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self obsessed and self love content. With a sprinkle of spirituality and creative self expression

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I'm open to all possibilities, may I attract the best one

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I realised that I don't want to be in a love relationship with anyone right now.

All I want to do is focus on myself. And love myself first. Learn to live by myself before I learn to live with someone else.

I don't want to get in a relationship with someone else before I'm in a relationship with myself.

The only reason I was crazy about getting into a relationship or in love at first was because everyone around me has been telling me that relationships are a must. That you should be in a relationship. That just because I am single means that I'm in lack because I don't have a relationship.

But being single doesn't mean being in lack.

Being in a relationship doesn't mean you're fulfilled.

Lack and fulfilment does not come from outside objects, titles, people.

It's a characteristic of yourself.

It's about you .

Being single doesn't automatically mean you're fulfilled or lacking. Similarly people in relationships can still be unfulfilled.

Contentment comes from self.

I can be by myself and completely fulfilled and I can exist in the same state even in a relationship.

I don't "have to stay single" or "get into a relationship" in order to experience fulfillment.

I although right now feel like being with myself first . Loving and learning myself before I do the same for someone else.

And whether it be coming from myself and platonic relationships or from romantic relationships, love is love.

I can build intimacy with myself if that is what I'm missing from romance. I can get intimate with myself, with the universe. And I don't need to follow guides or rituals in order to experience intimacy and pleasure. A simple intention followed by some action is enough.

I don't need instagram influencers telling me what to do . I don't want to be told what to do.

I know everything I do is right. Without second guessing.

Trusting my intuition is the best game I ever played cuz I always won

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I can't wait to experience all the great things that my future awaits for me to feel

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I knew beforehand that we'd never last

But the thrill of it had me going

The way you would trigger me

That especially had me rowing

The boat that would eventually fall off the cliff

And I would leave you in it

I know how to heal from a wound that was never mine

Been there, done that, ever since I was a child

Even though I radiate softness and light

It only breaks from toughness

And the dark of the night

Which eventually leads to the morning after

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I never felt so much peace that I am feeling right now, when I was in that situation.

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Falling in love with yourself is the beginning of a life long romance. And this one is never going to end

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And until I find someone new, I will keep on loving myself without having the need to settle for less out of desperation

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You've got to be selfish

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" I don't want my whole life to be an act of letting go, for once I want to hold onto something and never have to let go"

So hold onto yourself.

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Not really. Your whole life is indeed an act of letting go. You cannot even hold onto yourself completely. Because change is the only constant. And you have to let go of something in order for it to be replaced with something new and better. So whether it's people, places, objects, experiences or versions of your own self. You have to let go. And maybe somewhere along the way, you realize when you're old and grey that there has been one thing that you never had to let go off

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I'm not alone. I'm in alignment

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It shouldn't be perfect. It should be aligned

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" I don't want my whole life to be an act of letting go, for once I want to hold onto something and never have to let go"

So hold onto yourself.

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I'm the most beautiful I have ever seen. I'm not a person or an object. I'm an energy

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I want to live my life in secret. Nobody needs to know where I'm going or what I'm doing. I'm just doing my own thing, thank you.

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I want myself. I want nothing else. If I've got me, I have everything.

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Talk to god. Talk to the trees

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I'm studying to gain knowledge. Not to chase validation. I'm true to myself and my values. I don't study to chase but I study to have wisdom and knowledge. That is more like myself than I ever will be.