Dazed&Confused

It's not as hard as you think. Queer {CreArtive}

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Where do you go when their eyes are burning into your flesh

When you can’t find a moment or a place to catch your breath

How do you find peace if everything around you won’t let you rest

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If it’s all laid out for you, why does it feel so wrong

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I think I loved you, somewhere, sometime

[utwo]

Cabin by the sea

© Liz Carlson

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Im jumping in, diving deep down. Passing over all of my fears, deciding to let go. I’m giving in to who ever wrote this story. Who ever put her right here, right under my arm close to my heart. Centimeters from my lungs, breathing life into me. It’s nothing I thought it would be because it’s so much more. I don’t know this ending but for a chance to be hers I’ll do it.

This is what’s really worth it

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To love someone else like this, it’s what I pray for.

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Loving you was like a dream

Until it forced me into reality

Now I’m learning about deeper things

And freeing souls was the first for me

I’d have turned the world if it made you shine

I was creating magic for you with my free time

Anything you wanted I’d given you

My heart, respect, and I was loyal too.

But after time all you wanted was your peace

Ended up giving you room to leave

Here I am granting wishes I don’t want to keep

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It’s funny how my emotions bring me to a constant state of dazed and confused.

Back to here, to learn through my fear.

What was it that I forgot before, or maybe where was it that I stopped.

Where was it.. I mean I again.

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I’ve accepted that you were the highest dose of dopamine I could’ve gotten at once. My strongest addiction. My favorite. So instead of chasing better, I rather rip it from my skin. Accept no more and live with out it, with out you.

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My dreams are flooded with you and I’m so angry at myself because no matter how much I flee or how far I fly, my dreams can’t even flee the pain of my thoughts.

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One of the hardest parts is that our conversations leave me missing you more. Every once in a while my heart just gets the hardest pull and yanks me to my knees in tears, it’s that hard.

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@laurafaujanet

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prayer n.j.johnson via @natalyajohnson

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[miseducatedmelanicmuse]

Great advice right here.

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I’m trying to speak but I just keep choking, I’m trying to be better but I keep falling back, I’m trying to not let my brain think but it keeps thinking.

I’m trying to hold my breath but my lungs keep needing air. I’m trying to say nothing wrong but nothing right seems to fall out.

I’m trying to throw my heart away but it stays attached to me. And I’m trying to give my all mean while youre now miserable.

I try to correct my ways but sometimes I forget and I do the same things. I try and try but I guess it’s not enough.

I don’t want to do this or do that because I’m falling right back where I’ve been trying to flee. If I stop trying to do this will I fall free.

I’m trying but doing worse, how is my hard work becoming a worse version of me.