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Quick what are you doing RIGHT now (besides scrolling Tumblr)

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I felt like shit for the last almost week until today which has severely impacted my work productivity, however, in reviewing prior work I have done in preparing for an appeal, I am feeling pretty damn good. I do fucking good work.

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Eleven years ago was crazy tomato season with my one year old sidekick and puppy.

Eight years ago I was on a solo trip in Hawaii.

Two years ago we were on our first real family vacation post divorce in Maine.

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I have had a headache since like Tuesday which has really hindered my ability to get shit done. I have a trial at the end of the month plus an appellate brief due before then so I do not have time to be down and out. It may be the new does of my meds but I don’t know for sure. I’m very frustrated about it but there’s not a damn thing that helps.

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I’m an electrical man who dances.

ok.

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Before and after. I got it in 2015 after seeing similar art on here. I could not find a credit for it. A few years ago I saw on IG that a random woman has the same tattoo in the same spot so I had to message her. I also have a version of it hanging in my room that I got on Zulily a few years ago.

Still love it. Scales of justice with a pinup girl will be done in September.

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Another electrician is coming today to give an estimate and the printer guy was here earlier this week. I’m just not in the mood to deal with any more strangers in my house rn.

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Really unexciting adult stuff, but recently applying for a home equity loan for electrical work on the house has me feeling more grown up which is so weird. At twenty I was a college graduate, married, owned a home, started a career, and was pregnant. But now, at 41, the first home equity loan is what made me feel grown up. Brains are weird.

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So the med increase may be helping more than I thought. I’ve been tackling little things all around the house that I’ve put off for months. Multiple of them in a single day! My office is still a work in progress but it’s nice progress is actually happening. I need to paint the green wall and then also hang the Brandon Boyd print my mom got me for Christmas.

I had a gnarly dream last night where my ex-husband had kidnapped me and in his manic, not tethered to reality state (like the one he went into after I left him) was demanding that we get back together and I adopt his daughter. I was trying to discreetly access my cell phone which was by my feet and actively assessing when would be the best time to jump out of a moving car. What is so interesting to me is that in those kinds of dreams (which happen a few times a year) I don’t feel scared or panicked, moreso annoyed and just waiting for it to be over, knowing I’ll escape safely. So I have that going for me. But ick. Just shy of six years until I can block him everywhere forever! A celebration will be had.

My mornings are still slower to get with the program than they used to be. Like I could roll out of bed and get myself ready and do all my morning chores and get out the door in like 20 minutes. Now it takes forever. I need to get my ass in gear for a call with the county attorneys office at nine and a billion other things. Related: if anyone knows a rich benefactor who would like to donate oodles of money to a domestic abuse nonprofit, send them my way. I applied for over $300k in grants last night and need to keep going.

My office smells like garlic as it’s curing in there and I love it. So does Yeti.

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This book is disturbing but I love the writing style. I don’t want to know more and then I can’t stop reading it.

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I wonder how long it will take for this 2,103 page PDF to print.

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IG banned me from going live for a year because I reposted a video that asked you to think critically about Kylie Jenner’s partnership with Meta AI. It was not inflammatory or anything even slightly offensive. It is still up on Barrett Pall’s page, so it obviously doesn’t violate their actual guidelines. If not for work I’d delete both my accounts (IG and FB). Instead I’ll only log into them when I have to for work stuff.

I made a concerted effort to stay off my phone yesterday and it did make me feel much better overall and it didn’t feel like my day flew by with nothing to show for it. I used to be able to cut habits off so easily, but it’s definitely a chore to do so now. Worth it, but still a chore.

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Minneapolis via Jordan van der Hagen

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When I worked downtown I would sometimes have lunch at Peavey Plaza in the summer.

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July reads. I enjoyed all of them, with God of the Woods being my favorite. Friends with Benefits was cute but could’ve been shorter. Alone With You in the Ether was good but something I would’ve devoured it in my 20s.

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This year feels like slogging through mud without realizing I’m slogging through mud. I know I’m not alone in this, but damn. Damn.

I got really light headed at the tail end of my mammogram and had to immediately sit down when the machine released me. My vision was going black. She told me throughout to breathe normally but that made it more painful, so I think I was unintentionally holding my breath on and off for the entire thing. It was weird though.

I have no children until Monday evening which is weird but also a nice reprieve as I work from home, have them like 80% of the time, and they’re on summer break. It makes my already tenuous grasp on my focus barely attainable.

My tattoo touch up didn’t happen last week due to a scheduling conflict, so that’s next Friday. Then the day after my two day trial in a month I get a brand spanking new one!

My self confidence has tanked due to my executive functioning issues and it’s a major bummer. I know it’s there but I can’t access it. It’s maddening. Self confidence is key in the work I do and yet.

I plan to do a few chores, then read the rest of the evening. No weekend plans other than to play catch-up and read. The weather finally cooled down so I’ll make sure I get out to enjoy that too.

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Judge denies X.AI effort to halt ban on tech that depicts people nude without permission

Elon Musk’s company X.AI sought an emergency injunction blocking the law that bans nudification technology, a tool that can use someone’s li

Fuck yeah!

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Things are hard and unnecessarily complicated right now and coupled with my brain fog, it makes for a real shit sandwich. But at least the mammogram check in lady had jokes.