to my ever girl

I still don't know why you left me. I can't message you any longer. As I have noone to share these thoughts with, into this anonymous void they go, for my own sanity and peace of mind, and for the universe to know how much I loved you. To whom it concerns, I truly love you with every ounce of my soul and I miss you more than anything I have ever had to experience and it isn't getting easier. I hope you are okay and hope more than anything to be able to hold your hand again one day ♥️ x

[siegecoffeemug]

[siegecoffeemug]

18 months since you left and it still hurts like it was yesterday. And the pain doesn't ease. It gets worse. I love you. Still. More than ever. Despite everything. I meant every word I ever said to you. I love you.

[siegecoffeemug]

...and it keeps getting worse.

[siegecoffeemug]

You made the entire world sing to me. And now it's all rotten.

I miss you with a pain that has only gotten worse for the past sixteen months, and I know the pain will only become more intense and visceral, maybe to a place from which I can never return.

Every sinew of my being pulsates with the constant, violent, devastating scream of your absence.

You remain the best thing that ever happened to me and my one true love.

I love you baby x

[siegecoffeemug]

I miss you so fucking much my love. It still hurts and it doesn't get easier. I love you x

[dangerouslyfurrydragon]

Being loved by me is a privilege, because I will literally love you with everything in me.

[siegecoffeemug]

Certainly doesn't fucking seem that way

[letztetraenen-deactivated202507]

Imagine being loved the way you love

[siegecoffeemug]

For a period of time I was. And then, discarded overnight and left to rot, forever. But I still love you as much as I always did.

[feelingsoftheday]

Losing your favorite person can mentally destroy you.

[feelingsoftheday]

nothing hurts more than losing a bond with someone you thought was for a lifetime.

[woundsoflove]

I crave you, body and soul, endlessly.

[feelingsoftheday]

losing a connection with someone you genuinely wanted hurts so different

[4mtns]

[emotionalwords]

you ever loved someone so much, you tried to understand them while they were hurting you

[quoteastic]

You deserve someone who isn't okay with losing you.

[watashino-a-i]

‼️

[siegecoffeemug]

Although it turns you into a pariah, cast out like some kind of leper

[siegecoffeemug]

I don't think I'm ever going to get over this.

I miss you so much and I cry every fucking day, and I'm just some fucking broke loser who you hate and I've never done anything other than love you. I really don't know how much longer I can carry on.

I love you x

[siegecoffeemug]

I miss you more than ever. And I'm scared I'm becoming someone I don't want to be. Am I subconsciously self sabotaging everything? Posting onto I presume your partners page when I was pissed, hurt and angry. I dont know if he knows who I am or not. But especially if he does, I've been put in my place by not rising to my spite.

I'm not ashamed of how much I will always love you. But I am ashamed when my sadness bubbles over, and always so fucking publicly.

And through my fucking band account too.

Consider this an acknowledgement and an apology.

With all my love, always.

[siegecoffeemug]

9 months and two days in. Crying alone in a pub because i still miss you more than ever. And this is the only medium I have to get these thoughts out. And noone understands.

Just waiting to die as that will be the only way I'll ever be able to forget you amd how you made me feel.

I am still in love with you x