Today, I went to the hospital to see a general surgeon.
Note: The fact that I am posting this story here just shows how I really value this platform as my safe space, something that I can look back years down the road, reflecting on God’s goodness over my life. In fact, I realised most of my past entries written in the past years were my most painful moments in school. Looking back now, things have changed indeed. I am just so thankful to what God is doing.
Back to the story. It all started last week, where one evening, the lump on my left underarm began to protrude out extra tissues. It was terrifying for me that day. The lump had been there since a year ago. As I went for IPL, therapists said it is due to ingrown hair, my underarm is dry and etc.
I thank God, that as I went to my GP, I decided to go to the subsidised route. My GP said this will be slower. But i thank God that he really provided through the way. The next day (Thursday) as I went to the polyclinic, the doctor let me went for wound dressing.
It was interesting, as there were 4 nurses taking care of me that time. I guess because it was the late afternoon too. The nurse managed to take out the extra tissues that was protruding out on my skin. That was surely a major relief.
Within days, (1 week later), i was scheduled an appointment urgently to the doctor. I think this is really by God’s grace that I managed to secured an appointment. (Bc I heard this could go up to weeks.) The doctor at the polyclinic requested for an urgent appointment. I am so thankful for that.
So fast forward to the Thursday today, I thank God I went to the surgeon. The doctor advised me to take it out. He used drawings on paper for an easier explanation to me, so that I knew what he was going to do. I thank God for an experience doctor, like really. He was slightly older on age, and he is very patient with me too.
During the surgery, he added local anaesthesia to my underarm. Oh boy, I could feel the needles going in. I did not expect this, definitely. The injection felt like ages. I could feel the pressure and pain even though there was local anaesthesia....I was shocked as well that this happened, that it was so quick.
I remembered when I hesitated this decision, the doctor also advised me another alternative, to wait for another month or weeks, and ask the nurse at Polyclinic to squeeze it out. However, he advised that the whole is too small, and it needs to be incision and drained. Thus the surgery was called- incision and drainage.
But yet after the surgery, I was so glad it was over. I just felt it really showed me how we are really conquerors through Christ, and I am able to take on any other hardships or pain... (of course, I am not hoping for anything worst.)
Note: I will be having 4 tooth extraction for my braces next Monday, 6th July 2020. I guess today was just a short glimpse of what might happened again in a few days time... O Lord, may your grace be sufficient for me.
I feel so much relief right now after the surgery. I just felt a peace of mind.
Sometimes we avoid the painful process... but when we go through the needed journey, it brings us so much joy after that. Just as the scriptures says- “present suffering, future glory.” Chinese sayings goes- “短痛不如长痛”
I felt the burden has been lifted me off. I no longer have to worry if this will ever if this lump will come back again.
In fact, it is for the better as the doctor is able to clear out all the bacteria, especially those that have been stuck in the tissue walls, which are difficult to remove.
I may not have been fully healed without any surgery.. But I thank God that after this minor surgery, this will be healed. Else, I have to go through many weeks or even months for the subtle painful process, which might have even been worse. A once and for all clean-up is definitely good.
I may have went through surgery, but it is inevitable that God’s healing was in the midst. Especially how the lump’s size subsided during the past one week. I am now praying for a speedy recovery, and that I will not have a scar remaining on my underarm skin.
I also pray that to anyone that is reading this and is going through difficult times, especially emotionally or physically, that may God’s peace and presence be with you in this period. (If you need any prayers, please feel free to drop me a DM too.)
Remember, not to go through this alone. I realised this the “hard” way. our support group and community will bring much of a difference. I was personally blessed by my support groups when I choose to humble myself, and share as the Lord leads me too. There is power in agreement and unity. Many times, we just want to put a mask... yet there is tremendous power when we start being real to ourselves and to the people around us. Be bold, be brave. Do not be afraid of your weakness or what you are struggling with. God bless you. And....
May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the communion of the Holy Spirit be with you all. Amen.
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