passionate

18 x tumblr addict x just simply be the best version of yourself x black & white mostly

[naturaekos]

“You’re like the ocean, pretty enough on the surface, but dive down into your depths, you’ll find beauty most people never see.”

— Ellen Hopkins (via amortizing)

[imsoofuckingsad-deactivated2018]

life with mental illness is actually so fucking exhausting

honestly, i can’t explain the kind of tiredness that’s caused by being mentally unwell

it’s like your veins are tired. your bones are tired. your hair is tired. your actual soul is tired

never feel guilty for resting.

[taylorswift]

My heart’s been borrowed and yours has been blue. All’s well that ends well, to end up with you. 💙

[velvetmysoul]

[imsoofuckingsad]

*nothing happens*

me: this is too much

[fxck-every-1]

“I guess it really sucks, we were made for each other. I know we were, because when I was with you it felt like the entire world stopped spinning and we were the only people who could move through the empty space. It’s horrible because we were perfect, but our timing was well and truly out. We weren’t meant to fall in love so early, but we did, we fell so fucking hard for each other. We acted like we were married and I was so addicted, addicted to the idea of finally feeling at home. You were my home, you were my everything and I can’t help but dream of the day we reunite. But everything’s different now, you’re with her and I’m still waiting for the day you message me telling me that I’m everything you’ve ever wanted and that you’re sorry, and I’ll take you right back and we can continue to build on our love. I loved you, more than anything, I put everything into us and yet I still believe I could give you more, and all I ask, all I want, is one more chance. I pray every night you wake up and miss me, I pray that you suddenly realise that it’s me and it always has been me, but the chances are slim and yet I’m still depending my whole life on them.”

—

[fxck-every-1]

“You’re still the best thing to happen to me. Even if you left, even if you broke my heart in two and even if i’m not yours anymore, you’re still mine.”

—

[fxck-every-1]

“I would still take you back, 8 months later and I will still fall to my knees in tears by your demand. I can not believe it, I can not make sense in my head of why I would do such a thing. I guess, I truly do love you, I want to be with you. I shouldn’t, but I do. You just seem to be right, you’re always there even when I can’t see you, I can feel you. So maybe that’s a sign, you know me, I’m always looking for signs and universal things but maybe the biggest sign is the one deep within.”

— hope

[fxck-every-1]

“You were so good to me, and you know sometimes I wish you weren’t. Sometimes I wish that you treated me horribly and never gave me your time, so then maybe I could feel a little bit of hatred. But instead, I’m left, 6 months later, still missing you.”

—

[fxck-every-1]

“I fucking loved you and you threw me away, so fuck you.”

—

[fxck-every-1]

“One day, I will give up on you. One day, I will be strong enough to leave this relationship behind. One day, I’m going to find a man who doesn’t know any better than to love me more than anyone could ever believe. And then you will realise that my smile, my eyes, my laugh, they were all right. You will realise that I made you happy, and that I waited for you. You will come to the realisation that I was the right girl, and I will always be the right girl, and it will be at this point where I’m strong. It will be then that I’m strong enough to turn you down and make you feel every inch of pain I’ve felt over the past 2 years, and I won’t be sorry because I’ll finally be with the right guy, and for once I’ll be positive that the right guy isn’t you, and it never was.”

— I will move on

[fxck-every-1]

“I never had him, but he had me. He had all of me.”

— something my friend said

[fxck-every-1]

“It’s you, it’s always been you. Ever since I placed my eyes on you, I’ve loved you, I’ve craved you, I’ve needed you. And you’re not here to hold me anymore and I try so damn hard to be okay with that, but the truth is I’m not okay. Because it’s you, it’s always been you and I’m scared that it always will be you.”

— things I wish I could send to you

[actressinurbadreams]

“Have you ever loved someone so much it hurt, mentally, physically, and emotionally hurt? You can’t imagine your life without them & one day they’re gone. Gone forever. Not in the sense that they’re dead. But dead inside? They’re not the person that they used to be. They don’t notice you exist anymore. You’ve spent countless years with this person. Watching movies together, hanging out every weekend, getting rides together. Then one day they leave you. Just like they’ve done before. You’re so hurt by this so you decide to tell them how you feel. For the first time you put yourself out there just to get stomped on. To feel broken. They pick other people over the person they said they’d never leave. You say things you can never take back. Just to realize how big of a mistake it really was. Not that you shared how you felt, but they didn’t accept it. They didn’t understand. They didn’t understand how they could hurt you by acting like you’re no longer their friend. Like you don’t matter to them anymore. And they think that u don’t love them but the truth is you love them too much. They blame you for taking medicine . You can’t help you have a mental disorder. You can’t help you think of dying 24/7. You can’t help that the one person you thought would understand you has left. 8 months go by. You say 20 words to each other They’ve moved on. To “better” friends and no longer think about you at all anymore. Until one day. You guys hang out again. For a couple of hours. And you can’t help but get false hope. Maybe things will go back to normal. Maybe we can be best friends again. But in the back of your mind, you know you can’t be so foolish. 8 months has changed this person. They’re no longer like you. You couldn’t be more opposite of each other now. You have different values. They don’t value anything. Not even you anymore. You can’t help but sympathize for this person because you love them still. Too much. But you can’t help but feel like they’re using you. Now it been almost a year since the first fall out. You’ve changed so much. But you’re alone . You talk to your ‘friend’ about once a week now. You can’t help but feel used. She doesn’t need you anymore. And that’s when you realize. The only person you have is yourself. The only person you can rely on is yourself. People will leave. Don’t put your happiness in other people. They’ll drop it. Every. Single. Time.”

— Three years later and I still can’t let this go.

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