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Day 10 Effexor

Feel pretty fine today just grumpy

Day 9 Effexor

Almost woke up too tired to eat with my pill. Heavily considered just taking it and rolling over but Kazooie forced me to get up. Took the pill and ate a piece of toast with butter and a few grapes.

Had weeeeiiiird dreams. Dreams of me being in a room full of a group of boys, “Eddie” and William (k’s William) they broke my moms fire pit.

Sowmith was there?? And they all wanted me to sleep with him in front of them. I was self conscious cos my legs were hairy. I was with base in this dream. I had to ask him permission to do it and he said yes. It was weird. Never got to the actual doing it part but there was a lot of lead up lol.

Day 8 Effexor

It was Sabres Subathon today. Played 12 hours of games straight.

Very anxious feeling at the end of it.

Food today:

Egg cup

Half a decaf/reg coffee

Half a blueberry bagel with cream cheese

4 small slices of frozen Pizza Hut pizza

1 coca cola

Super nauseous and anxious feeling tonight.

Day 7 Effexor

Woke up with bad headache.

Tiredness still very much here. Appetite better but not ALL better.

Slept til 5 today.

Ate:

-half a blueberry bagel with butter

-macaroni casserole

-pineapple raspberry coconut smoothie

-2 crackers with cream cheese

-keto wrap with 1 chicken tender, Caesar dressing and cheese

-handful of doritos

Anxiety not bad today.

Day 6 Effexor

This is the best morning out of the week.

No panic, just tired, minimal dizziness and nausea.

Best I felt all week. No panic at night.

Appetite a bit better today:

Half a bagel

A bagel sandwich

Hot chocolate

A small cheese and deli meat quesadilla

Thing of seaweed

Lemon cake slice

Day 5 Effexor

Last night I woke up every hour or so. Trouble sleeping. CRAZY dreams. Vivid and realistic. Dreamt about my first apartment and went back there and it was just as I had left it. Full of stuff. I ransacked lerrandas room and grabbed all her pc parts and her Nintendo 64 cartridges. She came in and we reconnected. It wasn’t unpleasant.

Then I had several other dreams where I shared a house with a bunch of people and we all got chased by giant gods in the sky. Base was there and there was something weed correlated.

I woke up super dizzy and out of it and nauseous. I choked down a piece of toast immediately and took my pill then passed out for the next 4 hours.

I played about 3 hours of games with Sabre and then had to lay down mid stream and pass out. I’m awake now at 1am and feeling just kinda tired honestly. A little “not real” feeling but not as bad as the last few nights.

#effexor #venlafaxine #personal

Day 4 Effexor

Woke up feeling less panicky than the last few days but not great tbh. It’s hard to choke down a piece of toast the second I wake up to take with the pill. I’m tired. Could sleep again.

Its 6pm. I ate an actual meal tonight I had macaroni casserole and some lemon cake. I feel better than I have the last few days. I have a headache, feel pretty tired still - but I am definitely feeling a little bit better than the last few days.

Still haven’t pooped tho.

Anxiety not too bad tonight but I wake up around 2:30am with slight panic, difficulty calming my heart rate. Feeling woozy and sinking.

Day 3 Effexor

I slept most of the day. Slight panic but not as bad. I was in and out of sleep for like 8 hours. Played some games in the evening, felt less scared than the last 2 days but still had to focus on my breathing. Night time is the worst. 8/9 pm I feel scared and nervous. Went to sleep around 1:30am after playing some games from 8:30-1.

#Effexor #venlafaxine

Day 2 Effexor

Woke up in a panic , called nurses hotline and pharmacist because I couldn’t get my heart rate down and was freaking out. Was told I could take an Ativan with it but I didn’t. I slept. Woke up feeling sick and panicky still. Played some games with my brother and boyfriend to try and distract myself: HORRIBLE headache that night. Tried to sleep it off but had trouble sleeping. Kept waking up with heart palpitations.

#Effexor #venlafaxine

Day 1 Effexor

Horrible panic attacks

Vocalized them

Dizzy , sweaty, sinking feeling , overwhelming sense of doom and despair

Hard time sleeping

#Effexor #venlafaxine