𓆩𝒽𝑒𝒶𝓋𝑒𝓃𝓈𝑒𝓃𝓉𓆪

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[sincerely-heavensent]

hihiii, my name is heaven!!

╭━━━━━━━.★..━╮ ┊ ⋆ ┊ . ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊⋆ ┊ . welcome to my blog!! ┊ ┊ ⋆˚         its so nice to see you here! ࿐ ࿔:･ﾟ ✧. ┊          ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝ ♡ ⋆ ★

┊ ┊⋆˚ i mostly post about my feelings towards people and things that i love or things that have impacted me a lot ⟢˚

┊⋆˚ i love using metaphors to help explain my big feelings, especially about things that i'm most passionate about..

┊ so if you would like to peak into the mind of a girl that loves love and hurts large, then this blog might be for you!! (˶>⩊<˶)

⋆⁺₊⋆ ━━━━⊱༒︎ ⟢ ༒︎⊰━━━━ ⋆⁺₊⋆ ┊⋆ here are some facts about me! ┊ i am a libra!! born on october fourteenth ┊ i am currently twenty-one years old :) ✧ i have a lovely boyfriend, he's my precious baby 𐔌՞ ܸ.ˬ.ܸ՞𐦯

┊ the song that best describes me as a person is "mostly chimes" by adrianne lenker 𑣲⋆｡˚ ┊ i love the downtown and angelcore aesthetics!! ┊ i love to write and make stories, i also love to read! i love anime⁺⋆, kdramas, twilight, and many more movies!! im also in love with music! ⁺₊ i am an angelllll, true and true ꒰ྀི১ ໒꒱ིྀ

ᨳଓ dni if... youre going to be a freak towards me or if you post nsfw at all!

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𝗡𝗼𝘄 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴: "mostly chimes" ˗ˏˋ ♡ ˎˊ˗ 01:23 ━━━━●───── 16:12 ㅤ ㅤ◁ㅤ ❚❚ ㅤ▷ ㅤㅤ

-sincerely, heavensent

[sincerely-heavensent]

from, musing of thy soul

I've slowly been realizing a lot of things that connect with other things within my life.

There's many things that I catch myself doing or saying that is a result of something that someone else conditioned me to react like.

A time where he couldn't really talk much, and I knew about it, but as time went on without really hearing his voice and I'm noticing that my behavior is feeling limited- and then I noticed that I was starting to fawn...

And then suddenly it all made sense, even though I knew it hurt for him to talk, I had doubt within my thoughts because let's be real now; who would really want to talk to me?

But I realized that I was fawning because with whom who shall not be named, he would ignore me for the slightest thing. If I said something slighty factually incorrect (in his eyes) then you bet I was getting ignored for hours.

If I brought up something that I didnt like, or had a different opinion on than him- then I was ignored for hours upon hours.

I remember once, we were laying next to each other in bed scrolling on tiktok. I told him to look at the tiktok I sent him, but I accidentally didn't send it to him but I thought 100% that I did. And he got upset with me and jumped to the conclusion that I had sent it to some other guy instead of him.

I only had one other person added on that app at the time, my bestfriend, thats a guy.

Now remember how I said I thought that I 100% sent it to him, yeah my confidence broke when he asked me to show him my tt messages with my bsf to see if I had sent it to him.

But I didn’t show him, because what if on accident, I really did send him it? and then I'd look like I was lying the whole time when I really wasn't? And yeah, sure I could've showed him and if it really was sent to him then maybe he would've understood it was an accident.

Except I knew him better. No matter what I did in that situation, he would've found any excuse to not believe me. And by the way, I never did send that video to my bsf, and I knew I didn't.

But after all of that, he proceeded to ignore me and sleep in another bed from me for a week straight.

The sickest part about it all, was that at the beginning of me and him- he had told me something that I would repeat in my head all of the time just to try and delude my mind into thinking that he cared about me.

"I want to talk to you all of the time," is what he told me.

And then proceeded to ignore me consistently off and on for basically two years straight.

-sincerely, heavensent.

♡ 7/7/26, 12:45 am - 7/9/26, 4:17 am ♡

[sincerely-heavensent]

dear love-me,

You made a song today, and you thought of me whilst.

It's so hard to even begin to think of the words that could potentially describe how that makes me feel.

All I could do in the moment was freak out and fan girl over you.

I think I was able to tell you a little bit about how much it makes me happy, and how you are everything that I've ever dreamed about.

Your job has been my dream since I was little, and you try so hard at it. You give so much effort into it, and it's so inspiring to watch how much you care about it.

It's so attractive to see someone you love be so into something.

The way you giggle at shows that are dear to you, that I'm watching for the first time, is so precious to me. I'd do anything to hear that sound come from your lips everyday for the rest of my life.

The way your voice sounds when you sing something, its so dulcet. It sounds like a breeze that gently sways trees and flowers.

You are perfect in every single way.

From every inch of your skin, to every thought that you have, to every emotion that you express to me, to the way you sound when talking to me, to the way you sound while you hum.

I could listen to your mellifluous humming all day long, it vibrates the same frequency as my soul.

You deserve everything good in life.

And I know that you might not think that you deserve it, but you really- truly, do.

You're beyond nice, and maybe that's reserved just for me- but I know you would extend that kindness to someone in need.

It's hard to explain just how much music means to me- it's gotten me through so much and it has always been there for me no matter what.

And maybe that's silly to say, since it's not something conscious and I'm the one hitting play but, still.

Music really makes life feel so much fuller and brighter. It brings color to the gloomiest of days. It is the rainbow shine of spilt oil on the side of a random street.

And to be not only be loved by someone so talented, who's voice is literal music to my ears, but for him to think of me when making a song is... it is everything I have ever dream about when thinking of my ideal man.

I have always wished and dreamed about getting sung to, let alone being thought of while making a song or having one written for me.

I love you so much.

Sometime I feel selfish with my thinking, and maybe that's valid for me to think, but at the same time... I've been ignoring and pushing away anything good for me- for the sake of staying in the depths of my mind.

And it feels wonderful to go after something that I truly want and quite frankly- need.

That's a big thing I think now, chasing after what I need in life and not just what I think I deserve.

-sincerely, heavensent.

♡ 5/7/26, 3:50 am - 4:52 am ♡

[sincerely-heavensent]

from musing of thy soul,

I'm free now.

And it feels strange, it feels like windchimes. It feels deeply rooted within my soul, and there's a lingering feeling of fleeting want, yet there's also the desire to move on and blossom into a vibrant flower.

I feel free and untethered, yet all at the same time- I feel tied with a wet knot around my throat.

There's a weight on the end of my chain, but I've gotten used to the weight, and it doesn't feel as heavy during the light.

When the night falls upon this earthly plane, I've always felt worse- but for now, and hopefully for awhile, there's a bright blue light casting its rays onto my face.

It's the color of the sky on a clear day, it's the light of 12pm. I'm not usually one to see the light, for I slumber far too long- and yet, it's made it's way to me.

The light is the sound of rediscovering my complete and utter duende surrounding the art of music, and the depth of it all.

Duende, the mysterious power of art to deeply move a person.

Music... there are no words to describe it's beauty to the extent in which it should be explained, but duende is close enough.

For to see someone so moved by sound as I am, it produces a deep feeling within of human nature. Oh to be moved by such pretty sounds, so much so that you cant bare to not share it with another.

To feel the intensity of emotions so much so as to wish upon a star and let your soul create a piece of art. An art that connects humans to one another, in spite of every difference they may have.

For we each get goosebumps that linger like touch on our skin, for we each feel the bliss of being heard from a stranger, for we all long for connection to one another.

-sincerely, heavensent.

♡ 4/15/26, 7:15 pm - 7:40 pm ♡

[sincerely-heavensent]

from musing of thy soul,

my heart is heavy.

there's songs and pictures that give me nostalgia to a time where my heart was as light as a cloud, where getting wet in the rain was freeing and brought a breeze to brush my hair.

there's things that remind me that i was happy once, and remembering those early mornings and blissful nights...

it pains me.

because i ruined it all, all for something worse. something painful, lonley, and heartbreaking.

and when that time of my life was over, i tried to remember it worse. and maybe those things are valid and shouldve impacted my decisions- but to have them tainted with the thought of:

"i didnt ruin it, it was already ruined,"

makes every thought of discomfort or abuse feel like lies.

and i dont want to be a liar anymore, i wanna be free to myself. to be kind, to be gentle and forgiving.

i want better for myself, and maybe thats the music talking- but...

i know what home feels, sounds, and smells like.

and its not this.

but once upon a time, it was. he made me feel heard, and now all he does is ignore me. hes nice sometimes, and when he is all i can think about is how this is how it should be all the time- but it isnt.

-sincerely, heavensent.

♡ 2/4/26, 2:50 pm - 3:03 pm ♡

[sincerely-heavensent]

dear strawflower,

talking about you will be pretty difficult, for a multitude of reasons. the main one being that i just simply dont know where i would start. youre entire existence... is a deep affliction on my soul.

you were the closest person to my heart, body, and mind. you know things other people will never know, and i know its the same for you. you were my best friend.

you are someone i can confidently say, with one hundred percent certainty, is one of my soulmates.

my friendship with you.

the most devastating of them all. when you told me that im selfish... and that you hope no one ever has to deal with my love, it shattered me beyond recognition. though i know no one would have guessed that it did.

you- the person whom i held in the highest possible regard, whos opinion i valued above anyone else, the person that i thought loved me most in the entire multiuniverse.

you cemented what i had always been repeating to myself since i was young. the thoughts about how im a disgrace to my family, how i hurt anyone and everyone that i care about, how people seem to be incapable of loving me.

how i am undeserving of anything good,

and how i am deserving of everything bad.

since my first relationship, ive thought that way, and that was twenty-sixteen i believe. it was because i hurt him, even if he said that it didnt matter- it did for me.

i miss you, with my entire being. my multiverse, my first listener, my sunset. a warm and sweet color, yellow and orange, like candle light.

i wrote to you in my notes everyday, or at least tried to. i stopped for awhile and i havent in a long time. when we got back in touch, months and months ago- probably around a year, it felt good. we felt normal again, and i was able to ease my mind with your help.

it was the first time i felt like me in a very, very, long time.

i told you about what i went through with my ex, and what im going through now...

i wonder how youd react if you knew how much worse its gotten, if you knew how long ive been gone from home.

i love you, beyond anything and everything.

i wish we could talk again, but you hurt me again and ive blocked you. should i undo it? i dont think it would do any good anymore, itll end the same way.

i miss you, my strawflower.

-sincerely, heavensent.

♡ 1/28/26, 7:50am - 2/1/2026, 10:40 am ♡