Alois Trancy

⊹ ࣪ ˖ Adored by Alois ⋆˚࿔ Multi-Muse | Multi-Verse | Multi-Ship Minors DNI

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ᶻz﹒Alois / Maple . 21 . It/Neos

ᶻz﹒Married [ ♡ @daggerinthedark ♡ ] . Graphics used are made by Them

ᶻz﹒Interacts from @ask-the-aphs . NSFW @chewwtoy . ind. Yuuki Anzai @thedevilholdshesitation

ᶻz﹒Artist, Writer, Angst Lover

ᶻz﹒Cringe Enthusiast, Forever stuck in 2009

ᶻz﹒I love crossovers and AUs so please don't shy away from them!

ᶻz﹒Feel free to DM me if you just wanna chat ♡ be warned though I struggle to give timely answers a lot more often than not!

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Also who the fuck goes " I'm worried about you and your situation but I'm not gonna provide you resources or further concern, I'm just gonna tell you that you're wrong for helping your spouse, block you, and move on. "

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sorry all my posts have been drama related but these 30 somethings and probably shin really feel threatened by lil ole me 🥀 cannot let them lie on my nammeee... anyways

I will TTTRY to do phone stuff! uhh other than that bai :3c ttyl

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Gonna do some heavy talk here. I don't like doing this, but someone went to me on anon about my spouse accusing him before even talking to me, before blocking me. So I wanted to clear the air.

TW for allegations, implied DV, abuse mentions.

Someone finally came into my ask box telling me that my partner is abusing me because of what he mentioned about his own mental illnesses. Things he's worked on, is actively working on, etc.

As if I also don't actively have homicidal or violent jealous thoughts myself, as a paranoid schizophrenic, who has a brother that also has Schizo-affective and has experienced homicidality. And a half-Dad ( half-brother's dad ) who is also schizo-affective. That I don't know that some of the shit he's done is abusive. But that doesn't mean I'm gonna leave the person I've been helping go to therapy for the past two years just because someone saw him be a little "too honest" once.

But I'm also not some naïve kid in their first relationship with someone mentally ill. I fully signed up for this the day we started dating because he was honestly better than the people I've dated before who ACTUALLY abused me. Told me not to eat, controlled my schedule, etc.

My dude. All genuine due respect for you reaching out because you're genuinely worried? But my spouse is not a danger to me. I have never been actually physically hurt in any lasting way that is nonconsensual. Doesn't matter if you wanna think he's some evil person, he actively avoids hurting me in any way he can. Any time he lashes out nowadays is ONLY in the compacity that I am aware I should not have been trying to touch him to begin with. Or actual accidents. Most of the stuff he talked about? That was because of people before me, before I came into his life. They were partners who abused him, and he only mirrored what they did to him, which has been something he's been working on. Was it good?? No!! I'm not defending his past or abuse mirroring, but he has not done anything I haven't wanted or agreed to WILLINGLY a single time in the three years we've been together. He's been a better person than that the whole time I've known him.

And you want to call him threatening others abuse??? He's never ACTUALLY threatened people because he trusts me enough not to actually do it when I say I'm not interested or if I clarify. Besides that, most straight couples have it normalized to where the guy can tell his girl she can't have guy friends or visaversa.

On that note, I do kinda find it hot, so like, checkmate /hj

Maple. Is not. An abuser.

We are just a couple of people who have both made bad decisions in our lives before who became better people together. A pair of people who are just way too attached to each other.

Again.

Maple. Is not. An abuser.

His mental illness and other peoples actions caused this behavior, and without them around—getting him out of his prior environment—has made him a much better person. Whether or not he cares to even be a 'better' person.

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giggling, cw/tw for abuse mentions

baby's first domestic abuse allegations \o/!! im aware that poet's anon had already probably blocked me but god im not sorry for having a laugh about it

props to anon for their concern!! but be so fucking for real

I do not abuse poet in any way and to claim what ive done is abuse is ASTOUNDING considering this person only saw the surface level of what i tried explaining that ive done

I'm no good with my words but to say such a thing... you cannot be deadass???

Am I sorry? No, not really. I don't even inherently feel bad because im incapable — but I know my previous actions were wrong and I've been getting better

Besides I don't even care to be a "good person" - everything about "morals" was abused into me

Poet showed me kindness, a gentleness I DEFINITELY do not deserve but they always tell me otherwise because they love me. And by God I love them, I never truly wanted marriage until I found them.

They're the kindest soul I've ever met and there's no one ever quite like them. I see them in everything I love and I'd never want to change that.

They lead me to be a better person. Even if I don't want to, even if I'm stubborn along the way. They want to see me thrive so I do all I can for them to get better, even if it's one step at a time.

not to mention it's not like poet isn't enjoying themself during any of these oh-so-evil things ive done!! ♡

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I'm sorry, if you're going to block me. I'm sorry that your EGO is more important than friendships. Get out of my space. I don't want any of you who have been victim blaming my friend in my life.

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EGO?!

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I want you all to listen the fuck up.

Because you know what? Fuck some non-targeted people pleasing middle road post. Fuck try to walk in the grey when this shit is black and white. Fuck pussyfooting around people with fragile egos.

Clearly, none of you understand how mental fucking illness works. None of you know how horrible, how HORRIFYING, that moment of seeing everyone you once saw as a friend as your enemy. You don't know what triggered it. You just know that your head hurts, and you keep thinking about that one time in your childhood. You don't see your friends you see enemies. They are in on it. And the only way to get that headache to go away is to retreat, to block, or even to fight!! If flight didn't work before, why not lash out, huh???

When you realize what's happened, when you give yourself the space to calm down, you try to apologize. You try to reach out—but instead of being met with people who understand you, that are willing to listen and understand what caused such a violent reaction?? You're blamed for not being able to control yourself. You're told your actions are manipulation, and that you're a shitty person for experiencing emotions.

None of you. Understand. Mental illness.

BPD splits are not abuse, they're a TRAUMA REACTION. They are a result of a bad headspace, a broken fight or flight. Mood destablization.

BPD does not equal Narcissism. Narc abuse doesnt exist. Personality Disorders do not make the abuser.

Get it through your thick fucking skull that life is not the same now as it was when you were a teenager. You're all pulling this shit not knowing anything of what the fuck you're talking about, at all of your grown ass of ages. You want to compare people, take a look at my fucking partner, who I haven't left no matter how he's lashed out.

Am I being manipulated? Am I being delusional?

Or do all of you just see Drone as a threat?

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hi everypony i didnt think id have to do this but its getting to ridiculous levels of stupid in here

Kay did nothing wrong. neither did Drone. Kay and Drone are mentally ill people who have their struggles and obviously worked it out.

if you think you have a say on when and who Kay forgives you're fucking stupid and need to re-evaluate how much you probably sound like your own shitty parent(s) who never let you make a decision in your life.

Kay and Drone are two wonderful people and I have only ever spoken to Kay ONCE and never with Drone and yet it seems like im the more understanding persons here. crazy isn't it?

If you think they're bad why don't you come be abelist to someone like me? Because yes creating a whole situation on this IS abelism to a very strong degree. You people are slapping labels of narcisism without knowing the fucking word nor what it means because you watched a few flawed therapy tiktoks.

you are no better than the average dipshit

i am a person with npd, aspd, and bpd. i have complex ptsd and in which the abuse i grew up in gave me several personality issues and several personalities period.

npd is not an abusive thing. narcisists are not abusive but there can be abusive narcisists. if you think otherwise YOU ARE ABELIST. it is abelist retoric to go against a PD and claiming it causes someone to be abusive (which we all know is what you really wanted to say, you're not slick). dont use the word narcisism to cover up your hatred because you end up looking abelist

my mother 100% has BPD, so do I. my mother was abusive to me growing up and her bpd splits made it not easier on me. now do you think that's bpd abuse? if so you win the dumbest fuck alive award!!

because disorders do not make abusers, abusing others does

here are all the list of things (i remember) that would get me flamed on here if it were an active private situation made public

physically threatened others for getting too close to my partner

blocked and deleted many accounts due to episodes (dating back since ~2016)

physically hurt others due to whatever relationship made me feel i needed to

threaten to kill with complete intent towards my active partner's mother

threaten to kill with complete intent other family members of my active partner's family

push away others from my active partner

have my active partner distance from others (of their own will, but i have a play in it ofc)

physically threaten my active partner

physically hurt my active partner (accident or not, some things were worse than others)

anger and prod at my active partner to the point they nearly physically hurt me

and all of these things are due to my mental illness. far worse than anything Drone or Kay could and would ever do.

i deal with severe homicidal ideation and tendencies and was medically recognized as such in 2017 when i went to my first institution. i act out on these things daily and hurt the person i love the most more than once a day if it's worse than usual.

if you want to pick a fight with anyone pick a fight with someone who will knock you on your ass with no remorse

i do not say this as a 'im going to find and hurt you' all i can say is ive been thinking about it.

act like grown adults and stop acting like people's lives are some tumblr drama you can paint yourself to be the victim in. youre grown as fuck. act like it. dont go to your momma - have a fucking backbone or shut the hell up

i am far worse. so why not try to come at someone with REAL issues and REAL damage done. otherwise get the fuck off the platform and go cry to your equally abelist mother

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Mun VS Hobby

( photography for this week since I 1) missed munday and 2) haven't been able to draw or write much recently )

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plinks... i have 0 Wi-Fi access currently since we're (finally) back at the apartment

replies may be done via phone, I'm not sure yet since I know people will often unfollow or even block users who don't cut down posts/etc (xkit thingy)

I'll be playing it safe and keeping to myself for the time being but I hope to get back to writing sometime

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In light of this I'll be looking at things on my phone and drafting up replies in google docs, and polish them in tumblr drafts.

I do genuinely want to write it's just been extremely stressful times for both Poet and I — and I can be quite. Agressive, a lot of the times and I don't want to ruin the good times on here for Poet or myself.

I'll bother them about turning their hot spot on later when they're back from work so I can get back to proper posting :)

Thanks everyone for keeping patient even if you forgot about my blog 💜

*I also plan to rework my muse and fandom lists at... some point

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plinks... i have 0 Wi-Fi access currently since we're (finally) back at the apartment

replies may be done via phone, I'm not sure yet since I know people will often unfollow or even block users who don't cut down posts/etc (xkit thingy)

I'll be playing it safe and keeping to myself for the time being but I hope to get back to writing sometime

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Hesitating, and maybe even understanding a little what hid in that mind of his, he took the box from the other's hands with a gentle expression and a soft smile. "Then I'll take it, thank you..." Matthew muttered, an almost pitying tone rooted in his voice. "It's pretty." He continued on speaking as he walked over to a spot with a small table - setting the container down as he takes the object out of it, examining it a little bit. "Ah..." Matthew turned to the anxious man in his space, holding out the bracelet once more to the man. "Do you mind helping me put it on? I have a hard time putting these kinds of things on myself."

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Mathias took his hand back gently after the Canadian took the box, smiling widely as he rested the palm against the frame of the door, leaning against it. Matthew's tone wasn't completely lost on him, but he shook it away mentally and focused on the other.

He kept himself at the door though, watching as he drew the bracelet from the box and held it out. Careful steps forward--he was treading in another's space--delicate fingers taking the beaded and charmed jewelry in his hands before carefully unclasping it.

" Give me your hand. "

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A minor breath of hesitation held space but vanished once he meekly held his hand out. “You don't have to put it on me, you know... It was just a silly request.” a faint chuckle escaping his throat.

“But this is just like you, huh. doing the small, sweet, things for others...” Once he realized what came from his mouth a flush of pink rose in his face. “I-I mean it's not bad of course! It's something I like about you —"

Using his other hand to cover a fake cough he motioned it after. “As a uhm, friend of course.” Though inside himself he knew it wasn't like that in the slightest. More than friendship was just a silly little dream he'd keep to himself forever.

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Langa took beats of silence before he answered, setting his hands ever-so politely in his own lap as he tried to be as gentle as he could be about breaking the news to Reki that he had said yet another embarrassing thing for the both of them. "You called me handsome." He muttered a little under his breath but tried to keep his voice loud enough for at least Reki to hear. Although his face was far more pink than he wanted it to be - which he could tell it was in some capacity due to the heat he felt - he simply looked at Reki with a sort of dumbfounded expression.

"And it's not like I'm really interested in any girls... Not many talk to me in the first place." Langa admitted.

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Okay, well, maybe he should just stop talking before he makes things any more awkward. Maybe he should just open a window and jump out. Actually, it wasn’t that big of a deal — it shouldn’t be, at least, but the way the other pointed it out was flustering him.

“I-I mean, it’s true,” he insisted in a mutter, “the girls in our class talk about how you’re handsome ‘n stuff. They just don’t know how to talk to you… You’d definitely be asked out by girls left and right if you were a little more social.”

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"Huh, they do?" That oblivious blank stare rolled over his face again, Langa really couldn't take the hint - could he? Leaving Reki doomed with the embarrassment that continues to follow around in conversations like these.

"I guess they kind of watch me a lot, but like I said I'm not really interested in any girls..." Glancing down at his plate before him something slipped out, like he was trying to avoid saying it all together or at least keep it to a mutter. "It's not even like I like girls anyway so what's the point."

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alrighty I'm trying to get back into the swing of things, stuff isn't much better than before but rowan gave me some homework for writing so here I am...

totally won't ruin my sleep schedule, trust...

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Okay I'm going to attempt to get replies out as good as I can~ I woke up at 12am so let's see how well this goes

They'll most likely be stuck in drafts until I'm ready to actually begin getting replies again for roleplays that were already started

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⋆˚꩜｡ MULTI-MUSE . MULTI-SHIP . MULTI-VERSE ᝰ.ᐟ

⋆˚꩜｡ OPEN TO ROLEPLAY . DMs × REBLOGS ᝰ.ᐟ

⋆˚꩜｡ MINORS DNI . PRO-AI DNI . POLITICS DNI ᝰ.ᐟ

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ᶻz﹒Alois / Maple . 21 . It/Neos

ᶻz﹒Married [ ♡ @daggerinthedark ♡ ] . Graphics used are made by Them

ᶻz﹒Interacts from @ask-the-aphs . NSFW @chewwtoy . ind. Yuuki Anzai @thedevilholdshesitation

ᶻz﹒Artist, Writer, Angst Lover

ᶻz﹒Cringe Enthusiast, Forever stuck in 2009

ᶻz﹒I love crossovers and AUs so please don't shy away from them!

ᶻz﹒Feel free to DM me if you just wanna chat ♡

ᶻz﹒I have ASPD and I am not really on much nor answer DMs (unless about the roleplay) because of it this is your only warning on this

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𐔌 . ֹDo not God Mod my characters! If you want to control what I do so badly then please just write a fanfic or something ₊ ꒱

𐔌 . ֹI only do full NSFW with people 20+, anyone who is 18-19 are only reserved for Fade to Blacks and there is no compromise for this ₊ ꒱

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𐔌 . ֹ NSFW and Suggestive aspects are more welcome on this blog due to the character, source material, and my over all comfortability towards this specific blog. ASK what's acceptable when it comes to kinks and terms₊ ꒱

𐔌 . ֹI don't entirely mind age gaps but I draw the line at minor x adult and things like cradle robbing₊ ꒱

𐔌 . ֹI LOVE complex relationships, please don't be afraid to ask to explore deeper aspects such as toxic dynamics! But please do not ask me to play an abuser ₊ ꒱

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𐔌 . ֹI do not do TPK or rp with OP characters that you can't balance out in some way, roleplay is meant to be enjoyed by both sides and just having my character insta-death or bend to all of your character's will isn't enjoyable for me! ₊ ꒱

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edited some things, read carefully