I still miss you
It hurts a little less
But it’s there
I still don’t understand
I felt like we were getting to a good place
You felt like home
The sound of your laughter eased the constant headache
Your warmth melted the ice encasing my emotions
For the first time in a long time I felt at ease in the presence of a man instead of fear
I allowed myself to get excited
Hopeful
The first time i wrote about you and showed you
You said you wanted to keep the page in your pocket
Would you still
I haven’t written about you in weeks
Trying to heal from something that ended before it truly began isn’t easy
When you see life with someone and they don’t see it with you
It isn’t easy
When they stop in the middle of the night in the middle of the act and ask about babies
It isn’t easy
When you say I love you when you’re drunk
And feel like an asshole because it wasn’t the right time
And so you breakdown in the bathroom
And you swear you hear them say it back
Maybe because they don’t think you’ll remember
And they never say it again
And you don’t bring it up
It isn’t easy
Because loving someone is never easy
Love is the hardest thing you will ever do
Loving someone who has been hurt is even harder
Hoping they will let you in
Seeing the sunshine brighter when they are around
Holding that joy in your heart to get you through the day
And then having it taken away
Love is never easy
Love never dies
When you’re past the point of no return
Are there second chances
Past the point of if and when
Love is the hardest thing I’ve ever done
I wouldn’t ever take it back
My heart
Maybe it doesn’t belong to me
Maybe you need it more than I do
Let it keep you company
