Smeeb's ZaDr Blog

dear god this thing is cringe

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Might just delete this account.

It holds a lot of memories I wish I didn't remember.

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cranium

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I think the one lying is you, after all it's easy to lie online and photoshop fake chats.

I'll protect Inky until the day I die, and even after

that whole "cult leader inky" nickname is eerily mimicking real life rn

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Why are you using AI to make "your art"?

LOL WHAT i literally have recorded speedpaints of my art what are you on about

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Humor is relative, Inky was likely joking about cutting, because humor is his way to cope; also he was still a minor (17) back then and showing off private message to public is just awful. Please just leave him alone

he is 18 sending uncensored shotacon porn to middle schoolers and lying about it i can say what the hell i want about it

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Actually, I modified Angel Down by Lady Gaga but yes, I rather belive Inky than any of your lies. Ignorance is bliss after all

well if you believe ignorance is bliss, then stay ignorant.

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Look at it may have taken you a while to realize what Inky was doing was wrong, but better late than never- right?

Yeah. Despite it being partially at my expense, I appreciate every callout post ever made on me and Inky. They were fighting the right battle, and I may not have ever made it out had they not been published.

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Shots were fired online

By the site used to meet

Inky is just an angel down

But you just worse everything around

I'm a believer, it's a trial

Foolish and weaker

I'd rather save an angel down

It's chaos

Did you just write poetry calling inky an angel after they abused me for 3 years and tore a whole community apart LMFAO

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I'm sorry for your lies, but I'll always choose to protect Inky anytime

he cheated on me with an 11yo but okay

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Dear Invader Zim Community

Hey. You may know me by many things. shtass, shizazz, smeebmob, smeeb, or most unfortunately, Inky's (also known as Inky Shitp0st, brainrotart, snaxart6, rotten ink, basically the creator of the Invader Zim Demon/Angel AU and the Killer Dib AU etc etc) partner. Inky, one of the most infamous people in the IZ community, was my partner for nearly 3 years. I am here to say that I am sorry I ever supported or believed them and their lies. This is my apology.

I know "sorry" doesn't cut it. I have defended some truly heinous things that I was made to believe were false accusations. Knowing what I know now, I look back on that time with shame. Shame that I let him get away with everything he did to not just others, but myself. It is not fair to anyone that I stood by his side and let his victims be harassed off of the internet or into hiding. It is not even fair to him. He was robbed of an opportunity to learn from his actions, and now continues to repeat them to this day as a legal adult. I forgive unconditionally, but I will never, ever trust him or forget what he did. Everything from grooming, abuse, sexual harassment, even to the horrific things he portrayed in his Killer Dib and Demon/Angel AUs. I'm all for dark fiction and creative freedom, but I draw the line when the writer genuinely thinks the things they are writing about are okay or acceptable in any circumstance in real life. And they did.

I will not go into detail here, but long story short, they abused me, cheated on me, betrayed me, lied to and about me, and much more, all while treating me in such a way that convinced me I did not deserve better.

But most of all, I am sorry for what I allowed him to do to the Invader Zim and ZaDr communities-- the communities that I have loved for years and always were my safe space. He singlehandedly split certain areas of it apart. He has done worse than what you all know and continues his disgusting behavior to this day. The horrific stories he produced were projections of his own mind, and he later acted on those thoughts to varying degrees. The police will be getting involved.

I am sorry to the minors he groomed and manipulated.

I am sorry for the person who I will refer to as Sia for him taking advantage of your unstable state and obsessive personality to later demonize you after he lied to you about me.

I am sorry to everyone who tried to help and support him for your time wasted, as he refused any real help.

I am sorry to everyone who he has lied about and to.

I am sorry for everything.

I am not innocent. I will be exposing my own faults along with his in due time. I only hope that even a few of you will lend your support during this time and help me and his other victims bring him to justice.

And to a certain person who may or may not be reading this... get out of there. You are too young for him and he is an adult. Stop telling him you love him. Stop shipping your characters together. Get out. I know you don't like me, and that's fine. But I don't want him to make another person into a husk of what they once were.

If you have any questions, anyone reading this, I will answer them. Thank you for reading.

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not sure what to do atp. over half the community doesn’t want me here, understandably so. but i still love IZ. shit sucks bro.

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if ur gonna quit where may we find you?

mostly on instagram. smeebsm0b.

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Are you okay? Like, are you safe?

i am safe

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I may be abandoning this blog in a few hours. send in any questions you may have

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redrawing one of my first zadr drawings

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drew him wearing the same outfit as me

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Idk if this is comprehensible but Dib threatening Zim (threats such as “I’ll lock you up” or “I wanna hurt you so bad” idk) and Zim is too sad to fight back so he just says “Okay, go ahead”. Dib felt a bit puzzled and asks if Zim’s feeling ok, and Zim responds with “no”.

If not, just draw them sleeping on a bed or couch as a simple request.

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Added more to it.