Downwards
Im hitting rock bottom and the feeling is unfamiliar.
Not the place, Iām been broke before, Iāve been alone beforeā¦
But this, this has been a steady process of losing.
The process, the sudden changes, the disease, I wonder.
Itās not longer a steady decline.
But in the speed there is hope.
The acceleration makes me wonder, make me sure even.
Iāll ricochet.
For who truly loses their love, job and home in such a short space of time.
Too fast too early,
Now back at point one to undo.
Sometimes I wonder if I missed my turn somewhere.
I know for sure I sped through the red light.
I saw the truck coming, the lights were blinding.
I didnāt want to break up to be honest.
I just wanted the relief of not pressing gas anymore.
So I welcomed it, I let my right foot rest.
I placed it firmly on the mat.
Will the lights be my danger or my saviour.
Will my motion stop it or will it stop me?
All in all, itās interesting to fall, horizontally.
Will there be a ricochet?
Could I finally steer this thing in the right direction?
Or maybe itās time to let someone else drive.
He needs me here, somehow.
He wants me to do something, what.
He is presenting a pause, why.
He will turn it around, whenā¦











