❣ Chile in a Photography ❣
trying on a metaphor
Sweet Seals For You, Always
Misplaced Lens Cap
macklin celebrini has autism
No title available
he wasn't even looking at me and he found me
Xuebing Du
roma★
★
gracie abrams
No title available
𓃗
The Stonewall Inn
cherry valley forever
d e v o n
occasionally subtle
One Nice Bug Per Day
TVSTRANGERTHINGS
PUT YOUR BEARD IN MY MOUTH
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from Türkiye
seen from Honduras
seen from United States
seen from United Kingdom
seen from Australia
seen from France
seen from United Kingdom
seen from Ecuador
seen from United States
seen from Japan
seen from Russia
seen from Türkiye
seen from United States
seen from Türkiye
seen from Türkiye
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from United States
@shitdagi-blog
6:18am
havent had an anxiety attack in at least a year. Mind has been wandering to exes. I try to believe I can love myself. Its terrifying feeling isolated. No one there to make it feel alright. These feelings of abandonment or perceived abandonment cuts me down to nothing.
5:56 PM
I finally found out my problem. I demand too much attention from people and if they don't give it to me they obviously hate me and don't want anything to do with. I'm fighting the battle of whether or not I want to isolate myself. I don't know what I want.
12:32 AM
I want to feel cold and not think of how it feels to touch anything else but my cold skin
I see misaligned christmas lights across the garden Thats where the college kids live. From the sounds alone I think they party every weekend Or at least talk
I found a fork today in my sink I wonder its been
I found a plain in the knots of my curly hair I wonder where its been
11:03 AM
Been a while since I posted here. I've been shut-in except for the rare 1-2 friends I let myself out for. It hurts so much to be jealous of my high functioning friends. I feel so weak. I can't feel my legs. I don't deserve the ability to care or to speak. Talking to someone is like a drug. If its someone new, theres a honeymoon phase. I tell them everything. They tell me some things. It gets platonically intimate. It gets me going. Its a rush. And then they're gone or I feel like they're gone. Thats not their fault. Its my head. Its an emotional high. A part of me is telling me I want it to replace parental care because of the lack of in my life. I don't know anymore. Who am I and what am I doing here? If it wasn't for film I'd be useless and now that the palatable faces are no longer near theres no point in it. I'm not ready.
10:45 PM
Im okay now. I went outside, got coffee, and spilled my issues and emotions.
8:08 PM
I'm just too weak.
7:51 PM
I feel so hot. Reaching out to ex again who I saw on halloween. My stomach feels like it burning.
5:15 PM
I feel so nauseous. I wanna be okay.
3:07 AM
Please be okay. I don't know you in person but I hope you're okay.
Is anyone up? Can anyone talk?
How are you?
Ok day. Got out of the house. Had some nice chats. How are you?
I’ve definitely been better
Could we talk in private if possible? Whats going on?
Is anyone up? Can anyone talk?
How are you?
Ok day. Got out of the house. Had some nice chats. How are you?
Is anyone up? Can anyone talk?
2:40 AM
My cheeks and emotions are burning. Why do I bother reaching out? Only to burn.
1:11 AM
I feel really bad when good conversations have to end. My mood changes at the drop of a hat. Please remind me to never look my ex's on social media. Its never a good idea.
10:16 PM
I may have recovered a few weeks ago from a low point. But this has been quite the low functioning few weeks.
6:28 PM
Sometimes I just want to put my hand against someone else’s and not say anything. Just sit there for a bit.
1:37 PM
ogodwhydoibothercheckingsomethingiknowhurtme
