sherry

ok hi.

[sirapavocados]

HEY.

Actually, i’m feeling like writing again. But actually i feel like - no i don’t. In fact, this exact words sit in my draft for a long time.

I think i just wanna say hi. Again.

I received lot of inbox - asking where am i now. But i suppose some of you know already. I’m pretty active on the other side of social medias.

I’m married. Happily married. I was gifted with one little cutest 10 months old baby. Nafeesa, her name. Nafeesa is an Arabic word. Derived from a word - Na Fa Sa. Means - breath or breathe (Nafas). Breath is something really valuable. Something we can’t live without it. So is my Nafeesa to me.

By the way, yes i migrated. Specifically in Germany. More specific, i can’t tell lah. Privacy. My husband currently working here and we have no intention to go back to Malaysia for good. We just, start a new whole life here. Only three of us.

Alhamdulillah for that opportunity. It’s kinda privileged for us. But it’s not an easy option either. We miss our family and Malaysian foods most of the time (the reason why i am such a great cook now cuz we don’t have mamak stall or kedai akak karipap tepi jalan here) - need to cook everything from scratch.

However, i still get updates on whatever happening in my home land. From Abah Yidin to Ismail Sabri. From politics to rancak rancak berdosah, all i know. I get the updates. In fact, i still tweeted and posted stuffs like i am in Malaysia now.

I hope amazing things found you guys today. Like how it found me. I may be not the same Sherry like i was years ago. But still carry the same baggage of loves and hopes.

Take care, toodles.

[naderdawah]

وَلَا تَحْسَبَنَّ الَّذِينَ قُتِلُوا فِي سَبِيلِ اللَّهِ أَمْوَاتًا ۚ بَلْ أَحْيَاءٌ عِندَ رَبِّهِمْ يُرْزَقُونَ

And never think of those who have been killed in the cause of Allah as dead. Rather, they are alive with their Lord, receiving provision,

فَرِحِينَ بِمَا آتَاهُمُ اللَّهُ مِن فَضْلِهِ وَيَسْتَبْشِرُونَ بِالَّذِينَ لَمْ يَلْحَقُوا بِهِم مِّنْ خَلْفِهِمْ أَلَّا خَوْفٌ عَلَيْهِمْ وَلَا هُمْ يَحْزَنُونَ 

Rejoicing in what Allah has bestowed upon them of His bounty, and they receive good tidings about those [to be martyred] after them who have not yet joined them - that there will be no fear concerning them, nor will they grieve.

يَسْتَبْشِرُونَ بِنِعْمَةٍ مِّنَ اللَّهِ وَفَضْلٍ وَأَنَّ اللَّهَ لَا يُضِيعُ أَجْرَ الْمُؤْمِنِينَ

They receive good tidings of favor from Allah and bounty and [of the fact] that Allah does not allow the reward of believers to be lost -

[yunusaziz]

"Ada waktu menyendiri yang begitu indah, dimana engkau tidak bermaksud membenci siapapun, atau berhenti untuk mencintai, engkau juga tidak bermaksud menjauhi siapapun, engkau hanya ingin lebih dekat dan memahami dirimu sendiri.'

Ada saat-saat dimana kesunyian dan kesendirian adalah waktu yang teramat indah. Waktu dimana semua poros pikiran, perasaan dan raga yang kamu miliki hanya berfokus untukmu, hanya dirimu seorang. Dan disaat itu, perlahan kamu mengenali dan memahami dirimu kembali.

Adakalanya, waktu yang demikian itu memang tercipta bukan tanpa sebab, melainkan hadir karena suatu keadaan yang mendorong bahkan memaksamu untuk berada dalam posisi itu. Mungkin akibat dikecewakan, kehilangan, atau bahkan ditinggalkan. Ataupun, jika tanpa sebab sekalipun, juga tidak apa jika kamu memilih melakukan itu.

Sekali lagi, tidak apa jika akhirnya kamu memilih untuk mengasingkan diri sejenak. Bukan bermaksud untuk menjauh dari keramaian, atau merasa kalah akan keadaan, hanya saja kamu memang membutuhkannya agar lebih dapat kenal dan dekat dengan dirimu sendiri.

Di masa-masa yang hening itu, coba untuk lebih mengenal siapa dirimu, berkontemplasi atas apa saja yang terjadi, kemudian mengambil hikmah sebanyak-banyaknya dan mendefinisikan ulang atas apa sejatinya yang kamu cari di dalam hidup ini.

Jika kamu masih memiliki kesempatan untuk hidup, maka rawat dan cintailah itu dengan tidak memilih menyerah dan pasrah akan keadaan. Yakinlah, bahwa Tuhan selalu membersamaimu.

[sirapavocados]

My anxiety creeping in again. My head full of what ifs. It’s not helping when you say “it’s just your thoughts. not a reality.” But it does translate my reality, it gonna be a reality one day. My ugly thoughts are real.

Oh to be 28. I miss my late granpa, who i love unconditionally until today. Who i slept on his arm everyday.

Oh there it is, my ugly thoughts again. Oh hi, what ifs.

Grandpa, is it okay if i visit you one day? I miss your arms, your loose, old and wrinkly skins that i pick using tip of my two fingers, because i miss you so much and it’s getting uglier here.

I don’t like my thoughts, i hate the what ifs. There’s no reason why i have to bear this burden.

I miss you, grandpa. Is it okay if you come again tonight?

[sirapavocados]

Benda Terbuku #1

Punyalah penat-penat aku tahan jari daripada komen isu viral terkini aka Abang Tesla dekat mana-mana media sosial, last last dekat media tak berapa nak sosial ni jugak aku nak melepas benda terbuku ni.

Aku taknak komen pasal Abang Tesla sebab aku yakin, seantero waniter waniter di Malaysia bahkan beberapa ketul wanita di Jerman dah maki Abang Tesla, so they literally dah cover every single word of makian cacian daripada kamus kata-kata hodoh hari ini.

Cerita dia, jadi perempuan ni memang takkan pernah menang kan? Ha kau ingat lelaki yang takkan pernah menang sbb ye lah, perempuan mana pernah kalah. Kau silap bebbbb. Perempuan yang takkan menang di dunia ini.

Contoh, Bini Abang Tesla. Boleh jadi sebenarnya dia dah redha dengan takdir hidup dia. Dia terima itulah yang tersurat dan tersirat untuknya. Bermadu. Tapiiii ada ada je yang tak puas hati, kata you don’t know your value la, perempuan bodoh la, sanggup kena pijak la, tak pandai jaga hati sendiri la, kesian hidup macam pathetic la.

Pastu-pastu kalau dia sedih tak redha, atau at least la terguris dengan tindakan suaminya hah pun bercakap. Tak cium bau syurga la, isteri derhaka la, hamba Allah yang menolak sunnah la, tak mentaati keputusan suami la.

Jadi macam mana kesahnya ni? Bini Abang Tesla takkan menang dalam apa apa situasi pun. Yang menang adalah Ahmad Maslan dan resepi resepi Nasi Goreng anehnya. Unbothered dengan isu-isu terkini dan tetaplah memasak di Twitter.

Yang penting kita semua kena chill dan jangan ambik port sangat lah hal orang kot ye macam apa yang aku cuba buat tapi tak berjaya ni. Manusia lah kata kan.

[hatin]

via weheartit

[sirapavocados]

Adulting sucks. I hate it when i finally understand everything, that makes me hate everyone and everything.

[thenordroom]

A Vintage Colorful Family Home in the Swedish Countryside

[sirapavocados]

akak.. betui ke tumblr lama akak kisah dari syurga? kak syerr.. srs la u are?

Hi yes here i am ! I’m Kak Sherry 🥰

[mossmosss]

[expressions-of-nature]

by Frank Paul Silye

[wetheurban]

WE THE URBAN

[cynthia-viv-deactivated20240204]

“I am a child with an old soul. I see magic in everything. But at the same time , everything tires me because I feel everything so very deeply.”

–Juansendizon

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“Be confident. Too many days are wasted comparing ourselves to others, wishing to be something we aren’t. Everyone has their own strengths and weaknesses. It is only when you accept everything you are, and aren’t, that you will truly succeed.”

— Unknown

[slowlikehoney1996]

actually the secret to happiness is finding a good perfume and wearing it all the time

[hungwy]

oh god im responsible for me

[untexting]

Isn’t it weird how we basically have an endless mental conversation with ourselves?