You know, I've often received negative comments, condemnation and even wishes for the same thing to happen to me as his victims. People only look at the facts, the headlines, what's left in history, but they don't know what this boy meant to me personally.
You don't know how many times, in the most difficult moments, he helped me not give up. You don't know how much strength I found when it seemed I had none left. Perhaps for many, he was just a name that evoked hatred, fear or disgust. But for me, he became something more - a person who, without even realizing it, helped me through the darkest periods of my life.
Yes, he's long been dead. Yes, I didn't know him personally, just like he didn't know me. Years have passed and nothing can be changed. But sometimes a person's presence doesn't disappear with their death. Some people live on in our thoughts, memories and the impact they once had on us.
In my life, people have always come and gone, promises have been forgotten and trust has often turned into disappointment. But he has remained by my side all these years, if not physically, if only in my thoughts. And in the darkest periods of my life, when I felt like I couldn't cope anymore and saw no point in moving on, at the very end, I thought of him. Not of myself, not of my parents, not of what would happen next, but of the person who somehow became my support when no one else was there.
When I was feeling down, when I felt lost and alone, it was thoughts of him that gave me the strength to move on. And so, every time someone wishes me pain or mocks my attachment, I feel sad. Not because their words hurt me, but because people judge what they don't understand.
You may not share my feelings. You may not agree with me. But before you judge, try to consider this: behind every story lies something much more personal than it seems from the outside. Sometimes, the person the whole world hates may actually be the one who once helped someone else survive.
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