HEY THERE so this is the official post documenting my newest plan: using my goddamn imagination LMAO
i’ll be using other methods probably, but i want THIS ONE to be the most consistent.
The Plan: Using my imagination right before i fall asleep to dream of being with my SP. Cuddling, going on dates, etc.
DAY 1:
I had a VERY weird but VERY vivid dream. The beginning is fuzzy, but i feel like i can remember my SP’s presence. But the rest was a dream that was like, a better version of the Harry Potter series. The two main characters were two teenage men and had HUGE crushes in each other. One of them could turn into different animals i guess and that was killing him idk it was WILD. So all in all no real SP dreams or anything like that but this is only day one. LETS KEEP MOVING!
DAY 2:
OKAY??? so i know i DEFINITELY had a dream where my SP and i we’re together…..but i cant remember it 😭😂. but that’s okay!! ima keep affirming!
DAY 3:
Okay i’m taking this as a good sign that my brain is resisting change. which in turn is a good thing! i was doin my thing, using my imagination before bed and BOOM. I started having angsty thoughts. limiting beliefs and “you hurt me” stuffs. so when those angsty thoughts started bleeding into my imagined scenarios, i quickly snapped out of it and counteracted those bad thoughts with the new beliefs im trying to adopt. i repeated that cycle until i fell asleep. i like to think that resisting is a good sign that my subconscious is starting to change on this current subject. resisting because it wants the familiar, but eventually, my new beliefs will become the familiar and override my poor self concept. so progress!! let’s keep movin!!
