shitty boyfriend!

but  i'm  a  pretty  damn  good  babysitter! steve  harrington,  by  meadow.

[shittyboyfrnd]

steve would die first in until dawn i can feel it in my Bones.

[ohisms]

𝑺𝑶𝑭𝑻 𝑻𝑯𝑶𝑹𝑵𝑺 𝑽𝑶𝑳. 𝑰 .   (   sentence  starters  taken  from  /  inspired  by  volume  one  of  ‘ soft thorns ’  by  bridgett  devoue .  triggering  themes  may  be  implied .)

❛  you  are  the  brave  one .   ❜ ❛  you  make  me  brave ,  &  i’ll  forever  be  grateful  for  that . ❜ ❛  i  was  born  with  wide  eyes  &  a  fragile  heart . ❜ ❛  i  feel  everything  so  deeply .  ❜ ❛  i  am  not  yours .  ❜ ❛  you  never  asked  if  i  wanted  a  guest .  ❜ ❛  this  is  why  no  one  loves  you .  ❜ ❛  beauty  does  not  solve  problems .  ❜ ❛  someone  once  told  me  they  were  scared  of  the  truth  in  my  eyes .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  remember  love  as  a  child .  ❜ ❛  a  fantasy  in  real  life  is  also  known  as  a  lie .  ❜ ❛  i  was  eager  to  prove  i  was  good  enough .  ❜ ❛  scars  may  fade ,  but  they  last  forever .  ❜ ❛  i  always  scared  everyone  away .  ❜ ❛  i  kept  this  dream  hidden  away .  ❜ ❛  i  used  to  think  love  wasn’t  for  me .  that  i  wasn’t  worthy .  ❜ ❛  your  love  is  like  an  exorcism .  ❜ ❛  you’re  the  one  who  reminded  me  i  have  a  pulse .  ❜ ❛  there  is  an  unspoken  truth  between  us .  ❜ ❛  i  crave  you ,  even  though  i  know  you  will  destroy  me .  ❜ ❛  you’re  just  standing  there  watching  me  burn ,  wearing  that  crooked  smile  of  yours .  ❜ ❛  i  know  i’m  not  perfect ,  but  i  felt  pretty  damn  close  to  it  when  i  was  in  your  arms .  ❜ ❛  in  another  lifetime ,  we  have  definitely  done  this  before .  ❜ ❛  i  never  thought  i  would  be  a  good  mother .  ❜ ❛  i  want  to  love  you  back  together .  ❜ ❛  we  have  this  divine  bond  between  us .  divine  in  the  way  that  it’s  certainly  not  from  this  lifetime .  ❜ ❛  my  soul  craves  a  love  that’s  undeniably  real .  ❜ ❛  i  want  to  experience  why  we’re  here  on  earth .  ❜ ❛  i  want  to  tell  you  everything .  ❜ ❛  hell  is  watching  something  that  was  your  everything  slip  away  &  not  being  able  to  do  anything  about  it .  ❜ ❛  i  can  tell  that  when  i’m  with  you ,  you’re  with  her .  ❜ ❛  why  is  it  that  everyone  can  see  i’m  suffering  but  you ?  ❜ ❛  let’s  pretend  like  we’re  friends .  ❜ ❛  it’s  so  painful  to  talk  to  you ,  because  i  just  remember  everything  you  turned  out  not  to  be .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  know  how  to  fall  asleep  anymore .  ❜ ❛  are  you  pretending  to  forget  me ,  too ?  ❜ ❛  i  can  still  close  my  eyes  &  trace  every  curve  &  dip  of  your  soul .  ❜ ❛  those  who  don’t  believe  in  ghosts  have  never  had  a  broken  heart .  ❜ ❛  god ,  you’re  beautiful .  ❜ ❛  i  know  i  should ,  but  i’m  not  ready  to  give  up  your  memory .  ❜ ❛  i  never  told  you  how  much  you  hurt  me .  ❜ ❛  i  keep  falling  in  love  with  souls  that  feel  like  yours .  ❜ ❛  being  alone  was  never  hard  before  i  met  you .  ❜ ❛  you  must  think  i’m  crazy  for  missing  something  i  never  even  had .  ❜ ❛  i’m  lonely ,  but  i  don’t  want  company .  ❜ ❛  you  walked  away  far  too  easily  for  me  to  believe  it  was  ever  really  love .  ❜ ❛  you  never  loved  me .  ❜ ❛  when  you’ve  been  fed  lies  for  so  long ,  you  eventually  lose  your  appetite  for  love .  ❜ ❛  i  have  nothing  left  to  say  to  you .  ❜ ❛  you’ll  never  know  all  the  ways  i  died  for  you .  ❜ ❛  ‘goodbye’  is  easy .  everything  after  that  is  the  hard  part .  ❜ ❛  even  though  you  turned  out  to  be  a  liar ,  within  me  grew  a  love  that  was  the  most  pure  &  honest  thing  i’ve  ever  known .  ❜ ❛  nothing  was  ever  easy ,  but  maybe  that’s  the  beauty  of  it .  ❜ ❛  i  am  everything  that  you  are  not .  ❜ ❛  love  is  a  necessary  tragedy .  ❜ ❛  there  are  people  who  don’t  want  you  to  heal .  ❜ ❛  remember :  you  are  not  their  prey .  ❜ ❛  you  have  more  power  than  you  know .  ❜ ❛  the  most  dangerous  thing  we  can  do  is  forget  how  to  feel .  ❜ ❛  you  will  be  safe  in  the  right  hands .  ❜ ❛  love  makes  us  immortal  in  the  hearts  of  others ,  but  mortal  in  our  fear  that  it  could  all  be  gone  someday .  ❜ ❛  we’re  only  haunted  by  the  things  we  refuse  to  accept .  ❜ ❛  we  are  not  born  broken .  ❜ ❛  time  will  either  heal  you  or  kill  you .  ❜

[shittyboyfrnd]

fun meadow fact fast times at ridgemont high is one of my dad’s all time fave films lmao.

[shittyboyfrnd]

@pompomchrissy​  /  starter call.

              “  yeah, no, someone has fast times rented out right now. but uh... there’s lot of other options.  “

[shittyboyfrnd]

@hidefire​

          “  ...  you  don’t  believe  a  word  i’m  saying,  do  you?  “

[shittyboyfrnd]

fatcdsong​,

‘‘ – .. . you’re not a shitty boyfriend steve, i promise..’‘

       she says that but he doesn’t believe it. he feels like a shitty boyfriend. feels like he messed up the one good thing he ever had. fingers run through his hair and he tries to smile at her but he can’t quite manage it. “i was. you deserve better, nance. you deserve the world... and to be happy.” and if her happiness doesn’t include him, he can accept that. but he knows he’ll never be happy without her.

[shittyboyfrnd]

hit  the  heart  for  a  starter  thank  u  <3

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BILLIE EILISH’S HAPPIER THAN EVER (2021) ALBUM PROMPTS

ₓ ˚ .   ୭   ˚ ○ ◦ ˚     as always, some triggering content may be present! change any pronouns to better suit your muse(s) needs!     ˚ ◦ ○ ˚   ୧   . ˚ ₓ

what a drag to love you like i do.

“everybody dies,” that’s what they say.

does it keep you in control?

i’m just a mirror.

fuck you.

i feel more and more like i was madе for you.

i don’t want to want you.

how dare you?

it’s okay to cry and it’s alright to fold.

we are not the same.

did you even care?

just fucking leave me alone!

is it news? news to who?

this ain’t nothing like it oncе was.

love when it makes you lose your bearings.

we were inseparablе years ago.

i know supposedly i’m lonely now.

i’m getting better at admitting when i’m wrong.

there’s something about the way you look tonight.

i can crave you, but you don’t need to know.

i’m the only one who does it how you like.

you’re all it takes for me to break a promise.

how could you?

won’t take a lot to gеt you going.

you’re sacred and they’re starved.

you’re obsessed.

we decide who they are.

don’t say it isn’t fair.

but don’t you get sick of posing for pictures?

all that you did was make me fucking sad.

i’d end up more afraid.

i’m supposed to be unhappy.

she’d wanna get involved.

i can’t seem to focus.

will you only feel bad when they find out?

you’d be gone for hours.

even when it’s time, you might not wanna go.

i hate the way she looks at me.

i’ve had some trauma, did things i didn’t wanna.

what did i tell you?

some information’s not for sharing…

be cool about what i was telling you.

i only changed who i reply to.

i’m out of sympathy for you.

i’m not sentimental.

you are not alone.

i just wonder why you’d wanna stay.

don’t try to make me feel bad.

nobody saw me in the lobby.

think i took it too far.

i loved you then and i love you now.

you better lock your phone.

i was still being ignored.

always said you were misunderstood.

but i know better.

give me a day or two to think of something clever.

i like to do things god doesn’t approve of.

is my value based only on your perception?

i’m overheated.

i don’t know how.

i wanna do bad things to you.

waiting for it gets so boring.

i’ve got more on my shoulders.

i need you for the oxytocin.

i’m happier than ever.

it’s different when a stranger’s always waiting at your door.

i only changed who i believe in.

you think that you’re the man.

i’m sorry if it’s torture though.

you wanna hurt me?

you should really run away.

that was way before i realized.

i really look just like the rest of you.

for anybody asking, i promise i’ll be fine.

is it not what you wanted?

you don’t seem to notice i’m not here.

would you like me to be quiet?

i’m getting older.

thought you would’ve grown eventually, but you proved me wrong.

guess it’s hard to know when nobody else comes around.

you clearly werеn’t aware that you made me misеrable.

too bad they’re usually deranged.

a lot can change in twenty seconds.

i don’t relate to you.

she couldn’t look away.

did i take it too far?

you swear you didn’t know…

yeah, i made him sign an nda.

go have fun.

gonna claim you like a souvenir.

you want me to put it here?

i’m sorry.

can’t shake the feeling that i’m just bad at healing.

they’re gonna tell you what you wanna hear.

we both know i’m worth waiting for.

there’s a lot i’m grateful for.

everybody dies.

do you understand?

you’d do the opposite of what you said you’d do.

you better lock your door.

can’t wait to meet her.

stop being flirty.

i’m not about to redesign myself now, am i?

some people use it to shame others.

i don’t really care right now.

now i know what you are.

it’s not my fault.

we tell each other lies.

you really make a strong impression.

i really couldn’t care less.

you’re so handsome.

did you really think “this is the right thing to do”?

i’m losing track of time.

i don’t want it.

nothing i do goes unseen.

thought we’d get along, but it wasn’t so.

everybody said it was a letdown.

what the hell are you talking about?

i think i might havе fallen in love.

i had to go.

looks can be deceiving.

i used to wish you were mine.

power isn’t pain.

you wanna kill me?

better keep your head down.

something’s in the air right now.

i was only built like everybody else now.

other people wouldn’t stay.

you have opinions about my opinions.

i didn’t change my number.

did you think i’d show up in a limousine?

it’s kinda working.

did you have fun?

but nothing lasts, i know the deal.

makes me wanna make ‘em jealous.

we might not be alone.

it’s a male fantasy.

i don’t think i caught your name.

that shit’s embarrassing.

wish i could explain it better.

she said you were a hero.

when i retell a story, i make everything sound worse.

i’d never treat me this shitty.

i wish it wasn’t true.

you and me are both the same.

i don’t wanna cry, some days i do.

you scared me to death.

got a stalker walking’ up and down the street.

you know i love to rub it in like lotion.

would you?

you played the part.

it’s all i think about whеn i’m behind the wheel.

you’d still be alone.

can’t take it back once it’s been set in motion.

it’s none of my business.

i'm in love.

i can see it clear as day.

maybe you just had nothing on your mind.

how’d it get so dark?

maybе i should think about a new career.

silly me to fall in love with you.

i was waiting on you.

love when it comes without a warning.

i sure have a knack for seeing lifе more like a child.

we decide what they’re worth.

i don’t really wanna know why it went there.

if you find it hard to swallow, i can loosen up your collar.

in my dreams, i seem to be more honest.

it might be more of an obsession.

i got a call from a girl i used to know.

don’t you even think of leaving.

i don’t want press to put your name next to mine.

get my pretty name out of your mouth.

i was good at feeling nothing, now i’m hopeless.

you got a lot of fucking nerve…

though you’ve never seen my body, you still judge it.

some people hate what i wear.

it’s just a lot to think about the world i’m used to.

to tell me what to do.

i’ve been loved before.

i’m not your friend.

i’ve been having fun getting older now.

can’t you hear me?

don’t take it out on me.

you don’t know her.

at least i gave him something he can cry about.

you were the devil.

you only listen to your fucking friends.

i sold you my heart.

don’t waste the time i don’t have.

don’t get complacent.

i’ll see you in a couple years.

you were thinking about yourself all the time.

next week, i hope i’m somewhere laughing.

i’d be yours again.

i must admit you’ve been in quite a few.

i thought that i was special.

a lot can happen in the dark.

you made me hate this city.

and when will i?

i used to think you were shy.

i thought about my future, but i want it now.

no wonder why you didn’t ask.

i think i’m aging well.

we make assumptions about people based on their size.

i think, therefore, i am.

now we’re estranged.

i wonder if you were aware that day.

you don’t really need a break.

you hit me so hard.

if you only pray on sunday, could you come my way on monday?

i worry this is how i’m always gonna feel.

i know you think you’re such an outlaw.

but aren’t i someone?

other people don’t obey.

you weren’t even there that day.

my sleepless nights are better.

maybe you should leave.

i've changed my plans.

don’t act like it was hard.

i know we didn’t choose to change.

wish i didn’t care.

you couldn’t save me, but you can’t let me go.

nobody saw me in your arms.

i don’t really even know how it happened.

do you know me?

we care so much until we don’t.

midnight for me is 3am for you.

maybe, in a couple hundred years, they’ll find another way.

i’m not coming home.

it’s so weird.

i don’t want him having shit to say.

when they say your name, i just act confused.

i’m yours.

maybe that’s the reason every sentence sounds rehearsed.

i haven’t slept since sunday.

you ruined everything good.

you don’t dеserve to feel so hurt.

thought you had your shit together, but damn, i was wrong.

i know i should, but i could never hate you.

i’m going back to therapy.

i kinda don’t care.

it’s hard to stop it once it starts.

go home, don’t tell.

i wish someone had told me i’d be doing this by myself.

try not to abuse your power.

haven’t slept in a week, or two…

had to save my money for security.

i can barely go outside, i think i hate it herе.

you ruined her in a year.

i sent you flowers.

you are not unknown.

once was good enough.

what am i to do?

makes me wanna take a picture.

you can’t give me up.

i wanna make you yell.

i loved you then and i love you now.

i don’t talk shit about you on the internet.

you ain’t nothing but a lost cause.

who decides what that makes me?

you’re gonna wanna get involved.

i feel you watching.

you might not wanna lose your power.

someone like you would always be so easy to find.

it’s not so wrong to wonder why.

i think it’s time.

you were my everything.

i realized i crave pity.

don’t talk about me like how you might know how i feel.

[leneemusing]

STAYING THE NIGHT PROMPTS

❝  don’t be ridiculous,  there’s enough room on this bed for both of us. ❞ 

❝  please stay.  i don’t think i can be alone tonight.  ❞

❝  i’m staying,  okay?  you don’t have to be alone tonight. ❞

❝  you shouldn’t be alone right now.  i’ll take the couch,  it’ll be fine.  ❞

❝  will you sleep with me?  i know how that sounds i just mean—  i feel safe when you’re there.  ❞

❝  i’ll be here the whole night okay?  nothing will get to you while i’m here.  ❞

❝  wait— have you been here all night?  ❞

❝  i thought you went home after i went to bed.  you didn’t have to do that— you could’ve at least joined me in bed that couch is shit for sleeping on.  ❞

❝  can i stay with you tonight?  i don’t wanna go home yet.  ❞

❝  it’s late,  you might as well just stay here.  ❞

❝  can you just…stay here?  and hold me.  ❞

❝  i know this might sound weird but,  do you wanna stay over?  i guess ‘sleepover’ sounds kind of childish but.  i think it’d be nice.  ❞

❝  i’m not expecting anything,  i just,  thought it’d be nice to keep you company tonight. ❞

❝  i don’t have nightmares when you’re there.  ❞

❝  i get you’re doing the whole protective thing— and i appreciate it.  i do,  but there’s no reason for you to stay awake all night.  might as well come to bed.  ❞

❝  thank you for staying.  it just gets so lonely at night sometimes.  ❞

❝  i don’t want you to be alone tonight and honestly,  i don’t really wanna be alone either.  ❞

❝  do you wanna stay with me tonight?  ❞

❝  stay,  please.  ❞

❝  i’ll stay.  ❞

❝  i’m staying.  ❞

❝  i’m staying.  end of discussion.  you gotta learn to let people take care of you.  ❞

❝  i’m not ready to say goodbye yet.  ❞

❝  i don’t wanna have to say goodnight.  ❞

❝  honestly i can’t sleep,  so if you wanna stay up with me?  ❞

❝  i don’t sleep a lot either these days.  we can be insomniacs together.  ❞

❝  well,  i can think of some ways to wear you out.  ❞

❝  if you can’t sleep,  there are other things we could do.  ❞

❝  i’d rather fuck than stare at the ceiling counting sheep to be honest.  ❞

❝  it doesn’t have to mean anything,  i just don’t wanna feel lonely tonight.  and i want to feel good for once.  ❞

❝  please don’t go—  i need.  i need someone—  i need you.  ❞

❝  the night doesn’t have to end here,  you know.  ❞

❝  i like it when you’re here.  so stay.  please?  ❞

❝  you’re just as lonely as i am.  might as well be lonely together.  ❞

❝  you can stay but i’m not letting you sleep on that couch.  ❞

❝  chivalry is overrated,  get in my bed.  ❞

❝  you’re clearly exhausted.  you can go in the morning.  ❞

❝  you don’t have to pretend to be fine,  if you need me to stay i will.  ❞

❝  when i said i wanted everyone to leave me alone i didn’t mean you.  i can’t handle everyone else right now but you…you’re different.  ❞

❝  you need someone right now.  and i’m the one that’s here.  let me be what you need.  ❞

SCENARIOS

[ GUARDED ]  sender insists on staying the night to keep watch over receiver who has been in some kind of danger. 

[ GUARDING ]  receiver insists on staying the night to keep watch over sender who has been in some kind of danger. 

[ UNEXPECTED ]  one muse stays the night to keep an eye on the other after something traumatic and they end up having comfort sex.

[ CONSOLE ]  sender asks receiver to stay the night because they don’t want to be alone and they end up cuddling.  

[ CONSOLED ]  receiver asks sender to stay the night because they don’t want to be alone and they end up cuddling. 

[ ACCIDENT ]  sender winds up staying at receiver’s house all night because receiver fell asleep against them/in their lap and they didn’t have the heart to wake them. 

[ UNPLANNED ]  receiver winds up staying at sender’s house all night because sender fell asleep against them/in their lap and they didn’t have the heart to wake them. 

[ STAY ]  sender is carrying receiver to bed because they fell asleep somewhere else but when they start to walk away,  receiver grabs their hand so sender joins them in bed. 

[ STAYING ]  receiver is carrying sender to bed because they fell asleep somewhere else but when they start to walk away,  sender grabs their hand so receiver joins them in bed. 

[ APPROACHED ]  sender is staying with receiver for safety and asks if they can sleep in their bed with them. 

[ APPROACH ]  receiver is staying with sender for safety and asks if they can sleep in their bed with them. 

[ SHARE ]  sender is unexpectedly staying with receiver overnight,  receiver insisted sender sleep on the bed while they take the floor but sender winds up insisting they join them in bed. 

[ SHARED ]  receiver is unexpectedly staying with sender overnight,  sender insisted receiver sleep on the bed while they take the floor but receiver winds up insisting they join them in bed. 

[ FOUND ]  sender is staying with receiver who had them take the bed while receiver takes the couch.  in the middle of the night,  sender goes out to join receiver on the couch because they don’t want to sleep alone. 

[ FIND ]  receiver is staying with sender who had them take the bed while sender takes the couch.  in the middle of the night,  receiver goes out to join sender on the couch because they don’t want to sleep alone. 

[ DISCOVERED ]  receiver wakes up in the morning to find sender asleep on their couch because sender was watching over them. 

[ HAVEN ]  receiver wakes up in the morning to find sender asleep on their couch because sender felt safer with them. 

[ WEARY ]  sender cries themselves to sleep in receiver’s arms. 

[ TIRED ]  receiver cries themselves to sleep in sender’s arms. 

[ PROPOSITION ]  one or both muse(s) are having trouble sleeping so they have sex to pass the time. 

[ PURPOSE ]  one muse can’t sleep so the other initiates sex to wear them out. 

[ TRAPPED ]  one muse ends up staying the night with the other due to a storm. 

[ KEEP ]  sender fell asleep on receiver and when receiver tries to get up,  sender whines so they stay put.  

[beesource]

the society (2019) writing prompts. change pronouns to your liking. ♡ enjoy!

never would've pegged her as a conduit to the heavens.

it's been ten days. i'm not the same person i was, ok?

you know how you said everyone we go to school with is an asshole? well, you were right.

if i had to pick anyone in the whole world to be with me when things got bad, i would pick you!

it's a fucking solar eclipse! it's not a sign, it's a predictable astronomical event.

wishing someone dead is not a crime. it's disgusting.

anything's possible.

there's nothing around here to fucking do but think.

who cares if it's my fault?

i don't want to see anyone. especially you.

i dressed up just for you!

we have to know where to look.

summer solstice. long days. but our nights are about to get a lot longer.

people want comfort, answers.

what'd you do last night?

i'm sorry you're afraid of being alone.

all i've ever wanted was an empty house.

what are you guys doing?

i know how to be invisible.

you want me to come with?

it seems like the right think to do.

i mean, we're guessing in the dark here.

my head fucking hurts.

maybe this is some elaborate fucking game.

you're sober?

i'll look like you soon enough.

i don't have an answer to those questions.

it's how we survive.

the only thing i know we can control is ourselves.

i have a lot of decisions to make.

i mean, there's only so many options.

i think people are doing well... under the circumstances. don't you?

it's gonna be a problem eventually.

who has all the power?

this should be interesting.

there's a point to everything, there are answers.

people won't like that.

you could've asked me for help.

there are no sides anymore.

we’re not going to ask for power, we’re going to take it.

thank you for shopping with us.

it's a nice town but it can get old pretty fast.

six months ago we were children. 

party at my house, after.

you can be my partner, if you want.

who am i in this story?

you can't be an asshole to ___ and nice to me.

i was the kid that cried on the first day of school, like, every year.

it takes me a while to get used to things.

i keep thinking god's punishing me.

that's life, right? you make the most of it.

[shittyboyfrnd]

your beauty never ever scared me is gonna be my stancy tag.

[shittyboyfrnd]

he’s a 10 but he’ll only buy you chicken nuggets.

[shittyboyfrnd]

@empathiques​

       “  i  mean....  are  you  looking  for  a  shitty  boyfriend?  because....  uh,  i’m  still  available.  “