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(n.) - a love returned in full
feat. childe
w.c. : 5.2 k
warnings : nsfw , f!reader , entirely self-indulgent lol , very very soft. like excruciatingly soft.
note : hbd to the literal love of my life :salute: i was going to write something out of pocket, but i'm a big baby and need lots of fluff so lol enjoy being loved by tartag three years in a row
Throughout the time dating your boyfriend, Childe has always been one hell of a lover to you. He has been nothing but understanding and kind; whenever you told him to give you some space while you pondered your own feelings for him or needed time to yourself, he had always nodded his head and promised you that he would be there for you should you ever called him.
And Childe always came through when you did call for him.Â
He was patient with you as you figured out what you wanted in your relationship with him and how you felt specifically for him, never rushing you when you took some time to finally tell him that you loved him and only began to get clingy with you when you finally reciprocated his feelings.Â
He loved you so much and you could feel it with every action he showed you.
And you wanted to show him how much you appreciate him with a cake made with love just for him. Your idea was big and grand; a heart cake with a cute whale on top decorated with cute stars and a moncerous caeli, his constellation, hidden somewhere on the cake.
However, due to your lack of baking ability and patience, your frosting wasnât working correctly and⊠well.
Your heart beats rapidly against your chest seeing the lump of blue frosting melting ontop of your cake. The base was decently done, the light blue frosting wasnât perfectly even but it was smooth enough and that was all that you needed. However, the decorative blue frosting for the whale had not set properly and Childe was due to visit any time soon.Â
With a knife, you carefully scoop off the blue lump and try again in hopes of the frosting understanding your panic but your heart breaks once more seeing the blob fall onto your base. Just as you begin to try again, the sound of your door unlocking and opening sends your heart to your stomach. As the door closes and you hear rustling as your guest enters your home, you quickly stand in front of your mess of a cake in a state of panic.Â
He was visiting way earlier than usual.
âSweetheart?â Childeâs voice calls out for you. âAre you home?â
A head of orange curls pokes out from the doorway of your kitchen and immediately a bright smile grows on his face. With quick strides, youâre enveloped into a warm hug; the comforting scent of citrus and the salty breeze of the ocean surrounds you and it was like all of your worries for today just melt away as soon as his arms wrap around you. Childeâs scent, his entire presence, was something you found yourself easily melting into.
The deep ocean stares back at you, the dark seas twinkling lightly as they reflect their affections for you. Itâs a rare sight to see such light in his eyes according to most others, like his short grumpy coworker who always picks a fight with your lover, but youâre glad that the stars reflected in his eyes are a sight reserved only for you to see.
âYouâre wearing my shirtâŠâ he murmurs quietly as he takes in the sight of you. Rough fingers fiddle with the edge of the maroon shirt over your form and he smiles sweetly. A soft kiss is pressed onto your cheek, gentle lips tickling your skin and you fight back a smile as more are firmly pressed along your face. If they had left marks, there would be a freckle of kisses along your visage.
âWhatâs all this?â Childe asks. His chin rests on your shoulder as he peeks over your body, but you reflexively shift your shoulders to shield the mess from his field of view. He attempts again and your head tilts in his way. A soft chuckle is heard beside your ear before his arms hold your body still and he successfully gets a view of the cake behind you, much to your dismay.Â
âI was trying to make you a cake, but the decorating isnât going as plannedâŠâ You murmur softly, eyes averting his gaze when he glances back to you. You couldnât bear to meet his eyes knowing the state of his cake. âDonât laugh, I know itâs ugly right now.â
Youâre fully expecting your boyfriend to tease you for the misshapen cake you decided to dedicate to him; itâs not unusual for the two of you to bicker and poke fun at one another. It was something that you loved about your relationship, but this was something you really tried your hardest on and if he made fun of you for this you were sure to start crying in front of him.Â
A burning sensation begins to build in your eyes as you prepare for your loverâs remark.
âOh, my beloved,â Childe coos. A gentle hand cups your jaw and guides your face in his direction; your eyes hesitantly meet his gaze and you want to cry even more with the way he looks at you. Thereâs nothing but affectionate warmth in his gaze as he takes in your gift before glancing back at you. âWhy would I laugh at something you gifted me?â
You shrug and he softly chuckles beside you. You feel his lips press firmly onto the side of your cheek and your skin burns at the act.Â
âYou worked hard to make me a gift even if you didnât need to, which is more than I could ever ask for,â Childe whispers lovingly into your ear. With another fond kiss to your head, your lover pulls away from your shared embrace.Â
âCan I kiss you?â
Childeâs voice is soft, a contrast from your usual confident lover. The strong, powerful honed soldier fit to serve the Tsaritsa and the Tsaritsa only was now hesitantly asking you to do something intimate. You exhale softly at how youâve gotten this powerful weapon of war wrapped around your finger and you wonder just what it was about you that he loved so much.
You couldnât even get a proper answer out; as soon as you nod your head a pair of lightly chapped lips press onto yours. The kiss was very gentle and sweet. So many words of love and affection were poured into that simple kiss, every tender movement causing your heart to soar in your chest. His hand gently squeezes your hand, a small reminder that he was experiencing this intimate moment with you, and you sigh from his touch.
You love him so much.
As you pull away from him, your eyes immediately meet his gaze and it only sends your nerves into more of a frazzled mess. If youâve never been swept away by a heavy tide and pulled underneath the unforgiving undertow to be engulfed in the ocean, you might as well have experienced that now with the way your boyfriend was staring at you. Love was evident in his gaze, but with the dark blue engulfing his irises you knew there was something more brewing.Â
With a short glance to your lips, Childe leans forward again to press his lips on yours. However, this time his kiss conveyed a different emotion than the previous one. Compared to the innocence of the other one, this one screamed of desperation and need. As his lips move hungrily over yours, you groan and grip onto the kitchen counter as he pushes into you. However, your boyfriend pulls away when you suddenly wince from the tile digging into your back.Â
You donât get a chance to question his motives before strong arms lift you from the ground and onto the counter. The cool temperature of the kitchen tiles contrast to the heat of the moment and you shudder in excitement, which only causes Childe to smile at your reaction.Â
âWhat are you thinking about?â he asks, slipping between your legs and once more leaning into your body. As if on instinct, your arms loosely wrap around his shoulders to pull him closer to you. You shrug and avert your eyes playfully to the side as he leans in to press a kiss at the juncture of your neck beneath your ear.Â
âNothing much, just how much I love you,â you respond with a small laugh. Childe hums beside you before pulling away to stare into your eyes again. Thereâs a playful sparkle in his eyes, but itâs dwarfed by the amount of the warmest, most serene ocean blue that lull you in a comfort that you can only find with the man in front of you.Â
âI would argue that thatâs a bigger deal than youâre making it out to be.â He chuckles, rough and calloused hands resting on your waist as he pulls you into him. His lips find yours again, the same desire to love you and show his affections for you clear as day the more he kisses you. With a gentle prod at your bottom lip, his tongue slips into your mouth and explores everything that he can touch. Your hand runs through his orange curls and lightly grip his hair, groaning as his tongue slips over your own.
This only excites Childe further; itâs not his fault that youâre so sweet to him and have the cutest reactions when heâs giving his love to you. He wants to show you what you mean to him after going out of your comfort zone just for his sake.Â
Childe pulls away from the kiss, but his lips never stray from you. They trail kisses along your neck as his fingers undo the buttons of his maroon shirt draping over your body. A sigh escapes your lips and your own fingers play with the ginger curls at the base of his neck. His tongue gently laps at your skin as his lips gently caress the area after and-
âChilde!â you yelp as you as his teeth playfully nip your skin. His lips curl into a smile that you most definitely can feel as he gently kisses your neck as an apology.
âSorry, dear,â Childe murmurs, but he certainly doesnât feel an ounce of remorse. Calloused fingers slide the maroon shirt off of your shoulders and the cooler temperature of the kitchen surrounds your entire being. Blue eyes are taking in your appearance, and you know thereâs something brewing in the deep blue abyss as his eyes slowly stare down your body.Â
Soon after, you can feel his hands explore the expanse of your exposed torso, running over your skin and curvature of your body. Itâs like heâs mapping out the way your body feels from the way heâs touching you; thereâs no inch of skin left untouched. Childeâs lips find yours again as he kisses you ardor, pouring every bit of love he has for you in the movement of his lips.
âW-wait,â you stammer breathlessly, pulling away from your lover when you feel his rough fingers slip under your bra strap. Heâs fiddling with the clasp as his eyes meet your gaze. You can tell he was close to just letting his desires take control of him from the way heâs looking at you.
âWhat is it, sweetheart?â Childe asks. He tilts his head forward to press a kiss along your jaw.
âShouldnât I be the one kissing you?â You ask him, gently pushing away so that your eyes can meet once more. You give him a small smile as your fingers gently tickle the back of his neck. âItâs not fair for you to be in charge on your birthday; why donât you relax while I love you?â
Childe can feel his heart soaring from the mere suggestion. Of course, he would never turn down any request from you, especially if it was a request to have your lips all over his body and hopefully around his dick. But, as much as he loved the idea, he had other plans in mind that he needed to do to you.Â
Itâs not his fault that you made it so easy to love you.
With a shake of his head and a quick movement from his fingers, your bra is unclasped and slipped off of your shoulders. A gasp escapes your lips as your chest is bare in front of your lover, though you know he is very much enjoying the view in front of him.Â
âNot tonight,â Childe responds with an amused smile. His lips trail down your skin, soft kisses leading to your chest as rough hands gently run over your breasts. âLet me enjoy you as my gift tonight, darling.â
He doesnât even let you respond to him as his lips press a gentle kiss at your nipple. His tongue swirls around the sensitive nub while his hand gropes at the breast left unattended. Your body shivers at his touch and you canât help the blood rising to your face at his affections. Of course, youâre slightly embarrassed at having all of his attention on you on his special day even after making a mess of a cake for him. It should be you kissing him, trailing kisses down his body and worshiping him until all he could see were the galaxy of stars that shone the brightest the minute he was born.Â
You breathe out his name in a soft whisper before Childe detaches himself from your chest. His thumbs brush over your nipples as his hands cup and squeeze your breasts. He smiles, licking his lips in a manner that sends a pleasant shudder down your spine.Â
âYouâre so beautiful,â Childe murmurs before leaning forward once more to kiss you. You hum in his kiss, groaning softly as his tongue parts your lips once more as he takes in your taste again and again. His hands slide down your body and his fingers find their way to the button of your shorts. With deft fingers, your button is swiftly undone and you lift your hips to help slide them off.Â
âYouâre one to talk, âJax,â you quip back at him when he finally pulls away from the kiss, but your slightly playful demeanor when you feel his fingers brush past your clothed core. Your breath hitches and you can feel the smile on his lips when he kisses at the juncture of your neck. His name leaves your mouth in a soft whisper and your fingers cling to his shoulders.Â
âHm, what was that?â Childe chuckles softly when your body twitches as his finger presses into your clothed clit. Your huff of air clearly entertaining your boyfriend as he gently massages your sensitive bud through the thin fabric of your underwear. Your body shudders again as you close your eyes to his touch, your fingers burying themselves into his orange sea of curls as you try to ground yourself.Â
âSh-shut up,â you stammer out with a gentle yank of his hair. He only laughs softly in response and gently kisses your neck. Your breathing gets heavier with each movement of his fingers as he gently teases and prods at your clit and you can feel the pleasure building up. Your hips squirm on the kitchen counter as you try to grind up into his fingers for a bit more pressure; you needed a bit more stimulation than he was currently giving you.
Childe hums beside your ear, gently nipping your earlobe as he feels you shift your hips underneath him. âDo you need some more excitement, dear?â he muses. His fingers, however, slowly stop their pleasurable massage on your clit and your eyes widen at the cease of movement. He pulls away from you, his deep blue eyes an abyss of desire as he stares into your eyes. Thereâs a playful smirk on his lips as he glances at your lips and then meets your gaze once more. âThereâs no need to rush; we have all day to enjoy the moment, and I want to take my time enjoying my birthday gift.â
He presses a tantalizing kiss at the crook of your neck before trailing slow, agonizing kisses down your body. You want to tell him to hurry up, but your voice fails you. Can anyone blame you when your lover was purposefully teasing you in the best way possible?
Your breath hitches when his lips finally meet the band of your underwear and it suddenly dawns on you what heâs going to do. Instinctively, your knees attempt to close so he doesnât get a view of you down there, but, much to your dismay, his hands firmly hold your legs open.
âChilde,â you begin, but your words get caught in your throat when his eager fingers slip underneath the band of your panties and slide them down your legs. You donât even get a chance to protest before you feel his lips kissing lower and lower until-
Your hips twitch and you let out a sweet noise when Childe kisses your clit. Your hand automatically comes up to cover your mouth knowing what he was about to do. With your fingers clinging to the kitchen counter and your mouth muffled, you moan softly as his tongue laps at your sensitive bud. The wet muscle swirls around the nub, lips kissing and sucking on it as you try your best to hang onto whatever amount of sanity you had left. The pleasure was building in your stomach and throughout your nerves as it washes over your body in gentle waves.Â
A breathy cry leaves your lips when you feel him move even lower; his tongue licks a stripe up your folds and you can feel his mouth vibrate at your core as he savors your taste. You can only say his name once before his tongue delves into your pussy. Immediately, your hands fly to his head, fingers burying themselves into his ginger curls and your thighs squish around his head.Â
You can feel him chuckle against you and then rough, calloused fingers firmly grip your thighs and pry your legs apart. The wet, soppy sound of his mouth suctioned to your cunt as his tongue thrusts into you is all you can hear while he eats you out. Thereâs the occasional groan from your boyfriend as your hand pushes his face deeper into your hips or when your hips grind up to meet his tongue, but regardless of what you hear your head is spinning as his stimulation overwhelms you.
Childe pulls away from your pussy only to press a kiss onto your clit again, one of his hands lets go of your plush thighs as he slips a finger into you. Youâre panting heavily at this point and your grip on his hair tightens. The burning white pleasure is building even more as his finger thrusts inside your cunt; heâs building a steady rhythm with his meanwhile sucking and kissing your sensitive bud and your head is spinning. You are not going to last any longer if he keeps this up.Â
Another finger slips in and you throw your head back. Itâs hard to keep your mind from going insane with the way he brushes against that sweet spot. You canât see him, but you can feel him smiling from underneath you and his fingers brush that spot again and again, massaging it until the heat in your body nearly explodes.
Heâs so mean, but you canât bring it in you to tell him to stop. Not when it feels so excruciatingly good.
âCh-Childe,â you stammer out in between moans, your chest heaving as you try to catch your breath.
Your boyfriendâs thumb gently rubs your thigh while the fingers that were pressing into your sweet spot over and over increase in intensity. The sloppy sound of his mouth sucking on your clit and the gentle rake of his teeth over the sensitive skin is enough to send you over the edge. The pleasure is building up so fast and your fingers bury deep into his hair as you practically shove him into your pussy.Â
Were you suffocating him? Could he even breathe?
You didnât care. All that was on your mind was the overwhelming white pleasure that burns through your body, crashing over your entire being as your hips ride into his face. His free hand grips your thighs as your legs tighten around his neck to pull him closer to your body while his fingers buried deep inside your walls help you ride out your orgasm.Â
His name is the only word that spills out of your lips in a slurred and breathy mantra as the waves of your orgasm wash over your nerves.
As you cool down from the high of your climax, Childe gently slips his fingers out of your sensitive pussy. His hands pry open your shaking legs and you can see the twinkle of his eyes as he watches you, completely breathless, on the kitchen counter.Â
You nearly cum again when your boyfriend locks eyes with you and licks his fingers clean.Â
âYou taste so sweet, love,â Childe coos, turning his head and pressing his lips against your inner thigh. He showers small kisses against your skin gently and your body shivers underneath his touch. âIf I could, I would spend all day just eating you out until all I can taste is your pussy on my tongue for the rest of my life.â
You can feel your ears burning at his dirty words, but you canât deny that it made your stomach somersault at the mere thought.Â
âBut, there are other, more urgent matters that I want to deal with. So, weâll save that idea for next time, okay?â Childe whispers playfully. He presses a final kiss on your thigh before standing up once more. He leans into you; his hands firmly grab at your waist as he pulls you into his body. Your loverâs lips find yours in a kiss as his lips move against yours in fervor.Â
The taste of your cum on his lips melts into your own mouth as his tongue slips into yours, and you groan as Childe presses more into you. His kisses are hungry and rough, almost as if his lust and desire to have you was taking full control of his body at this point. Your fingers cling onto his shoulders as you hold him close to you, savoring the heat of the moment and the passion shared between you two.
Childe whispers your name as he pulls away only for his lips to go straight for your neck. Heâs kissing the skin of your neck, lips suctioning to areas of your skin as his tongue scrapes over the area trapped in his mouth. You sigh breathily, feeling his mouth caress and suck at your skin. You only wince when his teeth graze your skin and bite you once more.Â
But you donât stop him as he leaves love bites onto the expanse of your skin.
Lost in your own bliss and the kisses pressed into your skin, you donât realize what Childeâs doing until you feel something hard press against your pussy. Your eyes slowly open as your turn your head to face your lover; a head of ginger curls is all you see as heâs too busy kissing your neck and fisting his dick as he prepares himself to fuck you.
Your stomach flutters in excitement and your hand slowly reaches down to touch his cock. When your fingers brush against his, you can feel your smile growing seeing his body flinch at your touch.Â
âBabe?â Childe asks. He pulls away from the crook of your neck and you can feel your pussy moisten from the sight of him.Â
Heâs an absolute, horny wreck. His blue eyes are dark, darker than youâve ever seen them and you fear he may have jumped too deep into the pits of the ocean from the way heâs looking at you. Thereâs a glaze over his eyes and his cheeks are flushed from not only eating you out earlier, but from pumping his dick in his hand and the excitement of having your cunt around him.Â
Your heart swells in pride knowing that heâs like this because of you.Â
âLet me do it for you,â you tell him softly, gently removing his hand from his cock as your fingers wrap around it in his stead. âItâs your birthday, at least let me treat you with this.â
Childe lets out a strained groan at your touch, but he doesnât stop you. Instead, he buries his face back into the crook of your neck along with a few kisses sprinkled onto your skin.Â
Immediately, you get to work. Your thumb swipes at the head of his dick and he shivers from the touch; you can feel your smile growing from his reactions to your touch. Your thumb gently massages the tip of his cock, gently coaxing as much precum as you could over the head before your hand begins to slowly pump his dick. Itâs a slow and steady rhythm at first and Childe moans softly into your neck. His hips meet your hand in its pace and you can feel him get harder with each stroke.Â
Childe whispers out your name in a soft moan when you playfully let your finger trail along the shaft of his cock before your hand grasps him once more to line him up at the entrance of your pussy. Your body shudders feeling the tip slip through your folds, the mixture of his precum and your wet pussy making the sensation all the more pleasurable.
âAre you ready?â you whisper to your boyfriend. Your free hand gently runs through Childeâs hair as he pulls away from your neck. His eyes meet yours and your pussy throbs at the pure lust and love in his eyes. A rough hand reaches up to grab yours, bringing it to his lips as he presses a kiss to your knuckles.
âIâm always ready for you, my beloved.â
Childe kisses you again, muffling both of your moans as he presses his hips into yours. His dick slides into your pussy; it brushes up against your walls in the best way possible, each inch digging into you sends waves of pleasure through your body. Instinctively, your legs wrap around his hips as you help push him deeper into your cunt. Your boyfriend laughs softly at your eagerness, pulling away from your lips with an amused smile.Â
âAlready?â
You roll your eyes and yank your hand away from his, but he quickly catches it once more. He intertwines your fingers with a gentle squeeze and a twinkle in his ocean eyes.
âJust shut up and fuck me, âJax.â
Your lover does not need to be told what to do twice. With a quiet âyes, maâam,â Childeâs hips begin a slow and steady rhythm as he grinds into you. As the pleasant sensation of his dick rubbing inside your pussy, you sigh and let your eyes flutter shut; each movement is absolute bliss for you and you donât doubt that Childe feels the same way from the way heâs groaning and panting in your ear.Â
Whispers of praise and love are whispered into your ear the more the pressure builds up between the both of you. Thereâs no rush, no race for the end of the finish line as the both of you revel in the ecstasy shared as your hips meet again and again. Childe gently grabs your chin to tilt your face towards him and his lips hungrily capture your own once more in a heated kiss. Your moans are swallowed by him as he pushes you onto the kitchen counter.
The cool tile presses against your back and you shiver, though it doesnât distract you much considering the gradual increasing intensity of Childeâs hips thrusting into your own. His fingers, still intertwined with yours, squeeze your hand against the kitchen tile as he pulls away from your mouth. His eyes are beautiful as he stares down at you, gaze in a lust-filled haze and lips parted as the most beautiful, sweet moans leave his lips.Â
âYou feel so good; your pussy was made for me,â Childe groans out. He leans forward once more but buries his face back into the crook of your neck. Itâs hard to focus on anything when his hips are slapping against your own, the noises getting louder and wetter the more he pulls his dick out only to slam back into your pussy, and his whines right beside your ear as the pleasure spreads throughout your body.Â
His free hand roughly grabs a hold of your thigh, pulling your body closer to the edge of the counter before pushing your leg up. Itâs a bit of a stretch for you, but god does the angle that heâs hitting you from feel so good. A strangled moan leaves your lips as Childe roughly fucks you, sparks of pleasure rapidly building up in your stomach the more he hits that special, sweet spot that makes you see stars.
âChilde, I-IâmâŠ!â you cry out, fingers grasping the back of his head. You feel him kiss the base of your neck.
âGo on, Iâm close too. Donât hold back now.â
It doesnât take long for you to cum, your second orgasm crashes over you in a huge wave; pleasure engulfs your entire being as your body spasms. Your leg tightly curls around his hip, your head thrown back and back arching. You can hear Childe grunt from beside you as your pussy clenches around his dick as he helps you ride out your orgasm with gentle praise.
You feel his teeth sink into the skin of your shoulder as his hips messily thrust into your own before you feel his movements still and his pelvis buried deep into your own followed by a muffled moan. Both of your chests are heaving and the sound of heavy breathing echoes throughout the kitchen while you both desperately try to catch your breath.Â
After a few quiet moments, Childe pulls away from your neck and gently tilts your head towards him to take a look at you. Youâre sure youâre a mess, but you donât care as you admire your boyfriend as he hovers above you. His hair is a mess, worse than usual from your fingers constantly burying themselves into his ginger sea of curls, and his cute cheeks are flushed from the throes of passion shared just moments prior. His lips are parted as he pants, the corners lifted slightly upwards as his ocean eyes take in your own messy, fucked out expression.
Childe kisses you, peppering soft kisses on your lips and gently around your face.Â
âI love you. I love you so, so much,â he murmurs quietly against your skin and you donât ever doubt what he truly means. His lips press into yours again, causing your heart to flutter in your chest at the simple, yet sweet act of affection.Â
Your heart doesnât stop swelling with the love you held specifically for Childe even as he pulls out of you and helps clean up the mess you made, not even when he playfully asks for another round as you head to the shower to wash up after already going at it just moments before.
You love him, too, and you thank the gods for guiding him to you so that you can love him just as much as he loves you.
(n.) - a love returned in full
feat. childe
w.c. : 5.2 k
warnings : nsfw , f!reader , entirely self-indulgent lol , very very soft. like excruciatingly soft.