OMG IVE JUST FOUND OUT THAT YOUR WRITING FOR BP2 🤩 can you do leo with the most nastiest blow pls pls he's so fine i might faint
a/n: hihi,, sorry for not posting anything for a while, I'm still gonna be irregular these days. but I hope y'all enjoy this and as always,, please reblog, comment and leave asks mwah
You’re already on your knees, lips parted, chest pressed to his thighs, heart hammering in your chest like a warning you don’t want to heed. His cock is slick and hot against your lips, hard and pulsing, and he’s staring down at you with that dark, cocky look that always makes your chest clench. “God… look at you,” he murmurs, low and sharp, one hand curling possessively in your hair, the other resting lazily on your shoulder. “Already trembling, already desperate. You want all of me, don’t you?”
“Yes…” you whisper, voice shaking, swallowing around him before you even realize he’s there. Your tongue flicks over the tip, teasing, tasting, and he groans, hips jerking against your mouth. “God… such a needy little thing,” he mutters, sliding the tip against your lips again. Then he pushes, sliding inside in one controlled, deep thrust, and your eyes water instantly, gag reflex flaring. “Mm… good girl,” he pants, low, almost cruel, tugging at your hair to hold your head in place. “Take all of me, all the way down.”
You obey, swallowing him down greedily, your lips slick, tongue rolling over the sensitive underside, and his groans grow desperate, rougher, rawer. “Oh, shit… you feel so good… so warm… tight like this… I-mm, I can’t…” His hips snap forward erratically, and you gag slightly, wetness dripping down your throat, but he doesn’t let up, cock sliding deeper with every frantic thrust. “God… my chest is killing me just watching you… and doing this…”
“Leo… please…” you whimper around him, hands gripping his thighs, nails digging into the tense muscles, desperate for some grounding as he fucks your throat relentlessly. “I need-”
“You need me? Baby, you’re pathetic,” he mutters, voice low, cocky, harsh. “Look at you, choking and trembling for me, lips and tongue just… mine. You think I’m going to be gentle?” His hips slam forward again, deep and punishing, and you moan around him, gagging, dripping with saliva and precum. “No… you’re going to learn just how messy you are for me.”
By now, he’s breathing hard, desperate, needy in a way that makes your pussy pulse even more, heart aching because you’re so in love with him and he knows it. “God… can’t… I’m going to-ohhh, right here… right now-” His hands tighten in your hair, tugging you flush against his cock as he hammers into your throat, and you choke, gag, swallow, keeping up with him as best you can, tasting him fully. “Ah… Jesus… so messy… you’re making me lose my mind.”
And then he cums, hips snapping violently as he buries himself deep in your throat, spilling hot, sticky ropes that coat the inside of your mouth, some dripping down onto your chin and slicking your chest. He moans your name, body trembling with overstimulation, cock pulsing as he comes again and again, greedy, sloppy, loud.
Leo pulls back just enough to stare down at you, chest heaving, eyes dark and wicked. “Look at you… dripping, gagging… little slut for me,” he growls, voice low and possessive. Then, almost lazily, he pushes you back against the couch, chest brushing yours, and drags his tongue along the slick, sticky mess coating your tits. “God… taste yourself, taste me,” he murmurs, sucking hard on a nipple, flicking and licking, letting you moan and shiver under him. “You taste just like me… and you like it, don’t you? You love it.”
You whimper, hands tangling in his hair, body shaking, heart splitting because he’s using every bit of your affection and trust against you. “Y-yes… I… I love it…” you breathe, breath hitching, hips pressing instinctively toward him even though your mind screams not to give in.
“Of course you do,” he growls, still licking, sucking, fingers tracing lazy circles over your bare skin. “I know you do. You love being mine… don’t lie. And I love that I can make you this wet, this needy, just with my cock and my mouth.” He flicks a tongue across your nipple again, then drags it down over the cum-slicked skin, making you shiver violently. “You’re so pathetic for loving this. I can see it in your eyes… every gasp, every moan, every pulse of your cunt…”
He drags you upright, holding your hair and your gaze locked to his as he presses his lips against the mess on your tits again, tongue swirling, sucking, and you’re trembling, moaning, completely undone. “Yeah… that’s it… ” he murmurs, cock throbbing again even after coming, needy and demanding. “You love this. You love being ruined by me.”
You whimper, chest heaving, completely broken and dripping, heart aching in all the wrong ways because you love him, and he knows it, and he’s taking full advantage, turning your devotion into this filthy, messy, intimate domination that leaves you gasping and pulsing under him.
anything in bold = something being said in the interview room(s)
divider by @/cursed-carmine
now that they survived the first mission, they'd be facing the 1 vs. 1 class mission. y/n was excited to start what would be her first impression — besides the signal song — towards star creators.
"before we give you the first mission, we have something important to tell you." ong seongwoo, their first guest planet master, said.
"oh great." y/n said, already having an inkling of what it could be.
"revealing it now." y/n watched the big white sheet fall, revealing the planet c trainees who she assumed they would now be competing with.
turning to park dong gyu, who stood next to her, both had wide eyes. she recognized a few, some she'd seen on the previous season, other survival shows, or debuted groups.
"well shit just got real." dong gyu doubling over in laughter at y/n cursing.
"we have mics!" "oh shit i forgot." "y/n!"
y/n found herself with the number 11 on her name tag, standing between one of her current dormmates and dong gyu — a friend she made once they both met in the all star class. she patted the space the number was placed on her name tag, feeling grateful to be ranked highly amongst the 80 trainees. glancing at the top 8 around her, she promised herself she'd make that her goal. to continue to improve and make it into the top 8 in the future.
once the songs were revealed, she turned to junseo. "which one do you think you're aiming for?"
"whiplash maybe? i think it could be a cool arrangement." he gauged her reaction, y/n simply nodding along with her lips pursed in thought. "what about you?"
she sighed. "probably not whiplash, i don't think it'll help me show a new side of myself to the viewers."
maybe s-class? but what if no one chooses me and i get stuck with a song that could ruin my chances?
putting her hands over her face, y/n wanted to scream. "i'm already stressed."
"what happened to being excited?" dong gyu nudged her, making y/n playfully role her eyes.
"and lastly, before we begin choosing teams. for the moment, you will not be able to elect trainee l/n y/n onto your team." seongwoo said, making everyone look at her in confusion.
"well what does that mean?" y/n mumbled.
"i will further explain once teams are formed and songs are chosen."
y/n watched her fellow trainees form their teams, feeling anxious standing by herself. teetering back and forth on her feet, realizing yumeki's team was probably the strongest team amongst all. but once she watched them choose whiplash, she knew it wouldn't be wise to possibly join that team.
another team she thought was strong was rising sun team one. they had strong dancers and vocalists, including those who debuted before joining the show.
"and now, for trainee l/n y/n." y/n let out a breath she was unconsciously holding.
"teams will be able to decide if they would like her to join their team. those teams leaders will step forward and y/n will get to choose which she would like to join if more than one leader steps forward."
y/n was surprised, not expecting the show to give her the liberty of choosing. but of course she wouldn't be able to choose any team she wanted. she watched the groups discuss amongst themselves, some shaking their heads or trying to sneakily glance at y/n.
"if you would like to elect trainee l/n y/n to your team please step forward."
y/n watched as one team leader stepped up, sun hengyu. she was shocked that hengyu stepped forward, really only having spent time with junil amongst the rising sun team. she was grateful anyone stepped forward, understanding she still had to prove herself to everyone and this performance could be the opportunity to do so.
"please join your team." y/n jogged over, quickly greeting everyone, whispering a thank you to hengyu who smiled.
once their leader was decided, parts distribution began as they all sat on the end of the white platform, dressed in oversized green button ups.
"since some of us know the song and some of us don't, shall we listen to the song?" dongheon, who they all elected as leader, asked.
"sure." "ok."
y/n held onto her lyric sheets, eyes widening as she heard the multiple high notes this song would have. sure, she's heard this song before, but she forgot just how vocally demanding this song was.
she could see the main vocal had around 41 seconds of the song, not including the killing part which was likely to be sung by the main vocal. and she'd be lying if she said she didn't want the part.
"the most important, the main vocalist." dongheon looked around at the group. "who wants to give it a try?"
"honestly, it was something i wanted to try."
the editor's hand zoom into y/n's hand that subtly raised before dropping it down after seeing hengyu across from her raise his hand.
"i heard from other trainees that hengyu was an amazing vocalist sighing but i do wish i was a bit more confident in the moment to at least try."
hengyu nodded his head, clearing his throat before belting out the killing part. everyone in the group clapping, y/n clapping with her mouth open in awe .
"i could only think 'wow, that's how a main vocalist should sound'."
"ok let's decide on the other parts then?"
y/n ended up getting assigned sub rapper 3, finding the part she got to be around 10 seconds not including the parts they sang together.
y/n felt a bit conflicted, they were practicing a lot. which was expected, as everyone wanted to put on a great performance so they could win the benefit. but no one expected for their main vocal to begin losing his voice because of the intense practice. the group sat together in the the practice room, luckily having it to themselves as they contemplated what to do.
"after speaking with hengyu, we've decided to give a line of his part to another person." dongheon started, hengyu humming in agreement. "does anyone want to try this part?"
"in that moment i thought 'i can't let this opportunity go' i wanted to be confident in that moment."
y/n held her hand up, surprising her teammates as she was the only one holding her hand up.
"i'd like to try."
"i know that it's unfortunate hengyu was losing his voice but if this opportunity allows me to help the team win, i was ready to at least try."
y/n stood, doing some lip trills and breathing. sure it wasn't a really high note, but her voice had to be stable to a 9 second vocal run.
do you know why~
after she finished she stood awkwardly, waiting for someone to say something. after a moment of silence, they all started hyping her up.
"are you sure you're just a rapper?"
"that was so clean!"
"that vocal run ate and left no crumbs."
y/n could feel her ears grow hot, not expecting such nice compliments from everyone.
"y/n, that was amazing, really." she heard hengyu say, who was giving her a bright smile despite his condition. "now if you can do exactly that on stage we're winning."
the trainees were buzzing after the first rising sun performance, already anticipating the next.
"apparently they gave some of hengyu's lines to another trainee."
"oh, y/n got that one part?"
"she's not a sub vocal though? she's a sub rapper right?"
"well let's see how she does."
the judges were also anticipating this performance, hoping everyone would do well despite the circumstances. as the stage lights dimmed, y/n took in a deep breath. trying to ground herself as she heard the crowds cheers.
the instrumental began, y/n flying across the stage as her rap section was coming up.
내 갈 길이 101 깨달음에 깨달음에
도달할 수가 없는 게 현실인걸
getting through it, she did her best to now exhaust herself before her vocal run. wonjun was finishing his verse, sliding in front of him, y/n held the mic to ground her.
do you know why?
she could feel junil place his hand on her shoulder as she finished, moving into position for the dance break. getting to the end of the song, they all posed for a few moments, y/n doing her best to catch her breath.
as they moved backstage, y/n could hear someone from the crowd yell l/n y/n you're insane!!, making her release a mix of a laugh and sigh of relief.
everyone backstage was applauding each others efforts, feeling proud of their performance despite small mistakes.
"hengyu, you really pulled through in the end!" y/n said, lightly patting his shoulder.
"thank you, i was losing my voice towards the end so i was nervous." patting y/n on the shoulder as well. "and your vocal run was great too! are you sure you want to try and become the main vocal in the future?"
y/n just shrugged and jokingly said, "so you consider me competition?"
the two laughing before making their way to the waiting room with all of the other trainees.
sitting together and anxiously waiting for their scores, y/n sat between dongheon and junil.
to be fair, the producer's had decided that rising sun team 2's average score would be doubled and added to the total score as rising sun team 1 had an extra member. y/n was really hoping her score would benefit the team, otherwise they'd lose the opportunity to gain a valuable benefit.
they all watched the scores be released one by one, y/n's being the last one. at this point, rising sun team 1 was consistently above 100 points and were seen as the likely winners.
132 L/N Y/N
"what?!" y/n screamed, honestly not expecting to receive so many votes.
"let's go!"
"we did that!"
her team quickly hugging each other as rising sun team 1 win was shown on the screen. as they made their way towards the back of the room, she could see the other rising sun team discouraged. she couldn't help but feel her heart break.
making her way over she could see a few of them begin crying, immediately going to a staff member to ask for tissues. bringing them over she stood in front of yechan, handing him a few.
kneeling to be more on his eye level, she couldn't help but feel herself get emotional. she knew him a bit, having interacted with him during the signal song mission when she'd pop into the all star practice room.
"oh yechan." she started, her eyes watering up. "i hope you know you did great, your whole team did."
he wiped his eyes, looking at her as he sniffled. "maybe if i had done better we could've won."
y/n playfully ruffled his hair, "no if's ok? like i said, your performance was great. honestly, after watching you all i was nervous. you all had done so well i wanted to do the same."
his crying eventually calmed down, y/n smiled. "you and i both know how talented you are. no matter what anyone says, you deserve to be here and you did the best that you could."
"it's hard to be happy in the moment and not feel disheartened watching the hard work your fellow trainees put into the performance reflected through votes." y/n solemnly smiled. "i want the best for everyone, even if we're all supposed to be competitors."
BEHIND THE SCENES
"everyone! everyone, take a seat!" y/n ran into the shared practice room, ushering all the trainees to sit in a big circle.
it was already late into the night, most if not all of the staff having gone to sleep. so y/n thought of this as a perfect opportunity to continue her snack night legacy.
"let's take a little break and relax." dumping some snacks she brought from her dorm into the middle of the circle. "but let's make sure the staff don't find out."
everyone cheered, beginning to share snacks amongst themselves and for a moment forgetting about the pressure cooker of a show they were currently on.
warning(s): none but if i missed any let me know !
y/n could feel the car begin to slow, opening her eyes and seeing the mnet building with camera crews waiting outside to film her getting out of the car. once the car stops, she sighs, reaching to take off her headphones.
exiting the car, she quickly greets the staff and thanks her company's staff for bringing her here. dragging her luggage behind her, she tries to put on a smile to ease her nerves.
"i guess this is it."
leaving her luggage with staff inside the building, y/n walked down towards the waiting room they allocated her to. glancing down at her outfit, she hoped stains didn't magically appear and ruin it.
slowly opening the door, she noticed no one else was inside. probably the staff's doing if anything. she knew she wasn't known to the other trainees on the show, so the longer they could keep her participation a secret the better reactions they'd get during filming.
"might as well make the most of this." she mumbled, pulling out her mp3 player — the only thing they let her keep — and began playing the song she'd perform later during the star level test.
y/n was a trainee under bighit entertainment for the past five years. having put her whole heart and soul into those years, eventually making the debut lineup for what was going to be bighit's new group.
she would admit she felt relief in those months she spent with who she thought were going to be her fellow members. maybe she should've listened to those before her: "until you're performing on stage for your fans, you could be taken out from the lineup any day."
but the staff around her and even her (ex) members had reassured her that she would stay in the lineup, that her addition to this group was perfect and needed. and those same people had to tell her the news that she would not be debuting as she once thought.
y/n remembers sitting with her (ex) members in an empty practice room, each one telling her how they hadn't known and truly thought the six of them would debut together.
and she didn't doubt that, not after watching them tear up — cry even — as they were told she wouldn't be debuting alongside them. their voices cracking as they told the staff this wasn't fair, but the decision wasn't theirs to make.
y/n remembers them surprising her with all her favorite drinks and snacks. saying they would have to continue their weekly snack parties, no matter what.
that same day, y/n telling them she'd gotten this new opportunity. she wasn't sure about it, but she knew it wouldn't hurt to try.
and now y/n stood behind the stage entrance, having watched every k-planet trainee’s stages from the small waiting room she was in. mentally preparing herself to now perform in front of them all and the planet masters.
"and we have one final trainee performing. let's give them a big round of applause!"
the trainees looked around, having thought to themselves that everyone had already performed. thinking to themselves: "huh, maybe i forgot someone?"
y/n walked down the hall, the bright lights of the sound stage making her squint a little.
what was cheers and applause for their fellow trainee, quieted down as she made her way onto the small stage. making brief eye contact with stunned and confused trainees.
standing in the middle, she gave a small smile. her hand gripping the microphone to bring her comfort, if it could give her any.
"as you all can see, our last trainee performing for today is a special addition to the show. can you introduce yourself?"
bringing the mic up, y/n let out a breath. "hello, my name is y/n l/n and i've been a trainee for the past five years."
"it says here you trained under bighit?" one judge asks.
y/n slowly nods, a bitter smile making its way to her face. "yes."
"she made the debut lineup as well?" another mumbles.
"but she was apparently removed from it, even after recording and filming for it." another says.
"it was a time i am grateful for, but i have this new opportunity that i want to put my all towards." y/n says, wanting to move onto her performance.
"whenever you're ready you can begin."
getting into the starting position, she could hear a trainee timidly call out — fighting! — others quickly falling suit. y/n feeling grateful for the small gesture.
the piano chords for seventeen’s maestro begin playing, y/n quickly following the beat with choreography.
[feel free to see the song arrangement with the video]
once y/n finished the last bit of choreo, she could feel her heart racing. was it enough? did she prove herself?
it was quiet after the music faded out, trainees beginning to cheer loudly soon after. the judges applauding once it was over, some showing excitement and shock on their faces.
kany picked up her mic, smiling brightly at y/n who was doing her best to catch her breath.
"that was amazing, you showed great use of power when needed. i'm really looking forward to how you do as the show goes on."
y/n nodded quickly, bringing the mic up to her mouth. "i'll make sure to make you proud."
kany giving her two thumbs up, making y/n smile softly.
"we'll discuss and let you know your class level."
hearing the compliments from the judges and her fellow trainees gave her hope, but y/n knew better than to hang onto that hope. until it was a concrete fact, she would continue to feel nervous.
looking up at the large group of trainee's, she saw some of them giving her big smiles, thumbs up, or hearts. making her feel grateful for the support in that moment.
"trainee y/n l/n's class is..."
POST WRITING THOUGHTS
there will be more interactions with trainees as we progress onto the first mission aka the signal song test. i'll be updating / posting every two weeks since i've started working full time and find myself tired after working every day, so two weeks gives me time to rest from work and slowly work on this series + other's ₍ᐢ. .ᐢ₎
decided to go a different route with writing this part of my b2p series compared to the previous posts. would love to know what can be improved or what you all liked !
“what’s you’re dream for the future y/n?”
y/n laid on the grass, 9-year-old self not wanting to delve into a conversation about hypotheticals.
“why does it matter?” she mumbled, closing her eyes.
“you’re just saying that because you’re scared.” y/n opened one eye, seeing the kid above her teasingly stick their tongue out at her.
y/n huffed, shutting her eye again.
“but it’s ok to be scared, i’m sure you’ll figure it out eventually.”
y/n hadn’t had a dream, really a recollection of memories from her childhood, while she slept in a while. maybe that’s because her childhood was cut short when she started training and she could barely sleep properly.
school, company, home.
school, company, home.
school, company, home.
it was always the same routine for her for a while. something she excused for wanting her dream to come true. having fallen in love with the thought of being an idol when she tagged along with an elementary school friend to a random concert. the presence of those performing on stage making her 10-year-old self feel her heart race in excitement. at that time she didn’t really understand why she felt that way, but she knew it was a feeling she wanted to experience again.
y/n sighed, turning to her clock on her nightstand. the time 08:27 staring back at her as she contemplated getting out of bed.
the day before, she had spent saying goodbye to her fellow trainees as the second elimination happened. her own ranking having gone up by six ranks, finding herself in 13th position.
“trainee l/n y/n continues to capture the hearts of the audience. her latest performance showcasing a more emotional and open side of herself. her unique vocal tone and cadence in the performance, garnering her 1.7 million views in her fancam.”
now, that was no small feat, but y/n held herself to a high standard no matter what. finding herself on a supposed break, going to a nearby rented studio where she’d be able to continue to refine her skills.
y/n felt that she was always a workaholic, unconsciously. finding it hard to take breaks and to truly relax. she felt she always needed something to do, to keep her mind going, especially when she knew an evaluation — or in this case a mission — would be right around the corner.
she didn’t speculate about it for long. after all, she was used to it and a routine was a routine.
y/n sat against one of the studio’s walls, absently playing with the microphone in her hand as she looked for a particular instrumental. y/n hummed to herself, finding peace in being these moments of peace despite the circumstances.
“this one.” she mumbled, clicking play as the instrumental rang out.
instrumental tori kelly — paper hearts
y/n felt herself let out a deep breath, closing her eyes as she lifted the microphone.
pictures i’m living through for now, trying to remember all the good times
opening her eyes, y/n sighed. glancing around the room as the group of trainees under chains seemed to be unable to speak. a mutual understanding of what needs to happen, making the room a bit tense.
“i’m going to be blunt.” y/n started, eyes turned to her. “i want to perform this song, i want to continue to show the best performance that i can.”
some trainees nodded along, others blankly staring ahead, lost in their own thoughts.
“i know they chose each of us to be in this song. i know i can contribute to this performance.” y/n gave a small smile, looking around at the group. “but if it’s determined that other trainees would be better suited for the song, i’m willing to go.”
y/n’s eyes unknowingly shook with anxiousness, trying to gauge the reaction of those around her. she knew that not every trainee believed she deserved to get this far, to have this opportunity. she heard it as they whispered in the hallway or looked at her when they thought she wasn’t paying attention. but she did her best to surround herself by the ones who did support her, whether it was through words of encouragement or small moments.
yet at this moment, surrounded by those she trusted most in this show, she felt distant. wanting to think more logically at this moment. it was silent for some time, everyone feeling on edge because of how close they were to the finale. just one performance was separating those who had the chance to debut or would return to their company’s/trainee lives.
when they were initially split into two groups, y/n found herself being in the vocals position. feeling her confidence grow after the last performance she did. right as she was feeling confident, she was left vulnerable again, not knowing if she’d be able to compete with those around her who seemed to be more favored.
gathering in a room alongside sugar high team, y/n contemplated joining lucky macho’s team. to be honest, she considered that song to be one of her favorites alongside chains. and if she was going to possibly be chosen to leave chains, it would be a performance where she could show off a stronger side of herself.
y/n’s gaze was locked on the tablet, watching the choreo and doing her best to really think about what she could do. while leo was next to her seeming to be in a bigger dilemma than herself, junseo turned and gave her a look. one that said so much yet so little at the same time. y/n just shrugged her shoulder’s outwardly seeming calm yet mind racing beyond belief.
“i think you should stay.” junseo mumbled.
again, the girl just nodded. not being able to produce any words as her nerves were beginning to show. taking in a deep breath, she turned to look at junseo — one of the trainees she was able to grow close to during the show — smiling softly as she patted his shoulder.
“i’ll try.”
finding themselves back in the chains practice room, the group of trainees sat together to redivide the parts of the song.
y/n held onto the lyric sheet in her hand, the words she sang out almost like a mantra.
오직 네게만 묶일 테니
get on my key
not faking it, faking it
“you know y/n, i’ve noticed this about you.”
“what?”
“no matter how you’re feeling, even if something goes wrong, you’re able to hold yourself so strongly.”
“...”
“and i admire that, but don’t be afraid to be vulnerable.”
“vulnerable?”
“the first sub vocal goes to y/n.”
y/n let out a huge sigh of relief, her body folded forward, and her hand was rested over her racing heart.
“thank you! i’ll do my best for this performance.”
unknowingly, her eyes began to water. y/n pretended to wipe at something on her face as they continued dividing parts. sangwon noticed the watery reflection of her eyes, finger reaching out to lightly tap her hand three times.
are you ok?
it was somewhat of a secret signal the duo created from their time starting the program to now. most of the audience didn’t know about how close the two were, having similar personalities and love for literature.
y/n turned to him, tapping his own hand twice.
i’m ok
a bigger smile making its way onto her face to reassure him. it’s the small moments like this that show who really support you.
after their first interim performance in front of the planet masters, y/n awkwardly stood next to jiahao, who was getting consistent praise.
“y/n.” she silently gulped, keeping her arms clutched behind her back. “are you feeling unwell?”
ah, they noticed. y/n bit her lip, beginning to open her mouth to speak, only to start coughing.
“i’m sorry, one moment.” y/n continued to cough, some of her chains members reaching to grab water bottles to hand to her.
“y/n began to have a sore throat yesterday.” lee jeong explained.
y/n nodded solemnly, feeling ashamed for letting herself get this way. “i’m trying to rest my voice as best as i can.”
she noticed the way some planet masters winced as she spoke, her voice sounding hoarse.
“please rest so you’re able to perform well the day of.”
y/n nodded, now playing with the hands she had behind her back.
y/n found herself sitting outside the steps of the all star dorm, arms wrapped around her knees as she looked up at the stars in the sky. they were slightly further out from the main city, making it easier to see the stars in the sky.
they ended practice at around 12 am, most retreating to their rooms for some semblance of peace before tomorrow’s performance. their last chance to prove themselves to the audience before the last elimination before the finale.
y/n could feel someone sit beside her, glancing and seeing xinlong looking up to the sky as well. she had also gotten close to the c-planet trainee through zihao and suren, who always sung praises about the boy.
“shouldn’t you be going to sleep soon?” he asked.
“so you came out here to lecture me about sleep?” y/n asked back, the boy beside her smiling as y/n shook her head, laughing a bit.
silence beginning to take over again, a peaceful quiet between the two.
“xinlong.” “mhm.” “how did you know this was something you wanted to do for your life?”
“always with the philosophical questions y/n.” y/n rolled her eyes, prompting the boy to continue.
“i think the first time i stepped on stage, even at such a young age, i knew this was what i was meant to do. something i couldn’t live without doing.”
y/n felt - surprisingly - at ease. walking on stage with practiced confidence, quickly high-fiving her chains members as she walked to her spot. she knew that this performance wasn’t only for herself, but for the group as a whole. their success as a group was the most important.
hearing the instrumental, y/n quickly moved around the stage. her practiced movements coming to her easily. her first lines causing the audience to scream and gasp at her cadence.
you and me
새벽을 쫓는 twilight
감당할게 난 뭐든
the second pre-chorus allowing her to shine on stage, her figure gliding across the stage. as the performance ended and they made their way backstage, she watched her members in front of her excitedly speak to one another.
y/n’s eyes watering as she felt touched by everyone's support for one another. despite the stressful situation, everyone was looking out for each other and making sure everyone felt confident in what they just did.
y/n let her tears freely fall, not discouraged by them at all. the chains members one by one, realizing she was crying, quickly going to her with looks of worry.
“why are we crying?”
“what happened?”
“are you ok?”
y/n jokingly swiped at their hands, laughing as she wiped the tears off her face. “i’m just really happy. thank you for letting me perform with you all.”
“don’t say things like that, i’ll cry too!” she heard leo call out, the members coming together into a group hug.
A/N happy 100+ followers ! here's a short blurb based on their dorm vlogs◝(ᵔᗜᵔ)◜
y/n held onto the camera in her hand, trying to see if it was recording. she walked over to jiahao’s room, seeing the boy exercising making her laugh a little. y/n shared her dorm with leo, jiahao, geonwoo, and sanghyeon.
“hao, how did you know the camera was on because i don’t see a red light or recording status.” y/n handed him the camera, the boy taking it from her and showing her where the staff who passed by earlier had shown him the camera was recording.
“it should show you now!” he said, handing the camera back to her.
“thank you hao! i’ll leave you to work out in peace.” y/n saluted him, before walking back to her room.
placing the camera onto her small bookshelf, she clicked record and waited a moment before talking to the camera.
“honestly, this feels a bit crazy to me. showing you all my room in our dorm, as a member of alpha drive one.” y/n looked around her room, she had spent the past week decorating the room and finding furniture with the budget the company gave her.
“a lot of things i brought from my last dorm as a trainee, but something's were gifted to me by fans and my fellow trainees during the show.” y/n reached towards the nightstand next to her bed, opening the drawer and grabbing a couple of items. “i keep the letters i’ve received in the nightstand next to my bed. if i’m ever having a hard time, i read them! it helps a lot, really.”
“let me not get too sappy laughs i’m going to set up the projector to watch the office with sanghyeon. he said he wanted to watch an american show, our youngest wants to continue learning english through watching these shows. i watch with him to explain any words that he’s curious about.” y/n continues to talk to the camera, controller in her hand, selecting the show.
“y/n i have some snacks, geonwoo’s cooking so he said to not eat too much.” y/n nodded, adjusting the camera so it could record the both of them.
“sanghyeon’s english lesson time with the office!” y/n excitedly said, clicking play as sanghyeon cheered happily.
the two were sat in y/n’s room for a while, before moving to the living room to continue watching the show and for sanghyeon to build his lego cat. y/n was getting used to sharing the space she had with her members. it at first was surreal for them, getting used to what would now be a hectic end of the year until their debut in january.
with mama around the corner, they did their best to lean on each other as they also got to know one another more. sure, it was still going to be awkward since some of them weren’t as close to each other as others, but bit by bit they’d get closer.
y/n turned towards the kitchen, watching geonwoo quickly move around making a pasta dish for the members. getting up, she walked towards the small counter, leaning against it as she watched geonwoo cook.
“hopefully you don’t give us food poisoning.” y/n said, peeking at the (almost) finished dish.
“don’t say that!” geonwoo replied, y/n shrugging before playfully skipping back to the couch to keep watching the office.
the five members sat together at the dining room table, ready to evaluate the pasta geonwoo made.
“oh, i’m a bit nervous now…” y/n huffed, holding two(?) forks in her hands as she was excited to eat. “a free meal is a free meal at the end of the day.”
geonwoo sighed, the other three laughing.
after finishing their food, y/n flopped onto the couch. “maybe i ate too much, i feel so bloated.”
sanghyeon jokingly ran up to her, making y/n scream. “yah! treat your elders right!”
sanghyeon playfully stuck his tongue out at her before starting to work on his lego cat again. y/n had watched leo leave their dorm to go next door, extroverted antics leading him to “bother” the other members.
y/n had unconsciously fell asleep on the couch, the members cooking more dishes in the kitchen while y/n sleepily held onto the tv remote. having set up the table for some hot pot, y/n was still fast asleep, making the other members laugh. xinlong quickly ran over, taking photos of y/n from funny angles.
“i’ll post these on her birthday.” xinlong said, showing the camera a supposed photo of sleepy y/n that wakeone editors decided to blur for “artist’s safety”.
once they set everything up, junseo walked over and gently tapped y/n’s shoulder to wake her up. her eyes opened wide, making junseo laugh.
“we’re eating hot pot, wash your face to wake up a bit.” squinting at the bright light, y/n sleepily nodded.
getting up, she hummed a greeting to the members from the other dorm before walking into the bathroom and washing her face to wake herself up. she quickly walked into her room and grabbed a random oversized hoodie, joining the members at the table.
“hot pot sounds so good after pasta.” she mumbled, grabbing the small bowl from sangwon. “thank you.”
moments like this were always nice, it let the members relax and yap about whatever they wanted. for a moment, they could forget that they were idols. y/n was pretty silent, nodding along to her members words and snickering sometimes when they said something funny.
“living with y/n for a week, i’ve noticed she takes time to decompress after waking up.” leo mentioned, having seen y/n “defrost” before fully getting up in the morning.
“i’m always slow after i wake up. so i appreciate everyone’s patience with me in the morning.” y/n jokingly made a heart with her hands, making some smile and laugh.
they continued talking for a bit, ending the day watching more of the office and building more lego’s.
SHINYOU'S THOUGHTS
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"well this is it." y/n lugged her suitcase up the steps of the planet camp building, angrily muttering about how she probably overpacked.
she was at the end of the big group, slowly making her way up the steps with what felt like pure will to get the heavy suitcase to the top.
"do you need help?" turning and seeing junmin, who motioned towards her luggage.
"do you mind? it's a little heavy because i packed a bit too much." y/n pausing in her steps, arms already feeling a bit sore.
"sure!" junmin holding onto one side of the suitcase while y/n held the other. "i'm junmin by the way."
"i'm y/n, i really enjoyed your performance. you left a really good impression on everyone."
y/n would say she was right in the middle of being introverted and extroverted, an omnivert. someone whose behavior would fluctuate based on the situation or mood.
admittedly, she was feeling a bit tired after her performance. her nerves getting the best of her until she had finished , being excited to take a quick nap after.
she was doing her best to be social and make connections. she would be spending months with her fellow trainees, so might as well try to be friends or at least on good terms with everyone.
making it to the building entrance, junmin set the suitcase down. "you're performance really stood out to me."
the boy staring at the group of trainees standing in the gymnasium ahead of them.
"i could feel how important this was to you. that this wasn't an opportunity you wanted to waste." he let out a shaky breath. "and i feel that way too. i want this opportunity to be worth it at the end."
y/n nodded, remembering junmin had already debuted before joining this show. he had already experienced being an idol for a bit, so to be on a show like this after that is a big decision.
"i hope it works out for the both of us, that we not only gain what we want from this opportunity but leave as even better people." y/n holding her fist up toward him, doing her best to give him a comforting smile.
lightly bumping his own fist against hers, he smiled brightly. "who knows we might debut together."
"well, i guess this solves my overpacking problem." y/n mumbled, looking down at the box they gave her.
yes, y/n ended up being ranked as a two star after her star class performance. to be honest, she felt neutral about it.
yes, it sucked not being ranked an all star, but she thought of this as an opportunity to grow. after all, they would have the opportunity to be ranked higher after their signal song re-evaluation.
she did her best to neatly fold the clothing she brought, thankful she comprised her snacks into a pouch. sneakily, she placed the pouch under her shirt. hoping the two star jersey she had on would hide it.
once satisfied with what she was able to fit into the box- and her contraband - she handed her suitcase over to the staff. joining her fellow two and one star trainees who began making their way to the dorms.
she could see junmin waving at her as she walked out, y/n waving back, laughing a little as she could see him mouthing the words good luck!
y/n was one of the first to enter the building, wondering who she'd room with. the staff had told her before she left the gymnasium that she'd have two roommates rather than three because of the uneven amount of trainees. and she'd be lying if she said she didn't scream internally.
eventually finding her room, she glanced at the names on the door.
l/n y/n, jun lee jeong, kim junseo
she opened the door, seeing that she was the first one to arrive. noticing their room only had one bunk bed and a single bed. she placed her box in the middle of the room, not wanting to assume her fellow trainees would give her the single bed.
she began to arrange her other items in the shared bathroom, hoping her roommates weren't messy. not that she wasn't slightly messy herself but anyone worse then her would probably lead to a disaster.
y/n could hear the door to the dorm opening slowly, quickly peeking her head out from the bathroom. junseo froze halfway through the door way. staring at y/n with wide eyes, his own box in hand.
"why are you standing in the doorway? is something wrong with the room?" lee jeong peeking from behind junseo, freezing once he made eye contact with y/n as well.
the trio sat in the middle of their room, deciding to do their best to get to know one another.
"they mentioned you were in your companies debut lineup before joining the show. did that group end up debuting?" lee jeong had asked, curiosity getting the better of him.
y/n shook her head. "not yet, their set to debut in august."
"that must've been a tough experience, being so close and getting cut." junseo added, lips set in a small frown.
"it was, but you both must be conflicted as well. you've debuted before this, it's hard to make a decision like that." the two nodded, a slight sadness hanging in the air.
y/n sighed, before having a literal lightbulb moment.
"do you two wants snacks?" y/n pulling out her pouch of snacks from under the single bed. "i snuck them in and hid them under the bed. i wasn't going to let the little box they gave us or the staff stop me from my indulgences."
the two laughed, nodding as y/n asked which ones they wanted to eat. the trio having a snacking session before they'd start the first practice for the signal song.
[skipping to individual class practice]
y/n was in the hallway surrounded by the one and two star practice rooms, one earbud on as she hummed along to the song.
"the one star room has yumeki teaching the choreo, we should go there." she heard a trainee mention, a small group of two stars walking past her towards the one star practice room.
y/n thought for a second, should she join them? y/n was confident about her dancing skills to an extent, but as of right now she felt nervous. finding herself not being able to move the way she wanted to when it came to the signal songs choreo.
she sighed, getting up and making her way back to the two star room. glancing around the room and seeing her two dormmates had left to who knows where.
eventually the room had less and less trainees, y/n eventually being the last one left in the room. repeating the choreo over and over again until she felt satisfied. she knew she had more to prove as the only female trainee on the show. she could already see the criticism she'd receive if she failed to give an exceptional performance.
the song ended, y/n letting out a tsk as she made her way over to the tablet she placed at the front to record her.
"you seem upset for what i would say is pretty good for only having the choreo for a day." y/n jumped, turning to see yumeki standing by the door.
"we don't have too much time and i'm aiming to move to all star. i need to prove myself to the judges."
yumeki just nodded, making his way towards y/n and standing next to her in the mirror.
"what part's are you not confident in?"
and the two proceeded to go over different parts of the signal song's choreo until the early morning. y/n feeling extremely grateful for his input, because he didn't have to help her, but he did.
y/n's leg bounced as she sat in between lee jeong and junseo, waiting for her turn in the re-evaluation. her late night sessions would come to fruition, right?
she'd done many evaluations before in her trainee life, yet this one felt extremely important. her results for this mission would affect her mindset for the rest of the show.
"l/n y/n, please come up."
she took a deep breath in, standing up and hi-fiving her fellow two stars who wished her the best.
"i think she'll move up, don't you?"
"for sure, she's been staying late at the practice room a lot."
junseo and lee jeong looked at each other, hoping to see their fellow dormmate go up to all star. the duo holding their fists up and yelling fighting! making y/n laugh a little.
"whenever you're ready." y/n giving the staff a thumbs up, facing the three judges in front of her.
throughout the dance, she could hear her fellow trainees hyping her up, making her feel even more confident to give the best performance she could.
쏘아 빛 solar , finishing her performance with all the energy she could muster.
"i know that's right!" she could hear junmin yell from the all star side, making her smile.
"great job y/n, you can go sit while we discuss." onestar said, y/n nodding.
before she could fully walk away she could hear kany say we don't even need to discuss, that was the best we've seen so far.
being welcomed back happily by her fellow two stars, y/n was feeling ecstatic. feeling she had a high chance of moving up.
"honestly, watching you was inspiring." she heard junil say as she sat down.
"really?" y/n being unable to hide her bright smile. "even if i don't go up to all star, i'll know that i've gained another supporter."
those around her laughing as the tv faded to her name. y/n's hands drummed against her knees, mumbling all star, c'mon, all star under her breath.
ALL STAR ☆ ☆ ☆
"yes!" her smile somehow getting even brighter.
"honestly y/n, i know we just started this show but you're becoming one of my favorites fast." kany said, y/n doing a quick heart with her hands.
y/n sat in her dorm room, being moved during the 1 vs. 1 class battle into a single room that could barely fit her bed. truthfully it was probably a closet they decided to make last minute into a room for her once they realized they miscalculated the amount of beds they had for all the trainees once they were combined. so y/n was stuck with a last minute attempt of a room where her mattress was on the floor and her bathroom was down a hall with one lightbulb that barely worked.
she could hear a knock on her door, bringing her out of her thoughts on tomorrow's elimination. she hoped it wasn’t the staff coming to annoy her to film some social media content she knew she was too tired to do.
“y/n!” opening the door, she caught suren, who rushed through the door and excitedly jumped into her arms.
y/n huffed, lightly patting the boy on the back as if he was a toddler. “i feel like i’ve become an older sister on this show with the way you all treat me.”
behind suren, zihao laughed. wiggling his eyebrows at y/n as the girl sighed dramatically, opening her arms to embrace the boy as well. outside of planet k she was slowly becoming acquainted with planet c trainees who were quickly becoming attached to the girl. maybe it was her caring nature or her (almost daily) snack nights that made her popular. y/n was becoming the most social she had ever been in her life during boys 2 planet, but she was embracing it!
“we’re thinking of going out to eat. the staff are letting us eave for a bit! wanna join us?” suren asked, both him and zihao clutching their hands together dramatically.
“well, i need something to distract me from the inevitable. lets go.”
the trio were sat near a river by the training facility, talking about whatever while eating some takeout they got on the way.
“how do you think it’ll go tomorrow?” y/n asked.
“i thought we were going to ignore that subject.” suren said, grabbing some tteokbokki they got.
“i mean, yeah but, i can’t help but think about it. even if i don’t want to.” y/n grumbled, stuffing her mouth with dumplings. “this whole program is based on if people like me. what if they think i’m just meh, or that i’m not meant to be on this show. or-”
“why do you do that? always expect something to go wrong?” zihao asked, looking the girl in the eye. “everyone knows how talented you are, you’re deserving of great things.”
y/n smiled solemnly, “it’s just how i am. i blame it on being so close yet having the opportunity taken from you. leaves you questioning hope or anything close to it.”
y/n stood watching the trainees around her being called, fidgeting with her jacket sleeve. she wasn’t sure where she’d place if she was being honest. sure she had a good score for the 1 vs. 1 mission, but that didn’t mean her ranking would reflect the same.
"19th place,” ong seongwoo started, glancing around the room.
trainees shocked at the sudden jump from 38th place to 19th.
“this trainee has been a popular topic from the beginning of the show.”
“that could literally be anyone." y/n mumbled candidly, making those around her laugh.
"and they are known as the late night snack rabbit." everyone immediately turned to y/n, who tried to not burst out laughing.
"trainee y/n l/n." she could feel her fellow team members pat her shoulder's as she shook her head in disbelief.
"really? the late night snack rabbit?" she asked, making her way to stand next to yechan who congratulated her quietly.
"y/n, how does it feel to rank 19th in the first elimination?" seongwoo asked.
holding the mic, y/n couldn't help but smile. "i'd be lying if i didn't say i was happy."
looking at her rising sun members who cheered her on throughout the mission, she felt her heart swell with greatfullness. "but i was able to reach this rank because of the support from each of my members. thank you to every single one of you, who i'm hoping to see in the next round. i'll be waiting for you all here, so hurry up and join me!"
ending her little speech, y/n climbed the stairs. in a bit of disbelief as she sat in the 19th seat. turning to see the 8 debut spots, she began to feel determined.
that's where i'll be soon.
once all the trainees were announced, y/n sped down the stairs. almost tackling andrew as they hugged eachother.
"you putting on the most iconic performance and not getting into the next round is a crime." y/n said, beginning to tear up. "i swear i can sneak you back into the building"
andrew laughed, hugging her tightly as he began tearing up too. "they didn't deserve my soul i guess."
the two laughed before letting go, y/n making her way to dongheon. he quickly spotted the girl, smiling at her brightly making her want to cry even more.
"i promise it's ok, i'm just happy most of our team made it." he said, wrapping his arm around her.
"i hate this show." y/n mumbled, hoping a camera wasn't catching her crying.
dongheon seemed to catch on, shielding the girl from the cameras around. "cry all you want ok?"
the moment was both pure and sad, having to say goodbye for the moment to those who worked just as hard to have this opportunity. even a temporary goodbye still hurts.
a new day, a new mission.
the group of trainees watched as the big tarp fell, revealing all the songs they would have the opportunity to perform.
y/n's eyes wandered, thinking of what she wanted to do this time around. her first performance really focused on what she felt she excelled in, rap and dance. so she really had two choices. go for something she excelled in or try something new to challenge herself.
well, y/n did like a challenge.
y/n looked at all of the options, her eyes consistently going back to one song. truthfully, it was a song she felt comforted by, the lyrics giving her comfort throughout her trainee years. she felt she could portray her emotions through the song really well.
in the moment, she felt greatful to be an all star. this time not having to appeal to a team to join.
"number 19, y/n l/n, please proceed with choosing." jo yuri said.
y/n made her way to the middle, glancing around at the teams formed so far. behind her, the trainees mumbled on what they thought she'd choose. most saying she'd go for dance to showcase her skills, or rap to showcase a tougher side of herself.
but again, y/n's eyes wandered back to that one vocal song. she walked towards like jennie, making the trainees ahead of her scream before she took a sharp right, waving goodbye to them as she slotted herself in the 3rd all star spot for breathe by lee hi.
she stood next to kangmin, whose eyes were wide with surprise. anxin also looked at her in surprise, y/n calmly rocking on her feet.
"i knew that if i wanted to reach the top 8, i would need to show the star creators a new performance. a new side of me they only got a glimpse of during my first performance."
their group was eventually finalized with gyehyeon, y/n knowing she'd have to do her best to match the amazing vocalists in her team.
once they elected their leader and killing part, the rest of the part distribution and auditioning started. y/n felt she should just go for it rather than letting herself be assigned with whatever parts were left. that's how the first mission ended up going for her, which she felt a bit regretful of.
she raised her hand, trying to get the attention of the other three.
"there's some part's i am interested in singing. if it's ok, i would like to audition for those part's and you all can let me know if i seem fit for it?" y/n suggested, crossing her fingers in hope
"sure." "that's ok with me."
y/n smiled, warming up her voice. "if there's also anywhere i can improve, please let me know!"
as she began singing, it was almost as if the whole room had quieted down. surprised at the gentleness her voice held. every emotion she wanted to express, coming through, making the listener understand the sincerity behind the words.
as she finished, she could see the three stare at her with what seemed like excitement.
"was that good?" y/n asked, hoping everyone wasn't silent because it was horrible.
"i think our performance will be perfect." kangmin said, smiling brightly at the girl.
y/n sighed, realizing they placed last after the interim evaluation. she could hear her teammates’ shock at the result. kangmin having placed first and anxin placing last amongst the four. her feedback from the masters was that it almost felt safe for her, making y/n question if she was giving enough. they really wanted her to push her vocal’s to impact the audience.
the atmosphere of the team in the practice room was tense. after the vocal training with baekho and onestar, y/n felt somewhat defeated. did she make the right choice? should she have just chosen to do something she was already strong in?
walking on stage, y/n did her best to walk with confidence. determined to show the star creators a new side of herself, one she felt was needed for them to get to know the real her.
after the interim evaluation, they were able to talk as a team about how they were feeling. feelings of doubt and sadness being fuel for them to express themselves through this song.
the song started, y/n holding onto her microphone as she started the song.
숨을 크게 쉬어봐요 당신의 가슴 양쪽이 저리게, 조금은 아파올 때까지
her deeper tone giving everyone chills.
당신의 한숨 그 깊일 이해할 순 없겠지만, 괜찮아요 내가 안아줄게요
her voice reverberating throughout the room. harmonizing her high note with anxin before the bridge, making the audience scream. feeling herself get emotional as she heard gyehyeon’s voice break slightly. this performance, and every performance they do meant something to these trainees, for every trainee.
괜찮아요 내가 안아줄게요
y/n could only hope her emotions were felt as she delivered her last line in the song.
y/n didn’t expect to walk into the trainee waiting room to see a few trainees wiping their tears. greatful that they were able to feel touched by the performance their team gave.
sitting in front of the screen, y/n felt happy. no matter how she placed, she felt proud of the performance the team gave. watching the scores of her teammates appear, the staff of course left y/n’s score to be last.
“my teammates were amazing.” the interview camera catching the twitch of a smile on the girls face. “my goal is to debut. not only for myself but for those who have supported me on this path. so, a good result would help me reach that chance to debut.”
L/N Y/N 1330
y/n gasped, body falling forward as she could hear the trainees around her applaud the result.
“they tied!”
“has that ever happened before?”
she could see the all star’s next to her name, giving her some sense of security. she thanked her teammates for their hard work, seeing kangmin blankly stare at the screen. she knew that more than anything, he wanted a good result after the criticism he received in the interim evaluation.
“you can only be happy for so long for your own result, because your good result may not be the same for someone else.”
A/N here's the final part of the b2p series ! might continue to write within this universe if anyone would be interested in reading that >⩊<
WARNING not thoroughly edited so there may be spelling or grammar errors !
y/n slipped a mask around her face before waving goodbye to the trainees in the dorm. y/n had seen that some of her fans were hosting a café event before the elimination this week. y/n held onto two bags, one in each hand, with gifts for those who were there.
she wasn’t sure if a lot of people would be there, but she still wanted to show her appreciation through some gift bags for the fans. each one had a had written note of thanks, polaroids, and small snacks.
y/n hummed as she made her way off the subway, walking up the stairs and following the directions on her phone. the mnet staff had been “kind” enough to give the trainees their phones during the short break they had.
turning the corner, y/n nearly gasped. seeing the long line of people waiting outside the café. she glanced down at the bags she was holding, grimacing as she underestimated the amount of people that would be there.
quietly walking towards the front, she caught the attention of one of the café workers, who quickly recognized her. she smiled ushering her in, the fans in line making sounds of confusion before recognizing y/n.
once inside, y/n took off her mask, the fans screaming in surprise and excitement. looking around the café, covered in photos of her during stages or fan meets made her heart swell. the decorations being her favorite color and animation character. after everyone quieted down, y/n began her small speech.
“hello everyone! i know this must be a surprise, truthfully i wasn’t expecting so many people to be here, but i want to stay and show my appreciation to everyone! this support that i’ve received since the beginning of the show has helped me stay strong throughout. i am extremely grateful to every single person who has given their time to support me. every gesture, big or small, has impacted me more than you’d ever know.”
y/n could see some fans smiling with tears in their eyes, nodding along to her words.
“no matter the results i’m happy to have had this opportunity. now let’s move on from my sappy speech because i have some gifts! like i said, i wasn’t expecting so many people, so i unfortunately don’t have enough gifts for everyone. i’ll stay as long as i can to show my appreciation.”
the staff of the café were kind enough to set up a small table and chair for y/n to sit as she walked around the café, taking photos of everything and anything. even taking photos at the photobook her fansite had set up.
eventually taking a seat, she briefly glanced at the line outside, already knowing it’d be a long day, but she was excited more than anything.
hours later she was finally with the last fan, y/n smiling gratefully at the café staff that had stayed until the end. they hadn’t rushed her, and we’re very nice throughout the time of y/n’s impromptu fan meeting.
“hello!” y/n smiled, looking up at the fan.
“i wasn’t sure if you’d come to the event, but in case you did, i wanted to give you this.” the fan handed y/n a folded letter with a cute bear sticker on the outside.
“i get nervous, so i hope you’re able to understand your impact on me and all your fans through this letter.”
y/n held the letter close to her, knowing how important this must’ve been to her.
“i’ll keep this safe, i’ll make sure to read it once i get back to the dorm.”
true to her word, y/n arrived at the dorm a bit tired from the subway home. she wanted to knock out as soon as possible, but she was determined to go through all the gifts she was given. she first grabbed the letter from the last fan she saw that day, carefully opening it.
to the brightest star,
i don’t know if i will have the opportunity to give this to you, but i hope i can. seeing you work so hard to chase your dreams has inspired me more than you would believe. your persistence and integrity to music has made me understand how you love being an artist beyond the spotlight.
i want to support you in everything that you do, even if you do not make the final group. because i know that you are capable of anything you put your mind to. it’s given me the confidence to pursue my own dreams, because no matter the result, i know that i’ve tried my best and that makes me happy.
i hope you know that your fans will always be here to allow you to continue shining. we are here to support you in the hard and good times. so please don’t be afraid to be vulnerable, because that is your biggest strength. that’s what makes you a sincere artist.
wishing you the best always,
one of your fans.
y/n held her hand up to her mouth, feeling herself begin to cry. not in sadness, but in some form of relief. reading these words written by someone who supported her was what made every hard moment on this show worth it.
it was a weird feeling to think the show was about to be over. that the past couple of months had ultimately led to this moment. after their short break where y/n went to her café event and hung out with some of the trainees (a/n might write a short blurb about it), y/n was sat in the elimination room once again.
sitting next to her chains members, she nodded along to the two songs playing. thinking which concept she wanted to go for during the finale. she put her thoughts aside as planet master baekho began announcing rankings.
“let’s just get through to the finale.” she whispered, leg bouncing lightly against the floor.
y/n nearly fell to her knees, hearing her name called.
“9th place, trainee l/n y/n.” her hands were on top of her knees, a shaky exhale coming out from her mouth.
“there you go y/n!”
“and no one’s surprised, you did so well during the last performance.”
“well deserved.”
“now go walk up there with your head held high.”
standing at the front, y/n smiled as she held the microphone.
this was it. one step closer to her dream.
y/n felt herself becoming excited, but the lingering feeling of nervousness would be there until her name was one of the eight called at the finale.
y/n tsked, gnawing at her lip as she watched trainees one by one stand at the part they wanted.
“we can never get a moment to breathe.” she mumbled, trying to think strategically.
eventually being called, y/n stood between the two groups. laughing in disbelief at her dilemma.
“we’ve seen trainee y/n perform as a vocalist and rapper, which part are you leaning towards?” daehwi asked.
y/n smiled, rocking on her feet. “i’m thinking of going back to my roots, so a rap position would be nice.”
the trainees standing on the rapper spots, feeling themselves tense up a bit.
walking down the middle of the row, y/n nodded her head once and with determination walked towards never been 2 heaven. she noticed kangmin was looking at her with a face that read please let me keep my place, but y/n knew that if she was going to be selfish at any point in the show, this was the moment.
“i’m sorry.” she mumbled, her hands on her shoulders as she lightly pushed him away from the main rapper position.
“the reason i chose main rapper was because i have been consistently a sub vocal or sub rapper throughout the show. if there was a time to be selfish, this was the moment.” y/n could already see/hear the dramatic zoom and music mnet would put into the interview clip. “i am determined to prove myself not only to those who have supported me but to those who have also doubted me. and this is my opportunity to do so.”
“you know, i dont think i’ve ever seen y/n do aegyo before.” geonwoo said.
“y/n’s only done stronger concepts so far.” junmin added.
“you’d have to pay me to see me to aegyo.” y/n said, shaking her head. “but i accept cash, money transfer, gift cards!”
everyone laughed, the atmosphere being playful despite the upcoming performance. as everyone practiced a bit on their own, y/n had headphones in her ears. dancing to the music and playing around with expressions of what she thought was cute.
“look, look, look!” lee jeong pointed towards y/n, leo whipping his head to see the girl smiling as she danced.
“wait why’d she lowkey eat that.”
“eat what? she’s dancing.”
“that’s not what i meant!”
y/n stretched alongside the trainees she’d spent the last couple of months with, many realizing their fate would be decided in three hours. y/n wanted nothing more than to hear her name be called for one of the eight spots.
never been 2 heaven’s performance had gone by so quickly, y/n barely registered stepping off the stage. being pulled into a hug by junmin, one of the first trainees she met at the start of the show.
“thank you.” y/n mumbled, arms going around junmin.
“for what?” he asked.
“for being so kind at the start. i know it was a small gesture, but it meant a lot to me.” the two pulled away from one another, junmin smiling.
“you better not ghost me after this is over.” y/n laughed, lightly hitting his shoulder.
“i wouldn’t be able to ghost you if we end up in the group together.”
y/n was standing between junmin and junseo, staring at the stage ahead of her that had the seven out of eight members confirmed for the group. her heart raced in a way that made her feel uneasy. she knew that she ranked as ninth during the last elimination, but was she able to keep that ranking until now.
“i will first announce the four candidates for eighth place.”
y/n watched as her face, alongside kangmin, junseo, and chuei li yu appeared on-screen. she felt junmin pat her back in support, unknowingly making y/n want to cry. she knew how much this mattered to him, so for him to show her support at this moment almost broke her.
as jaejoong took his time announcing their rankings one by one, y/n could feel herself space out. her ears tuning out the noise around her, looking around the event hall and taking in the moment.
“for the first time in survival show history, we have a tie for 8th place between two trainees.” y/n whipped her heard towards jaejoong’s direction.
what did this mean? how would they decide who got to debut then?
everyone screamed in shock, excitement, confusion. y/n turned to junseo next to her whose eyes shook a bit. could the final lineup be nine members?
“the two trainees tied for 8th place are…” y/n could feel herself unconsciously holding her breath, grasping her hands tightly.
“kim junseo…”
the event hall almost fell into silence before he announced the next name.
“l/n y/n.”
screams erupted, but the duo weren’t sure what this meant.
would votes have to be recast? would the planet masters decide?
“we will be having a short break, to discuss with the producers of the show and planet masters.” jaejoong announced.
y/n wanted to scream, her future would be decided based on who knows what. she was scared to look at junseo beside her, not hearing the fans around them chant debut both! debut both!
feeling a bit lightheaded, she sat on the steps behind her. her fellow trainees surrounding the two with words of encouragement and support. the top seven in front of them, not knowing how to react.
“how do you choose between the two?”
“they’re both so talented.”
“this is insane.”
what was supposed to be a short break ended up being a 40-ish minute discussion amongst the producers and planet masters, who walked back to their seats in the crowd with neutral expressions. y/n stood back up as she watched the camera’s red lights begin to switch on.
“we will now be announcing the debuting member.” jaejoong said.
“no…” y/n shook her head, they decided to debut one of us, she thought.
“after careful discussion, it has been decided that…” the dramatic music in the room making y/n want to rip the speakers out of the walls.
“trainee kim junseo…” y/n felt her heart sink, turning to the boy beside her who fell to the floor out fo relief.
“and l/n y/n will both be debuting in the final group.”
“what?” was the only word y/n could say before being bum rushed by the trainees around her who cheered in excitement.
the fans screaming in relief and happiness at the result.
“you did it!”
“so well deserved.”
“go walk up there and prove those haters wrong!”
y/n looked at junseo who was full on crying, her arms held out towards him as the two hugged and cried together.
“congratulations to the two trainees, please come to the front.”
y/n hastily wiped at her eyes, tears continuing to appear as junseo looped their arms together to walk towards the front.
as y/n kept wiping at her tears, she couldn’t help but remember the words written in the letter the fan gave her.
so please don’t be afraid to be vulnerable, because that is your biggest strength. that’s what makes you a sincere artist.
holding her head high, she let the tears fall down her face, her glassy eyes conveying so much emotion. relief, happiness, determination.
once junseo had said his speech, turning to walk up towards the eighth seat, y/n held onto the mic with newfound confidence.
“and now a few words from l/n y/n, how do you feel to make the final group?”
y/n took a good look around the event hall, smile growing at every sign she saw that expressed their support for the girl.
“i feel grateful, no words can express how thankful and excited i am to be here.” she sighed, looking back at the boys behind her. “i want to repay those who have supported me, and will use every day from now on to do so. i ask that you all look after me and the members, i’m sure we’ll show all of you why we deserve your support. please take care of yourselves and get home safely!”
finishing her small speech, she bowed to the crowd. jaejoong motioned for her to walk up the stairs, y/n turning to properly look at the trainees who would now be her members. she smiled brightly, jogging up the stairs and getting bear hugged by leo. the other members coming down to congratulate her.
“guess you’re all stuck with me for a while.” y/n said, the members laughing as confetti fell around them.
l/n y/n, a previous bighit trainee, now a member of alpha drive one.
SHINYOU'S THOUGHTS
a big thank you to everyone who has shown support and read this b2p series. it was something i started on a whim but i'm glad to have written something you all could enjoy ! i do want to write about the reader in ald1 but that will probably be after their debut. i know they have their variety series right now so i might write a blurb about it !
