Ok im not even sure what to do anymore. I just hate myself so much and when ever i try to fix that my family brings me back down to that place i donāt want to be. I canāt even look at my sister anymore without brimming with hate and remembering every single shitty thing she has ever said to me. Iām filled with so much hate that I can;t stand it. My hate is seeping towards my friends and I canāt let that happen. Iām so scared that Iāll never just feel ok, I donāt even want to be happy anymore I just want to be ok.
Iām so worried about my friends, all my friends online or not. I canāt do anything for them even though theyāre all working so hard, so much more than me. Itās depressing. I constantly worry all I do is worry, Iām so scared and terrified and angry and I want to cry and this isn;t something an adult like me should be feeling. But no one told me about how the real world worked and brushed me aside believing that I can do everything and bring me down when I cant.
I...yeah thats it, I already made it final I want nothing to do with my mother or my sister anymore. I canāt do it, I dont want the stress, thats all they do. I dont want to hate them but itās far too late way too damn late. My mother yelled at me for the most stupid and mundane things because she prioritized her boyfriend instead of her own children. My sister takes out her stress on everyone and aspects everyone to do the same amount of work and more she does. She complains noone helps her even when Iām right in front of her jumping through barrels helping her kids. She stole money from me and brushed it off yet yells at me when I forget the littlest things when Im tired and focusing on school
I donāt want to be around them anymore, never again, I canāt do it I refuse to do it I rather be dead or in the streets or burned alived than ever being involved with them I canāt do it.
baratheonpilled
tangentwithtanner
dededos
andulkaphoto
discoholicmusic