here, my thoughts run wild.

[silentminddd]

ever since that happened, i was never the same

[silentminddd]

the demons in my head never stop, they never give me a break

[silentminddd]

tired of living

[silentminddd]

forever feeling insecure

[silentminddd]

Do not comment on people’s weight. Please.

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

Can we please stop associating being a good person with how much you're willing to suffer in silence for other people? You can be a kind person and still say "no, I don't have the time/energy to help you with that." You can be a kind person and still say "this makes me uncomfortable, please stop." You can be a kind person and still say "I disagree and here's why." You can be kind and still say "I'm not okay with this." Being kind is about treating people with kindness and respect, not about being the human equivalent of a doormat!

[silentminddd]

I am worthy of love.

I am lovable.

I am not difficult for asking basic respect and for asking reciprocation.

[silentminddd]

maybe it’s time to stop running away from pain

[silentminddd]

what do I look like? second choice?

[silentminddd]

drinking to stop the pain.

[silentminddd]

“I still love you.  I still care for you.  I will always want the best for you.  This is just an intermission in our relationship”

[silentminddd]

why is self-love so hard?

[silentminddd]

& i’ve never felt more alone.

[silentminddd]

tired of crying myself to sleep

[silentminddd]

is suffering better than being alone?

[silentminddd]

I broke down today

i broke down today..... it’s as if everything that i was trying to ignore and bottle up had burst out.

these past few weeks felt like i was fucking drowning, but i continued to push myself because i simply do not have time to look after myself. there are no breaks, my life is a constant go.

i am fucking drowning and no one seems to throw me a line. no one cares and maybe it’s because i’m so good at it. 

just might fall off the face of the earth.

[silentminddd]

“We all have a limit.  But slowly with every incident, my limit was pushed a little more”

This phrase hurts.  I felt this phrase deep in my soul.  I used to know what I want and what I don’t want.  I used to replay scenarios and believe that it would be so easy to let go of someone when they cross my limit... but once I was placed in that situation, I did not realize how hard it would be to let go.

I’m optimistic and I always believed that they would be able to change over time, that it was a mistake that will never happen again.  But do I know that?  Do I believe that?

Remember these wise words from Colleen Hoover: “Every incident chips away at your limit.  Every time you choose to stay, it makes the next time that much harder to leave.  Eventually, you lose sight of your limit altogether, because you start to think ‘I’ve lasted five years now.  What’s five more?’”