness, determination.
once junseo had said his speech, turning to walk up towards the eighth seat, y/n held onto the mic with newfound confidence.
“and now a few words from l/n y/n, how do you feel to make the final group?”
y/n took a good look around the event hall, smile growing at every sign she saw that expressed their support for the girl.
“i feel grateful, no words can express how thankful and excited i am to be here.” she sighed, looking back at the boys behind her. “i want to repay those who have supported me, and will use every day from now on to do so. i ask that you all look after me and the members, i’m sure we’ll show all of you why we deserve your support. please take care of yourselves and get home safely!”
finishing her small speech, she bowed to the crowd. jaejoong motioned for her to walk up the stairs, y/n turning to properly look at the trainees who would now be her members. she smiled brightly, jogging up the stairs and getting bear hugged by leo. the other members coming down to congratulate her.
“guess you’re all stuck with me for a while.” y/n said, the members laughing as confetti fell around them.
l/n y/n, a previous bighit trainee, now a member of alpha drive one.
SHINYOU'S THOUGHTS
a big thank you to everyone who has shown support and read this b2p series. it was something i started on a whim but i'm glad to have written something you all could enjoy ! i do want to write about the reader in ald1 but that will probably be after their debut. i know they have their variety series right now so i might write a blurb about it !
i’m not exaggerating when i say that i check your page every single day to see if there are any updates🫣. No pressure ofc take your time💞
aaa hi anon !
this is so cute 😭🫶 i have a four day weekend so i’m hoping to get some writing done after work today. i’m focusing on getting the b2p series done first before continuing with my other one. i’m excited to write what’s the finale for the b2p series and maybe more in that universe !!
decided to go a different route with writing this part of my b2p series compared to the previous posts. would love to know what can be improved or what you all liked !
“what’s you’re dream for the future y/n?”
y/n laid on the grass, 9-year-old self not wanting to delve into a conversation about hypotheticals.
“why does it matter?” she mumbled, closing her eyes.
“you’re just saying that because you’re scared.” y/n opened one eye, seeing the kid above her teasingly stick their tongue out at her.
y/n huffed, shutting her eye again.
“but it’s ok to be scared, i’m sure you’ll figure it out eventually.”
y/n hadn’t had a dream, really a recollection of memories from her childhood, while she slept in a while. maybe that’s because her childhood was cut short when she started training and she could barely sleep properly.
school, company, home.
school, company, home.
school, company, home.
it was always the same routine for her for a while. something she excused for wanting her dream to come true. having fallen in love with the thought of being an idol when she tagged along with an elementary school friend to a random concert. the presence of those performing on stage making her 10-year-old self feel her heart race in excitement. at that time she didn’t really understand why she felt that way, but she knew it was a feeling she wanted to experience again.
y/n sighed, turning to her clock on her nightstand. the time 08:27 staring back at her as she contemplated getting out of bed.
the day before, she had spent saying goodbye to her fellow trainees as the second elimination happened. her own ranking having gone up by six ranks, finding herself in 13th position.
“trainee l/n y/n continues to capture the hearts of the audience. her latest performance showcasing a more emotional and open side of herself. her unique vocal tone and cadence in the performance, garnering her 1.7 million views in her fancam.”
now, that was no small feat, but y/n held herself to a high standard no matter what. finding herself on a supposed break, going to a nearby rented studio where she’d be able to continue to refine her skills.
y/n felt that she was always a workaholic, unconsciously. finding it hard to take breaks and to truly relax. she felt she always needed something to do, to keep her mind going, especially when she knew an evaluation — or in this case a mission — would be right around the corner.
she didn’t speculate about it for long. after all, she was used to it and a routine was a routine.
y/n sat against one of the studio’s walls, absently playing with the microphone in her hand as she looked for a particular instrumental. y/n hummed to herself, finding peace in being these moments of peace despite the circumstances.
“this one.” she mumbled, clicking play as the instrumental rang out.
instrumental tori kelly — paper hearts
y/n felt herself let out a deep breath, closing her eyes as she lifted the microphone.
pictures i’m living through for now, trying to remember all the good times
opening her eyes, y/n sighed. glancing around the room as the group of trainees under chains seemed to be unable to speak. a mutual understanding of what needs to happen, making the room a bit tense.
“i’m going to be blunt.” y/n started, eyes turned to her. “i want to perform this song, i want to continue to show the best performance that i can.”
some trainees nodded along, others blankly staring ahead, lost in their own thoughts.
“i know they chose each of us to be in this song. i know i can contribute to this performance.” y/n gave a small smile, looking around at the group. “but if it’s determined that other trainees would be better suited for the song, i’m willing to go.”
y/n’s eyes unknowingly shook with anxiousness, trying to gauge the reaction of those around her. she knew that not every trainee believed she deserved to get this far, to have this opportunity. she heard it as they whispered in the hallway or looked at her when they thought she wasn’t paying attention. but she did her best to surround herself by the ones who did support her, whether it was through words of encouragement or small moments.
yet at this moment, surrounded by those she trusted most in this show, she felt distant. wanting to think more logically at this moment. it was silent for some time, everyone feeling on edge because of how close they were to the finale. just one performance was separating those who had the chance to debut or would return to their company’s/trainee lives.
when they were initially split into two groups, y/n found herself being in the vocals position. feeling her confidence grow after the last performance she did. right as she was feeling confident, she was left vulnerable again, not knowing if she’d be able to compete with those around her who seemed to be more favored.
gathering in a room alongside sugar high team, y/n contemplated joining lucky macho’s team. to be honest, she considered that song to be one of her favorites alongside chains. and if she was going to possibly be chosen to leave chains, it would be a performance where she could show off a stronger side of herself.
y/n’s gaze was locked on the tablet, watching the choreo and doing her best to really think about what she could do. while leo was next to her seeming to be in a bigger dilemma than herself, junseo turned and gave her a look. one that said so much yet so little at the same time. y/n just shrugged her shoulder’s outwardly seeming calm yet mind racing beyond belief.
“i think you should stay.” junseo mumbled.
again, the girl just nodded. not being able to produce any words as her nerves were beginning to show. taking in a deep breath, she turned to look at junseo — one of the trainees she was able to grow close to during the show — smiling softly as she patted his shoulder.
“i’ll try.”
finding themselves back in the chains practice room, the group of trainees sat together to redivide the parts of the song.
y/n held onto the lyric sheet in her hand, the words she sang out almost like a mantra.
오직 네게만 묶일 테니
get on my key
not faking it, faking it
“you know y/n, i’ve noticed this about you.”
“what?”
“no matter how you’re feeling, even if something goes wrong, you’re able to hold yourself so strongly.”
“...”
“and i admire that, but don’t be afraid to be vulnerable.”
“vulnerable?”
“the first sub vocal goes to y/n.”
y/n let out a huge sigh of relief, her body folded forward, and her hand was rested over her racing heart.
“thank you! i’ll do my best for this performance.”
unknowingly, her eyes began to water. y/n pretended to wipe at something on her face as they continued dividing parts. sangwon noticed the watery reflection of her eyes, finger reaching out to lightly tap her hand three times.
are you ok?
it was somewhat of a secret signal the duo created from their time starting the program to now. most of the audience didn’t know about how close the two were, having similar personalities and love for literature.
y/n turned to him, tapping his own hand twice.
i’m ok
a bigger smile making its way onto her face to reassure him. it’s the small moments like this that show who really support you.
after their first interim performance in front of the planet masters, y/n awkwardly stood next to jiahao, who was getting consistent praise.
“y/n.” she silently gulped, keeping her arms clutched behind her back. “are you feeling unwell?”
ah, they noticed. y/n bit her lip, beginning to open her mouth to speak, only to start coughing.
“i’m sorry, one moment.” y/n continued to cough, some of her chains members reaching to grab water bottles to hand to her.
“y/n began to have a sore throat yesterday.” lee jeong explained.
y/n nodded solemnly, feeling ashamed for letting herself get this way. “i’m trying to rest my voice as best as i can.”
she noticed the way some planet masters winced as she spoke, her voice sounding hoarse.
“please rest so you’re able to perform well the day of.”
y/n nodded, now playing with the hands she had behind her back.
y/n found herself sitting outside the steps of the all star dorm, arms wrapped around her knees as she looked up at the stars in the sky. they were slightly further out from the main city, making it easier to see the stars in the sky.
they ended practice at around 12 am, most retreating to their rooms for some semblance of peace before tomorrow’s performance. their last chance to prove themselves to the audience before the last elimination before the finale.
y/n could feel someone sit beside her, glancing and seeing xinlong looking up to the sky as well. she had also gotten close to the c-planet trainee through zihao and suren, who always sung praises about the boy.
“shouldn’t you be going to sleep soon?” he asked.
“so you came out here to lecture me about sleep?” y/n asked back, the boy beside her smiling as y/n shook her head, laughing a bit.
silence beginning to take over again, a peaceful quiet between the two.
“xinlong.” “mhm.” “how did you know this was something you wanted to do for your life?”
“always with the philosophical questions y/n.” y/n rolled her eyes, prompting the boy to continue.
“i think the first time i stepped on stage, even at such a young age, i knew this was what i was meant to do. something i couldn’t live without doing.”
y/n felt - surprisingly - at ease. walking on stage with practiced confidence, quickly high-fiving her chains members as she walked to her spot. she knew that this performance wasn’t only for herself, but for the group as a whole. their success as a group was the most important.
hearing the instrumental, y/n quickly moved around the stage. her practiced movements coming to her easily. her first lines causing the audience to scream and gasp at her cadence.
you and me
새벽을 쫓는 twilight
감당할게 난 뭐든
the second pre-chorus allowing her to shine on stage, her figure gliding across the stage. as the performance ended and they made their way backstage, she watched her members in front of her excitedly speak to one another.
y/n’s eyes watering as she felt touched by everyone's support for one another. despite the stressful situation, everyone was looking out for each other and making sure everyone felt confident in what they just did.
y/n let her tears freely fall, not discouraged by them at all. the chains members one by one, realizing she was crying, quickly going to her with looks of worry.
“why are we crying?”
“what happened?”
“are you ok?”
y/n jokingly swiped at their hands, laughing as she wiped the tears off her face. “i’m just really happy. thank you for letting me perform with you all.”
“don’t say things like that, i’ll cry too!” she heard leo call out, the members coming together into a group hug.
posting so you all know i'm still here lol. dealing with major writers block, like i've written and deleted a bunch of drafts that i just wasn't happy or proud of. obviously, i don't want to post anything i don't think you all would enjoy reading, so i'm waiting to have a "eureka!" or lightbulb moment while writing.
y/n was laying across her couch in her new monaco apartment, it being the only thing that wasn’t in a box. she had about a week before their first u.s. grand prix and she just wanted to spend it lazy-ing around her apartment.
but she couldn’t help but grimace at the boxes around her, knowing she needed to at least get started with it all. thinking for a moment, she turned to her desk in the corner of the living room, seeing her pc set up knowing what she could do.
sitting in her desk chair, that she was pretty sure was missing a screw or two, she glanced down at her posted ig story.
watch me unpack in my new apartment, live on twitch!
looking back up, she sees her viewer count rise quickly, quickly waving at the camera.
“hello everyone! thank you for joining me today, i’ll mainly be walking around and unpacking all” scooting her chair over and pointing at all the boxes in the living room. “of these boxes, which, might take a while i fear.”
y/n stands, briefly showing off her comfy fit for the day. she grabs onto a small mic she can clip onto her shirt, explaining she’ll be playing some music while she unpacks.
hitting shuffle on one of her usual playlists, y/n hears checkmate by zerobaseone beginning to play. as she began unpacking one of the boxes on the floor, yapping about some cute cats she saw in the neighborhood. y/n failed to notice her chat beginning to freak out about the song that was playing, more specifically the group it was by.
zb1???
first ateez and now zb1
does this mean she watched boys planet?
could you imagine!! i wonder who she would’ve voted for
i could see her voting for hao
maybe she voted for someone who didn’t make it into zb1
eventually realizing she couldn’t read comments from how far she was from her pc. opening her phone to the twitch app, she laughed a little, forty one winks by txt being the next song to play.
“sorry i’m using my phone now to see chat, but yes i did watch boys planet!”
chat being quick to ask who she voted for.
“it was hard for me to choose who i voted for but i was voting for na kamden.” unwrapping her vases, she continues. “but i honestly love the zb1 lineup and i try to ignore the fact their temporary. i need them to make music forever.”
real!!
wakeone count your days
she’s a zerose raaa
are there any other groups you like?
y/n thinks for a second, putting down the book she was taking out of the new box she opened.
“i like a lot of groups! i’ve been a kpop fan for a while, anyone who knows me from when i was in my karting days would know i was obsessed with shinee and other 2nd or 3rd gen groups at the time.”
y/n gasped, getting up and running around the room, trying to find a specific box. ripping it open, she digs through and pulls a small object out, before rushing back to her pc to show her viewers.
“speaking of shinee, look what i have!” she holds out shinee’s first mini album, excitedly showing it to her viewers. “this was gifted to me by a friend when i transitioned from karting to f4. it’s an album i keep close to my heart since shinee was my first kpop group, they mean a lot to me.”
continuing to go through her boxes and vibing to the music playing, her living room area began to take shape. her junior category trophies on one wall, with another wall having shelves with a variety of kpop albums and md. placing her ateez signed album right in the center, she turned to the camera sighing in relief.
“well we got most of the boxes opened and organized! so i’ll probably end the stream here so i can eat and go to bed.” y/n watched everyone in the chat tell her to have a nice night.
“maybe i can convince max to join me for a stream, to play something other than sim racing.”
maxverstappen1: it’s either sim racing or nothing
y/n laughed at max’s comment. “hey! we could play mario party or something, let p join us too.”
maxverstappen1: the two of you would team up against me…
“that’s exactly the point!”
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user1 the vibes in the apartment are immaculate
user2 using this for deco inspo
maxverstappen1 that score is inaccurate, i demand a rematch
⤷ y/nl/n ok sore loser 🤣
⤷ maxverstappen1 i know where you live
⤷ y/nl/n ok and ?
⤷ maxverstappen1 i know where you keep your signed ateez polaroid
⤷ y/nl/n gasp you wouldn’t dare…
⤷ maxverstappen1 😊
user3 not max threatening her ateez pola’s
user4 y/n’s about to put her pola’s under lock and key
⤷ user5 i’d put a laser trap around it, max is too crafty to leave anything to chance
isackhadjar so… rookie house party after the miami gp at y/n’s?
⤷ olliebearman absolutely
⤷ kimi.antonelli i’ll bring pastries!
⤷ gabrielbortoleto_ i’ll bring something 👍
⤷ jackdoohan i think i have a few ice cream pints i can bring
⤷ y/nl/n so were y’all just planning to show up and not let me know??
⤷ liamlawson30 would you have left us outside your door
⤷ y/nl/n not if you’re bringing the good food 😋
the flight to miami
y/n sat in lando’s private jet, having been offered to join his flight alongside oscar and carlos. the four were sat together after y/n pulled out her uno no mercy card’s, challenging the three to a “quick” uno match.
“i’ll let you know i’m quiet the uno player.” lando said from across her, looking at the cards in his hand. “so watch out.”
y/n laughed, “we’ll see.”
cue them a few rounds later being stuck in a +2/4/6 pass onto the next person loop.
“there’s no way you have another- wha” cutting oscar off and slamming a +4 down making carlos laugh so hard he was out of breath.
“you’re done for piastri!” lando having the biggest smile on his face before he watched oscar place down a +(blank), meaning oscar could decide how much he would need to pick up.
“i won’t be too mean to you, add on an extra 10 cards will you?”
at this point, y/n and carlos were losing their minds, laughing so hard they were slamming their hands against the table. lando was left speechless, dramatically grabbing the 30+ cards.
“so much for being a good uno player.” y/n said, oscar nudging lando who had a unserious frown on his face.
“remind me to never play uno with you guys every again.”
day before the main race
qualifying p2 in miami was unreal, being able to give RBR a front row lockout was an insane moment. y/n remembers getting out of the car and being brought into a group hug by some of her fellow rookies. it was an insane experience that y/n didn’t know could get any better.
she sat in her hotel room, wearing her “lucky” pj’s and watching her favorite show with some dessert to calm herself before trying to fall asleep.
“tomorrow’s a good chance for my first podium.” y/n turned to look out her hotel window, the bright lights of downtown miami exciting her. “you know what, i’m getting that podium.”
once the three red lights went out, y/n immediately peeled away. somehow being able to get ahead of max who was busy fighting the two mclaren’s behind him.y/n’s breath almost stilled, realizing she was the current lead of the race.
“max .9 behind, let’s widen the gap.”
oh? y/n realized what this meant, they were letting her go for it.
and that she did, doing her best to widen the gap to the cars behind her, her car nearly hitting the wall at every turn. she was pushing the car to its limit, ignoring the way her engineer’s voice trembled a bit when she’d brush the concrete walls.
“one lap left, bring it home.”
y/n feels almost weightless as she passes the finish line, seeing the rbr team hanging off of the fences as they cheered her on.
“and that’s p1! that’s how you win your first grand prix in your rookie year!”
y/n laughed in disbelief, eyes tearing up as she began to realize what she’d accomplished.
“oh wow… you guys.. this is crazy! thank you everyone, today’s race was perfect.” peeling her car in parc ferme, in front of the p1 sign she felt one tear fall.
“this was for the girls watching here, at home, defying the odds. you belong, where you are, you! belong!”
jumping out of her car and running towards her team, y/n continued crying under her helmet. feeling grateful that she was still wearing it and everyone couldn’t see her “ugly” crying.
the feeling she got when raising her first place trophy was insane. smiling brightly and feeling overwhelmed as her national anthem played, she glanced around and made eye contact with a young girl who seemed to be screaming her head off. the young girl wearing a cap with y/n’s racing number on it, y/n wanting to laugh at the sight. these were the moments she’d remember for the rest of her life.
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y/nl/n what an insane weekend.
truly grateful to have the opportunity’s that i have. this win’s not just for me, but for everyone who felt they didn’t belong. thank you rbr for the amazing car this weekend, for everyone’s efforts during the race, and to my lucky pajamas (half joking).
let’s keep this energy going into the imola race !
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maxverstappen1 i teared up a little… just a little
⤷ y/nl/n i knew you were a softie
⤷ maxverstappen you continue to slander my name
⤷ y/nl/n love you too bro
isackhadjar we’re most definitely partying at your place now
⤷ kimi.antonelli we can celebrate both of our podiums!
⤷ olliebearman you can’t deny kimi of his celebration
⤷ y/nl/n i hate you guys… you know i can’t say no to kimi that’s my son
⤷ gabrielbortoleto_ you’re only 3 years older…
⤷ y/nl/n ok and ??? i said that’s my son 🗣
⤷ jackdoohan you tell him !!
⤷ liamlawson30 what’s going on
user1 when do you think she’ll notice enha commented
user2 it’s hyung line for txt using their personal ig’s to comment for me
page.soobin that was such a cool race !! you we’re so cool, congratulations !!
⤷ y/nl/n omg !! thank you so much, i’m glad you enjoyed the race 😋
yawnzzn i’ll continue to tune in to more races in the future, congrats on the 1st win 😋
⤷ y/nl/n thank you !! hopefully the first win of many in my career !
bamgyuuuu please invite me, i can give you concert tickets in exchange 🤲
⤷ y/nl/n you drive a hard bargain… but maybe we can strike a deal 🫡
txt_bighit if you invite him please invite us as well !!
⤷ txt_bighit this is kai and taehyun by the way…
⤷ y/nl/n of course !! literally talking (begging) the team to get you all to a race
enhypen congratulations y/n ! way to bring the win home for rbr and winning a race in your rookie season. you’re so cool !! 🥹 - jay
⤷ y/nl/n thank you for the support !! blasting outside as we speak 📣
y/n sat in her dorm room, being moved during the 1 vs. 1 class battle into a single room that could barely fit her bed. truthfully it was probably a closet they decided to make last minute into a room for her once they realized they miscalculated the amount of beds they had for all the trainees once they were combined. so y/n was stuck with a last minute attempt of a room where her mattress was on the floor and her bathroom was down a hall with one lightbulb that barely worked.
she could hear a knock on her door, bringing her out of her thoughts on tomorrow's elimination. she hoped it wasn’t the staff coming to annoy her to film some social media content she knew she was too tired to do.
“y/n!” opening the door, she caught suren, who rushed through the door and excitedly jumped into her arms.
y/n huffed, lightly patting the boy on the back as if he was a toddler. “i feel like i’ve become an older sister on this show with the way you all treat me.”
behind suren, zihao laughed. wiggling his eyebrows at y/n as the girl sighed dramatically, opening her arms to embrace the boy as well. outside of planet k she was slowly becoming acquainted with planet c trainees who were quickly becoming attached to the girl. maybe it was her caring nature or her (almost daily) snack nights that made her popular. y/n was becoming the most social she had ever been in her life during boys 2 planet, but she was embracing it!
“we’re thinking of going out to eat. the staff are letting us eave for a bit! wanna join us?” suren asked, both him and zihao clutching their hands together dramatically.
“well, i need something to distract me from the inevitable. lets go.”
the trio were sat near a river by the training facility, talking about whatever while eating some takeout they got on the way.
“how do you think it’ll go tomorrow?” y/n asked.
“i thought we were going to ignore that subject.” suren said, grabbing some tteokbokki they got.
“i mean, yeah but, i can’t help but think about it. even if i don’t want to.” y/n grumbled, stuffing her mouth with dumplings. “this whole program is based on if people like me. what if they think i’m just meh, or that i’m not meant to be on this show. or-”
“why do you do that? always expect something to go wrong?” zihao asked, looking the girl in the eye. “everyone knows how talented you are, you’re deserving of great things.”
y/n smiled solemnly, “it’s just how i am. i blame it on being so close yet having the opportunity taken from you. leaves you questioning hope or anything close to it.”
y/n stood watching the trainees around her being called, fidgeting with her jacket sleeve. she wasn’t sure where she’d place if she was being honest. sure she had a good score for the 1 vs. 1 mission, but that didn’t mean her ranking would reflect the same.
"19th place,” ong seongwoo started, glancing around the room.
trainees shocked at the sudden jump from 38th place to 19th.
“this trainee has been a popular topic from the beginning of the show.”
“that could literally be anyone." y/n mumbled candidly, making those around her laugh.
"and they are known as the late night snack rabbit." everyone immediately turned to y/n, who tried to not burst out laughing.
"trainee y/n l/n." she could feel her fellow team members pat her shoulder's as she shook her head in disbelief.
"really? the late night snack rabbit?" she asked, making her way to stand next to yechan who congratulated her quietly.
"y/n, how does it feel to rank 19th in the first elimination?" seongwoo asked.
holding the mic, y/n couldn't help but smile. "i'd be lying if i didn't say i was happy."
looking at her rising sun members who cheered her on throughout the mission, she felt her heart swell with greatfullness. "but i was able to reach this rank because of the support from each of my members. thank you to every single one of you, who i'm hoping to see in the next round. i'll be waiting for you all here, so hurry up and join me!"
ending her little speech, y/n climbed the stairs. in a bit of disbelief as she sat in the 19th seat. turning to see the 8 debut spots, she began to feel determined.
that's where i'll be soon.
once all the trainees were announced, y/n sped down the stairs. almost tackling andrew as they hugged eachother.
"you putting on the most iconic performance and not getting into the next round is a crime." y/n said, beginning to tear up. "i swear i can sneak you back into the building"
andrew laughed, hugging her tightly as he began tearing up too. "they didn't deserve my soul i guess."
the two laughed before letting go, y/n making her way to dongheon. he quickly spotted the girl, smiling at her brightly making her want to cry even more.
"i promise it's ok, i'm just happy most of our team made it." he said, wrapping his arm around her.
"i hate this show." y/n mumbled, hoping a camera wasn't catching her crying.
dongheon seemed to catch on, shielding the girl from the cameras around. "cry all you want ok?"
the moment was both pure and sad, having to say goodbye for the moment to those who worked just as hard to have this opportunity. even a temporary goodbye still hurts.
a new day, a new mission.
the group of trainees watched as the big tarp fell, revealing all the songs they would have the opportunity to perform.
y/n's eyes wandered, thinking of what she wanted to do this time around. her first performance really focused on what she felt she excelled in, rap and dance. so she really had two choices. go for something she excelled in or try something new to challenge herself.
well, y/n did like a challenge.
y/n looked at all of the options, her eyes consistently going back to one song. truthfully, it was a song she felt comforted by, the lyrics giving her comfort throughout her trainee years. she felt she could portray her emotions through the song really well.
in the moment, she felt greatful to be an all star. this time not having to appeal to a team to join.
"number 19, y/n l/n, please proceed with choosing." jo yuri said.
y/n made her way to the middle, glancing around at the teams formed so far. behind her, the trainees mumbled on what they thought she'd choose. most saying she'd go for dance to showcase her skills, or rap to showcase a tougher side of herself.
but again, y/n's eyes wandered back to that one vocal song. she walked towards like jennie, making the trainees ahead of her scream before she took a sharp right, waving goodbye to them as she slotted herself in the 3rd all star spot for breathe by lee hi.
she stood next to kangmin, whose eyes were wide with surprise. anxin also looked at her in surprise, y/n calmly rocking on her feet.
"i knew that if i wanted to reach the top 8, i would need to show the star creators a new performance. a new side of me they only got a glimpse of during my first performance."
their group was eventually finalized with gyehyeon, y/n knowing she'd have to do her best to match the amazing vocalists in her team.
once they elected their leader and killing part, the rest of the part distribution and auditioning started. y/n felt she should just go for it rather than letting herself be assigned with whatever parts were left. that's how the first mission ended up going for her, which she felt a bit regretful of.
she raised her hand, trying to get the attention of the other three.
"there's some part's i am interested in singing. if it's ok, i would like to audition for those part's and you all can let me know if i seem fit for it?" y/n suggested, crossing her fingers in hope
"sure." "that's ok with me."
y/n smiled, warming up her voice. "if there's also anywhere i can improve, please let me know!"
as she began singing, it was almost as if the whole room had quieted down. surprised at the gentleness her voice held. every emotion she wanted to express, coming through, making the listener understand the sincerity behind the words.
as she finished, she could see the three stare at her with what seemed like excitement.
"was that good?" y/n asked, hoping everyone wasn't silent because it was horrible.
"i think our performance will be perfect." kangmin said, smiling brightly at the girl.
y/n sighed, realizing they placed last after the interim evaluation. she could hear her teammates’ shock at the result. kangmin having placed first and anxin placing last amongst the four. her feedback from the masters was that it almost felt safe for her, making y/n question if she was giving enough. they really wanted her to push her vocal’s to impact the audience.
the atmosphere of the team in the practice room was tense. after the vocal training with baekho and onestar, y/n felt somewhat defeated. did she make the right choice? should she have just chosen to do something she was already strong in?
walking on stage, y/n did her best to walk with confidence. determined to show the star creators a new side of herself, one she felt was needed for them to get to know the real her.
after the interim evaluation, they were able to talk as a team about how they were feeling. feelings of doubt and sadness being fuel for them to express themselves through this song.
the song started, y/n holding onto her microphone as she started the song.
숨을 크게 쉬어봐요 당신의 가슴 양쪽이 저리게, 조금은 아파올 때까지
her deeper tone giving everyone chills.
당신의 한숨 그 깊일 이해할 순 없겠지만, 괜찮아요 내가 안아줄게요
her voice reverberating throughout the room. harmonizing her high note with anxin before the bridge, making the audience scream. feeling herself get emotional as she heard gyehyeon’s voice break slightly. this performance, and every performance they do meant something to these trainees, for every trainee.
괜찮아요 내가 안아줄게요
y/n could only hope her emotions were felt as she delivered her last line in the song.
y/n didn’t expect to walk into the trainee waiting room to see a few trainees wiping their tears. greatful that they were able to feel touched by the performance their team gave.
sitting in front of the screen, y/n felt happy. no matter how she placed, she felt proud of the performance the team gave. watching the scores of her teammates appear, the staff of course left y/n’s score to be last.
“my teammates were amazing.” the interview camera catching the twitch of a smile on the girls face. “my goal is to debut. not only for myself but for those who have supported me on this path. so, a good result would help me reach that chance to debut.”
L/N Y/N 1330
y/n gasped, body falling forward as she could hear the trainees around her applaud the result.
“they tied!”
“has that ever happened before?”
she could see the all star’s next to her name, giving her some sense of security. she thanked her teammates for their hard work, seeing kangmin blankly stare at the screen. she knew that more than anything, he wanted a good result after the criticism he received in the interim evaluation.
“you can only be happy for so long for your own result, because your good result may not be the same for someone else.”
