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[sigmasoyboy]

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heyy, I go by many names in this online hellscape but you can call me Demi or Sigma here. I drink oat milk and my therapist has told me I need to stop ironic self-berating, hence the username. This is a personal blog where I'm letting myself post drawings and prose, talk at length about the many little guys I like to rotate inside my head all day and reblog silly memes that reminds me of them.

I mainly draw these guys and standalone OCs atm but you can find little intros to most of them on this carrd.

You are welcome to ask questions about any of them here, either way I will infodump.

Do not tag as kin/me or unrelated characters

as much as I sometimes draw fluffy gay shit, some of my art and stories contain dark and sensitive themes such as depictions of gore and injuries, abuse, body horror, mental illness, human experiments, insects, vomit, shitty people being shitty and plenty of other sensitive content that may be potentially triggering as well as erotic content that is not suitable for minors. Blacklist #demideaddove to avoid said content, though you will encounter imagery such as scars in my non-horror art too that will not be tagged (healed self-harm, burns, missing limbs, etc…)

[sigmasoyboy]

sorry to bother you! i was just curious, who has the biggest appetites to smallest appetites amongst your OCs? any OCs of your choosing. i feel like eating habits can tell so much about a person

Biggest appetite probably Doe, Eli, Mikael and Hunter, but to be fair most of them consume a lot of energy so of course the appetite follows !

Smallest appetite would be Luxe, Valeriy, Coeus (thanks to depression) and I imagine Elov eating like a little bird, quickly sated.

Thank you for the very niche question, these are fun to answer !!

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Hii, Just noticed you have changed some of the songs attached to your oss (cous and hunters new songs my gooood♡♡) was wondering if you would like to talk abit about jaspers new song? I dident play the game yet so might be something im missing character wise, but I guess ive always seen him as more neutral/calm. Thank you!

Hehe I'm glad someone is paying attention to the songs >:3c honestly though I have no idea why I put Blood In The Cut for Jasper ?? My theory is that it was late and I was thinking of putting it for another character… So it's back to mama's boy for him !

Sorry if it was confusing, it indeed didn't really make sense for his character lol

[sigmasoyboy]

Hello 👋

Can you give us more facts about valya please?

Have a little compilations of facts ! Some of them are from my old retrosprings so it might be familiar.

Valya has early onset paranoid schizophrenia and impulsive aggression. Nowadays his symptoms cannot manifest, though who knows what he sees: after all people in vegetative/minimal conscious state have had brain activity recorded during sleep so I think hallucinations and such are not out of the question.

He sits up by himself from time to time despite having very little muscle mass left. Gives everyone a good jumpscare when they see him. Ismaele also regularly squeezes his hands just so he will reflexively pull away, even if he sometimes will display slight awareness by himself (Ismaele has also. Done worst, like pushing the sponge swabs he cleans Valya's teeth with down his throat to get a reaction)

He has a super consistent sleep schedule and will fall asleep in the middle of being cleaned/massaged.

Valya's experience before Ismaele became his carer was horrible. Domen would make sure he didn't have any marks of hospital negligence like bed sores, but else it was fair game to let the most unsavory people care for him. Domen wasn't really sure how aware Valya even was during it but to him it was more about the personal satisfaction of having him be humiliated and overpowered anyway. Domen would also sometimes spend a little time in his room to gloat at his sorry state because he's a totally well-adjusted, normal man (god he had so many issues).

Actually, Domen was the person who spoke to him the most before Ismaele found him. If Valya was ever to regain consciousness it would be interesting to see how much did get through him, if Domen was truly shouting in the void or if any of this was the torture he was hoping it was. I think not being 100% sure was probably the source of quite a lot of frustration for Domen.

Though Ismaele is against letting anyone else care for Valya at first, he does slowly end up allowing Ange to help. Ange will take him outside for a little walk and braid his hair.

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Hello :) can i ask for more lore about valys please? Why did he had to move into an orphanage? Maybe more details about his inital personslity and realtionship with ismaele :)

Valya is really intruiging and fascinating :))

Valya was actually taken from his family by social services and put into the foster system ! For the rest, I'll c/c the answer I wrote on retrospring a while ago about his personality pre-lobotomy:

"I think I mentioned once that he refused to learn or speak anything else but bulgarian, which led to him and Ismaele becoming friends. Mental health issues aside, he was an extremely stubborn and difficult child, very distrustful of adults. Even with threats done and carried toward his only friend to try to make him cooperate, Valya never budged with the adults: he was not afraid of pain either. Surprisingly, he could also be really loving and affectionate, hugging and comforting Ismaele with sweet words despite often being the cause for him being hurt (directly or not). He truly loved him and wanted to protect him, he was like a little crybaby brother to him.

I always imagined him coming from a very bad household: violent father, absent mother, older siblings who bully instead of nurtur, younger ones he had to care for despite still being a child and tons of strangers coming and going in the house, the kind of stuff who built him into the person he was. The underage kids most likely got dispatched into different orphanages at some point without much care, separating him from his younger siblings, probably not without a fight which got him bouncing through a few establishment before ending up where he would meet his grisly fate. By this time he most likely learned not only to take on abuse but to deal it himself to get on top of the food chain, which made him into the bully everyone came to fear at the orphanage. He was never one much for mockery tho, which weirdly enough probably made the other boys see him as more of a nutcase than a narcissistic little shit like Domen who had his superiority complex as a reason for persecuting others."

[sigmasoyboy]

any chance your shop will open soon :)? i regret not getting a keychain at the convention haha

I'm aiming to open my shop at the beginning of May since I'll be out of the country for the end of April ! So you'll be able to nab any leftovers from the con as well as my new comic then (I can't guarantee I'll be able to open my shop to the US due to the postal situation though… Sorry)

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Lesley is so fun to think about. He's like a hunter, putting an injured animal (the suicidal people he finds) out of its misery. I love the conflict between his empathic nature and such a brutal act.

That's a perfect read of the character 🤝 out of the three he's the one with the most empathy (not a hard contest to be fair) that's amped up by his own trauma, to him he's not just putting down an injured animal but he's also ensuring the safety of the flock by doing so. Funnily enough, he probably wishes deep down that someone would put him out of his misery, as a life of befriending people that are like him only to put them down is pretty painful when you do care.

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You okay with people writing fanfic of your ocs? i have something that's been floating around my head for a bit, just waiting for life to ease up so i can get time to write it down properly

I used to feel weird about it but no more ! Please send me a link if you do, I would love to read it :3c

[sigmasoyboy]

watched "Surrender, Dorothy" (the 1998 movie) some time ago, had to draw Shiloh in a frilly apron after that

[sigmasoyboy]

Drew a little crossdressing Sydney in a similar vibe (this is pre-ritual attempt, some of the clothes did belong to him before he put Shiloh in them)

[sigmasoyboy]

How did lesley behave towards Wallace after the amputation incident? Ik you drew him angry but what was the aftermath like? How long did it take for them to move past and calm down?

Oh things were tense in the house at the beginning. It was made extra awkward by the fact Elov actually asked Lesley to let Wallace stay with him while he was at the hospital.

It did quickly de-escalate from their first meeting because Wallace got a hold of his medication and plunged into depression after coming back to his senses, so the hostility kind of died down at this moment. Actually, if it wasn't for Elov forbidding him from killing Wallace, Lesley would probably have put him down like a sick dog at this point.

It didn't take a whole lot of time between the two, Lesley pretty much went from hating Wallace to feeling genuine pity for the guy, and eventually they ended up bonding due to both being pretty mellow. I guess it helps that Elov was thrilled by all that happening and not devastated lol

[sigmasoyboy]

I played your game! The one with the masochist (the name escapes me now sorry)

It's so good, but i got the bad ending lol. Found myself so curious as to how far egon would go with the torture, didn't expect them to *actually* sort-of-kill the poor guy

Loved it, will play it again to get the good end

Digital Boymeat !!

I'm glad you enjoyed it despite getting one of the bad endings, you might actually be happy to hear that Egon can go even farther sometimes if you choose the really light options :3c Thank you for playing it !!!

[sigmasoyboy]

watched "Surrender, Dorothy" (the 1998 movie) some time ago, had to draw Shiloh in a frilly apron after that

[sigmasoyboy]

dead fish eyes.

[Lesley🐟]

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Was Ange born blind? How does he manage his daily tasks? And most importantly how did he figure out that hes gay?

He does not give off the vibe of someone who depends on others unless he wants the attention right now 🤔

For the first part I'll c/c an old retrospring answer since it's still the same!:

Ange was born with untreated congenital cataract which got really dense by the time he could access care and then he had bad complications after having surgery on top of it. So he was born legally blind but it did get worse, his retinas are essentially fucked now and he has lost nearly all vision (not total darkness but extremely blurry and cloudy, barely enough to distinguish strong light changes and a little color).

The way he manages his daily life is mostly thanks to accommodations: he has a walking cane and all his electronics are set to be really big/he has text-to-speech enabled. It's not always easy but he's had to fend for himself since very young so he has learned to adapt pretty well on his own.

As for how he figured out he was gay, it was mostly through only feeling attraction towards other boys early in his teen years. Since he was already living in the margins he didn't have a big identity crisis over it, he went straight to experimenting and liked it so he has never tried going out with a girl only to realize he wasn't into it.

And indeed, as much as he likes taking care of others, he's pretty independent ! But he doesn't mind being taken care of from time to time, as long as it's not motivated by pity :3c

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"at first at least" in regards to Elov not being mad about his limbs getting cut off............... where does that end up leading :3 ??

At first Elov was too thrilled to have been able to see Wallace's "true face" (as seen in this post) to care for the bodily harm that was done to him. In a way, he also saw it as being freed from the body that was so heavily worshipped by his father, and thus freed from his past. But it was short-lived as he quickly realized that his new disability essentially declawed him…

Wallace was very much relieved that even though he caused him harm, he also put a stop to his reckless killing spree. In a way, he's happy he gets to have Elov stay put, as all he wanted was a peaceful life with him, but ofc this doesn't gel well with how easily bored Elov is and his quickly developing complex at being seen as weak and unthreatening.

That's all I'll say for now because I kinda want to explore it in the future (I might or might not have a whole scene planned… Though I don't know in what format I will explore it)

[sigmasoyboy]

Hello :) I like Ange and Ismaele as a couple so much. If its not weird to ask how would a relationship with both of them look like. As in a Throuple.

My first time asking i hope its not to weird 😅

I guess it wouldn't be that different from how their relationship is to Doe or even Jesse, even though they are not romantically involved with each other they kind of slot into their couple due to always being around lol

[sigmasoyboy]

HI. I was going through your art and saw Elov is missing his limbs? Did Wallace cut them off??

Yep :3cc that's what he gets for teasing him with random murders for months