Siyah

[siyahcrimsoncorp]

Sometimes I don't understand why I do any of the things I do or say any of the things I say.

[katswenski]

We all struggle to be a good boy sometimes.  My website – My Instagram – See me on Webtoon!

[siyahcrimsoncorp]

I'm just going to leave this here.

So I have lost a friend or two over the week or so. One of them is on here. I just wanted to say that... Regardless if you are friends with them or not, I'm not one for making people choose. I would prefer to have whatever real friends I have, but in order to do that... -_- I need people to realize I'm a fucking human being and I had my own reasons for what I said and did. I would rather not deal with the fact if someone is spreading words about me. Honestly if there is someone trying to cause drama while pasting my name(s) into shit, tell them to fuck off and stop with the drama. If you decide to take their side then I won't care anymore and block you as well.

This is ment to be a fair warning stating I'm done with the shit and that I'm not going to whine and bitch if people leave me. Honestly I don't need toxic people in my life. So if you see or hear anyone talking shit about me you have your options ^^ thank you and have a nice day.

[siyahcrimsoncorp]

Just some things in attempting to make digitally...

[siyahcrimsoncorp]

....happy.... Thanksgiving....

[siyahcrimsoncorp]

I'm not gonna lie ive gotten into the habbit of speaking my mind more often then not... Its sad to know that Hizari gets really no love from anyone besides myself mainly.... And the few people that.... Know/knew about her.... Also ive been taking much of my own time to do as i wish and draw when i feel like it... I do not do requests nor demands... So if i draw something of yours.... Just be glad I put my efforts into drawing it.... I know im not the best... Honestly my self esteem is still so low I would say im the worst at everything.... That's just me...

[siyahcrimsoncorp]

So.... Yes if you want to interact with any of my characters.... Just tell me but I must worn you.... Let me rephrase that I MUST WARN YOU thanks to my past experience I'm only doing text from now on... And I don't really can anymore either way... Thanks to my past experience on here alone... My self esteem was crushed completely so... Yeah I know my art isn't the prettiest out there.... Nor are my characters.... But have some respect. Honestly it physically hurts not to cuss right now.... But I'm trying to be polite as possible.

[siyahcrimsoncorp]

Decisions....

In thinking of not trying to be a part of many things and do ish on my own .-.

I left for a long time and I'm not going to sit around waiting for any interactions and well what feels like complete bull shit... I'm just better off posting my own art and if people like them, okay... If not then good for you :D

[siyahcrimsoncorp]

A song

feeling so pushed aside

don't even know why I try

maybe i don't deserve

maybe just maybe

can someone tell me

is it just me

is it all in my head

or is it something I said

I try so hard and I can't seem

to find people who...

why can't I do those things

why can't I do like you

I try and all I get...

it feels like it ain't worth it

Je ne sais même pas pourquoi j'essaie peut-être que je ne mérite pas peut-être juste peut-être quelqu'un peut-il me dire est ce juste moi est-ce tout dans ma tête ou est-ce quelque chose que j'ai dit J'essaie si fort et je ne peux pas sembler

siento tanto dejar de lado Ni siquiera sé por qué estoy intentando tal vez no merezco tal vez solo tal vez alguien me puede decir es solo yo ¿Está todo en mi cabeza? o es algo que dije Lo intento tanto y no puedo parecer para encontrar personas que ...

感到非常放在一邊 我甚至不知道我為什麼要這麼做 也許我不值得 也許只是可能 任何人都可以告訴我 這只是我 這一切都在我腦海裡 還是我說的話 我努力，我似乎​​無法 找人...... 為什麼我不能做這些事情 為什麼我不能愛你 我嘗試了我得到的一切...... 感覺它不值得

Gǎndào fēicháng fàng zài yībiān wǒ shènzhì bù zhīdào wǒ wèishéme yào zhème zuò yěxǔ wǒ bù zhídé yěxǔ zhǐshì kěnéng rènhé rén dōu kěyǐ gàosù wǒ zhè zhǐshì wǒ zhè yīqiè dōu zài wǒ nǎohǎi lǐ háishì wǒ shuō dehuà wǒ nǔlì, wǒ sìhū​​wúfǎ zhǎo rén...... Wèishéme wǒ bùnéng zuò zhèxiē shìqíng wèishéme wǒ bùnéng ài nǐ wǒ chángshìle wǒ dédào de yīqiè...... Gǎnjué tā bù zhídé

[kirieybean]

♥️|| COMMISSIONS OPEN ||♥️

I’ve been meaning to make a commission board for a while now, but some stuff got in the way.

But hey, I’m opening them up so I can earn a couple bucks for school requirements (cuz my school luvs those)

If yall can pls share this , it’ll help a lot❤️( pls reblog )

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Just gimme a DM if yah want to commision me and we can talk about it :3

And I’ll just chat u my paypal

(Which is my mom’s)(still a kid)

[siyahcrimsoncorp]

LETS FACE IT

I'm never getting any ships. I'm never getting any interactions. Why do I even try? No matter what skill I try I suck at it... I just don't give a fuck anymore.

[pr1nceshawn]

When You’re Bad At Taking Compliments.

[grimshiba-blog]

@forever-stuck-in-the-void

[nolongeractive-willdelete-deact]

THIS LITERALLY SCREAMS ‘US’ IN THIS EFFIN PICTURE OML AKJSHDKLSAJDKLSAJDLKJSA WE PROBABLY WILL DO THIS IF WE EVER MEET IN REAL LIFE.

[insomniadraws-deactivated201810]

@raeartz-official hmm @cookie-kitty

[cookie-kitty-deactivated2017091]

Yep-

[romandraconics]

YE P

[gummiscr1bblez]

@zsoulo

[mercy-run-deactivated20181217]

@soloshikigami @purrfecktlysinful @undertailsoulsex @eiznel @queenofsintale @0netype @idontevenknowwhattoputhereugh @silverryu25 @muskka @sinnyskelle @askellie @magyka13 @azufrosting @cardboardhydrates @ibeta @nsfwsinningsans and much more.

This is you.

[autwism]

@imreallytired12

[trashblog12]

PFFT BUT YOU ARE AMAZING

[goooodbyye-deactivated20190124]

Me and @zamoradraw every time we do a collab XD

[theniceprincess-tnp-reboot]

Me and @charawolfside everytime we talk

[circuc0r3]

@smol-keddy

[krowkatzart]

Either one of us shall give in

IF NOT THEN TO WAR WE SHALL GO

[p0ppy0nii]

@sophia-draws8 @exus-97 @inkrose-101 @thebonemummy @snowy-secret129 @max-the-egg-master uvu🌹💖💖✨✨

[thebonedads-deactivated20210413]

@edgealiedoodles @snowy-secret129 @enetakane518 @max-the-egg-master @kirieybean @differentmusicsketchmug @spacygalaxy @ask-p0ppy

[siyahcrimsoncorp]

Hizari is open for interactions.

The sad TWENTY FOOT tall wolf creature sat in a corner of hell all alone. She wasn't sure if she should talk to others. Would she even fit in? After all she was a cotton candy werewolf thing. She hoped someone would take notice at this point.

[queenbradbury]

omg so yesterday i put a salt line on the pathway to our front door because i was fucking around and my brother was pretending to be a demon

and today we ordered pizza and the salt line was still there

and my brother went outside to sign for the pizza

and the pizzaman refused to step over the salt line, like he almost did and then he backed up and handed my bro the pizza and left; which is pretty ridiculous because it’s far from our door

so a heads up to everyone i’m pretty sure domino’s is actually run by demons??? kind of like how in men in black the post office is run by aliens

[celestialkiri]

[beturbecky]

What if they thought you guys were the demons

[xxstar-bluesxx]

ohmygod

[spider-hands-mannos-deactivated]

plot twist he was just a bunch of slugs in a man costume

[godandgaming]

Which is your favorite? Mine would probably be the Joy-Cons IF THEY FREAKING WORKED! >:c

So my answer is GC lol.

[siyahcrimsoncorp]

Sigh

I have been thinking a lot lately... I have some personal bull shit going on and I'm slowly hating myself more as the days go by... I feel like deleting all of my work and what not then just throwing myself away... I just... I don't know what to do... I feel like I'm beyond help right now... All I ever asked was for help... I've been turned away so many times. I won't lie my mental state isn't getting better at the moment... I'm practically broke and Tuesday I have to be put of the motel I'm staying at... I don't know where I'm going after this and... I just have been feeling so alone and worthless and shit. I'm tired of pretending I'm okay when I'm honestly not... I don't give a fuck if my post gets taken down, but at least I'm getting this bull shit off my chest... And not doing anything stupid...

[thebonedads-deactivated20210413]

Hey I was thinking of making an Ark for Hizari want any of your characters in this ark?

Ummm the depend on what kind of ark your going for love ^^;;; I mostly talk this stuff out in pm's other wise I dont mind to much

[siyahcrimsoncorp]

Its just the beginning of Hizari's adventure?