one day more

I'm Shelby. and in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make

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Thank you, tumblr. For always being my outlet.

It is almost June 2017; which will be the most life altering month I have ever encountered in my relatively short life. I have lived in this house for almost 11 years now, with my family who have obviously been there through everything. Next month, I am moving. Out of town. Out of this house. Without my family. This experience is something so out of my element, that I truly do not know how to mentally prepare for what is to come. Excited. Anxious. Adaptable. Terrified. Nervous. Ready. Just to name a few emotions I am feeling.

But most of all, love & support. From my family who is finally on board with me making this life choice to move. And to Julian. for always being the backbone that I didn’t know I needed.

I am so ready to take this leap of faith. *i’m not prepared in the slightest*

But I’m ready.

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I think I've quite easily ruined the best thing that has ever happened to me.

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Listening to the Inauguration speeches made me actually cry today. I’m worried and extremely concerned for many issues that were mentioned today.

four more years four more years four more years

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Robin Colella

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Just had my first skype interview for a job.

Technology is so fascinating.

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i’m baaaaack.

this may be a mistake, we’ll see.

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And it is complete.

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Progress picture of my tattoo. One more session to go.

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That was hands down the most awkward night of my life.

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Progress pics because I can. 04.04.16 - 04.22.16 Changing your lifestyle does wonders.

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I can't remember the last time I posted on my blog, but I've come to realize I need this outlet. My high school band director is being forced into retirement. Granted, I graduated in May of 2010, I still regularly talk to him. He has been at that school teaching music since 1988. In Northern California, that is unheard of. The arts are just not supported in that way around here. With his retirement spreading around the town, the amount of alumni that has come together on his account is remarkable. Someone made a Facebook page in his honor, and now it is sort of a way to connect to the alumni through the years. There are over 300 people in this group, and it hasn't even been a week since it was created. Individuals are sharing old stories about him and how great he was. And the more I read, the more saddened I get. It's horrifying how easily it was for the admin to just spring this forced retirement on this man who has spent almost 30 years at one location. They want a fresh new face, right out of college, who will do his job at a much lower rate. It's disgusting how admin just assumes that teachers of arts are so expendable. This teacher taught me so many life lessons. "If you're early you're on time, if you're on time you're late," stands out to me. He taught me time management. Leadership. Adaptability. Attention to detail. But most importantly confidence. I was the shy kid. The one who wanted to just be in the background, with no attention on her. He believed in me. And taught me that it is okay to like myself and what I'm doing. Because hot damn, I'm kind of good. Without him, I wouldn't have the confidence to push myself through music. I went from a tiny piccolo player, to a badass bass drummer. I have played for thousands of people now in multiple lines. Sacramento State. Sac Kings. Oakland Raiders. Without his belief that I could do this, I probably wouldn't even gone to my first college audition. I may not have a degree in music. Or even have a slight clue what I want to do when I "grow up," but I do know I have support. Thank you, Toff. For absolutely everything. You are a remarkable human being, and it is a complete and utter shame what they have done. You haven't just taught people music. You changed lives.

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My reason behind working 70+ hours a week has been to purchase my own car. It took my 6 months of hardwork, dedication and coffee but here it is! My new 2013 Nissan Versa and I couldn't be happier. Hard works pay off, friends. ❤🔥🚘