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Fallon couldn’t wipe the dopey smile off his face whenever he was around Sid, his presence always made him feel like he was walking on some kind of cloud, and he couldn’t get enough of it. “try not to cry” he teased before starting the trip. Knowing what Fallon could do on his bike he decided to test Sid’s limits, swerving between cars a bit, definitely going over the speed limit. Fallon did a lot of street racing so he typically knew what roads the cops hung out on and where to avoid them. Not entirely sure Sid would love all the activities he planned he figured he’d give it a shot.
Taking many detours he made it to the parking lot of the aquarium, parking in the back where no one else was parked he stopped the bike, took off his helmet and got off to check on Sid “didn’t crap yourself did you?” he teased holding his hand out for him.
hearing what fallon said before taking off, sid had the time to poke him in his side.”oh shut up..” he said and chuckled, as he held onto him tightly, and as he should’ve, as the two swerved through cars being wayy too close to them and going wayy to fast on top of it all.. finding it a fucking miracle that they didn’t die.. for parts of it he even found himself screaming while grabbing onto the other even harder, closing his eyes. he only opened his eyes as it started to slow down to a normal pace again. giving him time to look around before looking at the back of tthe man while the pulled up into the parking lot of the aquarium and stopped..
And while fallon climbed off, sid still sat there for a moment looking up and over at fallon as he teased him.. “I’ve never clenched my asshole so fucking hard in my entire life...” he said while taking his helmet off finally setting it down against the seat. “You’re getting nowhere near it, its staying puckered until next year..”
Fallon rolled his eyes at his comment before grabbing his side and pulling him against him “naw, I just haven’t gotten tired of your face yet” he teased before stealing a kiss from the other. Fallon glanced down at Sid’s helmet and let out a sigh “you take all the fun out of being able to scare you on this thing”. Starting the bike back up he waited for Sid to hop on, putting his own helmet on “guess i’ll just have to try harder at it”.
the man couldn’t help but grin as fallon grabbed at his side and pulled him against him. sid’s eyes looked down on him before he bent forward to kiss him back. “i better keep seeing you around then..” he whispered, before kissing him one more time. as he straightened up his back he heard fallon’s voice. “Hey- i dont know if you remember but mine’s a piece of shit.. i’ve barely gotten to ride it..” he chuckled before he started up his bike again, sid stepped over the bike to straddle it before he sat down, putting his helmet on. arms wrapped around fallon’s body. “oh fuck baby--”
Most times they’d seen each other lately had been in private behind closed doors, their works schedules just had them both so busy during the day. Fortunately they had both managed to get a day free so Fallon had some plans. He showed up at Sid’s place on his motorcycle, texting him that he was outside. He thought about when Sid used to be scared of rising his bike with him, how funny he thought it was, and he realized it probably won’t be like that anymore.
Seeing Sid he smiled warmly “hey stranger”.
@sidneycnorton
to say sid was just excited didn’t feel like it would even cover it.. there had been so many late night’s sneaking around that getting day time dates was something else.. he’d been sat waiting, and at the sound of a motorcycle engine he knew who it was.. he grabbed his jacket and opened the door, to see the man sat there. a wide grin spread across his lips. “Somehow i keep finding you hanging out around here-- making me think you like me or something..” he teased as he grabbed his own helmet, closing his front door and walked up to the man, only stopping when he stood right in front of him.
Welcome to New York SIDNEY NORTON. We hope you are finding everything okay because we know that this city can be difficult to explore. We heard that you are a 27-year-old who is a BARTENDER and identifies as CIS-MALE is that true? If so it totally makes sense since people would associate OIL ON CANVAS, OREGON WOODS, and PINK PRINCESS TOYS EVERYWHERE with you. You’ve been here since 2017 / 5 YEARS and nobody has told you that you look exactly like NICK ROBINSON?!
Sid was born the eldest son of his town's preacher, leaving him neck deep in responsibilities and expectations of how he should live and act. leaving him very much uptight, and leaning more onto the innocent side of things. he'd never drunk, done anything illegal, was firmly on waiting until marriage, and was a virgin well into his 20s
All throughout his childhood he never really felt comfortable with the idea of spending his life with who was expected of him. He kept finding himself looking at boys in the locker room all throughout middle and high school more than his gaze traveled when it came to women but never once did he even dear think the thought that he was anything but straight.
To distract himself, he got heavily into art, diving deep into styles like Baroque, Rococo and Academism.. All style era’s he pulls inspiration from when he paints, and it there something he’s proud of its about the art he makes. Despite never having showed anyone..
In his early 20s, he met Fallon Hexner. The first man he truly fell for, he was his first everything. his first ‘relationship’, first kiss, and the man that ended up taking his virginity, and he was head over heels for him, convincing himself that fallon was his person, his forever.
but only 6 months after they’d met, fallon left town without saying much, and he never saw him after that..
heartbroken sid for the first time in his life started spiralling quite the bit afterwards, he started drinking more, and came across people he shouldn’t have associated with. and soon after he met a girl..
they had a mess of a romance, where she early on proved to not be the best for him, or for herself for that matter.. she drank, did drugs etc. but sid promised he’d take care of her.. so the two moved across country to nyc, where they tried to get by for almost a year or so..
one day he learned that the woman he was with was pregnant with his baby.. the entire pregnancy was rough, as his girlfriend struggled staying sober, something which resulted him her being born a bit too early, that day was the very best day of his life..
but not long after his daughters mother would pass due to complications the drugs had on her body.. leaving him alone with a premature newborn to raise on his own.
and now at 3, it’s really showing that sid has done an amazing job with his daughter, working as hard as he can to provide anything she wants.. He’s even started painting more as his work actually sells for OK money. but still has a job as a bartender at a night club
He’s also just working on himself.. not having seen anyone since the death of his baby’s mother..
He was already beating himself up for ruining the moment, but all those years between when he’d seen him almost felt like a huge amount of time and no time all at the same time. He watched his anxious ticks that he knew all too well and felt even worse, cursing to himself mentally. “I didn’t mean to” he stepped a bit closer again “I just, I don’t even know what’s been going on with you, like you could be seeing someone for all I know and I just threw myself at you”.
sid didn’t want to look as pitiful as he knew he could, but he supposed he failed by the look on fallon’s face when he looked back at him. rubbing the back of his neck, he glanced over at the dark haired male as soon as he started walking closer to him. biting his bottom lip, he reached out, grabbing parts of his flanell, feeling the fabric between his fingers. “-- i can promise you i’m not seeing anyone.. i haven’t really.. yeah..”
Fallon felt himself lost in the kiss before it sort of hit him that as much as he knew Sidney he didn’t really know him that well anymore, it had been so many years and he didn’t even know if he was seeing anyone. As much as he didnt want to he forced himself to step back and break the kiss, catching his breath as he watched him “fuck-” he muttered running a hand through his hair “i’m sorry, that was..yeah, i’m sorry”. It was his turn to fumble over his words.
sid for once couldn’t get enough, and no part of him wanted it to end. so as sidney was about to lean forward into the kiss, it was almost like he was about to fall forward as fallon stepped away from him, pulled back from the kiss in the process.. leaving him hovering for a second while his brain tried to not allow itself to be as hurt as it wanted to be.. the man swallowed hard as he leaned his head back, clearing his throat before his hues fell to the ground, quite certain he was to blame somehow.. especially as fallon started apologizing.. making sid start assuming that he had to’ve been seeing someone and none of this should’ve happened.. sid pulled his hands back, shoving them into his jacket.. “-- don’t be... it’s fine... it uh.. just happens..“ he said, pulling one of his hands out of his pocket again, nervously biting his little finger as he always did when nerves hit him the absolute worst
Fallon heard the words, barely above a whisper and he couldn’t think anymore, everything between them rushed to him and he kissed him harder, moving his hands to his hips and pushing him backwards til his back was up against one of the cars. He wasn’t sure he would be able to pull away, he didn’t even know anything about him anymore, but in that moment he didn’t care.
the second sid’s back hit something, something in him clicked back into place, his hands gripped onto him as his kiss only got hungrier and more desperate, scared if he opened his eyes, it would all be another bad dream, because he’d needed this.. he’d needed to feel fallon again. to feel alive for the first time in almost 5 years, and he refused to let the chance pass him by.
Fallon felt everything else melting away as they stood there holding each other, he hated that so much time had passed between them but none of his feelings had ever gone away. He’d bounced between relationships but nothing stuck. Losing himself in the moment he pulled back and cupped the boy’s face “I missed you” he breathed out before kissing him softly.
after fallon left and later after everything with the mother of his child had happened, sid had almost come to the conclusion that he wasn’t meant to be with anyone. that anyone being with him was bad luck, so he hadn’t seen anyone in over 3 years. so as soon as fallon pulled back and sid felt large hand hold onto his face, the three words ringing in his ears before the distantly familiar taste of his lips was all over his own. the man returned the kiss by holding his face back, tasting his lips before managing to whisper the words back in return. “i missed you--” almost scared to say it too loud
Fallon when he tried to pull back and Sid didn’t let go he wrapped his arms back around him and buried his face against his neck, breathing in and taking him all in, the emotions of how much he had really missed him came rushing over him. “I’m sorry, Sid” he spoke softly, he never got to tell him how sorry he was, how badly he wanted to stay and be there with him, but he had to leave so fast he never got the chance.
he hadn’t thought seeing fallon again would cause the intense feelings in him that he was feeling right then. he had thought he was over him, that he’d taken the breakup just fine.. that it hadn’t bothered him.. but he supposed he hadn’t.. not really anyway.. and feeling how the other wrapped himself back against him, it felt like he wasn’t the only one. and hearing the other say he was sorry, he only held him tighter running his fingers up towards the nape of fallon’s neck, twirling his hair around his finger as old muscle memory kicked in, and as with everything else, sid couldn’t stop himself..
Fallon let out a small snort and laughed at the other, the awkwardness hadn’t seemed to have changed at all. “Get over here, you idiot” he pulled him into his arms and hugged him tightly, his chest immediately hurting as he felt him, so much time had passed but holding him again almost transported him right back to it all. After a bit longer of a hug than he had meant to give him he pulled back “i’m sure you’ve got places to be huh”.
feeling fallon’s arms around him finally wrap around him, he couldn’t help but let him do the same. his head resting on the others shoulder for a second as his eyes closed and he actually just- enjoyed the moment, even starting to wish it wouldn’t end. so even as fallon tried to pull back, sid didn’t let go. nor did he say anything to his question, he just stayed standing there, keeping the man in a tight embrace.
He chuckled lightly, eyes flicking over the others features, he almost couldn’t believe he was standing right in front of him, the image of him standing there sad when he told him he was leaving had been burned into his head, it was nice to have something to replace it with. “yeah, I guess we both did huh?”. He took another step closer before he was in his space “what, no hug? its been nearly five years and I don’t even get a hug?”
for the first time since seeing each other a small something pulled at the corner of his lips, “oh i dont know.. feel like i could recall yours always looking like that..” he said, before his chest started feeling heavier as his heart started beating even harder the moment fallon only came closer, at arms reach even, glancing up and over at him, finding himself gazing into fallon’s dark hues like he had so many nights before.. his heart only beating harder and harder inside his chest.. “i- i mean i guess you’re more than welcome to.. or.. like-. ask.. i-- i wouldn’t want to assume anything i mean..”
The more he stood there and watched him the more the old Sid started to surface, he stumbled over his words and boy, did he love when he got nervous. A slight smiled pulled at the corner of his lips as he listened “oh ya?” he asked a bit smugly “just about the bike tough, right?” he took a small step towards him, testing his reaction. “What’s with all that?” he motioned to his longer hair “lose your barber?” he teased.
the man watched the corner of the other’s lip start pulling upwards, feeling the urge deep deep down to want to give in, but he still found other parts fighting it, but it didn’t stop the nervous ramblings from happening. “i just mean like-- in case i have to come back or.. anything happens or.. anything..” he said, rubbing the back of his neck. feeling like he sounded like an absolute idiot.. but then fallon started coming closer, something in him made him freeze, not allowing him to move his legs whatsoever, and then the hair comment , which he should’ve expected.. “guess i left him back home.. i’ve been a bit too busy to worry about it... plus idk, im coming to like it.."
Fallon nodded, looking down as he shuffled his feet, he wasn’t sure he would ever see Sid again, he never had intentions of going back to Portland, at least not for a very long time. The fact that he didn’t seem all that happy to see him stung, but what could he expect when he was the one who took over with little warning. “Well” he started breathing out “I guess i’ll see what I can do for it” he hated this, awkward conversation, he’d missed him.
there was something about seeing fallon again that instantly sent him back to how he’d felt when they first met.. nervous, unsure of his own actions and words on top of just.. trying to convince he wasn’t really interested in men.. that the relationship he’d had with his daughter’s mother had turned him onto the ‘right’ path.. but he cursed himself inside his own head over the fact that the other man only had gotten more attractive with age, on top of the small part of him that had never gotten over the other, and missed every single thing about him, and made his stomach fill with butterflies as they stood there looking at one another, and it made his brain fight with itself to the point where he could be sick. and the way he looked like a huge fucking bundle of nerves was a hard one for him to try hide. “-- sorry uhm.. you can just you know uhm.. call or text if there is anything.. about the bike i mean--” he stuttered, not even able to remember when he acted more like a fucking dork than right then and there
Fallon dropped his pen when he heard the name and cursed, quickly he bent down to grab it and promptly smacked his head on a beam “fuck!” he cursed. He shouldn’t have expected himself to be smooth, it’s not like he ever expected his ex boyfriend from nearly five years ago to walk into his shop. “Sid” he breathed out, his gaze going a bit soft before he crossed his arms “since when were you not terrified to get on one of these”.
the second the other male said his name the way he did, reality kinda hit him hard across the head.feeling really stupid for not realizing who he’d been talking to.. it had been obvious now that he actually was mentally all there and not off somewhere else.. but with that came the nerves right back again, in the nearly 5 years since he’d seen fallon last, to say sid’s world had turned upside down would probably be an understatement, and he knew he looked worst for wear. not helping the shrug at his question.. “i- uh.. i don’t know.. just life’s been happening, and i really wanted one a coupe years ago.. so i ended up getting this thing..”
The more he spoke the more the voice stuck into his head an his brain started to piece it together, but he wasn’t going to say anything until he was certain. “Yeah, do you need a quote or we just good to start working?” he looked over the bike a bit but back up to the other, it had to be him. “What’s the name and number I can reach you?” he pulled out a notebook from his pocket and a pen from behind his ear.
sid rubbed his cheek a bit before shaking his head a bit.. “just start working on it.. it’s fine..” he said before taking a deep breath through his nose as his eyes lingered on the bike for a few moments thinking to himself that this was it’s last chance to work properly before he sold it off .. sid glanced back at the other as he asked about his name and number, “oh right, sure. ! so 212-” he started off with his phone number, he’d yet to confidently learn it by heart as he’d gotten a new one when he moved to the city.. “and the name’s sidney, sidney norton..”
Fallon’s view was obstructed by a car and he heard the guy, putting down what he was holding and wiping his hands on his pants he decided to see for himself what he was getting into. Walking over the boy came into view and for a second he stopped. He stared for a second thinking he recognized him but how would he, he was new here, so he shrugged it off. “UH yeah” he stepped closer “what’s the issue? making weird noises?”
sid didn’t really lift his head.. he’d been feeling too stressed to pay attention to anyone recently, and this bike wasn’t helping.. he just heard the other speak and nodded, “Yeah- so there’s that.. and it’s just keeps choking if it stands still for too long and won’t turn back on.. And i think someone keeps punching holes in the gas tank so i’ll need that replaced too..” he said, listing off whatever he knew to be wrong at the moment before finally lifting his gaze and looking over at the male he was talking to.
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