โ iโve been having a hard time adjusting โ
โ i didn'tโ
knowโ
if youโd careโ
if i came back โ
โ i have aโ
lot of regrets about that โ
โ maybe i donโt quite know what to say โ
โ iโm here in your doorway โ
โ i just wanted you to know that this is me trying โ
โ so i got wasted like all my potential โ
โ my words shoot to kill when iโm mad โ
โ i have a lot of regrets about that โ
โ i was so ahead of the curve โ
โ fell behind all my classmates and i ended up here โ
โ and itโs hard to be at a party when i feel like an open wound โ
โ itโs hard to be anywhere these days when all i want is you โ
โ make sure nobody sees you leave โ
โ tell your friendsโ
you'reโ
out for aโ
run โ
โ takeโ
the road less traveled by โ
โ tell yourself you can always stop โ
โ leave the perfume on the shelf โ
โ like you donโt even exist โ
โ take the words for what they are โ
โ and thatโs the thing about illicit affairs โ
โ but they lie and they lie and they lie โ
โ donโt call me โkid"ย
โ donโt call me "babyโ โ
โ look at this godforsaken mess that you made me โ
โ you showed me colors you know i canโt see with anyone else โ
โ look at this idiotic fool that you made me โ
โ you taught me a secret language i canโt speak with anyone else โ
โ and you know damn well for you, i would ruin myself a million little times โ
โ i usedโ
toโ
think i wouldโ
meet somebody there โ
โ were there clues i didnโt see? โ
โand isnโt it just so pretty to think all along there was some invisible string tying you to me? โ
โ she said i looked like an american singer โ
โ what did you think iโd say to that? โ
โ they strikeโ
toโ
kill, and youโ
know i will โ
โ every time you call me crazy, i get more crazy โ
โ and when you say i seem angry, i get more angry โ
โ no one likes a mad woman โ
โ you made her like that โ
โ they say, โmove onโ but you know i wonโt โ
โ itโs obvious that wanting me dead has really brought you two together โ
โ iโm taking my time โ
โ โcause you took everything from me โ
โ keep your helmet, keep your life โ
โ just a flesh wound, hereโs your rifle โ
โ sir, i thinkโ
heโs bleeding out โ
โ some things youโ
just canโt speak about โ
โ only twenty minutes to sleep โ
โ but you dream of some epiphany โ
โ i wonโt make assumptions about why you switched your homeroom but i think itโs 'cause ofโ
me โ
โ one time iโ
was riding on my skateboard when iโ
passed your house itโs like i couldnโt breathe โ
โ you heard the rumors from [ name ] โ
โ you canโt believe a word she says โ
โ the worst thing that i ever did was what i did to you โ
โ but if i just showed up at your party would you have me? โ
โ would you want me? โ
โ would you tell me to go fuck myself? โ
โ i donโt know anything but i know i miss you โ
โ i hate the crowds, you know that โ
โ plus, i saw you dance with him โ
โ slept next to her but i dreamt of you all summer long โ
โ iโm here on your doorstep โ
โ the only thing i wanna do is make it up to you โ
โ will you love me? โ
โ will you kiss me on the porch in front of all your stupid friends? โ
โ you know i miss you โ
โ i never had the courage ofโ
myโ
convictions โ
โ no, i could neverโgiveโyouโpeace โ
โ but iโm aโfire and i'llโkeep your brittle heart warm โ
โ but i would die for you in secret โ
โ the devilโs in the details but you got a friend in me โ
โ i talk shit with my friends โ
โ your integrity makes me seem small โ
โ iโd give you my sunshine, give you my best โ
โ but the rain is always gonna come if youโre standinโ with me โ
โ all these people think loveโs for show โ
โ would it be enough if i could never give you peace? โ
โ this has broken me down โ
โ your faithless loveโs the only hoax iโbelieveโin โ
โ don'tโwant no otherโshade of blueโbut you โ
โ i am ash from your fire โ
โ you know i left a part of me back in new york โ
โ you knew the hero died so whatโs the movie for? โ
โ but what you did was just as dark โ
โ you have beaten my heart โ
โ you knew it still hurts underneath my scars from when they pulled me apart โ
โ you knew you won so whatโs the point of keeping score? โ