星のない空に輝く光を

i thought he was going to make it, but his music seemed like a goodbye. 私は本当のですか？ connor // 30 // male i like memes and photography

[shuuhatsu]

i am going to explode into a million tiny shards if i have to hear “men wouldnt own that” or “men dont wear that” or “thats so girly” one more time

clothing isnt gendered!!! i can wear whatever i want!!!

people i thought i could trust making me go back in the closet and only dress how i want when im alone

i feel like i cant express myself anymore and its weighing me down so bad

[shuuhatsu]

my dad made a joke on mothers day

i wanted to laugh but i couldnt

he said “its a good thing i took that job, otherwise you wouldnt be here!”

and all i could think of in that moment is that i would have been okay never existing

[shuuhatsu]

my life is miserable

someone like me shouldnt be alive

[shuuhatsu]

i cant believe we got into a fight last night on christmas eve and he threatened he would be mad all day today and it would ruin christmas and i knew he meant it but this has to be hands down the worst christmas ever because i dont even know what i did originally to make him upset and we have to go to my parents house and its just going to be awkward

[uroko]

via 💚🌿

[theinternetarchive]

from 'kaffe's classics: 25 favorite knitting patterns for sweaters, jackets, vests, and more' kaffe fasset, pub. 1993.

[tired-doodles]

[mokzo]

[konoko]

[fuckyeahchinesegarden]

blue sky and white clouds in ili by 刘知著

[nature-travel-photography]

The waters of Lake McDonald in Glacier National Park. [3024x4032] [OC] - S34rching41t

[shuuhatsu]

i feel like im going to throw up im so anxious

im getting old and i havent been able to move abroad like i was planning to 5 years ago before covid and now the person i thought i was going to spend my whole life with doesnt even know if he wants to move to the country we decided on when we first started dating

i love him but i dont know if i can sacrifice my dream if he doesnt want to go anymore

i dont know what to do and i feel like im running out of time and im so unhappy thinking about it i want to cry

[meme-xx]

Moon (Oct. 30, 2019)

[decomposedmaw]

Chillin’ on the Bridge

[shuuhatsu]

living is terrible i hope the me of my next life is happier and gets to be who he wants and do what he wants and live where he wants

i think i will bet on my next life instead

this one didnt go as planned and i have accepted i will probably be miserable until i die

[shuuhatsu]

i think im miserable

[shuuhatsu]

when i think about living i just want to die

when i think about my relationship i just want to cry

im so unhappy i dont think anything can save me