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♥ Happy Valentines day, lovely~! ♥

Thanks. Happy Valentines Day to you too.

I think my life is turning around a bit. I got a surprise at the door today. I'm tired and need rest. Night to you all. I will keep a look out on the ask box. Farewell for now.

Goodness, you're really going to take suicide? By this time my heart has frozen over by shock, helplessness, anger, and sadness that I don't know what to say anymore. Mind telling me why you want to take suicide and why you're running away from your problems?

I tried to dealt with my problems. I'm not lying at all. I'm choosing now to run away because I've had enough of fighting back. A little piece of me is fighting back and majority of me is wanting to run away.

When I say loved ones I mean your friends. Rely on their strengths to become stronger?

I rely my friends on Tumblr.,I don't want to always ask for their help. I feel like I'm bothering them... Wanting attention from them. Seeking those who care... I'll zero out on posting mini updates about me... I'll try to keep them limited..

Have you ever tried changing yourself? I feel like you're constantly seeking others' help and relying on others. It's a good thing, but despite everything, these people are on the Internet. You can't constantly bring a computer with you all day, all the time. Aren't those people picking on you because they know that you're weak? Shouldn't you try to become stronger with your loved ones help instead of breaking their hearts with threats of suicide?

My family doesn't care about me. They never liked me. Truth is no one does. They think I'm a failure. "A stupid failure of a son who can't do anything right."

Confession 4

I plan on doing suicide around February 15. Which is a week from today. February 15 is on a Friday and I thought that would be a suitable date for a final goodbye. It's near the weekend and if I do kill myself it would give you the weekends to recover from the sudden tragic before you return to school. I'm still deciding. I feel as if 85% of me wants to go and the rest is saying no. Everyone needs you. So stop.

I would love to answer everybody’s ask in my ask box. I feel not in a good mood to answer them. I read them all… So don’t worry… Well you can worry if you would like too. Selly- Don’t hurt yourself for me. That’s not an excuse for you to do that for me. You’ve stopped and it’s good that your not hurting yourself. You said it was you New Years Resolution to not do that anymore. Everyone- I know don’t want me to leave. I know that suicide is not the answer. I know what everyone is saying and what they mean. I’m off and on about killing myself. Confession 2- Ever since thus all happened I always felt alone, and not important. I felt I shouldn’t be here and thought why was I born into the world… Confession 3- I want to kill myself right now. For me to satisfy that thought, I’m cutting my self a bit more painfully then before.

Why?

Why?... You mean the suicide?... I'm going through touch times. Extremely touch things that it's breaking me to the point I'm done. Just done.

Confession 1

I came close to almost liking myself on February 5th. I had a rope around my neck and I was ready to leave… Memories with everyone stopped me.

#confession 1 #sinisteruso

I know you might not answer this, or anything, but please don't kill yourself, Vlad. Your way too important to everyone here, and so many people care about you and would be sad to see you gone I know it's true. Your truly a wonderful person and life wouldn't be the same without you. Life just isn't worth living if your gonna be gone... It would hurt my heart too much and many others to see you gone. So, please don't kill yourself things will get better...

Same words over and over... Being told the same thing helps, but I think my mind will make it up soon... Suicide or not. My decisions is coming to an end... I hers a great deal of people for persuasion not for me to not commit suicide. I sound selfish, but it's hard to persuade me...

Vlad, you gotta know, we all love you. Everyone at the Academi, everyone on Clatter's account. You're a wonderful person and nobody wants to see you gone. You are funny, and nice, and there isn't a single thing wrong with you, though those people at school would like to pretend there is (God knows why). Just talk to us. We'll help you.

I realize and know that everyone knows that care for me and have some sort of connections with me. They have different aspects of me and I really do want help, but I think it's a bit late for help. My mind is pondering and thinking to kill myself...

I'm telling you now though, it will get better. You really are wonderful.

I lost hope that things will get better. I've been through for a long time now. I lost hope and faith.

Please don't commit suicide! There's too many people who care about you and would be sad to see you gone! :c Don't let things in life bring you down... Life does it to us all I thought of committing suicide a lot of times... But suicide definitely isn't the answer. We all have our ups and downs in life, but that should never lead to committing suicide... I'm that same anon who sent you that message that said life isn't worth living without you and that's the truth.

I understand by what all you mean. Killing myself is not the answer, but I feel it's like the only way out of it for me. I get no affection or even shown any attention from anyone... Besides all my friends on Tumblr. I barely have any friends out in school and most people just ignore me. The teachers try to help me, but it never turns out the way they so called "visioned" it. UK ow everyone cares for me even if they don't know me well enough. I want to be able to live without any worried and not be brought down. I've been like this all through middle school and high school. 6 years. 6 whole years I went through all of this shit. I'm really fed up and I would do anything to have this all end.

I know, and though it may not seem like it, so many people love you. It get's better. You've fought so long and hard it's pointless to give up. Keep going strong.

I know I fought long and hard. I always want this to end so I can be happy. Everyday it's always me being brought down by everyone. I always fight through this and I can't take it anymore. I don't even want to leave my room and be comfortable to go outside without being teased... I've really had enough. I'm harming myself even more everyday. It gets worse where I always carry a blade around with me.

nickastig

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Hey there, buddy. Vlad, was it? Though it's in the very least unlikely you'll read this message, I still sent it. Don't ask me why, though. I'm sure your inbox is filled with all kinds of messages, so why even bother, right? Right. Yeah, I dunno why I'm typing this. I don't know you and you don't know me. I'm not gonna tell you what you should and what you should not do. But you can have me. If you want someone to say things to or someone to drink with for the last time or whatever... call me.

I appreciate your kind words and support... Yet I can't grasp on to reality. I'm at a breaking a breaking point and I don't know what's what anymore. I try everyday to not selfharm myself... But I always end up doing it because I'm broken and I can't even talk to anyone without getting teased...

You're wonderful. Please stay here!!

I don't know what is what anymore... I'm loosing it...

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